My friends found out I was depressed but haven’t done anything about it and barely even acknowledge it. I absolutely can not stand when they used the word depressed or bipolar to describe how they are feeling when they will never feel what it’s like to have a mental illness as horrible as depression. Here I am they’re best friend suffering in silence and they just laugh at the word I can’t stand it
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Things falling apart for me: Not getting paid from 2nd job unless I get a Chase account, that I can’t get due to horrible credit score. Main job has to switch payment system so there could be a huge 3 week interruption. This leave me with $0 to live on. Can’t rent a place now!!!
Things fall apart for Man of My Dreams: his life long disability that he has received from birth suddenly gets cut off without warning or reason. He will be homeless and I don’t have a place to offer him, and can’t get a place with my jobs unable to pay me. […]
I don’t think I can continue like this. im in so much pain all the time. I want it to stop. I want to die but I don’t want to hurt anyone. maybe I could just get in a horrible accident and god will let me die
So I experienced a massive cardiac episode two years ago last May. My arteries in my chest literally tore themselves apart. I was on the table for ten hours, I was cliniy dead for half an hour during that time, no brain activity, no machine, 42deg and dead.
It was nice, I have had major depression for more than ten years. I have horrible paranoia of my wife who is 2000 miles away and I can’t control these horrible emotional outbursts anymore. I am a horrible person sometimes and I can only sit in the back of my head and watch the pain it causes.
I am […]
Had an experience today that reminded me of how horrible people are. I don’t understand why people harbor such intense hatred for the homeless. I don’t get how people could be so selfish to the point they’re willing to screw everyone around them.
Am I the only one to contemplate suicide based on philosophical considerations?
written by ThePhilosopher
Compared to some of the stories of unspeakable suffering on this site mine may seem almost frivolous at first glance but I assure you it is not frivolous to me.
I was born with a brain that seems tailor-made for science and philosophy. As a boy of 11 I acquired books about physics, cosmology and philosophy. I can’t say that I understood everything at that age (I am not a genius) but I understood quite a bit, certainly enough to get me hooked for life.
I was especially fascinated by questions about the origin of it all (Why is there anything at all and not nothing?) and […]
I was planning on dying this week. But I didn’t have the balls to do it, or the opportunity really. So now I’m alive, I haven’t exactly decided to live but yet here I am. Now I have no idea how to go forward. Work starts on Monday and I’m gonna have to be happy. can’t really be depressed around little kids. I’m scared. So scared to move on. I worked for a summer camp and did horrible, the lady implied that I shouldn’t be working with kids, yet here I am. All the jobs I have lined up for the fall are with kids. […]
I can’t do this anymore. There’s no point in living if you don’t feel alive. For as long as I can remember I’ve been fighting depression and struggling with poverty and I just don’t care anymore. I’ve had nothing but horrible, humiliating, miserable life experiences. My biological family is beyond dis functional. I don’t really have friends just acquaintances. The only man I love hates me and wants nothing to do with me. I went to college and still can’t get a decent job. My best friend in college died. I have Major Depression, PTSD, and Agoraphobia. I am physically repulsive and it would take […]
How would other people describe your personality? I know most of us on here probably have self esteem issues, so try & look through others eyes not your own 🙂
My doctor said that those of us who suffer from suicidal thoughts tend to have similar traits & not be horrible, selfish people that others think we are. Would also be interested in ages.
Me: quiet, conscientious, kind-hearted, nature & animal lover, submissive (I.e not dominant, will put other people first). 24 years old.
Thanks for sharing 🙂
I want to kill the fucking voices in my head, I feel suffocated
They love to torture me until I sleep.
I want to be alright, I really do but they yell at me horrible things.
“WHORE” “UGLY” “WORTHLESS” “YOU SHOULD DIE NO ONE IS GOING TO CARE” “INVISIBLE” “POINT LESS” “WASTE” “FRUSTATED” “TALENT LESS” “KEEP CUTTING, KEEP STARVING KEEP SELF HARMING YOU REALLY DESERVE IT” “YOU ARE A SUICIDE PSYCHO ***** THAT’S NOT GOING TO CHANGE”
I just want them to stop, I’m not that kind of mean person. JUST STOP.
i stopped smoking weed cause everyone told me that was the reason I was depressed. But now, I feel overwhelmed with anxiety all the time and I have such horrible violent nightmares all the time. My bf always plays really loud violent games all the time, and I wish I could shoot my head off.
Guys i am going through relationship problems from last some yeas. I am living on hopes but hopes not working. I have tried all possible ways to be alive to keep me away from negative thoughts.
But somehow i have decided to end up with ma all hope with ma life today evening.
Some time before i had posted for suggestions to help me to choose ma way way to die. But m scared. M not getting what to do. Please guys i really need something to keep ma hopes. Please help me out please. M dying inside. And the moster of thoughts of […]
Not that I want to hurt anyone my choice isn’t to hurt the people most suicidal people have thoughts of hurting other people not me though….Maybe tomorrow will be different if you actually open your eyes and see how your living don’t have the same thoughts about the darkness an pain try to reach out of the darkness into the light suicide isn’t the way out its just a break from the least horrible things once you die you have nothing and cant be anything anymore because you wanted to get away….I know how it is to be afraid of your own mind I understand. To feel like […]
If I see somebody on hear talking about killing themselves I of course think about the method. Hm I say wow why would this 15 year old want to take a bottle of tylonol. “That’s awful. Hey don’t use tylonol kid…it just kills your liver and you go thru a week of organ failure regretting your attention seeking shit or really wishing you were dead already. Slow and horrible or quick and painless. Suicide is a choice. It’s the ultimate choice. The only choice you make by and for yourself. I believe in choice. I also believe almost nobody chooses slow and terrible as a […]
2012. 2012 was the first time I came here. First time I set my eyes on the town called Elliot Lake. Unimpressive at first glance, and even at third. But it had a way of growing on me. Like a bad dream that had an encouraging meaning underneath the fear. The rehab center looks just like how I left it – except at night it seems to have a haunting glow of a bittersweet nostalgia.
The Oaks center. The family program. If there’s rehab for growing up in a fucked up broken home – this is the one. Program was a joke and it was horrible […]
Its to much to bear. I’m a terrible son and a horrible friend for turning to this. My life’s been going down for awhile and I just want to end it. I know when I go I’ll go to heaven but are there any Christians on here to talk to. Or just people who know what I’m going through. Plz respond
If you sit waiting for peace you will never find it. If you sit around simply hoping that life will get better that you will get a sign that there is a reason to continue, you will get nothing. ACTIONS, very important thing here. Without that you can’t expect anything. You have to do things to better your life and it’s not gonna happen over night maybe not in a week or a month or 5 months. Just think of it in terms of losing weight and getting toned, you can’t expect to be completely in shape in a month especially if you haven’t fully […]
I have very little sympathy for Bobbi Kristina’s family. They forced that poor girl to stay alive far too long after it was determined there was nothing they could do to save her. Whether she did it to herself or if her boyfriend killed her, whether she wanted to die or not, it’s safe to say that she suffered through 3 long years of unimaginable grief. I’m more inclined to believe that she killed herself, but that’s just me.
If I were her, all I would want is to be with my mother, not wasting a hospital bed while my family begs me to make […]
I am not doing so well, my mother is dying and I am having a hard time dealing with it. She has been my life for a very long time and I made sure she was fine each and every day. She is 78 and now has heart problems and pneumonia which are making it hard for her to fight off the infection. I have been depressed for some time now and have been weighing ways to kill myself. I had finally decided on sleeping pills but after reading so many horror stories about people who take 30 or so pills and they don’t die- would […]
I’m scared because the only thing that has kept me from going over the edge are my boys and it seems lately that isn’t enough. I know those feelings are selfish and they make me feel like a horrible person and mother. Which just pushes me further to edge. I’ve tried to talk to a friend and I just keep being told that I’m fine, maybe I’m PMSing. I can’t find anyone to talk to me seriously and I’m afraid that if I talk to a doctor they’ll take my kids away. I don’t want to die but I can’t live like this.