It’s been 92 days since we stopped talking, all the nights i spent on the thoughts of her were so lonely and rough to live. What should I do when i seem stop on the same spot since we broke up, since we broke up my life stopped the joy of life left me as she did. 15th of February on valentines day was the end of us. I miss our conversations about nothing. I was hers and she was mine and none of us were lesbian. We never labeled ourselves. Man this is awful i miss her so much and since we broke up […]
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I’ve been too depressed to do any research on how to best kill my fat and half way crippled self. I can’t even make friends because people somehow have the idea that my life is a privileged bowl of cherries when I’ve never had shit, have been homeless off and on chronically for my entire life, exactly what the hell is being given to me? Not a damn thing. But anyway, that really pissed me off. Way to keep pushing me over the edge! I’m starting to think my generation is the worst, full of the most superficial dickheads who are all still single and […]
Why does it suck ass?
-Because I have no real friends. I have ONE person who emailed me Happy Birthday. Oddly enough, more companies send me Happy Birthday emails than real live people. Companies that want my business… O_o
-Because I’m disabled- my hands and legs don’t work well, as well as a bunch of other body parts in between. And I’m in my 30s. Yeah, fuck me.
-Because I have no one to help me
-Because I’m all alone
-Because I’m poor and I can’t dig my way out of poverty when my body and limbs don’t work
-Because life is hard as shit when you’re poor AND disabled AND […]
still wake up hopeless and not sure the point anymore to this sick world. im just surviving .my life was shit before but now its major shit since he left me..they all fucking leave me..fuck life. Like im loosing everything. soon my home. bf left me. my father dont give two shits to even call me and see how im doing. nobody understands how hard just everyday life is. im in debt from school which i barely got by from my panic disorder. it was so bad last year I became agoraphobic. i get out more but its pretty pointless because i cant really enjoy […]
Lost everything, lost my heart, lost every interest. I wish I never exist.
If you ever loved me, my life would worth it. But you never did, yet I love you like everything, I love you with all my life.
If I was not 14 years old when I fell in love with you, it would less hurt.
Man i hate life, but if the shoe fits, wear it.
i hate myself for being born on this evil planet.
if i could kill and get away with it ill make these fuckin Christians pay in blood because they know inside they fuckin did it.
I bathe in pain because my life is in a fucking mess.
Don’t say you understand because you dont know how i stress.
i think about suicide all the time because i wanna die so bad and it dont matter that im fuckin pressed.
Take a moment to think about what i see.
All i see are ghosts of […]
Why is it so hard for ppl to love you the same way you love them?
written by alliwantislovenhappiness
I’m 33 and I have felt unloved my entire life. My family doesn’t think Im good enough. My dad called me a screw up a loser n that I’ll never amount to anything. And no man will ever love me. I have been in love with a man (my sons father) for 10 yrs. yes he cheats. Yes he’s living with his daughters mother but still is wanting to be with me. I am naive. I have never felt love like I have felt from him. I trust him I adore him I stood by him thru think n thin. He helped me become better. […]
I’m so devastated. Every day is just sadness. I live in constant terrible regret. Because I was a coward and couldn’t kill myself the guranteed ways, i live in constant physical pain. I can’t walk and run, my right leg is paralysed and left is nerve damaged. I used to love running. Even though I have always hated myself and suffered from depression, i trained and had a body to be envied. Now, its like ive woken up inside a nightmare, life doesn’t even feel real. Im just so sad. And it’s all my fault. No one else, just me. Suffering. Seeing doctors, specialists but […]
So I went to see my counselor today and it seemed like the biggest waste of time. I’ve always suspected this is her first job out of college. I thought I organized my thoughts pretty good with her, but she really had no insight to offer me. I’m not really ready to say she’s not a good fit because last time I saw her I thought things went pretty well. Anyone who’s been following my story knows I’m going through a divorce. I shared with the counselor that I was bewildered by my soon to be ex’s new found niceness and and she really had nothing to […]
Today might be the day I end this miserable life of mine. Either overdose myself on sleeping pills so I will never have to wake up again, or jump in front of a moving car. I’m sick and tired of being lonely and having fake friends who just use me for things and and make fun of me with their “jokes”, and how they always tell me their “kidding around with me” It’s been eight years I’ve been going to the same fucking school and nothing has changed. As we all got older I still ended up having nobody. I’m obviously worthless and live a […]
Don’t really know where to start. Maybe where I got so drunk the other night, possibly the drunkest I’ve ever been, nearly attempted, and also fell on the sidewalk cutting up my entire body and face, which had people asking questions. Or maybe with someone who doesn’t bite their nails much, I have none left to bite. Or maybe how I sleep the absolute minimum now, maybe two or three hours a night, if at all. My sleeping patterns have been especially messed up, even on taking extra strength Advil PM doesn’t knock me out. I thought all my stress from school was the root […]
I need some help with this issue that has been making my life miserable. I hope someone knowledgeable will be able to advise me on what I need to do. I spent a very introverted life. I was a virgin while marrying. I found sex in marriage boring actually ! I couldnt make it pleasurable for her either. Then we got into some ego conflicts and finally separated. I lost my job too. I am unable to find another partner nor am I too keen as the wounds from my failed marruage havent healed completely. Now here is the strange issue. I have been […]
I need some help with this issue that has been making my life miserable. I hope someone knowledgeable will be able to advise me on what I need to do. I spent a very introverted life. I was a virgin while marrying. I found sex in marriage boring actually ! I couldnt make it pleasurable for her either. Then we got into some ego conflicts and finally separated. I lost my job too. I am unable to find another partner nor am I too keen as the wounds from my failed marruage havent healed completely. Now here is the strange issue. I have been […]
This isn’t something I typically talk about because it isn’t an easy subject to approach. I’m going back to my doctor soon to figure out how far things have progressed or if they’ve changed at all. I really don’t think I want to know. I’m so tired of this.
I would kill to feel like I could trust someone. Anyone. But people come into my life and I throw them away just as quickly. Id rather hurt them than let them hurt me. Might as well beat them to the punch. Right?
In all honesty, I’m scared. Of everything. I don’t know where to turn. don’t […]
I’m already dead inside.
I screwed my life beyond repair, and all of it for no valid reasons. All because of anxiety that got me and the depression that came after. I gave up my life and I cannot take it back. I cannot live in the “what’s left of my life” while facing everyday the “how bright my life would have been if I didn’t screwed it all up”. It’s just too painful and it drains my motivation away. I don’t like myself anymore and I think it doesn’t worth to live like this.
I didn’t commit suicide yet because I am afraid of the consequences […]
Please, please read if you’re considering suicide:
I have bipolar disorder and I’ve tried to kill myself 5 times. Every single one was a nightmare. I’m totally with you and understand you when you say you feel hopeless, lost, worthless or in pain. My depression is with me frequently and I often wish it would end.
The fact of the matter is that it will be with me, in some degree, for the rest of my life. And I’m ok with that. Because despite the difficulty and the occasional emotional torture, I know – I know – that life offers happiness too.
Relief does come, it will come, […]
I had just returned from a job interview. It was the first interview I have had in over a year. Since losing my job in Nov 2011…. I was trying all sorts of job opportunities… but with the same result. So much so that I lost hope and had been living out of my savings and later? with my parents? until this job interview came up. It seemed like a job offer on a platter – they desperately need to fill in the post in a weeks time -but I‘d not kept myself updated in the recent past – and couldnt answer the simplest questions. […]
My whole life I’ve known that there is something wrong with me, and ever since I’ve been old enough to be self-aware I’ve done a lot to make myself better. You kind of have to, yeah? In some ways it’s almost effortless. When you suffer intensely you have nothing to do but search for a way out, even if you’re just laying in bed, trying to figure everything out.
It’s this feeling of real loneliness, and an intense fear of being alone. It’s killing me. I’m in my mid-twenties and I feel like I’m at least middle-aged. I’ve fallen in love a few times but it […]
I thought I was getting better. I’m fighting so hard. I’m on meds now but all I feel is sick and spacey. Why can’t I find the strength to end my life? I’m so lost.
I can’t really suicide me because of the consequences it would have on my family, but I think about doing it about twice a day. I am 26, male.
I had a happy and funny life, it was about to get even better. Then I screwed and turned it into a hell, all by my hands. I got plenty of advice and warnings, but I couldn’t stop me from doing a long chain of mistakes and freak out. Now I calmed down but in the last 6 weeks I pushed away a girl I loved, ruined my family’s happiness and made my father get depressed too, […]