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Fail

by thehusk 5/4/2016

written by thehusk

My life is a complete failure. I have failed by every standard I or anyone else can devise. I have failed as a human being.

And that hurts. Any contact with other people inevitably opens me up to comparison, and I always fall short. Knowing that the best I can hope for from anyone is pity. And I stress myself out a huge amount, trying to figure out ways I can somehow measure up.

But the truth is, there is no way, and there never was. I was always several steps behind, with a disposition to turn my inadequacies into neurotic obsessions, and hamper myself further. And […]

5/4/2016 11 comments

by suicidalfreak 4/8/2016

written by suicidalfreak

I’m so tired of everything I fuck shit up all the mine and make people feel bad for me. i wish I hadn’t failed my attempts before. i wish I was dead.

4/8/2016 2 comments

I’ve failed.

by beaubri 3/26/2016

written by beaubri

I can’t keep up with this anymore. So much chaos, I feel like I can’t breathe. I bit off more than I can chew, and it’s breaking my jaw. The joints about to hang from nothing but tissue. Like a loosened door hinge. I can’t take it. I can’t keep up. I’m trying so damned hard to be the person everyone wants. Everyone needs. But I can’t. I need to try to get myself better. It may seem like these past few days have been ok, but they are not. I’m not fucking ok, o.k.?I haven’t recovered magically, this tragedy I am stuck in has […]

3/26/2016 7 comments

I’m Bored

by Ylem 3/22/2016

written by Ylem

Is there anyone who can keep me company?

I’m at the hospital following a failed attempt with nothing to do. I’m bored stiff.

3/22/2016 33 comments

Have I said too much?

by Beast 3/11/2016

written by Beast

It would seem that all of my plans and hope for a bearable future failed today, I wont bother with going further into details on this. I happened to have a meeting with my psychiatrist right after I figured that out and I just opened up and said that I cannot go on like this. I have to start preparations, my computer, hard drives, my room itself.. my online people.. things must be erased, those who knew me a little deserve to be informed if I go.. And now I am awaiting a call from an “emergency team” I don’t know what this means.. […]

3/11/2016 2 comments

Another day….

by Hampshire_Girl 3/9/2016

written by Hampshire_Girl

I’ve lost my positivity
I’m positively lost
I thought the path was obvious; it’s not
Resign myself to failed potential
The wind exits the sail
Don’t you know you took apart my soul?
Don’t you know you put me on my knees and cut my throat?
Don’t tell me that the pain will fade tomorrow
The last thing that I feel will be today

3/9/2016 3 comments

Had an argument with my brother

by blank-clutter 2/28/2016

written by blank-clutter

The subject was me and my tough time with life. He said that I’m being too hard and critical of myself. It’s very hard not to be critical of yourself when it’s your own actions which causes all the problems. How can someone who has failed in many aspects of life actually suppose to not be critical? How can they just ignore it?

You could say that you must notice and not be emotionally negative about it, but it’s my impulses and way of thinking that had made me into something I hate, it causes a negative perspective. it’s only human nature i think

2/28/2016 5 comments

I don’t know what to do anymore…

by ZeZombie 2/10/2016

written by ZeZombie

I’m sixteen…and even so I don’t know what to do with my life anymore.

I feel like I’ve failed my parents and I’ve failed myself more than ever. For the past two to three years, I’ve tried to commit suicide, but I can’t bring myself to use a knife, or to pop a pill, or even to hang myself. I used to cut, but that became a hard stop when my parents found out and I’ve been clean since then. I tried talking to my counselor, but my parents got mad because they said: “It makes us look bad!”

I’m falling apart..inch by inch. I don’t like […]

2/10/2016 4 comments

I feel so empty.

by fadingnz 2/1/2016

written by fadingnz

I tried the other night and failed miserably.

My heart beats so fast now, everything feels numb and I’m completely zoned out.
I just lay here staring at the ceiling. I’m scared. Maybe I’ll try again.

2/1/2016 7 comments

I have planned my end.

by AnotherDullUser 1/3/2016

written by AnotherDullUser

We all have a different pain threshold and I have exceeded mine. I have planned my suicide, I have written a couple of notes and I am just waiting till I am home alone and I will do it. I attempted suicide early in the week and failed. Self preservation is really hard to get over, for me it requires a lot of strength and at the time I was weak, crying, crying and more crying. But now I can feel I can get over it. I am almost looking forward to death. No more suffering or pain. I’m quite excited.

1/3/2016 8 comments

My story

by suicide.lizard 11/5/2015

written by suicide.lizard

Sorry for bothering whoever a out there but idk. Just wanna share my story I guess. I’m clinically diagnosed with very very bad depression and anxiety, ptsd, OCD, adhd, and dyslexia… I have 4 attempts. All failed of course. I mean I’m still here obviously. But like.. I’m gay. At school I get called so many names… My gf (ex now) spreads rumors that I tried to sleep with her and that I’ve slept with many girls and guys (I’m a virgin). And my life is basically a living nightmare… And I’m not sure I can go on anymore.

11/5/2015 7 comments

I can’t

by Masuani 11/3/2015

written by Masuani

Im tired of people saying everything is gonna be okay.. It’s not its really not. I’m tired so tired.. My dad won’t help me and my sister out. We’re gonna…. We’ve lost the apartment annd were gonna be put on the street.. And its like he doesn’t care. He helps sometime but this is a dire problem.. And everytime we bring up the topic he just ignores us. He pays my step moms rent and lights but he can’t even spare 350 for a deposit.. I’m tired I’m going to shove this. Knife so far up my wrist vain. They won’t be able to save […]

11/3/2015 2 comments

Double Edge of Being Alone

by basefree 9/29/2015

written by basefree

I had a domineering dictator of a dad who I was afraid of for most of my childhood. When I was alone, away from him in my room, I was at peace, there was relief. It’s here I found the freedom in being alone.

When you’re alone, you’re not beholden to anyone, you can slip into anonymity and observe. No strings. No attachment. You only have to check things past yourself.

Of course this aloneness brings loneliness and then you’re at an impasse. This is why my few relationships have failed. I want my cake and eat it to. To be alone but not lonely.

9/29/2015 2 comments

I tried and failed help me do it right this time

by ismedyl 9/15/2015

written by ismedyl

Tonight is the night I’m going round two I’m going to do it again but I didn’t do it right. Let’s be clear right now I did try and fail but I feel no remorse I was happy and content thinking I would wake up in heaven but instead I woke up in purgatory or the earth as some call it. I need to know what over the counter Meds I can take to end it right

9/15/2015 5 comments

there’s no turning it around

by melodychild 8/15/2015

written by melodychild

. there is no way I can turn my life around. I’ve failed and I’ve accepted that. I didn’t think I’d even make it this long. At some point soon, I will go into the ocean, and finally be free. Ive accepted that my time is done. we can’t all be saved. time to let go

8/15/2015 4 comments

by Bisban 7/3/2015

written by Bisban

failed and got my a** sent back to Manchester, UK …. any1 from around want to hang-out maybe?

7/3/2015 13 comments

What’s the point

by Katki 6/8/2015

written by Katki

I’m 49 – diagnosed and began treatment for depression and anxiety in my early 20s

I have 4 kids – none of my relationships worked so I am alone.

I have been on every medication there is to treat depression – nothing works very well

I don’t want to wake up anymore, been fighting this for so fucking long – my parents practically raised my kids for me – I was just not able to for the most part. I’ve failed everyone, including my Father, who died 2 years ago from cancer. I love my kids – and they’ve forgiven me, well 3 have. The 4th is estranged because […]

6/8/2015 4 comments

by lizzy 6/5/2015

written by lizzy

I am lizzy, a 32 years old woman.one month back, I had a good job.i was happy with my life and job.everything was fair and well, until a good looking guy joined my office on a high rank and started liking(?) me for no reason.most of my female colleagues ( married and unmarried)fell for him except me.when they found he was paying attention to me, they become furious and started to misbehave.

Last month i had to resign from my job for their grudge.i lost my job just because of him,inspite of being a prized employee.now i am jobless,tried many places but failed.that divorce awaiting guy now […]

6/5/2015 2 comments

Contemplating

by imysmith24 5/16/2015

written by imysmith24

I’m sitting on my bed staring at six ibuprofen tablets knowing its not enough to kill me but still wanting to take them

at the same time I’m not sure I’ll be able to cope with a failed attempt

5/16/2015 9 comments

Is life even worth it?

by GoneGirl0227 5/10/2015

written by GoneGirl0227

I’ve had ONE suicide attempt… only one. I was a strategically thought out plan, that I thought would work. Obviously it failed because I’m here typing this now. I’m not going to go into the detail of my attempt but I will say I’m 5’3 and weigh 110lbs and took 800mg of Benadryl it was 32 pills… i had 68 in the bottle… I kinda hate myself for not taking the whole bottle, but with all the research I did I REALLY wasn’t expecting to wake up the next morning, and I’m lucky I did. I almost had a a stroke, 18 years old and […]

5/10/2015 4 comments

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