IÂ need something real do you know how I feel? This life is like living in shades of gray. You hold on so tight and then close your eyes but all you can feel is the life of a knife. I want some hope and I try to cope with my pain. I try to help others but not helping myself is driving me insane. My best friends left because of their selfish ways they cant understand the choices ive made. They say its my problem life is to good to be sad but thats because they dont have a sickness driving them mad. I need […]
I used to have the bestest friend ever. You know, like the one that lives in your neighborhood and you guys hangout everyday. This year, she started hanging out with one of my old friends named Jenna. I mean, I thought we could all hangout together bc that would be fun! But no, and I would realize too late that I was being replaced.
One day during a hurricane, me and my bestest friend went to my grandfathers house during a storm. Because of the storm, the power was out at both of our houses (so I took her to go to my grandfathers house to […]
There is just something about causing pain to oneself that is so beautiful. Cutting has always been my out. But it’s been taken away from me in a difficult way.Â
Two years ago my life was changed forever. The person I thought was everything to me tore my heart out and never gave me a reason behind it all. Â We had been best friends for 7 years and together for 4 years. We were always together for everything. After he refused to have anything to do with me, I decided to take things into my own hands. I was living on my friends couch because being […]
i dont know what to do my so called best friend is now best friends with my sis and none of them is speaking to me because i sh and i did it infront of her one day she said she would have to take time to trust me again. (i wouldnt normally do it infront of anyone but my partner walked out that day and my whole life revolves around him i lost control ) i spoke to her today well, i got a msg she said thats why she hates me and i hate me. have done for a while im severely depressed, […]
I was at the age of 12 when the bullying started. It was a group of my now former best friends, who would taunt and ridicule me-leaving the young me to feel loneliness and depression. I thought about suicide a lot at 12.
I went on to middle school, where I became a stereotypical nerd. I had very little friends and would often find myself picked last in gym class (yes, things like this actually happened to nerds lol). In my last year of middle school I made it a mission to stay as invisible as possible-I had several friends, never spoke up in class-and almost […]
I’m in my early 20s now and I’ve survived a tough teenage, including several suicidal attemps. I’ve always been an “alternative” girl, listening to non commercial music, not wearing fashionable cloths, not going to the disco, not smoking/bingedrinking/fucking with everyone around. This fact made my life more complicated and allowed a lot of people to talk shit about me and bully me. I’ve tried several times to convince myself that my being unique should be a reason good enough to live, but it didn’t last too long. My family is a normal one, but my parents don’t support me, don’t like what I do and […]
i wish i could drink to the last drop..just get drunk everynight..to forget everything, to get some sleep..
the hangover..i dont mind, it’s easier to deal than this life.
music and pills are my  best friends.
No one knows, Â i’ve been pretendingt that i’m happy, Â masking things with smiles.
i wish i could vanish, dissapear …even better if i could die in no time.
death somehow is so peaceful, no yesterday, no tomorrow, just a silent stage and place …with no more pain and tears.
This is my story about how i had my heart broken a couple of times. it soon spawned a fear of abandonment in me and made me think i was never good enough. if you wish to hear how i survived my hardship then please read this.
I was born different from other kids. i chose not to give in to the social flow and i  lived how i felt. i had friends, a pretty good amount. i fell in love many times and had a few relationships. I grew up being who i felt was me. Sometime around the summer of 2012 about early June, […]
It all started on March 23, my girlfriend of 3 2/3 months broke up with me. This sent me spiraling into depression, as if to make me hurt she started dating a friend of mine two days later. My friends tried to help me but couldn’t, my mother noticed it and said nothing. A couple weeks later on April 3 my best friends broke up with each other, this sent both of them spiraling into minor depression except the boy, John, saw his ex hanging all over another guy. I confronted her and got screamed at. Accusing me of being a backstabbing a****** she declared […]
A have you ever gotten that feeling you know the one that nothing is quiet right and that nothing will ever be right? Let’s operate that you do know this delight because you googled “suicide stories. That formentioned feeling is how my life’s been running in for awhile and to be honest I don’t care much nW. there’s a deep gutting feeling to all my crickets now ranging from joke telling to hanigning out with my best friends. It’s as if I wasn’t suicide to tell this joker hanging out here cause I’mdeeded somewhere else or rathe rnor needed but suppose to be and that […]
Things were great in the beginning. Sure he was stuck in leg braces. And yes his mom got humped by the principal to keep Forrest in school.
But the other kids weren’t throwing rocks at him yet. His best friends hadn’t been maimed and killed. And hey: Jenny wasn’t a junkie with AIDS..
By any means, I am not a ray of sunshine. I can’t help it. I’m only a teenager and I’ve basicly given up on life. I have no hopes for the future.
I used to want to be a journalist. I wanted to move back to Ireland and write about everything and anything. I wanted to get married and have a kid or two. I just wanted something out of life, but now I feel nothing. I feel numb. I just don’t know what I actually want. I had plans to do marvelous things with my best friends. But now, since one’s dead and the other […]
Cutting those cuts,
feeling the razor blade slice into your skin,
seeing the blood flow…
No, I know it sure,
I will never heal of self mutilation.
NEVER
And those scars will always stay…
ALWAYS
There will come more of them.
Because the feeling I get is indiscribable.
Feeling that pain that’s going through my whole body,
feeling something and feeling numb,
feeling like it’s my best friend,
my best help,
the only thing I can trust.
Yeah, that blade and that stanley knife are really MY best friends.
A little poem written by myself:
And then you’re sitting there,
crying in the corner of the […]
Just one of those days…again. Chilling with my best friends, my razor and bottle of alcohol.
To be honest I don’t know why I’m here… I just want a place to write down what I feel, without someone judging me or calling me an attention seeker, I’m not looking for someone to pity me or anything like that. I just want to express my self.
Every week of every day and every minute and every second I feel like I should die! I have never experienced true love or true friendship, but what I know is that I feel so lonely and sad that I cry every night! I don’t know why I haven’t killed myself already to be honest… Every day I think up […]
so when I was 9 I started getting bullied really badly I eventually only had two friends and that was that, all I had on my schedule was crying, being bullied, and crying. then when I was 10 i thought things were getting better but they just4 got worse, my grandma started dying and I loved her dearly. and i missed a few days of school cause i was at the hospital with her. people started to leave me alone a bit and I even started to get more friends. but that didn’t last long. in 5th grade this girl came to my school […]
Of course, I want to like Trevor. But there’s always something in the back of my mind that says I shouldn’t. Oh well. Said voice can find a new hobby. I mean, I’ve realized that Trevor is pretty awesome. But if he doesn’t like me, then good for him. I’m not saying that I’ll be completely mad and thinking that I’m better than him, ’cause I’m not. All humans are equal, except in their acts. I mean, you can’t say that you’re equal to Hitler in acts unless you did the same things he did. But Trevor hasn’t done anything bad that I know of, […]
I know i havent posted in awhile, but ive just had a lot of new stuff going on. Some good and some bad.
2 weeks ago i was bored and posted a picture of me on fb..didnt expect a guy that i used to be best friends with to be the first one to like it then message me. Didnt expect to get 20 comments on it, all from my family yelling me to smile. I had nothing to smile about, so why bother?
Lets see, 7 1/2 hrs later and a lot of texting, that guy asks me out, i say yes, and the […]
I have a boyfriend, who happens to be my first love and real relationship.
I’m 14, almost 15. Don’t tell me I’m too young for love or any other crap like that. So anyways..
We’ve been best friends since July 17th 2011. We’ve talked every day since then. All day, that’s all I would do. Is just talk to him. But we’ve been dating since last June.
He understands me, and the things I go through. We’ve always been there for each other, we’ve had our fights but we usually get through it. Â He makes me happy. I’ve been so miserable my whole life until he […]