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Tonight there is one less musician in the world.

by Cordless 2/9/2016

written by Cordless

Tonight at symphony rehearsal, the director had a sad announcement to make.

One of our trumpet players was found dead in his car.

He was maybe late 20’s or early 30’s, and I’ve known him for over 10 years. For as long as I’ve known him, he has had a lot of problems with drugs.

I remember sometimes after rehearsal, a small group of us used to go out for dinner, then we would sit around outside and chat for a few hours. I remember he would freely admit that he was willing to try any drug he could afford, legal or not. It helped him mentally escape […]

2/9/2016 24 comments

My Story (mothers suicide, mental disorders & much more)

by Magik 2/8/2016

written by Magik

I’ve lived anything but a normal life & I just turned 20. My parents were both abused. My dad was physically beaten by his father. My mother was raped many times during her childhood by her step dad. My parents hooked up (drunk) at a party & 9 months later I was born. I am a bastard. My parents got married when I was 3. My mom was addicted to crack until I was in kindergarten. My dad physically & emotionally abused her until she left him (moved out) when I was in 7th grade. My mom stayed with him that long because she wanted […]

2/8/2016 6 comments

I want to do so much

by outinthedark 1/20/2016

written by outinthedark

I have things I want to do. I want to do so much. But I can’t. I have no money. No possible way to leave this place. I’m scared to talk to the one person I trust. I want to be loved. I want to be married. I want someone to like me enough to love me and to want to be with me the rest of my life. But that probably won’t happen. I need to leave this place. And I was going to try to move this year. But that won’t be possible. I don’t even have a fucking car. I’ve had so […]

1/20/2016 0 comment

The closest I ever came to killing myself

by lost.soul.hopeful.heart 1/19/2016

written by lost.soul.hopeful.heart

I’ve just needed to get this story off my chest. It’s been two years, and I’ve only told two friends and my councilor. This isn’t much of a story, but when I begin to think about suicide I remember the saving thought that I had. A lot of the time we feel so alone in the world. It can be for many reasons, but I think what I learned is, you’re not alone. No matter what you want to believe to make choosing suicide easier, you’re not alone, someone will still feel grief for you when you pass. For some people that’s not much of […]

1/19/2016 5 comments

I feel…

by Ylem 1/16/2016

written by Ylem

… Numb.

Just got news that a guy we attended university with passed away. Car accident. It’s weird. He just qualified. Only started working on the 4th of Jan. Hasn’t even received his first paycheck yet. Now he’s dead.

Another guy died in a car accident last year. He was in his final year as well. There were 5 of them in the car and only he died, the others survived.

I don’t really know how to feel. I’m just numb. It’s sad really. People who really deserve to be around are dying. Just when his life was about to get better. The 6 year struggle at Medical […]

1/16/2016 10 comments

Things are Always Changing

by mortuarychic 1/7/2016

written by mortuarychic

Things have changed since I last posted. I had my first fender-bender, my boyfriend broke up with me same day, my cat almost dies, and I had to move back in with my parents. So where to begin? It was a normal day and I had to run some errands so I told him I loved him and went on my way. I proceeded to barely hit a parked car. The only damage was my broken headlight. I called him crying and freaking out. I got home where he proceeded to break up with me. Not to mention this was the day before Thanksgiving, I […]

1/7/2016 2 comments

HUNGRY!!

by bah 12/24/2015

written by bah

Ugh, I’m f*cking hungry and all I wanna eat is junk food!! There’s like nothing in my apt and I’m too depressed to go out.

Eating isn’t much enjoyable anymore because apparently I’m allergic to everything (soy, dairy, wheat, gluten, rice, seafood). What I can eat tastes like cardboard so while I am f*cking hungry, I don’t really *want* to eat. At least the foods I’m “supposed” to eat. -_-‘

Well I’ve got bananas and sour blueberries, but no real food. I ate my salad but ugh. It’s salad. Just. No. Fun.

I want to eat pizza and chips and sushi and noodles and everything and anything carbs!! […]

12/24/2015 7 comments

So what?

by NoHumanity 12/23/2015

written by NoHumanity

I’m only fourteen, closing up on fifteen in April. I’ve got my whole damn life ahead of me and countless near-death experiences and suicide attempts have gotten me nothing BUT treatment. This is the first time I’m relapsing – not because it’s new, but because recently (earlier this year) is the first time I’d gotten treatment. You see, my depression and anxiety had been with me since birth. I never had a broken home or anything, the closest thing I had was a few bullies at school that made fun of me for talking to myself and having strange behavior. I was an extremely delusional […]

12/23/2015 13 comments

In Sickness and Health // Till Death Rips Out Your Heart.

by Shephard 12/17/2015

written by Shephard

Operator: 111 Emergency, what service do you require?
Me: *pants* Police… I need to report a robbery.
Operator: One moment, I’ll put you through to police area comms.

[Phone clicks, dialtones are heard, a person answers.]

Comms: Police, how can I assist you?
Me: …I’ve been robbed. A robbery.
Comms: Okay sir, are you in any immediate danger?
Me: No, I… I think she’s gone.
Comms: Okay, are you having any trouble maintaining this conversation or any coherence whatsoever?
Me: I have my faculties about me. I’ve been robbed — not lobotomised.
Comms: Of course, sir. Can you please describe the person who robbed you and […]

12/17/2015 5 comments

Sad mom

by redhead91 12/13/2015

written by redhead91

it hurts me that my family didn’t work out the way I wanted- I wanted to have a happy family and I wanted my kids to have everything. I always thought I’d be a great mom and ever since my first pregnancy life has been absolute hell. I have three kids now and their father passed away a little more than a year ago. I was ok at first but honestly the longer I go without him the more I want to die. I have no home or car. I stay with my kids all day to take care of them because that’s what I […]

12/13/2015 5 comments

I never thought

by outinthedark 12/9/2015

written by outinthedark

I always knew someone in my family would kill themselves. My family is huge so someone had to. But I always thought that person would be me. Not my cousin. And now I realized that even though I want to kill myself I don’t want me to be the cause of my death. I want it to be because of something else. Because if I kill myself they’ll blame themselves and I don’t want people to blame themselves for something that I want. Because they won’t understand that it is me they should blame. I’m spiraling down again. I got in a car accident on […]

12/9/2015 3 comments

It’s so simple.

by babypanda 12/9/2015

written by babypanda

So simple. SO FUCKING SIMPLE.

all it takes is one misstep

or maybe a slight jerk of my hand on the steering wheel

perhaps a quick lead foot

could I slip into neutral and into the lake?

It’s just all so simple. Right there in front of me, a token accidental death with sinister roots. And yet I sit here, with my car turned off, writing this instead, talking myself off the ledge once more.

I’m so passively suicidal sometimes it scares me. I don’t want to die, but I also really, really want to. Oh well.

12/9/2015 8 comments

Shitty Day

by nicole123 12/7/2015

written by nicole123

so last night I guess someone smashed in my car windows and stole my wallet. What joy. Just another thing to add to my list of reasons I hate life.

I’m going to nap. I don’t wanna be here.

12/7/2015 3 comments

by outinthedark 12/6/2015

written by outinthedark

so my family is suppose to be going to a christmas concert today. yesterday when i was driving home some asshole swerved into my lane which made me swerve and lost control of the car and i ended up spinning out the car. i landed in the bushes and the most i have is like whiplash. then my aunt called my dad today and told him that my cousin committed suicide. i was never close to this cousin. the last time i saw him was like 2 years or so ago. he was in the military and was in iraq so everyone is just saying […]

12/6/2015 2 comments

Tomorrow Here We Come #4

by Take a Deep Breath 11/18/2015

written by Take a Deep Breath

She gently tightens her scarf around her neck before she steps out of her toasty car. Her depression has been crushing her, crushing everything she is passionate about. Locking her car door behind her, she quickly walks across the street with her eyes pointed towards the sidewalk. She’s almost there; her long, pale fingers grasp the brass doorknob as she opens the door into another world.
Books. Everywhere with their pale pages, they invite her to delve into a world other than the one she lives in. The ink and paper smells comfort her as she begins the search for her […]

11/18/2015 39 comments

Why do I do this?

by nicole123 11/15/2015

written by nicole123

Last night I got so incredibly drunk.

I was so drunk. I haven’t gotten like that in a while .

i still feel the aftermath now . And I’m going to work I feel like absolute shit .

but last night I was driving home an I wanted to go 100 mph and crash my car into something . I was so sad.

i get so angry and confused and sad.

im going crazy. I’m so tired

11/15/2015 7 comments

For all the kids with the car crash hearts.

by thelost 11/8/2015

written by thelost

WARNING: THIS INVOLVES SCREAMO, ENTER AT YOUR OWN RISK.

This song made me cry the other night, of course I have no right to cry. I have no right to be forgiven after what I did, but that ‘s besides the point. This is for all of you who do deserve a shot, and a second chance.

11/8/2015 7 comments

Muppet

by koki 11/4/2015

written by koki

So I told my psych that my preferred method was gas. Went to do some shopping this morning. Got a call from her out of the blue just as I was loading a 1200 llitre bottle of argon into the car. She was like “what ya up to” without a though I was “just buying gas”. Gas Is now gone and I’ve just been removed from my house by the crisis team.

I should really learn to keep quiet.

11/4/2015 7 comments

Hugs please!

by koki 10/30/2015

written by koki

This week. 1 arrest under the mental health act. 2 trips in a police car. 2 trips to the ED. 1 trip to the mental hospital.

I don’t mean to wallow in my own self pity, but, any chance of a hug.

Currently in the ED again waiting to be collected by mental health crisis team.

10/30/2015 43 comments

Things are so random…

by Matel 10/21/2015

written by Matel

My friends father had a traffic accident and this made me thinking again what I always think about life.

That it is so random. Most important things in your life are decided by basically universe throwing a dice for you. Where you have born, to what kind of parents you have born, whether you were born with a serious defect/disease, whether you get a terrible disease later in life, your gender… list goes on.

One of the people I know, who had a good life and pretty successful, was sitting in her car waiting her husband, a tree near the road falls off on the car. Almost […]

10/21/2015 1 comment

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