I’m 13 year old girl and in 7th grade. I’m a loner and I’m very depressed. Everyday I have to go and come from school. When I come home from school all I do is yell at my parents and cuss. I have never been thankful for what they bought me and did for me… All I do is make them sad and angry. When I don’t get the things I want I yell at them and then we quarrel. After that I go in my room, shut the door and cry. I realize how childish and greedy I am but it’s not just because […]
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Loner
growing up, i’ve realized that life isn’t a gift. though, it isn’t hell ethier. they are both of a mix, even though that seems a bit impossible.
for me there’s no drive for life for me. i know i’m extremely young, but i think i know this outline of life. i really don’t understand why bother involve yourself with living. what is life about? gettting married? getting a good job? getting an awesome career? or just be happy? < now, how will this help any1 else around me? or to make others happy? hell, no one has the fing answer, i know that, but why? scientificly, we”re here because ceellls, […]
“Let me tell you this: if you meet a loner, no matter what they tell you, it’s not because they enjoy solitude. It’s because they have tried to blend into the world before and people continue to disappoint them.”
My name’s Jnina.
My name is Jnina. Kinda ugly name isn’t it? I think so too. I like to be called Nina. I don’t know where I should start. So i’ll confess everything. My name is Jnina, and im 14 this year. I was born in New York. My mom had me at 20, and I was the last child she bore. I have 3 other siblings. Out of the four, I am the only one that didn’t get enough attention. I was a mistake. My own mom didn’t know she was pregnant with me, 10 months after my older sister was born. But […]
IM SERIOUS. this is NO LIE. every relationship ive ever been in, has been longdistanced and somene i met online. WHY? what the fuck is wrong with me in person???? i keep track in my mind at school whos single and who aint..well turns out in my grade? im like the only one who isnt walking beside their bf. this is so nerve wrecking like huh am i a loner? maybe. i just wish i knew why im so unappealing in person..im one of the nicest people you’ll ever meet (unless u piss me off and u will wish u never knew me) so ita […]
Ya well i broke up with her about 3 months ago didnt wana hurt her honestly but It because I am Bi and I like more guys I have boyfriend and well I am Gay.Came out the closest 2 months ago and ya since then people are still talking shit and it doesnt stop. I honestly dont know what i did wrong but I hurt my ex it’s weird I would still do anything for her anything anything still feelings there for her cus we went out for 2 years and they just wont go away..However, meet my boyfriend on Facebook and he my […]
Just pretend I never existed…
Cuz that’s how I feel…
I am a loner
An outcast as usual
Always have been
I am not a true Californian
I am too unique.
hi guys… Im Elico (I despised my real name so I use this…
Im gay… Hehe, though I people find it hard to believe I am one since thay say Im a ‘good actor’ or something…
I dont have friends… I guess Im a natural loner or whatever… But I waited and looked, no one was there… I trusted several people, but all where the same, some abandon me after myself confessign to them, some got simply tired as I was clingy… some, just… stopped.
Dont ask if I have a lover or whatever, Im ugly maybe… and somehow I lost interest in stuff liek that…
Family? Theyre all […]
(Sorry for the sarcastic title; I use humor to cope.)
Hello, I’m Ghostly. That’s my username in place of my usual, more personal one. I feel like this may be the best place on the web to deal with suicide openly and honestly, so here I am supporting those who feel alone in this, and potentially talking people through some tough times, and I’m glad that’s what’s going on here. You are all very kind.
Maybe “helping people” is an overstatement, or a little premature. I’m just glad there is some forum to talk on that isn’t monitored to death or trashed by trolls and idiots. I’d […]
Why do siblings always know exactly where to peirce you with a knife to make it hurt so bad that you just want to crumble into a million pieces and just break down and fall and cry forever. They can always make sure you are always either happy or sad. One jab of that stupid knife of theirs and youre down for the count.
I hate feeling left out and hate when people make me feel small and my sisters know that. I just went into my sisters room real quick to tell her something and she told me to get out. (not a good […]
I am new to this site.  I have been having suicidal thoughts for a while now…  I don’t really want to explain my situation, but to say the least, my life has been a complete failure and I want it to stop.  I don’t want to change my mind, I can’t fucking STAND ignorant people that are like “why you drink/smoke/do drugs?” Obviously because I’m lonely/depressed/have an addiction/want to forget my problems and I most certainly don’t want to talk about that.  I am not looking for sympathy, or all that jaz.  I am just looking for information.  My top choices would be 1. KCN […]
I was home schooled till i was 12, and my father left my mom when i was 8 (i used to see him weekends, then holidays, now i rarely see or talk to him). which is what i can only assume caused me to be so fucked up. once i got to highschool, my first semester i got expelled for threatening a kid with a knife for picking on me. which caused me to lose my only close friend.. after switching schools i was a loner for the most part, i had a group of friends i hung out with, but i was that one […]
Been thinking.
Too much.
How do you change your thought process? I’m not talking about just negativity, here. The way you think. I’ve been so analytical in my thought process that the only way to change is to constantly brainwash myself towards another way of thinking, and that’s what I need to escape from. I want to live in a more direct “Living by the moment for the moment”, not “Living in my brain about the moment in the moment”. I can’t just “live”. I don’t need a happily ever after either. Just normal conversations with a person. My father. My friend. Anyone. (Yeah, I’m a […]
ME.
underneath im: stupid, a loser, a loner, a cutter, unusual, different, shunned, hated, betrayed, embarrased, failure, sad, unloved, defeated, lonely, DEPRESSED. so strange i can make this seem untrue. i fake my way through life- “fake it til u make it” would that make me a liar? an attention seeker? i dont think so but i dont care what i think.. ha i dont even know who i am cuz i care what u think, i change all the time. just to make you happy. but that will neva happen cuz u will never be ok with me. dont feel bad its not just […]
first off let me just say how happy i feel finding this website
(albeit a little random, just googled cold and alone)
Like im sure everyone else on this website my life story is a bit too long to include on my first post,
so i’ll try and keep it to the point.
I had a somewhat happy childhood. I did have sexual contact (mostly with other boys around my age at the time)
when i was still very young. Then the infamous 8th grade came along and everything changed.
I had to dress a certain way, talk a certain way, be cool etc in order […]
I cried for the first time in almost 10 years. It was only like 2 or 3 drops, but for someone like me who thought his tear ducts dried out years ago, it was a real relief. I have been contemplating suicide for years now. But only recently have i reached my breaking point. I have no real friends, only acquaintances. Im a 20 year old virgin, who only had one girlfriend, but i never met her in person. Had my heart broken more times then i can count. I learn the hard way that nice guys finish last, because im hopelessly to nice for […]
the Queer
Sitting in school, watching. She is so perfect, as if you have finally seen someone you can really relate to. Trying to imagine getting up the courage to walk over and talk to her. Trying to find the guts to ask her out, the dance maybe….
And then it all crashes down.
Your brief fantasy of ever having a “normal” love life.
Sure, you crush on her from afar, but you are a girl too.
And that means being different, a freak, a sinner, a loner.
No matter where you go, your gayness will follow you, keeping you separate from everyone else. You feel […]
It is my intention to leave this life.
To start, I would say that I am not in that space where suicide helplines call “pain is greater than capability to bear.” I am not doing this on the spur of a moment’s depression or of a single terrible setback. No, none of these apply to me.
Let me share my story.
(1)
I was physically abused as a child. My father had rules that were only known to him. His mercurial moods did not help. From as young as pre-school (I do not remember exactly when they started), he would beat me, with his hands, with sticks, with canes. […]
The first time i was 8 years old and my dad had just left me and my mum after battling cancer. Mum wasn’t good, Dad was gone, Nanny and Granada were in Spain, my friends didn’t want to know. What stopped me? My mum caught me and took me to a therapist.
The Second time it was my 9th birthday. It was the last day i ever spook to my dad. He texted me to say that he was gonna have a son and that i was nothing to me. On my birthday. That time my now ex-best friend found me and begged me not to.
The […]
I dont know where to begin. I was an only child of divorced parents. Both of them remarried when I was 5. My dad and step mom brought  my wonderful brother in this world when I was 7. I was young then so i really didnt see where the attention was going. But as the years came and went and i was around 13 thats when I started cutting myself, in middle school. 8th grade to be exact. I used to lie about it and say that I cut myself on a bush or some bull shit like that. I used anything I could, broken […]