wanna kill myseld and i need to know how… since  im fucking too ***** to grab a gun or knife tokill  myself  tell me a way to kill myself witha fucking pill or somin w/o pain

my mom is tryin to get me a job at her hospital….i mean i am greatful but she is giving me hell in the process and she wil continue to give me hell in the future. they drug tested me the other day and i smoke weed everyday….i didnt knw i was going to be drug testd and i had no choice but to pee. when she finds out she will maybe kick me out and thats when my suicidal thoughts will start to kick in….it fuckin sucks man. i hate this shyt. i used to be so happy and now im miserable. sex has […]

I’ve never sought help like this, nor looked for it.  I’m bored and finished watching a movie(The Wackness).  If you have seen this movie, i can relate to that kid and his heartbreak.  I’ve only suffered one heartbreak, and it has nothing to do with where I am at(level of depression).  That being said, I’ve done far much more damage to others.  Not saying I’m a whore of sorts, just having issues with this backlash of reality.

OK, lets shorten this up so I have a chance to capture someone who can relate or pretend to relate.  I was the happiest fat man in the world.  […]

I’ve got my pills lined up and I’m ready to take them. This has been a long time coming. I simply cannot live like this anymore. Every day is an effort just to get up and function. My story is a long one but i won’t go into it here. Suffice it to say it has brought me to this point. I simply exist,nothing more. My mistakes have cost me dearly and they cannot be fixed. I am simply a robot now just going through the motions. Every day is just gray or black. No joy. No life. No love. My death will affect those […]

hey everyone.

i don’t have too much to say but i’ll start off by mentioning that this post isn’t at all for myself.

there are a lot of people who come to this site and write down their experiences/situations for others to read, but many of us here don’t really receive help.

the only way things fall away from goodness is because of a lack of God. so basically what i’m trying to say is that if you really want to make your life and yourself better, you need Him, and you need Him more than just an hour a week.

if you’d like to talk about Him or […]

I know I don’t have the guts to go through with suicide but there is only so much someone can think about it. Think about how much better it could be. I dont know about you, but if your mother is screaming so much hate towards you.. Who would want to stay alive and listen to that? Defiantely not me! I dont know how many times I can take to being called a whore and a slut when I’m not even close to that at all. I have to take so much shit from that woman who’s meant to love me and what makes it […]

I dont know how I got here, but I still want to end this pain Im trying because I do have somethings to live 4. I never cared about friends but I need one now I am so lost

I NEED TO KNOW WHAT HAPPENED,  SOMEONE HELP ME SEE

WHY A CRUMMY WASTE OF TIME MY LIFE HAS EVOLVED TO BE

I NEED TO KNOW WHAT HAPPENED, SOMEONE PLEASE EXPLAIN

WHY THEY CARE IF I LIVE OR DIE, WHAT WILL I HAVE TO GAIN

I NEED TO KNOW WHAT HAPPENED, DONT RUN AWAY! COME BACK

BUT THEN I DISTINCTLY REMEMBER A TRUE FRIEND, MY LIFE LACKS

I NEED TO KNOW WHAT HAPPENED TO THE GIRL THAT RAN AWAY

THE ONE WHO WAS SO FULL OF JOY WITH EVERY COMING DAY

THE ONE THAT ALWAYS ASKED QUESTIONS AND WANTED TO KNOW WHY

HAS BEEN REPLACED BY A SOLEMN GIRL WHO VOICE IS BURIED WITHIN […]

You can NEVER live your life for anyone but yourself because you will never be happy that way.  It’s actually really nice to start doing the things you want without a care in the world about what others think. If people make fun of you or think you are a loser, they can go fuck themselves as long as you are happy. Look at them. Do you think that they really have any reason to make fun of you or put your life down for any other reason then to make them feel good about themselves and their own lives? You’re happy and they obviously aren’t. Turn […]

I GOT SO MANY PROBLEMS I DONT KNOW WHAT TO DO. SOMETIMES ILL SIT BACK AND THINK TO MYSELF IF I DIED MAYBE THEYLL BE SORRY. AND THEN I THINK DO I WANT TO DIE?DO I WANT MY LIFE TO END? AND THEN SOMETHING HAPPENS THAT MAKES ME WANT TO END IT ALL OVER AGAIN. THING ABOUT ME IM SCARED OF HELL AND I KNOW IF I KILL MYSELF NO MATTER WHO I WAS IM GOING TO HELL…BUT THEN AGAIN I SMOKE AND DRINK AND HAVE SEX AND DO ALL THESE THINGS THATS GONNA SEND ME TO HELL ANYWAY SO Y NOT…IM SO […]

4 years ago I was a contented and happy person. The simplest things make me happy. I was an innocent high school girl who just follow my parents. Of course I get mad at times at random things but i easily get over it. I have fewer back then..fewer friends, fewer connections, fewer material possessions, and fewer things to think about.
But when I entered college I became more mature and I can think of a lot of things I don’t think back in high school, most of which are philosophical. Before, I was close to God and I go to the chapel everyday before […]

 

Hmm, i kinda wrote this when i was pretty upset – Though i’d post it ;/

 

Sorry,

I can’t do this anymore. I’ve been living like this for nearly three years now. I cry nearly everyday & thinking about hurting myself is the main thought that goes through my head, every single day. Please forgive me for I never meant to hurt anyone and I hope that in time you will come to understand why I did what I did. I’m failing at everything i try, even the stuff that I used to be good at. I have come to the conclusion that doing this is the […]

It’s 11:11 p.m. right now, what did you wish for? I wished that I would be dead by 11:12. I really want everything to end. There is so much shit… everything is fucked up, in my life, my friends lives. I just want everything to go away, I want to fall asleep and never wake up… why do I always have to wake up?

I dont have a job.  A close family member died in the last couple of years.  I miss them terribly.  In the aftermath, there’s been a falling out with some siblings which hurts as well.  My long term partner broke our relationship suddenly. I’m in danger of losing my home.  My self esteem is rock bottom and I’m finding it very difficult to cope.

I just dont know what to do or where to turn.  Suicidal thoughts are increasingly part of my thinking. I struggle with it everyday, trying to overcome it but feeling completely weighed down by all that’s been going on.

hey everyone.

i don’t have too much to say but i’ll start off by mentioning that this post isn’t at all for myself.

there are a lot of people who come to this site and write down their experiences/situations for others to read, but many of us here don’t really receive help.

the only way things fall away from goodness is because of a lack of God. so basically what i’m trying to say is that if you really want to make your life and yourself better, you need Him, and you need Him more than just an hour a week.

if you’d like to talk about Him […]

So 2 weeks ago I went on a job interview and they said I would be a great addition to the team and they offered $20.00/hr. I was so excited I said yes, they said ok we are just going to check yoru references and get back to you to set up for your first day. I went shopping for new outfits because this job was business casual dress code. I got my hair cut and nails done. Then I never heard back for 2 weeks and today they call and said they want to keep their options open. WOW, i feel like a loser […]

At the moment I am contemplating ending this. I even called the suicide line…was on hold for 5 minutes before hanging up after listening to a machine, what a crock that is. I am bipolar and have extreme depression swings even for being bipolar(this has been told to me by several doctors now). When I’m manic I’m more or less ok, but over the past few years my manic swings are getting shorter and less frequent, from what I’ve read most of you are teenagers, I am not. Through my life I should have died naturally more or less about 10-12 times, from electrocution (3 […]

so i just swallowed 4mg of Ativan, 100mg of Citalopram and 200mg of oxycodone or something like that… oh and 2 shots of smirnoff but thats all i could handle cuz i kept throwing up in my mouth cuz im all shaky and nervous right now. this is my second suicide attempt. i just  really want to die, and i hope this works. i also have a plastic bag with an elastic band next to me that hopefully i will remember to put on my head just before i start to pass out. anyways, i really hope i took enough stuff!

was sexually abused when i was a child.didnt say to nobody that.was growing up in strict family.was just waiting to be 18 and leave my country cos culdn stand face of the guy who was raping me for 2 years.
when i was 18 left to study uni in other country.was thinking that was the best solution but i was not ready for that.was trying to be best student and show everybody that im THE ONE,basically didnt eat was studying all the time,didnt realize that i was so skinny,soon after i was underwieight,went back to my parents and from underwieight i was soon overweight cos […]

Hi, my name is Ericka Peele and I am doing my graduation Project on teen suicides and Suicide prevention and i have no clue where to begin.
The reason I got interested in teen suicides is because I nearly lost my older sister, who tried to take her life, and with a reason history lesson, I have learned that my great-grandmother committed suicide and my father have a history of trying to commit suicide before I was born.
If there any information on how I can help, please let me know.