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Another autumn

by Trix 9/14/2015

written by Trix

I wish I could hear him say:
‘I’m with (her) and happy.
You’re forgiven for being a ****.
I’ve changed.
I’m alive. Are you?’

If he’d changed things, I could let go.

If I didn’t think of him, the depression wouldn’t be as painful – but that’s what’s bringing me back here. Remembering feeds the depression each time it gets worse. Before that, it was getting easier.

I’m getting more suicidal. I can’t and won’t kill myself, so I just have to try to accept it and work around it.

I can’t sleep again. I think I’m getting ill. I’m too hot and cold.

I crashed again today and came […]

9/14/2015 2 comments

keep effing up?

by autonomous 9/12/2015

written by autonomous

Does anyone else go through the cycle of getting your life back on track and at that precise moment fucking it up all over again, then having to claw it back? I’m a middle aged person, somewhat successful in a career, yet never fully achieving my potential, really just getting by. I’ve suffered non specific, non diagnosable illness most of my adult life (ibs, cfs, etc) and have fought and fought and fought against them. On many occasions I have wanted out, and only came close once to attempting. I’ve done research and am confident I can do it if I have the resolve. Recently […]

9/12/2015 5 comments

Protected: Let Me Breathe My True Self

by killswitchon 9/11/2015

written by killswitchon

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9/11/2015 7 comments

Where am I now?

by alina_01 9/7/2015

written by alina_01

I don’t know but it’s some place I didn’t ever imagine I’d be. I always felt like I got dealt a shit hand in life and that no matter what I did nothing good would come my way. I half ass tried and dragged ass through life aimlessly, I couldn’t even be bothered to care about myself. I guess I never truly felt loved or wanted so maybe on a subconscious level I felt I didn’t deserve to feel that for myself. I cared and loved in all the wrong ways for all the wrong people. I got hurt so bad that it felt like […]

9/7/2015 3 comments

YOU

by marz 9/1/2015

written by marz

From the moment we met I knew I wanted to be with you

There was no one else but you

No one could make me smile but you

No one could take the pain away but you

These 4 years have been amazing because of you

But we have had some rocky paths due to me and you

Lately I have been feeling very low because of you

We have good and bad times because of you

When I have urges they are taken away because of you

I want to live because of you

All I do is for you

I try to be brave because of you

I don’t know if I would still be […]

9/1/2015 3 comments

It never lasts.

by Bri 8/30/2015

written by Bri

I just returned home from a friend’s house. I had an amazing weekend, it was the first one in a while…

So, I’ll get to the point of why I’m here, because honestly if I had just only had a great weekend no offense but I wouldn’t be here- not on this site.

I walk through the door, after just having locked my car and everything and coming inside, and my sister in law is already talking about me to my brother. She seen me come inside, she knew I was there.

“She snapped at Brook” my brother asked how she knew if I did because I just […]

8/30/2015 7 comments

best music

by lonelyguy91 8/30/2015

written by lonelyguy91

listen to this guy. his music got me through a lot of negative times. he himself is bipolar so if you are you could surely relate. he’s very complex to understand sometimes, but something in his music speaks to me. and his voice is just amazing

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=2GHCzTA8Rn8

8/30/2015 1 comment

I’m not really sure..

by SeeYouSoon 8/14/2015

written by SeeYouSoon

I’m not really sure what to say im new to this googling suicide crap. All night I been thinking about ways to kill myself how to do it. This isn’t the first suicide attempt. There’s been a few but overdoses never really work I end up being sick and well I failed. But tonight I just can’t cope anymore. It’s getting worse and worse I don’t get any help with my depression. I even told my support worker I’m going delusional. Funny thing is she thought it was nothing and signed me off that day! Tonight I even written a suicide note. First time and […]

8/14/2015 2 comments

Just a thank you to the SP sight.

by Procel 8/8/2015

written by Procel

Does anyone else ever stop and think just how impressive this sight is? not the people on it (who are all unique and amazing in their own way) but the very sight itself that allows people from all over the world to reach out and get help from people who know what they are going through. a site that focus’s on helping people survive and where possible “get better”. For a group of people so devoid of hope it seems to be a beacon of strength and that hope that so many lost, what an utterly incredible place. I would love to know just how […]

8/8/2015 12 comments

by goingnumb 7/29/2015

written by goingnumb

I got an amazing job today and everything is starting to work out I guess but I just feel like complete shit

7/29/2015 0 comment

My Best Friend

by daikirai 7/16/2015

written by daikirai

I saw my best friend today for the first time in about a few months and seeing her was the best and being able to hug her again was the most amazing feeling but i promised her i would never leave until i at least saw her once then i would most likely leave. Now i’m having second thoughts but i really want to leave. I have no clue what to do….

7/16/2015 4 comments

I’ve found my passion.

by justanothergirl09 7/7/2015

written by justanothergirl09

*From left to right; Xiumin (EXO-M), Luhan (EXO-M), Kris (EXO-M), Suho (EXO-K), Lay (EXO-M), Baekhyun (EXO-K), Chen (EXO-M), Chanyeol (EXO-K & my 2nd bias), D.O. (EXO-K & my 3rd bias), Tao (EXO-M & my bias), Kai (EXO-K) and Sehun (EXO-K & maknae)

*Luhan and Kris left the group last year (2014).

*EXO-K promotes in Korea, while EXO-M promotes in China.

My life has gotten better. I’m not sure if I’m still depressed but I can say I’ve been pretty happy these past few weeks. I’m not gonna lie, though. […]

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7/7/2015 6 comments

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“goodnight moon”

by godbless 6/30/2015

written by godbless

I think tonight should be the night. If not tonight then tomorrow night. Just no more than 48 hours. I have nothing more to give.

I’ve always pictured myself engaging in adventurous, amazing, fun activities before I go. Instead I’m content with watching old movies and listening to old music. (I wish Netflix would work though) The only things that are weighing heavily on my heart at this time are 1. How sorry I feel for my dog. Nobody loves him as much as me so he won’t get as much attention, and also he won’t know why I’m gone. 2. Tremendous guilt. 3. How things […]

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6/30/2015 4 comments

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Why am I so lost?

by violinplayer22 6/29/2015

written by violinplayer22

I don’t know how or why I even decided I wanted to commit suicide. I have an amazing and loving family, a group of beautiful friends, and amazing health. Yet, despite all this, I have decided that suicide is the right way to turn. Yeah, I’ve had problems with anxiety for the past 5 years, and I lost my best friend to his slut girlfriend, but this shouldn’t be my only option.

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6/29/2015 3 comments

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What’s wrong with me

by ajn2015 6/27/2015

written by ajn2015

I don’t understand why I’m so freaking depressed. It actually frustrates me so much how ungrateful I am of all the good people, opportunities that are surrounding me. I am a physically healthy teenager, not bullied (just teased a bit by friends), surroundef by an amazing support system (family), an average student with B grades, etc.

Yet I always find myself at night trying to or contemplating suicide. It’s like clockwork; I can’t sleep so I just think to myself. One second I’m thinking about all my ideas for summer, and the next second I find myself thinking about stabbing my chest with a steak knife.

Before […]

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6/27/2015 2 comments

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It’s not enough.

by lulereign 6/26/2015

written by lulereign

I never believed when people said cutting was an addiction. But now it’s just not enough. I used to do baby cuts – just little ones – but a few of them at a time. They were small enough to go unnoticed even though I still wear short sleeved clothes. I didn’t want anything to be too obvious to people, but recently I’m noticing the are getting more inflamed and irritated – it kinda stands out too much.

Also I’ll admit I was scared of the pain. Initially that tiny pinprick was enough, but now it doesn’t hurt ENOUGH anymore. I want to cut deeper, but […]

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6/26/2015 1 comment

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Numb…

by ForeverSilent13 6/23/2015

written by ForeverSilent13

The last few years of my life I havent really been able to feel any form of emotion to anything. All I feel is just a numbing kind of sense. I have a loving family, a great group of friends and an amazing girlfriend that I know loves me… But I just can’t seem to feel anything back… Its almost like I’m just watching my life go by with somebody else in control… I want to be able to be loving back to them all but the only thing I ever have on my mind now is death, like I’m just waiting for something to […]

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6/23/2015 2 comments

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Anyone else? No? Okay..

by Sammi6xoxo 6/12/2015

written by Sammi6xoxo

Anyone else noticing all of the newer people with amazing taste in music? 40 days. ICantDrownMyDemons. Sickfromthemelt. Yeah. You guys are fucking awesome. Just putting that out there.

It’s been a rough night. My anxieties are getting the best of me again and I’m not sure how to handle it. Work sucked. But Friday nights always do. I don’t know what’s eating me today. Will someone please buy me food and tell me I’m pretty? >_<

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6/12/2015 21 comments

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Memories they haunt me

by Beast 5/28/2015

written by Beast

I woke up quite early today, thought I’d grab the chance to enjoy The Witcher 3.. Turns out I should of slept away half the day instead. I dont know how but my most recent ex came into mind, its been over half a year but still.. Such happy memories, how can I possibly stop comparing what I am now, what I have now, with what I once had… Im over her, but I would like.. this kind of happiness again, with someone else.. anyway I know throughout our lifetime on this miserable planet we have our ups and downs, I’d like an elevator lift […]

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5/28/2015 4 comments

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Why Do I Feel Needy?

by yaykitty3 5/19/2015

written by yaykitty3

I am so mad at myself that I feel this way! Why should I suffer when most people have it so much worse. I have a family that loves me, a boyfriend that is awesome, and friends that have my back. It’s just that lately my grades have dropped and I worry that I’m not fitting in. I cut like crazy, and I spend most of my time looking at percabeth fanfictions. I think that I might be going insane! My brothers are so much older than me, and they are amazing at everything. I think that it might be too late for me to […]

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5/19/2015 1 comment

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