I’m a newbie. Take me as I am.

the man who told me he would there to support me and love me forever and help me get through what I am going through just told me that he will be here for me but cant be with me until i get better and that he is going to be seeing other people until then. how is that helping me get better?? how am i supposed to get over being depressed and suicidal when the man i love is out living his life. how am i supposed to get better? i understand i completely fucked up and i hurt him but if you say […]

I’m not sure to say what i have to say, but here goes nothing….I have never had any friends, ever. I’m pretty lonely. I work many hours just so I can at least be around others. I’m sitting here crying as I type…I feel so pathetic. I’ve cut myself a lot in the past and thankfully I haven’t done it again in months. I was raped A LOT when I was a child, my mother knew that my father was raping me, but she did nothing. I feel worthless.

i have to go to therapy on the 22nd of this month. my parents know i’m upset. they just don’t really know how upset i am. i’m slowly slipping away from my boyfriend. it seems better this way. he doesnt know i’m still gonna kill myself. he doesnt know a lot about me. i’m glad nobody really knows me. except my best friend. he knows me better than anyone. i’m not telling him anything. i always get these stupid fucking lectures about how suicide is bad, but it’s probably a hell of a lot better than where i’m at now. if anyone knows, tel me […]

Can I just say that I think it’s absolutely hilarious that they have the suicide prevention hotline right on the homepage for the SUICIDE project.  Can you say counterproductive? But what really is the goal of this site? to let all of us worthless and useless individuals commingle to the point where our overwhelming self-pity literally chokes us to death? What is the point of this site? SoMeBoDy, plEASe tell me!?! To tell eachother about the horrible things that have happened to us, that have made us depressed and crazy, what’s the point?
I will ask you this; as a depressed person, (now look into the […]

my grandma died 2 minutes after I left the room. If only I stayed those couple of minutes, then maybe she would still be here a little longer. Her birthday is in 4 days. we were hoping she was going to stay until then. I even had her birthday present. But now I can’t wish on 11:11 anymore because my wish didn’t come true.

I don’t know whether I should be concerned or not when it comes to me being comforted by this site. I found this site the other night and did my first post…I’ve visited it at least ten times at the least since. I’m glad to know I’m not alone in this battle. I love to hear your stories..and i feel compassion for you all. Everyone has a story..your ending is what you make it.

i’m new to this ive never really told many about my problems but i really have noone to talk to about it so why not to other people who may can help or care. well im 20 year old male who i think im gay ….well now it started i believe in middle school i was never a happy person growing up although i didnt have a bad childhood i was tubby sorta but i knew many people i somehow got so scared of people i developed social anxiety disorder which i struggle with still today i remember staying out of claases going to take […]

I wrote a post that I titled “A Peaceful Death” in April 2009. I came to this website because I was hoping to find like minded individuals that were also interested in the idea of using or creating an assisted suicide service. I developed a habit of coming to this site once or twice a week despite the fact that I didn’t find the kind of people that I was looking for. I have no desire to read about people’s problems or suicidal thoughts, but that hasn’t stopped me from spending 5 to 10 minutes on this site every week. Maybe I am just […]

                                                My soul is weak
                                                     I have no wishes
                                         I have no dreams
                                                          I will lie here  and die .
                                                                 

    I use to be afraid to die .

 How foolish was I.

 I was stupid & young I loved life ,and people I was loved…I think .

I’m not afraid to die just of how I will I hope im asleep if I don’t kill my own self maybe drink some poison, right before I go to bed it be peaceful no pain no cry’s but where would I go heaven or hell , would I be a Angel or a demon.

 How I wish I was loved maybe I’d wanna live if I was herd and not […]

i don’t care how i out from this shit life. i wanted to H2S but now i’d rather just hang or jump. and seeing as no1 cares, it doesn’t really matter how i do it does it. drowning is probably best for me though. most accessible. and the first chance i get, i’m doing it. which pretty much means tomorrow. so check the obits. and if YOU bother reading this, thanks a fucking lot.

It’s become obvious that I am one major league fuck up. I want nothing to do with anyone any more. I am so sick of people liking me based on what i look like. I first tried to kill myself at age 14, i’m now 37 and still want to die. the only reason i am alive is people dependant on me. yet other people still stay i should stay alive because of how i look. so what, if i was butt ugly i should deserve to die? i effing hate that since being a kid i’ve only been liked because i supposedly look […]

I was searching the internet for ideas on how to commit suicide when I found this site. I read some of the stories and was extremely surprised by how many people feel so similar to how I do and some have even dealt with similar lives. I am at the end of my rope right now, I’m physically and mentally exhausted and I just don’t think I can carry on anymore. I have hurt myself many times by cutting, burning and I have come close to overdosing a few times but some part of me doesn’t want to end my life because of the people […]

I can’t go on and I’m scared to go to a hospital. I am nothing.

i’ts been about 5 years, i think, since my pain started.

i think the problem is that whenever i have a different way of thinking, different taste or different reaction towards a conversation or joke (these are examples), people around don’t get it and don’t take it seriously for some time. all they do is saying “that’s stupid. everything you say is bullshit”. they say they’re my friends, and some of them even say “you wouldn’t be in the place where you are if it weren’t for us”. but what troubles me the most is the fact that my opinion has been considered unnecessary and disposable […]

Well,

I’ve been thinking about this for a long time and well heres the question

“How do you get can you get cancer?

I’ve always wanted to know

What are some good ways to get cancer

Can you get it from drinking poison for killing insects?

I”ve said my good byes im tired of this live

people say that god will tell you when its your time to die but what a waste of a persons live when they dont wanna live anymore…..

I tried to hang myself yesterday, too. The guilt today is overwhelming. I’m also 27, stay here for family, and have felt like this my whole life. I don’t know what to do anymore.

 I almost succeeded. I don’t even know what happens, I just shut down and turn off. Anything can trigger me. I’ve been sexually abused and a drug addict. It seems like I’m giving myself reasons by pushing everyone away and sabotaging anything that is good in my life.

I have seizures and suicide attempts often follow them. Last night I was talking about using as I came out of a seizure and my […]

I’m new to this site. I’ve wanted to end my life for as long as I could remember, but not completely or else I wouldn’t be here typing this.

I have a one year old daughter that I don’t want to be without. She gives me the air to breath and the look on her face when mommy is so hysterical, I can tell she’s not actually worried, but just wants her momma happy. She gives me strength in every day and that’s why I am here. It’s just getting so hard…

I’m the wife of an ex-military man. My husband has spent two years away in […]

I tried to hang myself yesterday, multiple times. I sort of half-assed it, knowing that I wasn’t 100% ready to go just yet. It was more of a test I guess. I decided to put it off for a couple days. I’m ready to die, but I’m scared of being unsuccessful and waking up in a hospital.

Later that day, out of the blue, my boyfriend calls and says he saw a man who hung himself from the freeway overpass. Firefighters were cutting him down as he drove by.

:-/

Here I am trying to hang myself and my bf now has a vivid image of a person […]