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by born to die 12/27/2012

written by born to die

another sleepless night with crying, screaming into my pilllow and suffering 🙁 i wrote this in the night…. hope you like it.

fires ablaze within my eyes

a smile concealing all my lies screaming, begging calling out

a final frantic desperate shout.

i dont know why i feel this way

i never asked for pain, tears or suffering i was normal at one point in life

i was full of smiles, laughter and happiness

i wish i knew the cause of this pain to find a way to make it all stop.

have you ever felt like giving up this fight

have you ever slit your wrists or

have you ever picked up a knife

i […]

12/27/2012 3 comments

Can I die

by allalone15 12/12/2012

written by allalone15

My life sucks!!!! I go to this school were I go in twice a day and I have no friends. I always spend my time either at home or school. I have no social life. My mom is married to an asshole. My mom is pregnant and they dont even notice when im gone. Whenever my mom fights with her husband he always ends up hurting her. I wish I could help her but what happens I get yelled at. My other family live in Oregon, Montana, and Mexico. I never see them I miss them so much. No one even notices me. I […]

12/12/2012 6 comments

Suicide note. but don’t worry, i’m not going anywhere tonight

by imsodone12 12/11/2012

written by imsodone12

so, today i felt like i had to write my suicide note because i was feeling really crappy. Â i don’t know if Â id ever do it, but i had the biggest urge to tonight. so here it is, just so i could tell someone.

mom, i love you and i always will. you were always there for me, always helped me with anything. but i dont think i could be helped this time. this was my own choice.
i have always wanted to leave. i was always forcing that smile and laugh, just so you thought i was happy. i was never happy. i don’t know […]

12/11/2012 2 comments

I Deserve Better Finally Kicks In!

by plain jane 12/9/2012

written by plain jane

Strangest thing…. today when I was brushing my teeth it just sunk in. This thought…. I said it aloud then. I DESERVE BETTER! Then I said it again and again. I think I finally believe it. The thing with me is that, sometimes my feel good revelations are short lived. Until someone knocks my pack of cards by a light flick. I can’t say this too will stick. But get it!

Yesterday I googled a camp song I once heard… No body loves me, everybody hates me, I think I’ll go eat worms…. and so on… It made me laugh, because I was indulging in self-pity. […]

12/9/2012 4 comments

I am the biggest ***** to breathe air!

by ptallo 12/2/2012

written by ptallo

The biggest piece of bullshit I have ever heard, is when someone tries to comfort me. I know that sounds weird, but maybe oddly true. Only one person on the world has ever been able to make me feel not alone, but she doesn’t know I am in love with her. But that is besides the point. Everyone else, when they comfort me, seems to have ulterior motives. Maybe they feel obligated. Maybe they are trying to stroke their own ego. Maybe …….

The point being is that They have their own ulterior motive, They don’t really care about me, or you. Though why should They? […]

12/2/2012 5 comments

This thing called ‘Life’ is confusing.

by photogeek 11/29/2012

written by photogeek

There is someone who bullies me. Someone who teases and taunts and tortures me. That bully is me.

No matter what I do, I notice a flaw in me. I’m stupid, ugly, fat, and friendless. No one listens to me. I doubt my parents even care about me. Whenever I try talking to them, they don’t even bother to understand my problems. I can’t talk to my brother. He has autism and wouldn’t understand anything. My ‘friends’ are fake, as fake as a Barbie doll. No matter how hard I try in school, there are always people who do better than me. I hate comparing myself […]

11/29/2012 2 comments

Why should I live?

by bayern 11/22/2012

written by bayern

I remember when I was about to graduate from high school, so happy,full of energy and ready to do everything to get to my goals and i entered university, I felt in love madly and she broke my heart but I managed the pain, it couldn’t break me and started new relationship but didn’t end up well, but I healed my wounded heart i faced with problems and kept my hopes alive but now that I compare my current problems with mentioned failures, I laugh at them. Now and after some years, I’m totally alone, with no one around me,no friends, lost my job and […]

11/22/2012 3 comments

feeling alone again :( like always

by rockysgurl8310 11/20/2012

written by rockysgurl8310

well im new at this i was a big big cutter and basically threw my life away. Till i met my fiance and he changed everything!!!! i REALLY smiled not fake and laughed a real laugh he completely changed me. And i love him hes the only reason why im still alive. but now hes in court and might go to jail and im thinking bout starting again i signed up thinking maybe this will help…. maybe theres others like me who dnt want to die but just want to live, get anger out, and dnt use the anger against others. maybe im just crazy

11/20/2012 0 comment

I promised I’d follow him into the dark… Rabbit Hole

by StuckInThisBody 11/20/2012

written by StuckInThisBody

for the first time in 18 months I saw the love of my life in action-via video. It was filmed just months before I met him. he was so happy, smiling and laughing. i recalled that smile, remembered that laugh. felt that feeling he gave me. we just lied in bed all day holding each other. but underneath we felt the same thing. we walked in on me once as I was vomiting up a large amount of pills. my liver will never be the same. I watched his eyes fade over the months as he sunk deeper into PF. I followed him down the […]

11/20/2012 1 comment

So Edgy!

by Engie 11/16/2012

written by Engie

I feel so edgy right now. Almost like there’s an itch in my mind I can’t scratch. I want to to wreck something or bite something really hard. Or eat raw meat or something. Or fuck someone, I don’t know…

I don’t know why I feel like this sometimes. I can’t decide if I want to cry, scream, or laugh hysterically.

Does anyone else get this feeling?

11/16/2012 5 comments

This ones for you! :)

by EvilBritBrat 11/9/2012

written by EvilBritBrat

IF I could do one thing with this pathetic life I would kill myself and take all your pain with me so that no body ever has to live I have for the last 23 years. I know its impossible and my death will do nothing for the cause but its a sincere thought. I have been living in hell for so long that I feel that reaching actual hell could not be any worse than this, and I deserve to burn anyways. I figure a fair punishment for hurting my family to no end is burning in hell in eternal torture and flame. But […]

11/9/2012 0 comment

Fake? I can’t anymore…

by dead_soul 11/8/2012

written by dead_soul

I canâ€™t live anymore.

Iâ€™ve tried to suicide since I was 11, and I was suicidal when I was 10.
Iâ€™ve faked a smile, a laugh; Iâ€™m good at hiding my emotions. I can act like Iâ€™m perfectly happy, when Iâ€™m hurt. I canâ€™t help it. I donâ€™t want to show. I canâ€™t speak up. Iâ€™m trapped in a living nightmare.
I feel like I have no family. My mom is always at work. And my dad…Him.

He sits in front of the computer and never seems to even MOVE. Heâ€™s like a statue, frozen. I feel like I canâ€™t talk. Talking to a statue is pointless […]

11/8/2012 3 comments

Get inspired, help others, live, love, and laugh (even at yourself)

by Tempman 11/5/2012

written by Tempman

I did this because a friend inspired me. He was promoting doitinadress.com and I got this idea, and here’s the result of that. This is my hobby, paintball, and video editing, filming, this is what keeps me happy with life. Find your own happiness through life. Have love for all, because all has essence of spirit, and will give you love back if you try to percieve it

11/5/2012 0 comment

A Beautiful Singing Mess

by labelledelune 10/31/2012

written by labelledelune

More often than not, I think about what really drives me to wake up every morning. Is it the fact that my mom, a beautiful image of a once glamorous singer, wakes me up to kiss me and bring me breakfast in bed every morning? Is it my adorable boyfriend who still spits the image of an angelic baby, yet strikes me as a mature young man? Is it the compliments I get from my teachers each time a class would end? I really don’t know. All I know is that I haven’t really been happy. For the past year, I’ve woken up to the […]

10/31/2012 4 comments

Have I become oblivious to emotions themselves?

by OddOneOut 10/31/2012

written by OddOneOut

I, like many other people, am a “lucky” person.
I have a great family, everything I could want and more, many friends who are supportive of me, and a good life in general.
Yet, all the while, I feel this emptiness inside me where emotions should be. Whenever I feel “happy”, it’s more close to feeling something close to happiness, almost like its shadow. If emotions were people, they would come knocking on the door of my heart, then before I can open the door and let it in, it leaves, making me feel something ALMOST like emotions.

Am I becoming heartless? Unable to feel any […]

10/31/2012 5 comments

Why do I want to feel pain again?

by shatteredfragments 10/27/2012

written by shatteredfragments

I used to self-harm..

It wasn’t serious.. It only used to be scars.. Only once it bled, and when it did, it didn’t bleed that much.

I started this year.. At the beginning of this year.. When I was 12. Now, I’m 13.

I don’t know what got to me but I broke.. I was depressed and no one knew about it.. My past wasÂ No one was there. I did have friends, but none of them knew about what I did to myself. I was never a talker. So none of them really knew.. Which was good. No one would really know me.. I tried to spill […]

10/27/2012 7 comments

The best way to introduce a dead body.

by jjgirl13 10/22/2012

written by jjgirl13

What’s the best way to have someone find you? Opinions?

I’ve thought about mail, emails, giving heads ups are more questionable…

I wouldn’t want to start decomposing where I lay. But I wouldn’t want someone to stop me either.

Fed up with crying wolf, and even worse, I don’t even know if people would take me seriously if I said I was going to kill myself.

Because every time I’m at that brink, that dread is immediate, real. Pulses through my blood, my bones.

Yet, I’m not sure if I’m supposed to laugh at my own pathetic attempts.

10/22/2012 6 comments

Cracking

by Listen 10/21/2012

written by Listen

Trying to make it to my 17th birthday. Trying to hold on. I’m trying to be strong but I can feel myself cracking. Slowly falling apart. People have suddenly forgot what is happening to me. It’s the same now. Same as before when no one knew. I’m waiting for my little pink pills to kick in but unfortunately the only thing there doing is pushing me to do it. I lost everything. I’m not the same anymore. I just want to be okay. I just want to be happy. I want my friends back. I don’t even know how to make friends anymore. My only […]

10/21/2012 3 comments

I have something to say, but I can’t get it out

by SilentOne 10/18/2012

written by SilentOne

Maybe it’s the way I look or the fact that I have a stutter that turns people off. Combined with having low self-esteem and poor social skills, who’d really want to talk to me, let alone be my friend? Every experience throughout my life has been nothing but miserable, and whenever I reminisce, I’m reminded of how much of a loser I was and still am. What’s even worse is watching my younger sister experience everything I missed out on.

High school was a complete nightmare trying to cope with my stutter, and bullying, along with having friends who did nothing but laugh at my disability, […]

10/18/2012 3 comments

You want to die

by died_spirit 10/15/2012

written by died_spirit

You want to die

before knowing the deepness of cry

you want to die

before diving inside the colossal lie

you want to die

before speaking personally with Satan?

you want to die

before drinking wine til decay

or doing sex til bye

you want to die

before cracking some noses

of the people that laugh of you

you want to die

before knowing the deepness of the dark arts?

before summoning spirits and devils?

before doing some craziness that prove the holiness

of your body?

Jesus is just another ************!

But in the dark arts I have found deep truths.

That the reality does not exists.

And that if life is a illusion, the illusion that life is a illusion is another illusion.

10/15/2012 5 comments

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