So I figure this question has been asked alot. But what would y’all do on ur last day on earth.?
I’ve thought about this alot, & what I come up with are things that im sure will remind me of how great the world can be. And then I will convince myself to not do it. Get in a slump some time in the future and want to cease to breath again. And once again play this whole freakin cycle over again. So I wonder if having a form of a bucket list is a good thing, or should one stay in the current […]
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Some music that helps me cope with depression and ease the pain,
I hope you might discover a song or two that you will like or even maybe it will help you in someway,
or at least it will give you an appetite for searching new music or songs.
I have try to shorten the list, and divide songs in some fashion for a little easier overview.
If you find a song that you like, please let me know, also post a song that you like and I will check it out!
PART I.
— music & lyrics + “the feelings so deep and true” —
Dark Tranquillity […]
I have decided I’m going make an appointment with my doctor as soon as possible, and I’m going to get the criteria list for both Bipolar (because of my aunt’s concerns) and this other disorder (which I’ve been questioning after doing research and heavily relating to). I’m going to tick off the symptoms I have and give them to him (this is after he helps me with the Angels).
Since no one is doing anything to help me, I’m going to get the ball rolling. Even if I’m not diagnosed with neither of these, it’ll give them some insight as to the symptoms I’m showing and […]
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Thinking of The Neverending Story of the End of the Beginning of the End…
by uni687
written by uni687
Lately, I’very been putting together a bucket list of things I would do if tomorrow didn’t exist or there would be no tmorrow very soon. Some activities appear normal while some are batsh*t insane. Deeds where the worst of my actions would leave me shame or embarrassment, or the greatest acts of kindness would present some of the best things I could offer those around me. Most things I have on that list show how selfish I can be, and the remainder show how selfless I am depending on the scenario. I suppose, if I am selectively selfless, wouldn’t that still make me selfish since […]
that is the day i decide it is over or i decide to move on with my life and hope its better. that is either my last day or the continuation of my life. i dont know which yet. some times im like “hell yeah, ill keep living” then most others are like “can it just all be over now?” i think i might try to keep a journal or something with a list. a list of all the reasons i should kill myself and a list of all the reasons i should stay alive. maybe thatll help me come to a decision at the […]
Suicide is an addiction. Once you’ve done it. It is always in the back of your mind. Everyday it is another option you can put on a to do list. As if you quit smoking and crave it everyday but you just don’t fire one up even if you desire it so much.
Forgive the selfie.. but here’s a small update. I know nobody I know will find these forums. So why not show off my amazingly depressed face. So last I posted, I had just started college, and had completed my first day. Now I’ve dropped all but my math class so I’m not overwhelmed by my depression. That way I can at least get the hard class done first, and I can go about surviving.
Nothing much has changed. I “think” I’ve made a couple friends. We’ll see how that turns out. I still spend the bulk of my time listening to “See You On The Other […]
What is the real meaning of life what is my purpose for being here it’s hard to live when your depressed let alone when your list for living and dying and you have more reasons to die then live I guess the only thing keeping me from trying again is the what if but what if things don’t get better and I’m just waiting around hoping I’m so tired and sleep isn’t helping just want to sleep for ever and disappear
Hey.
I can’t tell the difference between what is ‘reasonable’ and ‘depressed’ most of the time. Has anyone ever read a journal entry years ago? How does it make you feel? When I was a teenager, I would look back a year or so and feel positively embarrassed.
If I look now, I feel something else. I don’t feel so many years prouder. I feel sadness, and resentment. I didn’t make it out.
Ah, typing this, I’m afraid I don’t sound much different at all.
Alright. Let’s get this out before I waste any more of your time. I’m a gay guy. If this upsets you, scroll […]
I know I’ve posted something similar but I am in a mental state of sureality, a feeling of having woke up from having been in a dream. I acknowledge that I grew up in isolation and in a cult-like environment. I know I’ve posted it before that we were cut off from the outside world, alienated from friends, family (aunts, uncles, cousins, etc), neighbours, and so on. Aunts and uncles, though many of them were just 15 km away, stayed away. Despite this distance we didn’t visit either. I went to school but was excluded. At home I played alone. My father was always […]
Such a short fix. But a long list of consequences.
Why do we overeat knowing full well the price we’ll pay later? Especially since it happens again and again and again and again? Do we never learn?
I didn’t eat “bad” food per se (the place I wanted to go to was closed, and I didn’t eat bad junky food yesterday either, but overdid it on the quantity). I know I should eat lunch, stop, then not eat till dinner. So simple, and yet why so hard to follow? Why we humans such fools?
I had a large lunch, (a super giant entree-sized bowl of chicken spinach soup, […]
Hello,
I just recently came across this site as I was in a broken state. I’ve taken hundreds of online depression quizzes and all seem to say the same thing…that I am severely depressed. Every time I bring up being tested to my mom, she makes it seem like it’s a big joke and laughs. It has never once got through to her that maybe something is wrong with me. People talk about me, “friends” don’t want to hang around me, my mother claims im a long list of words such as: ugly, fat, a pig, stupid, attention seeker, drama, dumb ass, retarded….. the […]
Ive ditched cutting some time back but now ive picked up smoking haha. Well if its not one thing its another. Ive racked up some things to put me on the naughty list and while others are concerned how im going to handle them i find myself not really caring anymore. Even worse ive gotten into the habit of being a real clutz. At first it was just on accident but now they happen more frequently. I end up with scrapes, cuts and bruises that linger for a long time…but i kinda dont mind? Especially when cooking i used to be real careful but ive […]
so last night I guess someone smashed in my car windows and stole my wallet. What joy. Just another thing to add to my list of reasons I hate life.
I’m going to nap. I don’t wanna be here.
No one understands this feeling . It drives me fucking insane because I can’t explain it. I feel like I’ve been sucked into darkness and I can’t get out of it. I feel like I’m starting to feel nothing and that scares me . I’d rather feel everything .. I am so alone . I’m so alone in this big world . There are so many people do why can’t I find a few that I can be friends with? I literally do not fit in with anyone . No one understand me . Know one listens to the music like I do , or […]
So um im Natalie and i dont really know what to write so i think i will just list a few facts about myself!
-bipolar
-used to cut
-smokes weed rarely
-ive been drunk once
-brother with down-syndrome
-no father
-tried to commit suicide 7 times
-absent mother
-no one to talk to
-cares for my three brothers by myself
-16
I need help making a bucket list of things to do before I leave 🙂 I dont really have much written down right now haha, so could you give me some suggestions?
Where do i start, my life has not been the easiest in terms of growing up. I’ve had problems from all fronts from varying categories. This list of problems I manage to put off everyday, just trying to ignore this world on my shoulders as I go to school and pretend to be happy with people I pretend to be friends with. My life in public is but a mask to hide my face covered in years of abuse and hardships. This list manages to grow with my best efforts of keeping the problems down, and it seems with every jab at the list that […]
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