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A very bad week

by bayareaguy 7/12/2015

written by bayareaguy

I have one more piece of paperwork to get done, my Medical and Financial Power of Attorney. The Will and Advance Directive are all done. The three documents need to be witnessed and notarized.

I’ve stopped taking my heart meds. My sleep pattern has become so erratic that I wake up and have no idea what time it is. I may have slept for only a few minutes or up to 15 hours. I cry constantly. If things continue this downward spiral, I will go to the Bridge. I feel like I am going mad.

I called a hotline for the first time tonight. I told the […]

7/12/2015 6 comments

Imma just fucking jump off a bridge already. Whos with me?

by BridgeJumper1994 6/3/2015

written by BridgeJumper1994

Okay, so here it goes. Im nearing an ultimate moral downfall now. Ive went from fastening belts on my neck or swallowing a couple of pills to straight forward assaulting myself. I entirely despise my whole life. Life has caused me nothing but pain and suffering. Each day I struggle to wake up properly cause theres just no reason to go on doing things people usually do at all. I have closed myself inside my cage. I dont usually talk, Im not socializing anymore. Been abused in school, first sexually when I was 13, then bullied and some physical violence too. Parents beat me up […]

6/3/2015 13 comments

Out on bond….the ones we really love. the woman in our lives

by johnwhogivesashit 11/30/2014

written by johnwhogivesashit

I’m out on 100,000 dollar bail right now. I’m facing a home invasion charge in Illinois which is a class x felony. The punishment if convicted is a minimum 6 to 30 years in the department of corrections. I am facing a death sentence. These alleged charges are total bullshit but regardless of the outcome I will come out the other side 10,000 dollars in debt from lawyers. I am 22 years old. For all intents and purposes This situation is going to cost me 6-30 years of my life. The courts are a mockery of justice in illinois. they are courts of conviction not […]

11/30/2014 3 comments

The Bridge

by bayareaguy 2/14/2014

written by bayareaguy

I’ve seen the documentary The Bridge many times.Â In spite of the miniscule risk of surviving the jump, it’s still a much more statistically successful method than pills.

Pills?Â Totally unreliable

Hanging?Â I couldn’t bring myself to do it

Gunshot?Â Way too messy….besides, I’m as anti-NRA as you can get.

Yes….I have a deep seated feeling the Golden Gate Bridge will be my method when I decide I really need to go, which I hope will be before I have to suffer another Holiday Season.

I made a preliminary draft of my Will and today I talked to my financial planners about how I want my IRA distributed.Â They have […]

2/14/2014 12 comments

took a walk to the bridge today.

by scottyboy99 2/10/2014

written by scottyboy99

Its funny how all the planning and commitment can go out of the window once faced with the prospect of jumping. Originally i was going for a shotgun but i cant afford the gun, ammo, travel and bullets. This time of year a bridge would be perfect because of the freezing water coupled with the long drop. Its weird though… i wrote the note, really believed i was going to do it (this is my first time ever) and i just couldn’t bring myself to go over. I must have paced back and forth at least 10 times, and every time i went to go […]

2/10/2014 2 comments

Coronado Bridge

by michelle_008 12/31/2013

written by michelle_008

I want to walk across the street and jump off of the Coronado bridge before the new year. I want enough courage to jump off the bridge. I just want to be able to do it and to finally succeed at SOMETHING!

12/31/2013 2 comments

Heartless to say

by im-worthless 8/22/2013

written by im-worthless

it seeps into your heart, your mind, your soul wrecking your body everywhere it goes.
i cant take the time to stop and think where am i going? Who is gonna help me?
you wake up in the middle of the night and your dreams scare you right out of your bed.
How do i get out of this?
You take a knife and you just cut because after you do it sends shivers of warm fuzzy tingles throughout your senses.
it leaves you shivering with ecstasy
You wish someone would help you but all they can say is are you okay?
How do they […]

8/22/2013 0 comment

Brownian motion

by Just another sad, sad girl. 8/2/2013

written by Just another sad, sad girl.

White gate, white gate,
Under the bridge.
Keys in my hand,
Hiding behind me,
Lower me down to where no one will find me.
Bright lights, bright eyes,
The difference doesn’t seem real,
Back in my head, voices so loud,
Everything is clear again.
Screaming sounds like bells,
Instructions are yelled,
The waves are hands,
Holding you tightly.

8/2/2013 2 comments

Bridges made of guns

by ISmiled 7/22/2013

written by ISmiled

Was the dream I had yesterday night. And that’s how I knew, tonight is the night.

I guess you could call it a sign, but I’m calling it an unconcious epiphany. I dreamt of a bridge made of guns, and that’s when it hit me, I’ll just shoot myself off a bridge this time! So I found the closest bridge to my house (a 20 minute bike ride away), and I’m prepping myself now.

I have the gun, the same one that shot off part of my shoulder. And my bike is outside the house, sitting there waiting for me to go grab it. I’m also debating […]

7/22/2013 3 comments

P A R A N O i D

by lifekilledthelifeinme 7/19/2013

written by lifekilledthelifeinme

Omg, like I’m mad paranoid. I’m paranoid to even be writing this right now. I feel like everyone is against me. Like my life is the Truman Show. I struggle and misery is my best friend, it’s like after awhile you enjoy the pain. A sort of frenzy begins to happen. I’m just really in a dark place. I feel like music is talking to me and sending me subliminals from my boyfriend. This happened before with someone else I cared for. It’s like I’m getting all these subliminals and signs from everything. I’m always freaking out and no one knows. No one […]

7/19/2013 8 comments

because god wants me to

by Bharati 7/16/2013

written by Bharati

commit suicide. and throw myself hard on the concrete floor tilll my cheeks get crushed in pain and all my teeth fall out and my ugly plain eyes pop out of their skull. i’m to throw myself against the concrete or off a bridge till my head cracks open and all the rottenness comes out, cut my nipples off and attack myself with a machete before the devil takes me

7/16/2013 6 comments

Bridges…

by CarefreeT 6/29/2013

written by CarefreeT

I just remembered I live near an excellent bridge. It’s officially 955 feet high, but it has a nifty sign telling you when you’re directly over the river with a figure of 1,053 feet printed. You think that’s high enough? Haha. The downside is your flight time; plenty of room to regret your choice.

6/29/2013 10 comments

by MichelleJ 6/17/2013

written by MichelleJ

I’m watching The Bridge documentary, and someone reckons they have no answer for why people commit suicide. That’s because they don’t understand tat the answer is simply that people are in too much pain to live any more. Suicide is an answer. Just because to some it’s the wrong answer, doesn’t make it not the answer. And saying “Oh I don’t know the answer to why people kill themselves”, doesn’t make the answer any less deniable. It’s right there in front of these religious goody-two-shoes if they’d choose to open their eyes. They may be caring, some of those people that is, but that’s not […]

6/17/2013 3 comments

Bridge jumping: Update

by Aleda 6/16/2013

written by Aleda

Just went on my last holidays, it’s pretty neat here. Two days ago I visited the bridge. The water is almost 4 meters deep and there are strong currents. The currents are something I’d like to have. The stronger, the better. They are so strong they are visible on the surface. The bridge is in the close proximity of something I don’t know how to call in English, but the idea is that this is kind of thing which people use to make water deep or shallow. It’s a barrier for water. The currents are so strong here. I think it will help me drown […]

6/16/2013 4 comments

To the lady that struggled with fibromyalgia

by thinkimready 6/16/2013

written by thinkimready

I can’t remember her ID, it started with an “E” like edenformosa or something like that. I think she suffered from fibromyalgia and could never feel fully rested. Helium wasn’t working for her so apparently (others confirmed) she jumped of a bridge (Seven something bridge). The post may have been deleted but I just wanted to express how sorry I am that she was forced to jump, something she explicitly didn’t want to do. That is extremely cruel. There should be easier ways available. Peaceful ways, affordable ways. Â Thanks.

6/16/2013 9 comments

by Smiley 6/12/2013

written by Smiley

I see myself driving to the bridge. I see myself popping some pills and driving. it’s the middle of the night and its pitch black outside. I reach the halfway point in the bridge, I slow down and pull over. I have my backpack neatly prepared on the passenger seat. I leave it there to be found. Inside is my cell phone and my journals. its so clear and I am calm. I exit my car and head to the rail. I climb over take one last breath and fall backwards into the water. These thoughts make me feel free. The urge is getting stronger […]

6/12/2013 1 comment

I think it’s time to take a walk

by SometimeSoon 6/10/2013

written by SometimeSoon

And I have no idea why I’m posting it here but, I am.Â I’m exhausted.Â The only true smile that has come to my face in the past few years was just before my attempt several weeks ago – the rest of the time it has been this forced curvature which, I must say, I’ve become quite the expert at creating.Â The sadness.Â The consistent failures.Â The burden I’ve been to so many for so long.Â Iit’s just so tiring.

For almost 30 days I’ve had no contact with anyone in my personal life save three individuals one being my “brother” who lives quite literally thousands […]

6/10/2013 4 comments

Goodbye

by OlyaCta 5/28/2013

written by OlyaCta

I want to end my life. If I won’t be fine until tomorrow 2 o’clock I’ll jump from. A bridge.

5/28/2013 4 comments

stop crying

by why i dont no 5/11/2013

written by why i dont no

im invisible no ones talking to me on Facebook or email or if I phone themÂ im allow whating to sneek out and get some thing to hide the gash that dried up 15 hours to early that ill tech me to do it the long this is all I deserve wayi feel rechid iv hert the person I love the most iv killd my hope an im back on the rode to no wereÂ so if any one has any suggestions on what to do now may it be jump off a bridgeÂ or go out and hide aney thing on what to do now if […]

5/11/2013 0 comment

If Prom Were A Movie

by cooleo99catsmart 5/8/2013

written by cooleo99catsmart

See- prom is coming up. Every year I go to prom with my friends and I have a great time. I don’t think this year will be fun. I’ve got a stressed head thinking about my final grades, college programming, summer job possibilities, dealing with family (cancer patients, old with broken bones, trying to live my life for me), and the person I love and whether or not we are going to get back together. If this were a movie, then I would exit prom drunk and happy with my friends and when he tried to take me back, I would either throw up on […]

5/8/2013 2 comments

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