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Coming out.

by comomequieranllamar 3/8/2015

written by comomequieranllamar

tust thinking… Yesterday I had a big conversation with two friends about all what’s going on in my life. It really felt so comforting to talk honestly about my feelings. And I thought about coming out to them, but I just couldn’t.

They’re two of my newest friends. In fact, I still find hard to call them friends, not because of how I feel to them, but because I think they may not see me as one. But they act like really good friends, so maybe I should just stop over thinking things.

It should be easy. They’re open-minded people, I’m too. My old friends know it. […]

3/8/2015 4 comments

Just one of those days…

by AfflictedSmile 3/6/2015

written by AfflictedSmile

I’ve been doing pretty good with handling my emotions lately, that was until yesterday. I could feel the depression slowly start to smother me again in it’s natural repetitious state. I managed to get through work with only one break down. I work with a bunch of men (being one myself) so I’m always having to mask my emotions and depression at work. Sometimes it’s easy, and other times it’s really hard to do. I mask my depression and emotions at work because I don’t think they would understand, and I don’t want people to either feel sorry for me, think of me differently and […]

3/6/2015 2 comments

not good enough

by sumaree 1/29/2015

written by sumaree

My whole life I’ve felt that I will never live to anyone’s expectations and I haven’t. My sister is really smart and has this good life with her boyfriend, my dad wants me to follow her. I tried but I can’t, I can’t just go through school like it’s nothing I actually have to work unlike her, and I will never marry a guy because I’m gay and I kinda have a fear of men. So no matter what I know I will never be good enough, I wish I wasn’t a coward and hurry up and pull the trigger

1/29/2015 3 comments

sleep like dead men; wake up like dead men and when the sun comes, try not to hate the light

by cathy arsis 1/22/2015

written by cathy arsis

this insomnia will be the death of me…..i go days without sleeping….i’ve tried everything, and i do mean everyhing, other than giving myself a concussion, benzos, sominex, chamomille tea, melatonon, entire bottles of nyquil ,benedryl….eventually after a couple of days i’ll crash, but it’s still not restorative sleep, and then i’ll wake up a few hours later….my husband says i’ve been screaming in my sleep, or whimpering and begging….once i even cried while sleeping…..but when he wakes me i have no recollection of any dreams…i’m at my wits end with it….hypothetically speaking, if i hadnt been crazy before these 2-3 days at a time bouts […]

1/22/2015 0 comment

Young & beautiful

by Rose_kate 1/13/2015

written by Rose_kate

That’s what people said to me after I broke up with my boyfriend.. I’ve posted about my story a few weeks ago (I was engaged with a good and loving man who promised me he would be there forever.. But it didn’t work. My bad character and my childhood (like hell in fact) made that he wasn’t able to love me anymore). Since then I was depressed, couldn’t sleep anymore, feel like nothing, empty. And I don’t know how or why I began to hang out with friends, to meet people, to laugh. I remember saying myself: life isn’t so hard! Go on like this! […]

1/13/2015 4 comments

Attention is my best friend

by MysteriousCloud 1/10/2015

written by MysteriousCloud

Attention. Attention is my best friend. It always has been. At the age of 6 till the age I left primairy school I would trip myself up on purpose, getting massive cuts all over myself. Just so I could get attention. Just so I could feel sympathy from others. So that people would care. From the age of 13 till now I would go on online chat rooms, I would video chat with strange men I didn’t know. Video chat with them and do whatever they told me to. I would get undressed in front of strange men online at the age of 13. From […]

1/10/2015 2 comments

Convince Me

by Brainspur 12/31/2014

written by Brainspur

I already have a time, place, and means ready to go. I told myself I didn’t want to make any irreversible decisions without thinking long and hard about them, so I set up a two month moratorium which ends in less than 24 hours. This is it. This post will be my last attempt to gather contrary opinions: convince me not to go through with it, if you think it is more rational for me to stay alive.

I had a decent childhood and I was doing well in school. I was happily married. Then, one day about three years ago, I developed a migraine. It […]

12/31/2014 6 comments

From The Grave To The Crane

by Bisban 10/19/2014

written by Bisban

“A Nightmare Bruce Wayne, Are You A Hero”

An Crane, what kind of man have you became
My first child-hood friend here under the sun
What would you, can you know the truth
Do you fly or, don’t leave me in my chain
This one’s for you, what kind of man can we
Here, it has been the end so long ago
Eternal, rotting death, my path to the sky
This has been the last, the last spit
Black dragon, Ouroboros clan, a white lotus
I can no longer, are you Robin or Nightwing

Back when we were ten-years-old
When I first came to the air of […]

10/19/2014 0 comment

I help people but people cant help me

by gonna die 10/18/2014

written by gonna die

I stoped 2 friends too not suicide…. But no 1 will help me…. Everything i do is wrong…. Everything I touch is wrong…..everything I choose is wrong….. God wont help….. Men that likes men will burn in hell so even if i commit this act i still will go to hell burning forever

oh well my friend will no y i did it

becuase of him ???? oh well hope your problems are fixed not like mine

-brian mejia r.

10/18/2014 3 comments

Fuckkkkk

by gonna die 10/17/2014

written by gonna die

I think my friend just found out that i liked men but he is homophobic and he was my frien since 3ed grade im in 8th grade now fuck im going to suicide now everything is ruin hes a snitch i fucking dont care if i go to hell anymore im done byee untill i see a good reason to live

than bye

10/17/2014 8 comments

Feeling worthless

by Shouldknow 9/27/2014

written by Shouldknow

I imagine my story is a lot like everyone else’s. Crud family & upbringing, string of abusive men, over achieving intellectual, unemployed, getting older, desperate to be normal & fit in. All I’ve ever got right is my two boys. My life shouldn’t cause suicidal thoughts, but last night I tried again. Obviously didn’t work. Ex saved me. I just see no point to my existence…at all.

9/27/2014 4 comments

People who say they “love” you

by Stain 7/1/2014

written by Stain

If I could obliterate one word from the human vocabulary it would be “love”. That word is merely an excuse, a pretentious claim, a self-serving tool for impotent people to compensate for their lack of emotional sincerity. What’s the matter, don’t know how to show it? Gosh ok, then just say it. A hundred times every day. Like a jingle for a brand of dish soap.

“O, they love least that let men know their love.”
Shakespeare, Two Gentlemen of Verona. Act I Sc ii.

7/1/2014 34 comments

My Friend of Misery

by DeathDreamer 6/30/2014

written by DeathDreamer

You just stood there screaming
Fearing no one was listening to you
They say the empty can rattles the most
The sound of your voice must soothe you
Hearing only what you want to hear
And knowing only what you’ve heard
You you’re smothered in tragedy
You’re out to save the world

You still stood there screaming
No one caring about these words you tell
My friend before your voice is gone
One man’s fun is another’s hell
These times are sent to try men’s souls
But something’s wrong with all you see
You you’ll take it on all yourself
Remember, misery loves company

6/30/2014 4 comments

Exile. party?

by Bisban 6/15/2014

written by Bisban

The saga is dead. All the men for themselves.
This is what’s left when faith is dead.
Walking in white, quietly in the dark.
The spades encloses the heart.
Stooped, under goddamn degradation.
Commander of the faith, the saga is dead.
The party from death to life. I’m still down, pick up a few other.
Though, I really am vowed. Steppingstone to be simply.
Listening to trip-hop, what’s up?

6/15/2014 1 comment

Yup; it’s about a guy.

by Everley Sappling 6/15/2014

written by Everley Sappling

He left with her; ten years younger than I. How the hell can I compete? He is so beautiful to look at I want to stab a knife in my stomach and rip all the guts out by turning. I can’t have what I want. I want him. He wants her: story of my life. I saw them leave together. So I ended up drunk at some house party where I made a fool of myself and let some dumb dog chew my hands and arms to bits. I feel nothing. It felt so good at the time to let the dog chew and chew […]

6/15/2014 2 comments

naloldaroll. Tomorrow, I’m going to the vitamin shop.

by Bisban 5/30/2014

written by Bisban

The neon stars, and planet.
We are so small, yet, the master work of this epic universe.
When we are content, we are happy to die.
What about those that …
I only know of me of my kind. My cerebro morlock race.
Don’t forsaken nobody, the sound of the ukulele.

Acidic. Acidic. I am the dark Molorck.
In my robe darkness, a bolero dying entity.
The skeleton and the dying tree. My chain.
In the world of cain. Holistic to the death.
What the fuck are you doing. Man.
In this reality, you can’t go back in time.

One more time, to infinity to the end.

5/30/2014 1 comment

There are many girls here, right?

by ClairDeLune 4/3/2014

written by ClairDeLune

I tried messaging and approaching girls on dating sites in various ways and I have only failed so far. They either didn’t respond or we exchanged a couple of messages and then they didn’t respond. One even deleted her account after we messaged a few times -.-

Can you tell me what you would want to hear from a stranger if you were on a dating site? I mean, it doesn’t really matter what you write in those first few messages; meeting someone in person is way more important, that is when you really get to know each other and can decide whether you like the […]

4/3/2014 21 comments

why I want to die

by wordless within 2/18/2014

written by wordless within

All men are mortal
Some men die old from age
Some men die of their own choosing to escape the hardship of life
Some men are murdered
and some men die courageously for their own principles
I hope to be one of these to die as I live; courageously

2/18/2014 1 comment

Tears for a Tormentor

by needarolemodel 2/11/2014

written by needarolemodel

Old man walks through a cemetery

We see the stone, he falls to his knees

Fingers claw the grass as tears fall

The picture of despair, he holds his head

I look at him

The dead man would always hurt him

Why then, so much grief?

I would not respect a monster so much

I always think of the two men, living and dead

The living man would always hurt me

He took myÂ childhood, myÂ desire for life

But I think of what he did for his tormentor

And I wonder,

When he’s dead

Will I do the same?

2/11/2014 2 comments

Just another story

by sheddingtears 2/10/2014

written by sheddingtears

Hi.

I started writing down my feelings in Â journal but I thought it would be nice to share with people finally.

I don’t know it all started but what I know is that I’m messed up. My family, my body, my mind, and my emotions. I’m not going to say I’m in this emotionless trance.

I still have friends but I hid my true feelings. It’s all starts with my family and how my mother is this fucked up parent. You can basically say I live by myself , but my dads the only one who supports me. He has to work all the time and my mom […]

2/10/2014 13 comments

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