I’m not saying I should be dead because of my depression but what I am saying is that why am I depressed… Apparantly depression runs in my family. I just happen to be the person who catches a severe case -.- … FML … anyway it wasn’t bad until the 6th grade when me and my x had a 4 yr relationship ( I know to young for love at the time but still ) we broke up and thats when I started to cut and think of suicide. And on top of all that I have anger issues when it comes to certain things… I’m paranoid […]
I can’t deal with this pathetic feeling anymore i’m tired of crying myself untill i get tired then i just fall asleep wishing to never wake up again, i hate hate hate hate this pathetic thing called life, what is the point of having a physical disability, what is the point of being in a fucken wheelchair for 6 full years, what is the point of being a 17 year old messed up teenager, what is the point of cutting and self harm, what is the point of being suicidal, what is the point of hoping for something that may never happen, what is the […]
I want to die, i just want to stop being . I’m not depressed in the truest sense but i’m not really anything either way- i have no personality, i have no self, no opinions on anything, no emotions, no moods, very few legitimate interests, no identity, no mind, no soul- when i speak it’s like the words just blurt out of my mouth without any filtering done in advance.Â
 I am just a zombie robot or robot zombie, whatever you want to call it, who was brought to this world for no reason whatsoever. My ambitions are shaky, embarrasingly uncertain and fluctuating, floundering,  and are often just totally absent.  I often spend huge chunks of […]
in my life i did alot of things. i cut myself and i tryed to strave myself and my friends just diched me. i want to talk to someone who has a life like mine and who been threw whaat i been threw in my life. the other thing that happend in my life is a tryed to kill myselff i no some people say not to do it you will go to hell and stuff but i just dont beilve that kinda stuff i mean if i kill myself i just die thats it…talk to me if you have the same way i think;) […]
I need some ********, and quick. I’m going on a trip to Zion this (presidents day)weekend, where i would perfer to end my life. I live in San Diego, and although i’ve read that ******** is “easy” to acquire in TJ,that doesnt seem to be the case. I know one of you has some, so come on, help a brother out.
Does anyone in the uk know what happens to a suicide vic’s body? I’m seriously getting close to suicide now but I live alone and don’t have £1000s sat in my bank account. I have no family (not seen or spoken to in many years) I guess my body will be found when it smells to bad or the bank repo’s my house! Anyway I guess the house and car will be taken away but who will pay for my funeral? Can I leave instructions to make sure noone will be able to attend the funeral? Also will someone need to I’d my body? Who […]
I have the answer to everything, guys, the reason you all have to live for. Â 🙂
I first realized when I was about halfway through high school and a couple years later when I took a psyc class I was able to clarify the ideas more. Â For some, this may be amazingly profound and forever change your life for the better. Â Others may not quite understand. Â Yet others may even know this already or have grown past the need for such beliefs.
Enough disclaimers, here is my secret formula to starting your life:
Basically, just do whatever you feel like. Â Let your id rule you.
Ignore consequences. Â Treat others […]
All I want to know is why I can’t be like everyone else. Â It’s not like I want to be the same as someone in particular or even conform to some kind of code; I just want to be able to relate, but I simply can’t.
Almost the entire time I was in high school my parents forced me to see therapists at least once, usually more, each week and numerous different psychologists from time to time. Â None of these professionals were ever really able to say what might be wrong with me or help me make it better. Â A lot of the time I really […]
Hey guys. God, I’ve missed yall. The last time I was on here was before Christmas I think. So much stuff has been going on lately that I don’t even know where to start. Well, I guess what I came on to say, is that right now, I’m supposed to be having an awesome time hanging with my “friends.” I’m having a party right now, but I’m the only one awake. Even before they fell asleep, I wasn’t here. I was just invisible. Not sure why I’m telling you all this, especially considering how unimportant it is compared to all the crap that’s been going […]
I’ve wanted to cease living since I was about 9? The first knowledge of suicide I had, at 7, seemed appealing for a second only because my mom still hadn’t tried apologizing for not showing up, nor did she try contacting at all. I don’t think I even have the energy to even explain why the prospect of suicide still hangs in the back of my mind, more prominent than I’d like to admit, but it’s all relevant. I hate putting the few I have through knowing me any longer. I’m miserably horrible to be around. I make them feel awkward, because I tell them […]
I love it how people can come on this site and share their life story with us but still judge us by our posts. WTF DO YOU KNOW!? I may not be telling everyone everything on here. You don’t even know me and you’re JUDGING me by the first few posts you find? If you really understood and could “relate” then maybe you should shut your god damn mouth and let us be. YEAH, LIFE IS REAL FUCKIN BORING. How the hell do you know that’s the only reason some of us are hurting, dying inside, etc. What the hell do you know about us […]
I really hate life. and hate is a strong word. I have my reasons. and it may just be because I am depressed. But there are reason why I am depressed. I have suicidal ideation’s.. and well. fuck life. I’m dumb.
I’m repeating the leaving cert in Ireland and I’m thinking a lot about killing myself…. I just got suspended for a bullshit reason (two lads were using my boxing gloves to fight each other… and I got blamed :/) they were after me for a while now and finally got me with somthing… I feel very jealous of these guys cus they always get off scott free where as I get fucked over by the vice principal. I hate my life and Im going nowhere… I beat myself up in a classroom yesterday and the counsiller walked right past, saw me , and walked away. Noone gives a fuck really… […]
This post is going to be longer than I thought! Sorry. Before I begin pouring out my own feelings, I thought I’d touch upon the site itself. Reading through the posts here, I can’t help but feel as if I can relate. It’s only natural I suppose. It’s just so sad to see so many people hurting and this website is their outlet.
However, I noticed some of the entries I read here actually made me a tad bitter or angry. I felt insensitive for a few posters here who, in my eyes, seemed like they were simply whining and ungrateful for their gift of life […]
and I think killing myself would be best for everyone. I bing drink and when I do I beome promiscous and cannnot stop. I hurt myself a few months ago badly and I just feel helpless.Â
It is destroying my replationship and if I killed myself, at least my partner would not have to worry about this anymore. I know it is tearing him up.
I am not making much sense. I am sober now, but binged last night.
This is my story too my baby girl who i grew up with, who took her life after she had called me two days before hand. I will forever love you, Gabrielle.
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It all started 3 months ago. I met a guy and we started talking. we laughed and cried and had fun with each other. We both had so much in common. I instatently fell for him and he fell for me. It was like we were the same person. He was my best friend. My life was happy again because before i met him i was depressed and lonely and had nobody to go to, but he made it all better. he lite up my world. It was real love I knew because ive never felt as happy as i was when i was with […]
I don’t want to burm the memory of me dead into my family members brains so i’m planning to go deep into the woods and shoot myself. I will leave a note in my room for whoever gets the it to call 911 and give them the coordinates to where i am (so they won’t go looking for me themselves). One kind of major flaw in this plan is that i don’t have a gun nor do i know how to procure one. I’d also have to figure out the coordinates. : ( This sounded better in my head.
I can’t do regular schooling, so I’m doing online school. But see, here’s my problem. If I do that, I already know that I’m going to lose all of my friends. The guy I like won’t be around. And not just that, but I only have three years left of school. I have no time left to be…what I am. My mind is in so many different places, robotics, being a robot, aliens… But its not on school. I’m going to fail more at life in the next three years than I ever will. I hate my life, I hate myself, I my decisions, and […]
Last night, I’d had enough, I was tired, upset and suicidal. My family were pissing me off, I kept going off into my own world and if they spoke to me, and I didn’t reply they’d get angry and throw insults at me. I never expect my family to understand how I plan my life out, or how they expect me to do well, because they don’t agree with who I’ve chosen, who I want to be with or my future career with horses. Yeah, I’m a horse rider, I’ve been told I’ll go far, I have natural talent and that I’m a talented […]