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Lost and confused

by DarkCloud13 5/18/2015

written by DarkCloud13

Lost and confused…

Im not quite sure what’s wrong with me. I have been struggling with certain “awkwardness” issues my whole life, and have been extremely depressed for about the last year or so. I now feel helpless, I feel like all this struggle is pointles, and I have found myself contemplating suicide on the daily now.

I have always been known as the quite guy and have never been much of a social butterfly. It is hard for me to make new friends or to work up the courage to even call the ones I already have. Its like I have a deep fear of having […]

5/18/2015 1 comment

New here

by DarcyClay 5/17/2015

written by DarcyClay

I found this place whilst looking for a website similar to those I’ve read about in books. You know, those shitty YA novels with suicidal teens who find their suicide partners on some website called ‘smooth passages’ or whatever. Do they really exist? This it the closest thing i’ve found.. and I’m not even sure why I’m here.

5/17/2015 17 comments

if they find out

by insteadshesaid 5/17/2015

written by insteadshesaid

If they know it’s game over.

But if they don’t I can’t live with myself.

But then again, I could never live with myself.

It’s a lose lose situation.

5/17/2015 1 comment

wish me luck…

by Majid 5/17/2015

written by Majid

I am going to try to end this in less than 10 hours
need to find a specific chemical
and also I need to inject it, IV
two hard works
I don’t know how to inject IV, I’ve read some internet guide but I don’t know how useful it would be

wish me luck guys

5/17/2015 7 comments

Not ready?

by Alonelyfool 5/16/2015

written by Alonelyfool

I wish there was a pill that killed me. I just want a way out. But I’m too weak to do it myself. I always think “what about my dog?” Or “how will anyone find me if I kill myself at home?” Those are things I shouldn’t be worried about. Am I truly ready to off myself?

5/16/2015 5 comments

I’m not human

by disgusting 5/15/2015

written by disgusting

I’m not a human being to anyone. All my friends are fake and liars, full of shit, false hopes and false promises.

The guy I had fallen for bitches endlessly about how alone he is, how bad he wants someone, and how he needs to be loved bit ignores me like I don’t exist. No response means that I don’t matter and I don’t count for shit. As I never have in life.

Even people here are wrong and full of it. My only replies are on what women want and how to get a woman when I have said I am not interested in women! I […]

5/15/2015 4 comments

Midnight train

by AfflictedSmile 5/14/2015

written by AfflictedSmile

It comes to rob in the pale moon light.
resistance is futile no need to fight.

All it seeks is your life to steal.
Bringing with it unbearable pain to feel.

Darkness creeps out of the corners of your mind.
Escaping its grasp is impossible you will find.

It starts out innocent, telling you things you once knew were lies.
Unable to see truth in darkness through your own eyes.
It begins to convince you the lies are really the truth in disguise.

Your life is meaningless, how could anyone like or love you.
You attempt to deny it, but you know it’s all true.

You find yourself alone again […]

5/14/2015 3 comments

SHIT I DON’T KNOW!!

by hobojoe167 5/14/2015

written by hobojoe167

“SHIT I DON’T KNOW!!” ..? Did anyone actually say those things? Regardless of whether they did say these two, are you creating in your own head what else you want them to say about you? Do you see that you are upset because you waste your time justifying yourself to others? Do you realize that justifying yourself is grounds for more ridicule? Do you realize the importance of self-worth? Do you know the difference between an egotist and an egoist? Will you find out that one is dependent on instant gratification and the other will demand that you become competent? Do you realize the importance […]

5/14/2015 4 comments

Vanish.

by HannahGort99 5/14/2015

written by HannahGort99

I really want to give up.

I have to put up with so much, no one loves me, no one cares for me… So who would grieve when I die or disappear?

But that won’t happen. Why? Because I’m scared to. I’ve seen things that can prove that people will make shit up and jump to conclusions. For instance: I disappear, run away without any evidence to where I was going… Then people at my school would say things like this: “She got pregnant and had to find her baby daddy.” or “She decided to drop out and be a slut for her living to make enough […]

5/14/2015 8 comments

Atheism

by hiitsme0819 5/12/2015

written by hiitsme0819

ok so im an atheist myself but i find it hard to understand why most atheists find it necessary to bash religious people is it that hard to except the fact that other people have just as much of a right to believe what they want as you do if you think about it in the long run we all have the same problem after death religious people will not if know they were wrong and atheists will not know if we were right and on the same note religious people will know if they were right and atheists will know if we were wrong […]

5/12/2015 3 comments

Twenty signs of an abusive, controlling, and manipulative individual. The “Loser” may be a spouse, romantic partner, parent, sibling, or friend.

by MoonShine 5/11/2015

written by MoonShine

1. Rough Treatment “The Loser” will hurt you on purpose. If he or she hits you, twists your arm, pulls your hair, kicks you, shoves you, or breaks your personal property EVEN ONCE, drop them. Male losers often begin with behaviors that move you physically or hit the wall. Female losers often slap, kick and even punch their male partners when upset.

2. Quick Attachment and Expression “The Loser” has very shallow emotions and connections with others. One of the things that might attract you to “The Loser” is how quickly he or she says “I Love You” or wants to marry or commit to you. […]

5/11/2015 12 comments

the constant struggle

by anon419 5/7/2015

written by anon419

i keep struggling to find myself.. as if who I was completely dissolved into air and what’s left behind is a hunk of junk. today, I’m late for school again. I don’t even want to be here. all these teachers trying to educate us on nonsense that were never going to use in life. I dread school because of how stupid the administration is. I can’t wait for my junior year to be over and see how my senior year goes… if I make it…

5/7/2015 1 comment

Feigning emotion

by ceaseless_echo 5/2/2015

written by ceaseless_echo

In conversation, I constantly have to guess what emotion I’m supposed to feel, then try to act it out as best I can. I’m very afraid of being discovered in my callousness and indifference. When something bad happens, it’s scary to think that someone might find out how little I feel for others in their misfortune. Joy, of course, is completely absent.

When others are feeling emotion it seems like a curious and alien thing to me now. It’s like watching someone perform a physical feat of strength that I’ll never be able to do. I used to feel emotion in a normal way, but I […]

5/2/2015 6 comments

written for my waifu 4 laifu

by ackerman 5/1/2015

written by ackerman

I’ll follow the trace of your breath’s exhale
down a river of gold with a shattered glass sail
I’ll visit lands of sapphires and lustrous ebony
to find the taste of ambrosia equal to your beauty

I’ll write poems with glass, in words melted with sun
and sing ballads of skies for the most beautiful one
your tears are the straw I will spin into stars
to become iridescent and celestial martyrs

blessed by the presence of a prophesied king
I’ll put perennial wax on your magnificent wings
let me embellish your body with invaluable jewels
to demonstrate my undying love for you

you’re a shimmering blaze of […]

5/1/2015 2 comments

Fight For Me

by Sammi6xoxo 5/1/2015

written by Sammi6xoxo

When trust is just out of reach
And the soles of your shoes have worn from your feet
When you begin to accept defeat

I Will fight for you.

When day transcends to night
And the darkness has extinguished all light
When nothing ever feels right

I will fight for you.

If you decide to hate me
If you find that I’m disgusting
If you’re scared of what I’m thinking

I will fight for you

Because Trust still illudes me
Vulnerability is terrifying
And I know it hurts to breathe

I will fight […]

5/1/2015 12 comments

April 28, 2004 did not turn out to be my Last Day on this Earth, After All!

by transition32 4/30/2015

written by transition32

I have never told a soul in the entire world about this! I wish that I had the time to post this on April 28, which was the 11th anniversary of the day that I thought would be my last day on this Earth as I had an extreme and almost nonstop desire to hang myself, while jerking off for 2 days prior to April 28 and I couldn’t wait until I could die from this, so I would not have to think of the embarrassment of something like this, but I will be at peace! Late in the afternoon on April 28, […]

4/30/2015 4 comments

Peace Funky Town

by Bisban 4/30/2015

written by Bisban

Through the system
Into this music
The last-space
If I fall, then I go
Through the vast of the world
But what do I do
Do I really want to go to that
I fucked-up and I need to come back
But how, thrown like a Goat
Zodiac, can I, find, hurled through the planet
Santa, is coming for me
Nobody knows, nobody

I’m all the way out
What is the way out
Armitage is nowhere in sight
Android 16, blow me up, to safety
Where we are, where we at
Thinking through a step
What is the Ultron
What is the Avengers
Horn and […]

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Probably The Last Post

by impossible_girl 4/30/2015

written by impossible_girl

My first diagnosis–clinical depression–was made shortly after I turned 11 in fifth grade. My first antidepressant was Zoloft when I was starting eighth grade. I’m 34 now. My medication history reads like the shelves of a pharmacy: antidepressants, benzodiazopines, sedatives, and antipsychotics galore. When I was 25, a doctor pinned down the correct main diagnosis, and I learned what stigma among the mentally ill is like. No one likes people with Borderline Personality Disorder, no matter how unlike the stereotype that person is.

I had two periods of time when I thought I had healed. One was last summer until […]

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4/30/2015 7 comments

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Come as you are

by ElectricRain 4/29/2015

written by ElectricRain

I really don’t know why I feel the way I do. My friends are trustworthy people, I have a loving family, hobbies that I love, dreams and ambitions…on paper, nothing seems that bad at all. But for quite a few years now, without anything bad happening, and for no particular reason at all, I’ve been experiencing these very intense bouts of sadness. It’s gets so bad that my body literally becomes numb, and I find it difficult to do much of anything except cry. Sometimes, it even catches me when I’m out in public.

To me, it made sense that I should try to talk to […]

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4/29/2015 3 comments

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All I need is a way

by DA002 4/29/2015

written by DA002

At this point all I need is a guaranteed method and I am doing it. I have already accepted everything that comes along with it. All I need is a way to do it but I cant find one that is quick and guaranteed.

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4/29/2015 4 comments

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