Lately things haven’t been looking up to me. It’s been brining me down to my lowest point, to the point were I don’t feel like my family or friends care about me anymore and I want to die. Everyone always compares me to someone I’m not and that makes me wish I was someone else. I wrote my suicide note out to my closest friends incase I make the drastic decision. I know who to send the message to and hopefully they will allow me to go in peace. I’m not taking my life anytime soon (I don’t think) but if things don’t look up […]
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Idk. Reading stuff like this seems to make me laugh sometimes. Hopefully it’ll help someone feel more okay today.
http://www.fmylife.com
I know I’m new to this place, but I just want to say that every freaking one of you on this site are fucking amazing people- you’re just fucking amazing people who have been through, and are going through, one hell of a lot. And I wish I could take all of your pain from you, but I cannot; however, I can hopefully plant a tiny seed of hope in your hearts by saying I’m here for you all, through thick and thin. Keep on keeping on!
It’s been … Around 3 days since I stopped taking my medication.. I’ve been feeling really lightheaded throughout the day and I guess it’s something normal? I stopped because I dont think it’s doing any good to me or changing any thoughts of suicide and self harm. Of course my family and doctors don’t know that I’ve stopped, but my family has noticed me not feeling too good so I just told them the truth that I’ve been having some headaches and feeling lightheaded and whatnot but they don’t really give it too much thought. I’m going back to lying to my friends and family […]
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By the rules of society I’m the definition of evil… I want people dead I want myself dead… I want this world to burn away… But only because of the torment me and countless others go through daily… And I’m reminded of how the true monsters are on the other side of the websites, the texts, the notes, the rumors, everything… It’s sad watching others be hurt like that… I’ve gotten used to it but even I lay here everyday and think of how nice the sweet release of death would be… So I’m here to say it’s too hard for me… Soon probably I’ll […]
Hi guys,
so it’s decided tonight is my last night. Tomorrow evening I am staying in a motel room & am going to hang myself there (so my family don’t have to find my body). I really wanted a more painless method than hanging but after researching and researching it on CO poisoning or the helium exit bag these options are too logistically difficult for me. I feel quite happy right now knowing that it’ll soon be over, but will no doubt be extremely nervous tinorrow. I also feel extremely guilt ridden knowing this is really going to hurt the ones I love. I try to […]
Hi #killrz it is time to celebrate my oil change, new license, new passport, insurance, and hopefully an etest and stickers. It’s going to be a great fuckin’ day on the road. I’m here in a Tim Horton’s in Barrie just chillin’ with my orange juice about to sign up for some auto insurance bitches. Fuck yeah huh?
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=j-Bf1tJVouc
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just wanted to thank everyone for their kind words. You are all good people I’m sure. I’m checking out tonight. Hopefully it will be peaceful and go without any problems. I’ve reached my official breaking point. Be cool and Semper Fi.
Well today started out today then it got worse. the thought of me losing him. Why is it that some of the best things in my life never seem to last. I mean we’ve been dating for a few months and now due to him losing his apartment and job from reasons beyond his control. He might have to move back in with his parents in another state more than 5,000 miles away. If this does happen I’m thinking about cutting him off completely. I honestly can not deal with any more heartbreak and I don’t want both of us to suffer by dealing with […]
my mind isnt racing, and it feels nice. i think alot of my problems are indeed mental illness. im working on taking my meds consistently, and also getting my health issues worked on also. But i realize that my mood swings, racing mind, and all that is a part of mental illness that i refused to acknowledged. I chose to hopefully be a high functioning bipolar person (and keep working on my health issues). i hope this mood stays. it is such a relief. (i still miss my libido though).
I’m telling everyone about this. I have support coming to me from all different angles. I’ve never felt as loved as I do now. The last period of my life I was suicidal I kept it all to myself whereas this time I am sharing my suffering and it feels good. I am showing I am imperfect, I am accepting support and advice. I have let my guards down.
Day 3 of my meds today, I am actually feeling pretty good this morning apart from I still have really bad insomnia – only 3 hours sleep or so last night. It’s the rolling around waiting for […]
Day Three of this forum. I have got some anti-depressants also typically prescribed for people with PTSD. I think that pretty much sums up what I have. Extreme anxiety, constantly stuck in ‘Fear’ mode – fight or flight.
I’ve fought the system for a long time, I’ve been anti-medication but I am honestly grateful now hopefully for a bit of relief. I know the meds come with potential side-effects and I am already experiencing some nausea but hoping that in the long run the good outweighs the bad.
I am also going to have some counselling sessions set up for me. So let’s watch this space. For […]
Those who consider suicide, will you leave some money for your relatives so that they could pay for your funeral? I will go to an interview soon and hopefully get a job. I’m planning to work and earn enough money so that it would have enough for my family to pay for the funeral and I wouldn’t be a burden to them after my death.
Today is my 21st birthday … For some this day is a celebration , a time to enjoy with friends and cherrish it ppl that you consider precious and they consider you in the same magnitude…… But for me this day is one were i reflect on the things i am not doing in my life and i should been doing. I reflect on the causes of my loneliness, the will to go forward that seems to be slipping away and unhappiness/depression that i keep in secret , mostly because i have no one to talk to … I see no […]
This post started as my first reply to another post, I am just copying it in. I’m not rich but I’m certainly not poor. I made this account just to reply to you, and im using my username that I have everywhere. I don’t want to be anonymous. My life was just how you describe yours, playing games, watching random tv shows, maybe some youtube, or streams, and chatting with friends online. I have lived 90% of my life online for the past few years. Unlike you I was satisfied with that, I do not want what others seem to want in life. I don’t […]
I was active on this site for a while beginning last fall, but haven’t been here in a couple of months or so. Quite a bit has happened since then, mostly on the job front. I left my workplace of eight years during the first week of April and things have been a bit of a whirlwind. People who have read my previous posts or spoke with me in the past may remember that my job was a large source of my unhappiness. I’m now working somewhere else and it’s a better job per se, but there are plusses and minuses. Strange as it is, I’ve found myself […]
I cant take it , depression , loneliness , suicidal thoughts , im finally caving in i give up ……hopefully i can go thru with it this time and end this loner life that live with depression
Everyday I go through the motion’s in my life , the will to live is just not in me anymore. Alone, going through depression it seems like the only thing that can get a tiny small smirk on my face seems to be when I try to think about what if I was happy ,what if I had that someone special in my life, what if I was special to someone else or I was needed but I get mad at myself for even thinking that fit giving myself false hope that just doesn’t exist. I bottle my emotions in until night time where my […]
It’s weird I usually never even leave my house and when I do and when I get to see people that I used to know I feel so useless. I really didn’t want to go to this family event today but I thought that someone who I actually care about was going to be there. 12 hours wasted. I even got offered a beer and if my mother wasn’t standing right there I would have fucking accepted because I was so stressed out just by being there. I kept to myself and tried not to say much because I had nothing useful to say. I […]