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Reasons

by violinplayer22 8/6/2015

written by violinplayer22

It seems like everyone has a good reason to commit suicide. Cyberbullying, bullying, leaked photos, bad home life, no friends, and the list goes on and on. I have none of those. I’m just a normal teenager, with a nack for getting into trouble, a soft spot for people in need, and a family that I could never just abandon. Yet I desperately want to. But I cant. Do you know how much a little oblong shaped solution to my problem costs? Way more than a 15 year old who babysits can afford.

Anyway, I’m getting off topic. My reason is simple. I wasn’t made for […]

8/6/2015 3 comments

What Am I?

by Heiwana 8/6/2015

written by Heiwana

Last month I and my friend had a fight and at some point he asked me why I do this, if it was to seek attention. And since I am thinking: Am I really depressed?

This is getting really confusing and I just don’t know what is real anymore. I barely sleep, I barely eat, food doesn’t taste good anymore, I can’t concentrate, I can’t have fun while I play my favourite games, I used to love reading and writing and drawing but know I don’t. Everything bores me and everything is so exhausting. Sometimes I have suicidal thoughts and sometimes I cut myself. And after […]

8/6/2015 4 comments

“tphg” if you’re reading this… It’s not too late

by jadedkeizy 8/5/2015

written by jadedkeizy

I normally rummage through this page reading people’s stories. The stories on this site have had a subtle effect on rendering my depressive states managable. I come here when I am about to flip the switch. And when I do, I feel like I’ve found peace with myself. Ughh sometimes I feel like a masochist. Living vicariously through people’s pain. I’m sorry but that’s what keeps me dangling on a soon-to-rapture string fastened to a shitty purposeless existence.

My heart goes out to an SP member named tphg. I come from a Third world country in Afrika that you’d be hard-pressed to locate on the world […]

8/5/2015 3 comments

Empty

by meg3323 8/5/2015

written by meg3323

I feel nothing. But at the same time I feel everything. Basically all I can think about is committing suicide. I just want to disappear. I want it all to be gone. I don’t understand what goes on in my mind. I want to be gone. I’m sorry mom and dad. I know I said I would never kill myself I just have to. You want me to be happy and by doing this I will be happy. It’s not your fault. I know I should be greatful for all that I have and I am but all those things don’t make me not want […]

8/5/2015 1 comment

Random vent

by Alonelyfool 7/30/2015

written by Alonelyfool

Hadn’t been on here in awhile. Hadn’t cut in awhile either. I guess I was doing good. But now I’m sinking.

I just feel like ITS ME! Everything that goes wrong is because of me. I’m always the guilty party. When I try so hard.

I tell ppl all the time that Imma fckd up person. That they shouldn’t be involved with me. I can’t possibly be anything good in your life.

It’s hard to explain.

7/30/2015 0 comment

Hurts

by thehusk 7/22/2015

written by thehusk

Round and round it all goes in my head. I don’t think I can live a meaningful life. And that hurts. So I think I want to end it. But that would destroy my family, and I can’t do that to them. So I’m left with this pain. Which just feels……unbearable. And I can’t think of anything that will make it stop. I would cry, but it doesn’t help.

So, this pain, for the rest of my life. It seems to get worse as I get older, and further away from a time when I had hope.

I guess the only question is how I want to […]

7/22/2015 1 comment

Over with depression.

by Costy 7/20/2015

written by Costy

I can’t believe that I suddently recovered from my depression. My insomnia starts to fade away little by little. I want to say farewell to you guys 🙂 Thank you for all the support. I have learned a lot from you. I realised that there is something divine out there, it can’t be everything just random. Killswitchon, the big prize goes to you my friend. Get a job, find a nice girl, get married and make some little killswitches . You are really a nice guy. Take care of youself. I am going to erase all my depressed posts and leave this one. I love […]

7/20/2015 10 comments

by LostNConfused 7/18/2015

written by LostNConfused

I’ve never posted anything about my depression online for everyone to see. Hell, I’ve never even told anyone about it for fear they’ll look at me differently. Anyway, here goes. I’m eighteen years old and there’s not a day that goes by I don’t think of killing myself. The worst part is, there’s not just one reason or a specific traumatic event I can blame it on. Honestly, my issues don’t seem half as bad as the majority and I know I should be thankful and appreciative but I can’t. I’m just sad. All the fucking time. I used to think it was because my […]

7/18/2015 4 comments

I can’t take the silence

by disgusting 7/12/2015

written by disgusting

I hate when he doesn’t talk to me and I feel like it’s because he can’t stand me loving him. I know I’m too hideous to love but I can’t stand being shut out. I might as well confess somthing since it will never happen anyway, because I’ll kill myself at some point this year. But I used to, since the age of 5, occasionally make plans for building a robot, because I knew even that young, that that would be the only way I’d ever have a male companion. The first Terminator movie didn’t come out until I was about 7. Over the years, […]

7/12/2015 0 comment

by deerdezz 7/12/2015

written by deerdezz

It feels like nothings really changed. Get hyped over things that peak my interest express nothing towards everything else. It gets easier to talk about my problems or health issues and to have analytical jam sessions with doctors, determining what kind of mental issue ive got. Im so open to the not so pretty and just addressing the existence of things like depression or anger-fueled violence that it deters others from really talking to me….but as the time goes by its bothering me less and less. I care less and less. Its kinda good but at times i worry if that mentality will manifest into […]

7/12/2015 0 comment

House

by hopeisafourletterword 7/11/2015

written by hopeisafourletterword

To kill time I binge-watched all 8 seasons of House on netflix. That show basically looks life, death, pain, sickness, grief, mental illness, addiction, lost love, anything else you can think of straight in the face and just puts it out there and really makes you think about how you would deal with that kind of stuff. Wilson was my absolute favorite. His and House’s friendship is the kind that’s excruciatingly hard to find and towards the end of the series House pretty much implied that he is nothing without Wilson. In one of the last episodes he goes on this epic tirade where he […]

7/11/2015 1 comment

I want to get to know you.

by AfflictedSmile 7/10/2015

written by AfflictedSmile

First, who is your daddy and what does he do. Oh sorry, that’s Kindergarten Cop. (I’m silly, I know)

So the other day I was reading through posts here on SP like normal, and I read something someone posted and it really got to me. Because I could relate to her for one, but the way she spoke through her words and what she said just got the best of me. I mean my heart goes out to all of you, but this person really grabbed me. I don’t know how to use this site well. I know how to post, read posts and look at […]

7/10/2015 0 comment

hi again…

by CrimsonDream 7/7/2015

written by CrimsonDream

Well looks like I’m back, you can never truly escape depression. Its just a horrible thing. It clings onto you and hides until it feels like striking sometimes it never goes away. I guess mine never went away. It’s amazing. I’m 15 now. Been a while since I’ve been on here. Ha.

7/7/2015 2 comments

beneath the skin

by ayoush 7/6/2015

written by ayoush

She dreams of a day when she won’t have to cry herself to sleep.
Staring at the scars on her wrists she knows this is not who she wants to be.
Another night all alone with her thoughts, dwelling on the questions that race through her head.
Scared to sleep, scared to wake up & face the day when she can’t forget the things that they said.

No one knows all the weight that she holds when she feels alone.
The memories, they haunt her.
No one sees all the pain she brings everywhere she goes.
She feels they’ll never want her.

7/6/2015 2 comments

just read and try to understand.

by cant.fixme 7/2/2015

written by cant.fixme

When the sun goes down
and the sky is full of stars

Would you let me in
would you hold me thigh

When its dark inside
and i cant find myself

Would you call my name
and make it feel alright

When i fall back down
would you bring me up

would you kiss me right
and make me feel ALIVE
_Y.T

7/2/2015 2 comments

by Nihilism000 6/27/2015

written by Nihilism000

Have you become so focused on finding a way to get over depression that you have forgotten who you are? Like a hero that goes on a hard quest and becomes evil in the progression of that quest because he/she is so focused on that goal that nothing else matters to them.

6/27/2015 14 comments

Most of the request from GCHQ to google relate to suicide suspects- a huge part of the reason I want to commit suicide is due to the snooping world

by suicidesojourn 6/25/2015

written by suicidesojourn

Bollocks to GCHQ people who want to kill themselves due to the intrusiveness and ill autonomy of life want to snoop on us who feel naked, exposed, shamed and guilty with a history that included over zealous parents, another own goal for the assholes working for government who has destroyed america through drugs, illegal or otherwise, and the looting of the taxpayer and the economy. retards in hell deserve to leave a hell of a future for their kids in the future- what goes around comes around- twats

6/25/2015 0 comment

Time does not heal

by Katki 6/21/2015

written by Katki

Why do people say that? Time heals all wounds… classic quote that means shit. Dad, you died 2 years ago, and today is ‘your’ day .. I can’t celebrate it anymore, and I miss you so much. But 2 years.. no relief. That knife that twists in my stomach when I think about how much I wish we could trade places – it still hurts with the same intensity as the day you passed. I can’t stop hurting inside, I can’t stop wishing it was me instead of you – I don’t understand WHY God took you .. you are a thousand times more important, […]

6/21/2015 2 comments

Hopeless and a failure

by ordenroo 6/15/2015

written by ordenroo

I have never really had any friends my whole life. Ive dealt with depression and ocd for 4 years, suicide idealization, i just graduated high school last year and now in college. Still no friends, i ruin my everyones life. My 21 year old sister does not love/care for me. My mom.. Most of all i have hurt her and stressed her out all my life. My dads gone and i wish i could have died with w/ him. I mess up everything i do. I am selfish, weak, and a person that should have not been born. Im 18 years old – a female […]

6/15/2015 1 comment

Just pretended it

by Listen 6/11/2015

written by Listen

In the name of an addiction my best friend taught me to follow

I tried to stay positive even though I pretended it

It helped cause at home I was lacking a happy ending

Growing never knowing what the present was doing

Living life like a big mystery.

18, I knew I was done with it.

I cracked, cleaned up, and packed my bags.

Florida bound.

Swore I would never go back.

It’s a shame how fast time has passed.

Movin’ so fast

It’s like I’m moving at lightspeed

Slowdown..

You need to slowdown every once in awhile sometimes

To see how the world goes round

Cause you don’t know, you don’t

No, you don’t need to go so fast

6/11/2015 2 comments

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