I’m bored, tired, and I really need help. Can someone help me? :'(

I had a normal life. Everything close to perfect. I grew up with the largest dreams. Im 17 now a lot different than I was when I was younger. So many things have change.Well here’s how I think my depression grew(yes grew because everyone has depression some time in their life) I was a freshmen in highschool it was perfect. I loved it. I fell for this girl. She was a grade below me. She was so sweet and just was my entire world(I never had a girlfriend before then) She said that she loved me too. We would talk day and night about […]

I’m from Germany and currently it’s 1:22 am. (Btw, you’ll notice that English is not my first language. I’m 14 (Yeess, searching for excuses )The new year started aawwwessommee! But first I wanted to tell you the background. I have two older sisters, both of them moved out a long time ago. Okay, actually they got expelled from home. They didn’t say something like “you should leave now”. No, my father hit them. I can’t remember much; I was like 4 or 6 or so… But I remember on thing clear, my sister screamed and lied on the floor, my father would stand in front […]

I don’t really hear about trains much when searching for suitable methods. I have certainly come across suicides relating to an individual jumping on the subway tracks, but this is not really what I’m talking about. It seems messy and uncertain, particularly due to the fact that if your jump in front of a train pulling into the station it is comming to a stop, not to mention the fact that subway trains [in my city at least] don’t seem to go that fast to begin with [not compared to actual trains anyways].

So if one was looking to be taken out by a train what […]

I received some advice from someone on this site telling me to make a door open. So today I used that advice an am trying to put my life back together. I know I have a long road ahead but I will try. I have found so many good people on this web site and thank them all because I was never this close to suicide as I was this week. I am not out of the woods but am looking for the trail to lead me to piece with myself.

I’m not a stranger.
No, I am yours with crippled anger,
and tears that still drip sore.

A fragile frame aged with misery, and when our eyes meet,
I know you see.

I do not want to be afraid.
I do not want to die inside just to breathe in.
I’m tired of feeling so numb.
Relief exists, I find it when…
I am cut.

I may seem crazy or painfully shy.
And these scars wouldn’t be so hidden If you would just look me in the eye.
I feel alone here and cold here, though I don’t want to die.
But the only anesthetic that makes me […]

It’s all I’ve ever wanted. To be happy…

Ok, so I understand that I’m not poor, I have a food, clothes, water, many things, but my house is not my home.

I’m a 17 year old male. Young? Maybe, but all I want is to feel free. I was born in England, but my parents are from India… You can probably guess where this is going…

I’m smart, behave well, don’t do drugs, rarely party, and I’m still a virgin. I have no desire to do any of that, my parents don’t understand me. They want me to be their “good Indian boy” unfortunately I don’t fit their […]

2011…One year closer to the awaited year 2012, woo-hoooh!

At 38,i feel like a loser, like somebody who hasn’t accomplish anything in life except savings and an apartment right outside NYC

My father died on Wednesday.

I’ll be following him shortly.

Life is hard for everyone but for some people its a whole lot harder. I suffer from severe depression and have done on and off for the last 3 years now. The thought of dying scares me but the thought of living scares me more. The worst part of this awful illness is people do not understand which leaves you feeling so alone. People look at me and wonder what I have to be so down about….I have great friends, am very attractive and seem to have alot going for me from an outsiders perspective but I’ve always felt very different. Nowadays the only thing […]

Well this is my story, I’m from Mexico but it started on summer 2008 when I was on vacations in Disney, Orlando FL… I met 2 girls from Venezuela there, Victoria and Stephany they were best friends. I gave ’em my facebook so they could add me later, they were really nice to me, well that happened and me and Victoria started to have a good relationship later when I add her in msn in 2009, we were really closed friends, too close that she even invited me to venezuela and i invited her to mexico, we used to talk about music, piercings, parties and […]

I have been thinking about suicide seriously for a few years.. But who’s keeping track of time with a state of mind like mine anyway? Everytime I decide I’m going to do it, something stops me, but today was different..

What stopped me today, was thinking about my poor (literally poor) family paying for my funeral, which I know they would do even if I left a note saying I didn’t want one. Wonder what will stop me next. If it’s nothing, you won’t be hearing from me again.

-Kenneth

DISCLAIMER: I apologize in advance for my language in this one. I normally NEVER talk like this but I was very upset at this time so if I have offended anyone in any way I whole-heartedly apologize! ~Violet Blake

I don’t know why I did what I just did. I should feel bad about doing it, maybe even horrible, but I don’t. Not in the least. I felt an emotion very strongly and for once I didn’t try to hide it or force it to go away, I spoke my mind and I’m proud of that at least.

I went to confession. I really don’t know what […]

My name’s Vee, I just recently made a website/blog, and I made it so I can give you advice…
I have a blog on wordpress, gloomeevee. I think you’ll find me.
And please post… I would love to help anybody. And if you are happy and satisfied, please reccomend it to your friends. Thank you.

to start off I’ve never done this, so I don’t really know how or what to write about and also i wouldn’t lable myself as ” suicidal “. I’ve certainly considered it, but not enough to go through with it.
I’m 18, and hoping to pursue a career as a psychiatric nurse. I’ve casually thought about suicide for as long as I can remember. What it’d feel like dying, how people would react and my funeral. What bugs me is this is a very casual thought, I usually don’t get emotional. It’s like thinking about what I’m gonna do tonight, or what to have for […]

Hi, I’m a first time poster, but I wanted to let people know that I am in a constant state where I want to kill myself when I look at how good everyone around me has it socially… All of my friends have girlfriends and I feel like I should too, I’m 20 years old and have never kissed a girl but the strange thing is, is that I’m such a nice person to people. I feel like it’s because I’m short (5’6) and all my friends are tall, they’re just so lucky.

I get so sick of it that every single day I just want […]

Well, another day goes by and another day thinking about suicide to relieve the pain. I try to move forward but no matter how hard I try I just cannot. What happen to that saying when one door closes one will open? I feel like all doors keep closing on me and I am in a cold, dark room with no way out. No one seems to understand how I feel. I am not looking for a free ride from my family I just want a chance to restart my life and get on the right track. I am so scared, confused, and alone.

I always feel like I lost a part of me and I always feel empty and sad until I get it back. It is like one half of me. Nothing in this world can fill that space, nobody can. The saddest thing is that I feel that
I have to leave earth to be fully me. Until then I’ll remember what seems like the shadowy recollections of a past happy life with poems and art.

Another birthday.  A year older, or just another day older, depending on how you look at it.  The one just past was the worst year of my life.  Maybe it will be better this year, or maybe it will be the year I kill myself.  Haven’t decided.  I was actually supposed to be born on January 14, but they took me early, on December 30.  If things don’t get better in the next two weeks, and why should they considering they haven’t so far, maybe I’ll do it on January 14.  Symbolic.