saturday is my 17th birthday. . . i honestly am surprised. . i am happy at last. . it is amazing to have finally found people who love me and who i love. . its out there for everyone, if anybody needs to talk im here. . im real. . i have made it.
Hey, I’m a 15 year old boy and I used to think about suicide all the time. School was fine, but it was just my home life. My mother and father didn’t give a shit about anything I do. My sister was always the one they loved. The more things i did wrong the more i got scolded. It just hurts when they scold me . But what I’m here to tell you is that, if you need a friend or helping out with a problem, I’ll just let you know that i’m here for you. Every life is worth alot and i know it […]
I was fake suicidal as a kid, but as I grew up, I began to see the world and really understand it, and also understand myself
I don’t have any useful skills, besides singing which is slowly fading because of my smoking addiction and my fat pressing up against my lungs.
so I know I wouldn’t survive on my own
yeah I’ve got pain, but not from traumatic events, it’s just my mind that’s been slowly turning into something hideous (I won’t go much further into that)
most of you would give up on suicide if you had a better life
but I don’t want a better life, I just […]
so my story starts out with the whole hard childhood thing, I was lactose intolerant but I didn’t know until a few years ago.
so a kid with lactose intolerance who doesn’t know it (neither did my parents) who drinks milk every day…..you can imagine the outcome
for all the farts in my life, all it took was one in the classroom to start a chain reaction that would eventually make me a bit….twitchy
everyone heard it, even the teacher, so she made me run laps around the entire fucking school, I was just a little kid!
so, most of the kids, being the little pricks that they were […]
It was a little over 3 months ago when I took my overdose. I planned it miticulously. I had my paracetamol and tamezapam (mind you this sleeper was really unnecessary as paracetamol is toxic in VERY small doses!). I took the tablets and then within about half an hour I must have feel asleep, I don’t remember! Suffice to say the decision was made and I was a peace with it. I was ready to go! SOMEHOW noone told my primal self this, and at some point ‘it’ woke my body, dragged it to my cell phone and called for an ambulance! To this day […]
I hate telling you how much easier it gets after some time.
I hate it because of how meaningless and trite it sounds compared to the gravity behind the emotions. Cutting allowed me to remind myself that I was calm, capable, and in control sometimes. The scars are still there. Most of you are tough as nails but won’t ever admit it. Maybe you already have and that’s why you’re still here. It doesn’t really matter why you’re still here. Just stay for a while. Get some sleep. Grab something to eat and drink all your water. Survive. Shut out the pain. You’re going to […]
I have suffered depression my whole life, when i was a child my mother and my 3 brothers and myself were beaten
When my I was 13 my mum and dad divorced and things were ok then my dad met a new woman and remarried, he dissapeared the last thing he said to me was ” your mother cheated on me you are not my daughter and I dont love you”
After that i didnt see him for 3 years until I was 16. He still said i wasnt his and he still believes it now. I no longer talk to my father we have not spoken […]
I promised I would tell my life story a few weeks ago.I feel like such a lier by not doing it when I said I would…..
I have to divide my life story into parts becouse there so much I have to say and so little time to put it all down.This story is also diffucult to put down becouse I feel like I’m to self-centerd.It seems like I only care about myself and nobody eles wich might explain why I’m alone most of the time in my life.For example,if your around sombody who only talks about “Me,me,me,I,I,I, “Well I myself” ect. Nobody wants to hand […]
I am looking for some type of pills that i can overdose on that are sure to kill me. Please can anyone give me some suggestions? it is really my time to go.
As for the my entire story i don’t think i am going to get to tell it all but for the people that want to know i will tell why i need to die..
I was 5 and a half years old when a doctor examined me and said i had phimoses which if anyone does research on this is a normal and some men have it up to 17 or older and […]
Hi, my name’s John. I’ll have to start from the beginning for this to make sense.
I’ve been suicidal for a while. I’m 18 now, and I’ve been thinking about killing myself since I was about 16. See the thing is…I think I may have screwed myself over.
It started off with the usual stuff, depression, thoughts of suicide, we’ve all heard the initial story. So anyway I got put on medication, 20 milligrams Lexapro for about 2 weeks. No change at all. I also got set up with a therapist, but I wasn’t learning anything that I hadn’t already analyzed myself so I cut the sessions […]
The chaos theory in it’s own way, ripping apart the mind.
When is the last time you listen to a kid. It seems anyone under the age 21 is not listen to. Hell in schools all around the country, kids can get drugs knives and guns in because people don’t seem to listen. Teens, are viewed as young adults as long at they do what there told. What happens when that teen gets a mind and sees that the teachers are just telling us crap. Don’t you understand? You say your a friend to your kid and they can come to you but when they do all you do is yell and make them out to […]
i wrote telling that i was gonna do it.
and i did, but i failed obviously. i tried pills and ended up getting my stomach pumped and spending 3 days in the hospital. and to be honest im glad i didnt die. im lucky im alive but im still depressed. my boyfriend is worried about me and my parents think i should go to therapy. my friends wont even text me back and i wanna drop out of school. i dont know what to do anymore. im scared and im alone in this world. it seems like this whole thing made it worse than ever.
Hey, I’m a 15 year old boy and I used to think about suicide all the time. School was fine, but it was just my home life. My mother and father didn’t give a shit about anything I do. My sister was always the one they loved. The more things i did wrong the more i got scolded. It just hurts when they scold me. But what I’m here to tell you is that, if you need a friend or helping out with a problem, I’ll just let you know that i’m here for you. Every life is worth alot and i know it is. […]
Hi.
I’m a 14 year old who’s been through a lot of things. I’ve been depressed and suicidal for about a year now.
If anyone out there just wants to talk, I need someone who can understand. Please.
Skype: rachel_andress
Okay, so I need a little help. I’m going to buy a disposable helium tank tomorrow from WalMart. Do I need to buy some kind of tube? If so, where could I buy one of these? Or maybe comprimise and make one or something? So from what I’ve read, you fill up the plastic bag with helium and put it over your head and tie it. You will pass out in seconds and be dead in minutes. Can someone correct me if I’m wrong? Will I be consciuous long enough to tie it? And also, would a layer of plastic grocery bags work? Please help […]
My first obsession in life was suicide. It still is. I’ve been contemplating and entertaining suicide
for my whole life since age 12. I have a family now with several children. I don’t want them to suffer the pain of losing there dad but sometimes the
pain of my marriage and a past broken heart that will not, no matter what, go away. I think of her EVERY day and know that we will never be together
again and that still drives me to suicidal ideation.
It has taken it’s toll this obsession has. Today was a bad one, an almost in the car. I don’t know why I […]
Hey… I’m not sure how to write this really, but here goes.
First things first, I’m a 14 year old girl and have been depressed for about 5 years now, though it was only around 2 years ago that I became really depressed. So I guess I’ll start from there.
2 years ago on 13th October my mood just completely fell and I felt so bad, I just wanted out. I wrote notes to my family and tried to kill myself (obviously, failing). I’ve not stopped wondering whether I regretted the attempt or not, but I don’t think I do.
I talk quite often with my head of […]
Make me forget, I can’t live with the memories anymore.
I don’t want to remember.
Is there anyone who has managed to eliminate memories so horrible that you can not live with them?
well, i’m 15 now. last year was probably the hardest year f0r me & my family though,
my mom went through a rough divorce. her 5th. that led to us losing our house, friends, & dog. she got a dui in the process & attempted suicide 3 times.. a month after my best friend hung himself in the bathroom & i got pregnant, i had a miscarriage & the boy left me thats when i got a cocaine addiction i asked everyone and anyone i could for help weather it was teachers, family members, doctors. no one helped, no one saw anything wrong, on the surface […]