This ain’t about what I been through that took its course depression and ptsd is a ***** I self harm cuts cover my body between doctor visits seeing a physiatrist and medicine I still feel the same maybe because I’m alone. My parents say I do what white people do I tried to explain that self harm has no specific race or color I’m hurting inside why cant you see?? They just can’t stand to take the blame for what they’ve done. I’ve tried twice already and boy am I ashamed two many failed attempts it’s like I was meant to be here and suffer […]
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I’m getting off now. I read some posts and gave the best replies I could. I don’t know if I’ll get back on here. See you.
have you ever hated someone so much that you wanted nothing more than to watch them die a slow and horrible death…
have you ever felt like there was no reason to let that person continue to live…
have you ever thought that maybe that person deserves to die…
have you ever hated yourself?
I’m so unhappy. I feel there must be something wrong with me in that I don’t have any friends or relationships, I have no one to talk to and I’m desperately in love with a person who does not give a shit about me. I feel worthless and guilty all the time and it’s devouring me. I can’t accomplish anything without being moderately intoxicated. I hate myself and feel like I don’t deserve to be alive. I try to change my thinking and I can’t seem to stop it, but I want to feel better so badly. I just want to feel okay with myself but […]
Don’t really know where to start. Maybe where I got so drunk the other night, possibly the drunkest I’ve ever been, nearly attempted, and also fell on the sidewalk cutting up my entire body and face, which had people asking questions. Or maybe with someone who doesn’t bite their nails much, I have none left to bite. Or maybe how I sleep the absolute minimum now, maybe two or three hours a night, if at all. My sleeping patterns have been especially messed up, even on taking extra strength Advil PM doesn’t knock me out. I thought all my stress from school was the root […]
We are all on here for a reason. But since you’re reading this, you haven’t done the deed yet. So what keeps you going? If you have something that gives you hope, whether it be a person, a special moment in your life, a dream, whatever, tell us about it. And if you don’t have something that gives you hope, just read others’ comments. Maybe someone else’s can become your’s too. As for me, this is a little something that has kept me going: https://youtu.be/8tN60yFjO-g
Well I tried cutting for the first time today……
I thought that maybe since it helps a lot of people with their problems one way or another it might help me.
Well, it didn’t.
I was so freaked out.
At first it looked like the blade didn’t do anything but then my skin started opening and you could see this white layer right under my skin and blood wouldn’t stop coming out.
I know, it’s kinda gross.
I’m sorry if I just made you feel sick but I had to tell someone.
I’ve been thinking a lot lately and maybe life isn’t for everyone. I mean life is too hard for me. I put myself in my parents shoes a thousand times and I just don’t understand why they treat me the way that they do. Even more questioning is why I care about how they feel…but I admit I do care how they feel. I know what it’s like to hurt and I wouldn’t wish that even on those who caused me that pain. And i know that it won’t hurt them.They have other kids and already have grandkids from my half sisters. There is actually […]
I’m part of a ****** chat room called Crisis-Chat, and most if not all of the users from there, are from here. I was one of the few… okay maybe the only one, to have joined SP AFTER I joined ******. Anyway.
Lots of people post here, lots of people threaten suicide. I seem to do it enough that I might as well post it here for attention, right? I don’t even fucking know what I want to do anymore. I’m tired but I’m not. I’m hungry, but when I eat, I feel sick. My head hurts but its magically fine if I go to take […]
Once there was a little pinhead who became infatuated with another little pinhead. The two pinheads pinned around together and produced five mini, pathetic pinheads. The pinheads lived from lousy paycheck to paycheck, their kids miserable, lady pinhead an anorexic crying mess half the time…
Finally daddy pinhead meets a sexy blonde library pinhead and they start pinning around secretly. Lady pinhead doesn’t like this. Not one bit. She quits her job, quits taking care of the little pinheads…
3/5 little pinheads end up in institutions for various reasons. Eventually lady pinhead takes her turn in the hospital, where they force her to eat little […]
God is boring . boring God . why human’s imagination & fantasy is better than God boring reality ? why God is boring ?
by niki
written by niki
God is boring . boring God .
why human’s imagination & fantasy is better than God boring reality ?
why God is boring ?
I hate this world . I hate this life . I hate life .
This world is so boring , boring world !
This life is so boring , boring life ! life is boring .
Why movies , games , anime / manga, & fantasy / imagination is better than this world / better than life / real life / real world / reality ?
everyday life is the same : wake up, eat, go to school/work, boring, then go back home, […]
it’s the worst when your problem isn’t from your mind but it exists in front of you and changes your mind. not much i can do to change it without killing myself. i could wait though and see what happens. sucks to know that you’d be better off dead because there’s nothing worth living for except for being hopeless. i’m probably lucky that i got depressed right at the start of summer vacation, that takes some things off my mind. maybe being depressed wont be as bad as the last time. not sure what i need now to get out of this, already talked with […]
A post from an old newbie?? Musings from someone who has been here a while and is looking for a chance to get involved in this community………………………
by Lost26
written by Lost26
Hello SP community!!!! How is everyone doing today?? I hope you all are as well as can be expected……….. I know that those of us that even come to a site like this are not in the best Mental Health and if you are anything like me you really don’t have too many (or maybe none???? I know I fall into such a category…..) good days. But I can wish it for you and perhaps something can come along and make the day a little more tolerable and a light of hope-if nothing but a spark-can help you make it through one more day. So, […]
My life’s not really going anywhere. I’ve got a lot of debt, no good job prospects, and I’ve given up trying. Some of my friends keep trying to help. Words of encouragement that by themselves don’t do jack fuck to change reality, A couple links to some stupid career builder websites and suggestions to keep checking Indeed, as if I haven’t done similar things or thought of that already. Yes, it could work eventually, maybe, but there’s more than that. I want a lover… Just, I’m tired of wondering how much longer I have to deal with this bullshit. So, I’m going to try to […]
Suicide note or would a Irish goodbye be better? My words are unworthy of her greatness my only true friend ive ever had maybe shed be better off with the Irish goodbye what’s all of your opinions? Say goodbye or just going no note
I just got from Spring break. I enjoyed it since I love travelling and being with my family. And for one week, I thought – “Well, I guess I wasn’t really as depressed as I thought I was.” FOR. ONE.WEEK. And now it’s back again. Depression can be really tricky. It consists of everything thats happening in your life. It could be about your school, your friend, your family, the amount of your work. And anything could trigger your breakdowns like, your hair being on the way when the wind blows, when you miss the bus, when the water is too cold and it takes a […]
Hard to understand? Well it was the first one in a year that didn’t involve suicide in any form.
I dreamt that I was pregnant and the baby was very ill and could not survive. It’s because of something I saw yesterday on Facebook… and I woke up with a horrible feeling… but… the fact that is the first dream without suicides since my stepfather killed himself is kind of good. And also… by writing this I’m realizing that I do want to have a child. Not now, of course, but… it is a true desire. Maybe that’s something to hold on for…
PS: I’m sorry […]
I’ve been around watching and reading for three years guess I decided tonight was the night I made an account I don’t really know why maybe because the only person I’ve cared about is on the phone with a asshole that treats her like shit and by the time she gets off the phone shell tell me how much she regrets being intimate and cheating on him with me then again I could be here because I’m a sick puppy as is
What happened to people spending their day on this website. It seems like this place died out quite a bit. This is my first time back in a few years, well last night was. Where is the traffic? Where are the people with biting judgements; the people with strict how to’s on getting better; the people ranting about non-events in their life?
I enjoyed reading the dramatic, and sometimes helpful, banter here. It was a good way to spend a Saturday, perhaps I shall move along, there are too many tumbleweeds in these parts. This site was a good place with little rules, which allowed you […]
When i wAs younger my grandfather used to molest me too. Am I not a person? Do I deserve no respect? Recently me and my boyfriend broke up. He cheated on me. Lots of people are dissing me not him. How I wasn’t good enough. I don’t think I was either. If I was maybe he wouldn’t have cheated on me.