http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=CmyUkm2qlhA
hope this brightens up your day 🙂
38+ years without hope. How much longer must I endure this pain?
Call It Love. Call It Lies. Call it anything you like.
Weed and cigarettes being a dealer for my “friends”.
I’m now bi and have no one that cares about me more then a friend.
i hate myself.
all of my friends are “worried” or dont care about me.
my mom calls me a slut my dad still trusts me…barely.
i need help please.
all of my problems on a list would go on forever.
Call It Love. Call It Lies. Call it anything you like.
-amethyst.com@gmail.com
Let me be honest since I’m on a website and nobody knows me. My name is Jake I am 15 and live in Oklahoma. I am a diaper lover and have always been that way. I have this need to wear diapers. It just gives me a Wenceslas of comfort that I never received from my parents. My mother has congestive heart failure and progressive ms. I love my parents very much, but this is the part wher I contradict myself. My father is abusive both emotionally and physically, he likes to talk about how he can’t wait for my mother to die. My mother […]
Do you ever feel lost? Like theres no where else to go? like your running out of places to hide your feelings? In reality i have everyone, but inside; i’m lonely.
And, i just don’t know what to do about it, what i can do about it.
Save me while you can cause;
~imstillbreathing.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=BzSCsfbj5p4&feature=fvst
just listen, this song is amazing. I hope it helps make someone feel better 🙂
Anybody just want to talk? Kind of bored and kind of lethargic atm… I’m here if anybody wants advice or just wants to talk. email me? cutecopper19@hotmail.com
I have been reading posts for a couple weeks now and it is so sad that there are so many young people on here in so much pain. I am 37 and have always had some depression but nothing like the last couple months. In November I decided I wanted to end it all so I have decided to do it at the end of this month. It has been a challenge waiting that long but didnt want to ruin the holidays for the family and also wanted to see my dad one last time which I am doing next week. Why do I want […]
I’ve struggled with depression and substance abuse since I was at least thirteen years old. It all seemed to have a purpose back then. I’m not normal, I’ll just make that clear right now, I have always seen things differently, whatever that means. I am an unaccomplished musician, an unaccomplished writer, and sick to death of spending each day working a trade with guys twice my age. I’m turning twenty seven in a week or so, the age I had originally set out to end my life assuming I was a big rock star by that time, well what happened? I’ll tell you, I’ve smoked […]
My quick life story my brothers have broken my arms, damaged my skull,my parents got a divorse and i feel like the worlds out to get me.
and now the two people that i feel are good friends turned their back on me. The girl i love hates me cause my good friend pissed me off and i already got some suicidal already and now this. My whole school seems like everyone hates me and hopes i die so all i need is some help from all you people who have a way with being happy after all of this.
ok about my brothers they were […]
I’m tired. I’m tired of trying, crying, sighing, giving, caring and most of all living. I have been on this earth 26 years, I am very unattractive and very undesirable. All my nieces and nephews are enjoying relationships while I sit alone. I have no job and I quit school as well. So I look to just end it all. I no longer wish to live in a world that wasn’t made for me. They say that all men are created equal but then why was I born? Its hard to live knowing that you will always fail, always be alone. So I have made […]
Why does it feel like, when i do one simple thing wrong, then the world is going to end?
my mistakes will haunt me, i have nobody to talk too, atleast about. i’m afraid they will turn on me, like i was never there. maybe one day somebody will understand, i just hope i can make it to that day, and if i can’t, then that’s okay.
;until then,
~imstillbreathing.
I never would have thought i would be writing a post like this one. December was the hardest month of my life. I was so sad in December…A lot of bad things successively happened to me. I was so down that i even considered suicide! God was i stupid… now i realize that i was going through a TEMPORARY problem… thank god i did not do anything stupid.
My family has shown me over and over again how much they love me and care for me. I am a lucky girl. I think i was so down because i just wanted to feel loved by my […]
The love. The joy. The happiness.. it is all gone now.. i have only a small amout of love in my heart left.. my heart is black.. it feels like its being stabed over and over again.. i just want to crawl into bed and never leave.. i want to sleep.. thats it.. all i want to do is get out of deer park and sleep.. i cant take this anymore.. and if one more person says that im being dramatic.. i will slit my throat right infront of them… im so sick of no one bleieving me. “oh cyndi cut the crap” “oh cyndi […]
last night had to be the worst night ive ever had. and ive had some bad nights. tuseday after school I was supost to be in extra help for science but i was so upset i didnt go. Instead i spent and hour walking around the school crying. i dont know where in the building i was cuz i was out of it. but i just cried and cried. i ended up in the auditorium at the last 5 min of extra help.. i sat there and cried some more. then the bell rang and i whiped my tears calmed down and walked outside. i didnt […]
Back before i had a computer of my own that i could keep private thoughts in, i wrote in a notebook. I simply put down notes like we do on this board. I still have this notebook as it offers an amazing look at what i was thinking at some of my worst times….there’s even bits of blood on some parts.
Here is a note i opened up too at random
Every day it feels more like am loseing touch with reailty, everything feels like a dream. Am walking to the store and i think “If i get hit by a car right now will i […]
im the quiet guy that doesn’t speak unless spoken to, and even then is very short. i don’t want attention, i dont want to talk, i just want to be left alone. ive been down this road before. done the whole hospital, doctor, therapist, medicine routine. last time i even had electro convulsive therapy. ive been doing all that since i was 14. 8 years of wishing i was dead and 2 attempts later, im still here. most would say that its a good thing, so why do i regret not taking more? i just want to fade away quietly. i want it to be […]
This is my first real attempt at posting anything of this nature online, so bear with me.
On the outside I’m this very bubbly, cheerful person, one who constantly smiles and tries to cheer everyone up. You wouldn’t think I was the type that underwent depression if you met me. In fact, a part of me still denies that I’m depressed or capable of suicidal thoughts. And yet, deep down, I feel dead inside and these days, I just want to sleep.
I’ve no idea where this emptiness began, perhaps during my last years of high school? For years, though, the emptiness didn’t matter. I had my […]
there’s really only one thing I wish for in my life. I just wish that I could make someone’s life better in any way, shape, or form. So far, with pretty much everyone in my life I’ve been a burden. But I will do anything to help someone out, make them feel better, make their lives easier. I would do things not because I wanted to, but rather because I wanted to see that person happy, even if it was for a moment. Yet, the most important person in my life isn’t benefiting from this. I am not happy making everyone else happy. I used […]