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another piece of writing today,

by quietcheep 4/26/2016

written by quietcheep

there is nothing in me but the desire for people to be people, for people to see people as people, and to know that this was and is a world worth fighting for.

there is hope, my god, for all the times we’ve been stubborn enough to destroy it, we have maintained it in equal measure. there are people, real people, out there with home in their hearts and you in their future and believe me, dear, they’ll love you as I love you: fully and deeply and truly, a bond between the living, the existing, the real.

oh, little one, if only you could know how […]

4/26/2016 1 comment

Talking to my disease – Part I

by NeverFitting 4/12/2016

written by NeverFitting

Mood – Numb.

Conscienceless in thought – Extreme low.

Mental – Cognitive.

Physical – Certain areas of my back, neck, and face are screaming.

Emotional – Someone hold me and lie to me tell me it is going to be okay.

So I had an idea to write to my disease and see if it could respond. I want to know what it wants… I do not know. I am 31 or 32 years old I do not even know without thinking and I currently can’t really do that for the fear it will make me worse off. Get fired from every job I get because I have an “authority […]

4/12/2016 4 comments

Protected: The longest post you’ll ever read, so just don’t read it.

by whiskered-fish 4/4/2016

written by whiskered-fish

There is no excerpt because this is a protected post.

4/4/2016 23 comments

Here again

by Fadeto_black 2/19/2016

written by Fadeto_black

I’ve become a different person to who I was when I first came here and that’s a good thing. I still crave emotion and pain and fear as a a substitute for the other emotions missing from my life, but I no longer contemplate killing myself. I don’t know how, I haven’t received therapy, I haven’t changed much around me, but I’ve grown because I stuck it out and even now things aren’t perfect but I’ve been able to help and understand so many other people because I didn’t let myself die.

please take the time to reconsider, things do change for the better or worse, […]

2/19/2016 0 comment

So Long… For Now

by mranony 2/3/2016

written by mranony

I am so tired of feeling depressed. So tired of running away. Just so tired.

I wanna do something about it for once. Despite my love for death, I can’t help yearning for change.

I have loved death for a long time now and I think it’s time to move on.

But in the same time, I don’t want to forget about death. I’ll still love death but I’ll try living better than this.

My life from now on can consist of ups and downs. But I’ll try facing it like a boss. Because you know what? I am the boss of my own life. And I don’t want […]

2/3/2016 4 comments

No longer lonely on the surface

by simplicity35 2/1/2016

written by simplicity35

Things have changed ever so slightly. As I feel myself pulling back from all the friends that have supported me throughout high school, and losing touch even more with my true best friend, who lives long distance, things are getting better. I met a girl this year who has really changed me for the better, and is a true friend I can rely on and makes me happy for once and allows me to have fun. I just dont ever think I can get to that deep emotional level where I can share about my depression and anxiety with her. Its hard, and eats away […]

2/1/2016 3 comments

yoooooo

by lilypaddd 12/22/2015

written by lilypaddd

whenever i try to connect with someone i fail. i don’t know why i even try. then i get pissed off, either at the other person, or myself.

people bore me or intimidate me.

either way, i end up questioning myself because i don’t know why i find it so hard to relate to people.

i’m sick of people telling me i should change though.

a psychologist i saw lately told me i need to work on my communication skills, but it’s frustrating because i am who i am. i can try to change for the better, sure, but what if it’s genetic and i’m just legitimately stupid? i can’t do […]

12/22/2015 2 comments

I’m not dead, if anybody cares.

by thelost 12/11/2015

written by thelost

It’s Hard

It’s hard, nearly impossible, to describe the way one feels when they are with her. It cannot be grasped from a single emotion or moment in time, but comes from knowing her. How when you talk to her, you can be honest, but you cannot be ignorant. Or the little jokes and common things that always seem to be there. A humor with the occasional sadistic twist. Difficulty to make her smile, even in the best of times. Her insistence on making everyone wear a seatbelt in her car, no matter what the distance may be. Something that isn’t quite being cold, but isn’t […]

12/11/2015 2 comments

WHEEEEN?

by tteia 11/28/2015

written by tteia

how do I figure out, what my purpose is? i just need a sign. just to let me no why I was put here. cause at this point, I don’t even think there is a reason I was put here. just a mistake my parents made. how come over heard so many people say they’ve received signs, and they’re life has changed for the better now? Or that just wonke up one day, and they didn’t want to die anymore. well why can’t that happen to me? I know I have to be “patient”, but I feel like I’ve been patient a little too long, […]

11/28/2015 4 comments

Grey

by Trix 11/25/2015

written by Trix

Usually I can’t cry. Today I managed to a couple of times. Once was when I tried to write a short message to someone. I couldn’t understand the words well enough to construct a short sentence. I couldn’t write, I couldn’t speak to them. I cried because I’d lost so much. The tears were loud and I was sensitive to noises today, so it sounded like screams ringing in my ears. I lay with my hands clamped against my mouth to stop myself screaming from the pain of the noise and depression. I lay for a long time. After an hour or two I fell […]

11/25/2015 2 comments

Lost Soul

by jcub91 11/22/2015

written by jcub91

I’m not entirely sure when it happened, probably somewhere in between losing my best friend(whom I loved, and thought was my soulmate) and getting involved with drinking and smoking weed on a regular basis; I lost my soul. I really don’t have any friends and I don’t enjoy spending time with people most of the time. I like my alone time, not because I’m a loner but for the simple reason it seems impossible to make friends who share similar interests and aren’t complete assholes. It just seems like everyone is selfish and act like they are so much better. I didn’t grow up in […]

11/22/2015 3 comments

Consolation…

by Shards 11/4/2015

written by Shards

The worst part of my situation, engulfing emotional pain from loss of love (and I am just below 40, not a teenager), is that I find no consolation. I guess I’ve most often been an agnostic concerning most things both religious, esoteric, “supernatural”, etc. So many days and sleepless nights I have prayed to, like I think Diem S Sky said, a “nameless entity” for something. To a god or goddess, dead family or forefathers, angels, demons, spirits, just *anyone* or *anything* that might have heard me. And I’ve felt nothing. I’ve asked for so many things. I know there are only three options for […]

11/4/2015 8 comments

It’s been a while…

by thegirlwiththecinderblockgarden 10/14/2015

written by thegirlwiththecinderblockgarden

I don’t know how long it’s been since I posted something here, but it’s been some time…
I should probably start with ‘hi’. I felt the need to write something today. Not for any particular reason, I just want to write something.
Things are… Let’s go with okay. It’s been a lot of ups and downs recently. Let’s start with the ups:
I’ve moved on to a new area of education, left some friends behind, and made a few new ones. It’s all for the better, these new friends seem to be better people.
I ahould be starting counselling soon, which is good, because […]

10/14/2015 7 comments

Buried Beneath

by Quiet 10/5/2015

written by Quiet

There are these layers within me. The first one is an ugly smile. I wear it when I can.

The second is my humour. Its black and depressive but effective.

The third is a wall of nothing. It stands there as a last outer defense against this world and all of its people.

The fourth is tears. Those pathetic single-tear dramatisations which reveals and inspires the shame of my being.

The fifth is weeping. The kind when you try to keep silent so nobody hears you but can all see the hiccups of your chest. It lasts for a lifetime. Its the thickest, but most fragile wall. It makes […]

10/5/2015 0 comment

Good Enough

by Take a Deep Breath 10/3/2015

written by Take a Deep Breath

Im sorry. I’m not the son my father wishes I could be, or the daughter my mother deserves. I have been, and always will be the second choice because I AM NOT GOOD ENOUGH. I’m not kind enough, not smart enough for my boyfriend, not strong enough for every one and their hardships, not popular enough, not worth enough. I’m not worthy of you guys- all of you are so courageous and talented and intelligent and thoughtful. I don’t deserve you- and besides, you all have each other. You don’t need me- You all have each other. No one ever has, and I just need […]

10/3/2015 13 comments

Protected: Let Me Breathe My True Self

by killswitchon 9/11/2015

written by killswitchon

There is no excerpt because this is a protected post.

9/11/2015 7 comments

It’s been a while…

by johnwhogivesashit 8/4/2015

written by johnwhogivesashit

Its been a while since I thought about suicide. I had a panic the other day tho. I went and got some help in july. Went to this psychiatrist and got some ativan for anxiety and he gave me welbutrin for depression. I told him I didn’t feel depressed anymore. Just normal sadness ocassionionly. Lots of anxiety but not the suicidal solution that used to be right there just last year. Idk. I don’t think I’m depressed. The welbutrin doesn’t do shit as far as I can tell and this is like 2 and a half weeks in. I think I have add. I can’t […]

8/4/2015 2 comments

Not sure

by moshmesoftly 7/27/2015

written by moshmesoftly

I don’t have anyone and I’m just not sure why. I try so hard and get nothing in return. It’s gotten to me recently and I’ve come to the realization that I have no one and nothing. I feel like I’m done for good this time. Maybe it’s for the better.

7/27/2015 2 comments

I’ve found my passion.

by justanothergirl09 7/7/2015

written by justanothergirl09

*From left to right; Xiumin (EXO-M), Luhan (EXO-M), Kris (EXO-M), Suho (EXO-K), Lay (EXO-M), Baekhyun (EXO-K), Chen (EXO-M), Chanyeol (EXO-K & my 2nd bias), D.O. (EXO-K & my 3rd bias), Tao (EXO-M & my bias), Kai (EXO-K) and Sehun (EXO-K & maknae)

*Luhan and Kris left the group last year (2014).

*EXO-K promotes in Korea, while EXO-M promotes in China.

My life has gotten better. I’m not sure if I’m still depressed but I can say I’ve been pretty happy these past few weeks. I’m not gonna lie, though. […]

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7/7/2015 6 comments

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by Rotted_Flesh 6/21/2015

written by Rotted_Flesh

I’m not afraid of death anymore. The inevitable panic stage of dying is what scares me the most. I know if I swallow a bunch of pills, have my sweaty, shaky hand on the grip of a pistol pressing against my right temple, or if I decide to hang myself, those moments of waiting to die will be the absolute worst. All I know is that I need an escape, I need out, I need out of my body and my mind, need transcendence.

I’d like to think that reincarnation is real and maybe in another life I’ll be wiser and not make the same mistakes […]

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6/21/2015 2 comments

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