They say that life is a journey
I stand and contest
From the womb
To the breast
To the end of one’s quest
Life is merely a leg
For death holds the rest.
I’ll make this short. I’m not much of an active person. Laziness is my game. Any motivation? No. I got caught with marijuana in my car. I’m on probation and have not quit smoking, it really helps me cope. I’m also an underage alcoholic. Helps me forget my responsibilities. Feeling more apathetic everyday. Losing everyone and thing I love to my alcoholism. I’m slacking on community service. So much so I probably already fucked myself and violated my probation. I don’t know yet. Been contemplating suicide since the beginning of my high-school years. I have graduated, but nothing pushes me to do anything further. I’m […]
Hi all.
Just remembered about this place in a melancholy moment.
I’m doing ok. Was very suicidal for a few hellish months a year and a half ago.
I’m not suicidal now. I think about self harm occasionally, but I manage it – I don’t act on it – I do something else, like arrange to see a friend. That used to sound stupid or unthinkably difficult, but I’ve done lots of training of myself to get to a place where I’ve got habits.
My life is not perfect and I did have a shitty start in some ways, but in others, my world is […]
heads up everyone, i ramble. i feel nothing and at the same time i have so many thoughts that i cant think, so this is basically emotional throw-up. read it. or dont. im mostly just putting my thoughts down so that i can understand them better myself.
i was angry and sad today, as i often am, and stumbled across this site. whoever started it, kudos to you, because its nice to talk to people who understand, rather than broken records saying ‘dont be depressed, be happy’. lovely, i will just do that then. oh wait, i dont know how. its not a simple thing, though it seems like […]
Been lurking on and off in the dark periods of life for years, now I’m looking for some advice.
I’m m27 and probably been depressed more or less for 10 years+. I’m finally getting some help and facing a lot of fears and problems that I’ve ignored. Due to being depressed and that leading to anxiety and some degree of isolation how do you return to normal life and in particular dating when you feel like you cant tell anybody about the last 10 years because you fucked up everything by either being sad, selfdestructive or wasted?
I feel so alone. And sad. And scared. And I have no hope of any of that changing. I don’t know why I keep doing this to myself. Maybe on some level I enjoy being miserable. Maybe I’m addicted to hopelessness. Maybe it’s my survival instinct, refusing to accept that it would be better to end it. Perhaps I’m more afraid of death than I am of the pain of life.
So I won’t do what seems like the logical choice. I won’t end it. But I don’t know how to live with this feeling. I don’t know how to find meaning in a world where […]
I was bullied since elementary school,because im ugly,i’ve got a big nose and people make fun of it and I really hate it. I wanted to get a job so I could have a rhino plasty,but I didn’t get the job I wanted and other jobs are not really fit for me. All of my friends have a good life,have boyfriends and I got nothing,only my big nose. I hate myself and I feel like im not worth it. I feel like I can’t do this anymore, I tried to talk to my sister about rhino plasty but she said I souldn’t care what other […]
everyone’s sleeping. no one would be able to stop me. even if i do it wrong, what’s 5 more minutes of pain in this life. in the end, i’ll still be dead. i want to do it. i want to die. let me die.
Reality is boring
real-life is boring
real-world is boring
not like movies, comics, novels, anime manga, video games !
also,
I hate Humans , Humans suck
I hate Human , Human suck
I hate Humanity, Humanity suck
I hate people , people suck
Most humans / people only think about Money ,
and this reality is boring !
reallife is boring !
realworld is boring !
people / humans are so shallow, superficial, stupid, ignorant
Humanity is hopeless
if there is God , then God is boring !
even Science is boring too !
Science fiction (Sci-fi) is much more interesting than real Science facts !
why […]
I’m slowly but surely slipping into an eternity of sadness. I’ve lost all interest in all of what once was my passions. Cooking, bowling, working on vehicles, even mingling with a group of friends.
I’ve lost interest in life. Nothing feels good. Everything’s wrong. Nothing feels right anymore.
I’m slowly tearing away. Pieces of me are frail and falling. I can’t seem to make them stay. You’ve run away. Faster and faster Now you can’t seem to get away.
In the life of the wrong
Love lingered on
Love lingered on to frustrations
If our love is so wrong
What should we do alone
Or am I just […]
After a long time of planning and wishing for death,
after a long time of procrastination. I might be ready to go.
My conclusion of life right now is looking to be that, I had a chance.
I had a chance to be happy, successful, have lots of friends, and have a good life. I tried, I shouldnt feel bad if I failed at the end, because I at least expressed what was in me to the world. It just happened that what was in me was not good or compatible. So in a way I did my part.
It’s Friday again
Speedy metal cages roll
Traffic is insane
I can barely think
Radioactive jello
My brain has become
Other people buzz
Mindless roaches scattering
To their party life
I stay in one piece
A dark room behind my eyes
Craving solitude
.
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Fuck this world ! Fuck its creator! Fuck this reality !! None of us asked to be here !! We only die when we have something to live for but you can go all ur life jus wanting the peace of death nd will never get it !!! So fuck this world cant wait for it to blow up!!! #wherethefuckisarmageden
Just ask! Come on, read these two lines out:
“Are you thinking about killing your self?”
“Are you thinking about taking your own life?”
See? That’s just how you do it. Now go. Ask him. Ask her.
People contemplating suicide want somebody to genuinely care. They want to be asked. They NEED to be asked that question. “Are you thinking about killing yourself?” What if your question could save a life?
JUST ASK!
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1996: “Psst. Can you keep a secret? I’m never going to die. I’m going to live forever.”
2006: “Psst. Can you keep a secret? I’m going to die one day. But it’s going to be a long, good life.”
2016: “Psst. Can you keep a secret? I’m going to die soon. But I don’t want to.”
I am a waste of life. I am oh so tired. I’ve been away for a while but now I’m back. This weekend my flame will finally burn out for good.
So… I’ve been made an offer.
My aunt and uncle who live in Illinois called tonight and mom was telling them about college and stuff down here (I’m in Georgia.) My aunt, who is in college to be a nurse, told us about the college up there… and honestly, it sounds so much better than the one I am currently in.
Well, they offered to let me live with them and even offered to help me with getting grants and paying for things and all of that as long as I stay in college. Wow, is honestly all I can think. I was talking to my mom […]
I need help to shut off every emotion In my body so I can be manipulated and feel nothing so I can go on with life with brain damage and not care I hope I die some one kill .
I want to bleed I want to becomw a pcyco path .
Usually the thoughts to take my own life start when the day is coming to an end, today they started when i opened my eyes with the help of my mom. Either she is blind, a retard, or a selfish.
I honestly dont wanna be here anymore, no one seems concerned with what is actually bothering me yet i know they can see it, not like there is anyone anyway. When i blow out my candles this year ill wish i was never born, i usually wish for love and happieness but fuck that, that wish clearly isnt happening for me no matter what i […]
I’m working on a series of paintings of the gulf. I have a friend who has been supplying me with a steady diet of gulf pics. He is down there for a fresh start, having made so many fresh starts in his life.
He sends me birds, water. Night, day. Sun, clouds. Amazing stuff really.
This is typically where I come up with some colloquial witticism. I’m fresh out of platitudes tonight, be them empty or full. Time for bed. Enjoy the night friends.
