I started to talk to this girl that I met at the strip club. She’s a stripper and we understand each other because we have had similar situations. Been through the same stuff I know her real name and I have her real number and I know things about her and her life that people don’t just give out. But because of her profession which by the way I respect, given her circumstances she has a kid and all and you gotta do what you gotta do well anyway her profession makes me feel like she could be playing me but I recently figured out […]
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I could be her friend if I really wanted to, but I’d have to wear a costume, and those aren’t very comfortable after a while. You start to sweat and the built up perspiration makes it muggy inside and so it gets hard to breathe; it’s a whole ordeal. I’d get to know her, but she’d never get to know the real me, and I want so badly for someone to see and accept me for who I really am. I could be her friend, but it wouldn’t be real. It’d be real enough for her, sure, but what it would amount to is a […]
It turns out it does.
How the hell do people find any will to do anything, I don’t understand. One guy told me to “wake up”, I understand what he was saying and I agree with him but I just can’t find anything inside me that has even an iota of positive will.
I can’t understand how people are able to go about their daily lives, am I the only one as fucked as I am? Of course not.
I’ve started doing an online course in programming, to try and regain that lost knowledge I had a year ago but I’m supposed to move out of the house by […]
It’s not the thoughts of suicide that are getting stronger. Not that. But my ability to stay safe that is getting weaker. No proper sleep for months, no proper food for weeks, random and variable support in fighting this landlady who is evicting me. We are to be homeless again, and I am getting weaker and weaker, trying to fight it. Running out of hope. Running out of options. As winter approaches fast, we are faced with sleeping in the car, again. In this life 21st century life, you have to have money to get folk to listen and support. Solicitors, surveyors, anyone. They all […]
well something interesting happened to me today. I still feel depressed for having to reject a situation but I think its worth it in the end 🙁 maybe im the one choosing to be lonely now but im not sure.i don’t think so. just as long as I attracted positive energy, I viewed life differently and got what I asked for, which I later regretted. but once you do become positive, things will turn around. just had to vent I still feel like an idiot. I don’t know I don’t want to be alone but I want to.someone feel this way? or just lonely.? im […]
I cant take it i had enough i got a gun and tonight i blow my brains out. Everyday is the same shit and i cant take it !!
So good bye to this life and to being invisible !! I will finally be free and just sleep forever…
I’m almost done with this life.. Everywhere I look, disappointment, frustrations, crap. Everywhere. Even from the people who I thought cared the most. A little bit more and I’m done. I tried to be hopeful. I tried being positive. Nothing came. Only disappointments. I just want the pain to go away. Permanently.
I’m a 15 year old girl, who’s life seems like a trashy piece of shit. In the past year, I haven’t heard anything else from my parents other than the fact that i’m a fat flob. They always compare me from those who are as thin as sticks, and complain as to how I got so fat. Particularly, those bitches who they think are as innocent as kids, but are as slutty as some weird Miley Cyrus shit.
They should be happy I haven’t been banged yet.
Since i’m on my junior years, they expect me to lose about 15 kg when I’m stressed as fuck. My […]
What does someone so broken and unloved have as the purpose of life?
by hogpotter
written by hogpotter
Someone who has a loving family would live to make his/her family happy.
Someone who has love would live to protect them.
But what would be the purpose of life for someone who is broken, battered, unloved? Tell me, what is the purpose of me living?
I haven’t been happy in almost 2 months everyday it seems like I’ll never be happy again I’m still trying to get over my ex And I have other problems I keep thinking that life’s going to get better but when I’ve been waiting for a while I do think about suicide and cutting myself I haven’t cut myself in a few weeks and I also want to run away from home I want to cry but I try to hold it back and I feel like I have no one to talk to about all this I don’t think I’ll be happy anytime soon […]
This is going to sound insane, like I’ve lost my mind, or like I’m a real idiot or someone who hasn’t been honest here, but I have been.
So I found a place to live for the next 7 months, provided my work keeps up and I can pay for it. I don’t have a bed though, so I’m on the couch. I’d like to be able to have a bed in my own room though.
Anyway, I’ve been through some real hell with the guy I like blowing up at me when I try to talk about how I feel, which is that the terminology he […]
hello you guys its been 5 months since I didn’t publish anything here, but this time I feel so weak and I cant handle this anymore. I’m in a trouble you can say that and I have no idea what is the right thing. I want to cry and I don’t want this life anymore .I know all people make mistakes and we regret our mistakes but sometimes its too late to fix your mistakes and your whole life will change because of your mistakes. I have only 16 years old and I’m pregnant in 3 months my parents still don’t know anything, I don’t […]
I been working on a political and social movement for years. The name or the organization will be called The Actionist Movement (a generic name for a complex ideology). I lost interest in it for years. One of my main goals is Neuropreservation for far future transhumanism. I haven’t gotten to that part because its complex. my philosophy covers a number of issues such as prison and school reform etc. here is what I wrote so far on my Bioethics Agenda (a lot more to write about that).
The book will be called – My Vision: The Manifesto of the Actionist Movement
EUTHANASIA – The option of […]
“And he sat all that day, and he kept the egg warm. And he sat all that night through a terrible storm…” (Horton Hatches the Egg by Dr. Seuss) bahaha. It gets me every time. How many have worn his same expression? Have had life run us instead of us running it? Although in the end Horton is rewarded for his faithfulness and integrity, truth be told many of us come to find that “Job” (Job 1-22 the Bible) is simply cursed and the sufferments were for naught. I read about Dr. Phils “Evil 8s” and it dawned on me this is myraid depressed person’s […]
I don’t really know what to say or do anymore as I have given up on life and I am ready to die. Not to mention I believe in nothing so I don’t really care where I will go or what I will end up going through. I don’t think i have ever had a real friend in this life of mine or someone who actually cares about me. I have been used and hated along with being shit talked throughout my high school years and I have not seen a change yet as I am now in the 12th grade. Why should I bother […]
Does nature or God take us when we’re finally ready to go. At the point when we’ve learned everything we’ve needed to learn for this lifetime or we’ve finished all of the projects that will have made our life impactful on the world. My grandfather died shortly after being placed in a nursing home after bemoaning the prospect his entire life and fighting feverishly against it towards the end. Right now I am going through a burst of anorexia (not to be confused with anorexia nervosa which is not eating because you fear putting on weight) which means that I have lost much of my […]
So I’m on this site because I’m struggling. I’ve a date set and its all I can think of. Who knows, I had a date set at the start of this year and I was talked out of it.
Anyway, look, thats my sad story and I wont bore anyone with the details but what I do want to say is this. I’m on here the last few days and it seems the majority of posters are young. Some of you have horrendous back stories that make me cry for you, some of you I’m not sure of only I know that you are in a […]
Ive been through so much in life and have never been this low…im so broken idk what to do or who to talk to im alone in a place i dont want to b… :'(
So I found a place to live, in an LGBT household and I know I’ll have support here but I feel so empty and painfully alone because I lost my best and closest friend in the sense that he truly doesn’t give a fuck how I feel, refuses to listen to how I feel and will cut me out of his life if I say how I feel, shits all over my feelings and acts like I don’t exist and we were never as close as we were and constantly pushes me away and trivialize my feelings and barely says anything to me […]
Make them stop I beg
Get them out please!
They’re all in my head,
Voices.
Calling out so loud
“End your life now
Make us ev’r so proud,”
Voices.
(now read it backwards)