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Ep3: Revenge of the Loneliness

by KillerMaggot 3/5/2016

written by KillerMaggot

It’s one of those nights. I don’t want to sleep. I want to stay up with somebody and feel like I have a physical human being around with whom I can form some kind of bond. It gets dull adding a new chapter to my two novels, or writing lyrics for the next song project. It’s old, I’m tired, and I need somebody- not something. No more games, books, or any other cheap form of entertainment. I need this thing called a human bond. It’s always seemed to allude me.

I’m not sure what to do. I never have been. I do my best to fit […]

3/5/2016 24 comments

a first

by featherling 3/3/2016

written by featherling

to keep it brief, it’s been rough lately, and busy to the point where I cry from exhaustion when I’m not crying out of fear or desolation. Monday was the first time I’ve talked to my school counsellor, and I think I’ve found a safe place to absorb a little comfort. Confidentiality only goes so far, and if I tell him I’m suicidal he may be obliged to call my parents, but if I don’t tell him I doubt he could help me.

I sincerely hope you’re all doing okay.

3/3/2016 2 comments

Question

by Azure11 3/1/2016

written by Azure11

So I took 75 mg of sertraline, and I think I should only be taking 25 mg so is taking 3 times that okay?

3/1/2016 2 comments

Update

by thegirlwiththecinderblockgarden 3/1/2016

written by thegirlwiththecinderblockgarden

Hi SP,
It’s been a while since I posted here, but I just wanted to let you know how I’ve been doing.
You may remember a post that I put up in October called ‘About a Girl’?
Well, it turns out that this girl I’ve liked since September likes me back, and it’s one of the best feelings ever.
We’ve been on a date, and we have another one planned for this weekend. So yeah, I’m pretty happy about it.
It’s just nice to know that someone sees me as a nice person, especially when I can’t see it myself, and it’s been really nice […]

3/1/2016 1 comment

All Lies

by Ylem 3/1/2016

written by Ylem

Everything about me is one big fat motherfucking LIE!

My smile…. Fake as Fuck.
My conversation with people… Lies
Conversation with my family… Lies

I’M DYING people! I’m really dying.

I secretly cry in my room, wipe away my tears and have supper with my family like nothing happened.

My frown immediately turns upside down if someone asks if I’m okay.

I’m tired. I’m tired of faking. I’m tired of crying in silence. I’m just tired of everything. I’m tired of life.

I don’t want to be here anymore. But I can’t go just yet. I keep saying this over and over again. I keep repeating myself over and over again. […]

3/1/2016 30 comments

Downhill

by Bri 2/29/2016

written by Bri

At least that’s how it feels everything is going.

Everyone here would love to disagree with me. “But Brittany, you’re such a brilliant girl!” “But Brittany, you’re such a social butterfly! Everyone loves you!”

It doesn’t feel like it…

I can’t find the will to get out of bed anymore, I think it’s getting bad again, but I don’t know how to tell anyone… Because there’s always something they see that somehow proves that I’m completely fine- in their opinion. I’m constantly numb. I’ve thought of things I haven’t thought of in a while and it scares me. I don’t want to go back to being desperate to […]

2/29/2016 5 comments

Circular Headspace

by Nisus 2/27/2016

written by Nisus

I’m not sure I’ll ever get over my self-esteem issues, which is to be expected, I suppose. But in the midst of being undecided about whether to continue hanging on, and trying, or just peacing out (am err’ing on the side of ‘choose life’), I also don’t think it’s fair to subject anyone else to it.

I’m just so amazingly insecure sometimes. Some days, I feel okay, as if I can cope and function. And then I lapse again.

I can’t even watch porn or enjoy fapping, without thinking about the guy I like having sex with somebody else. It’s not that I see other people as […]

2/27/2016 0 comment

Batman vs Superman

by JiminyCrispies 2/25/2016

written by JiminyCrispies

Despite the fact that I’m unwell at the moment, I was somewhat productive today. I am ridiculously excited for Batman vs Superman, and so I decided to use art as a distraction today by spending a few hours on this (this is the first piece I’ve done and put effort into since Christmas, so my blending is iffy. Blah).

My camera quality is awful and the lighting made it difficult to get an okay photo of it, but oh well.

2/25/2016 23 comments

Cause I, I love you. I loved you…

by Rotted_Flesh 2/16/2016

written by Rotted_Flesh

I awake to better days,
And to my distress, they meant nothing at all.
But I’ll let you know that I am doing fine.
Is it okay that I’ll say, you always cross my mind.

The pain I feel isn’t separation from you.
But the sadness of your soul and entity.
Now watch me hide this deep below this sentiment.

Cause I,
I love you.
I loved you.

I’ll let go and go away.
The time is passing you will stay.
I’m moving on if you stay gone.
I’ll let go and drift away.
The love has lost its better days,
I’m holding on if you stay gone.

The […]

2/16/2016 0 comment

Hope

by Dungeon 2/13/2016

written by Dungeon

I think I can do it, actually I know I can. I can accept my guilt, I don’t need to throw away my morals. It will hurt my family but that’s okay, they’ll know I’ll finally be at peace. I can end this, I will finish this. No more will I be a part of this circus. My dream will come true and I will finally get some sleep. I have hope that I can be free once and for all.

2/13/2016 3 comments

Complaint

by garbageass 2/8/2016

written by garbageass

Step 1: Take positive thoughts

Step 2: Replace negative thoughts

Do live in euphoria. Make yourself insane. It is okay if you direct your thoughts towards realistic positive change. The best things are at first abstract. Hope will bring you forward with a good framework, but you have to choose. Work out the vauge, and the real. Start here:

Velvet Underground: Black Angels Death Song

2/8/2016 0 comment

it comes and it goes

by herecomestheavalanche 1/31/2016

written by herecomestheavalanche

i have so much to be grateful for, but i’m extremely depressed.

i have a great good okay life, i have food to eat, clean water, a roof over my head, clothes to wear, and money to spend.

i am just incredibly lonely.

every time i try to reach out, i get rejected, bitten, cast aside. in private and in public.

no one ever contacts me, unless they want/need something from me. i haven’t spoken a single word to a single person since i left work on thursday night.

according to the world, i have no feelings, no emotions, and deserve not one ounce of care from anyone other than myself.

if […]

1/31/2016 2 comments

Break-Up

by whatevs 1/30/2016

written by whatevs

It was going really well for a while. There was a girl I loved, and she loved me back. I was happy with her. Then we broke up… She told me she had too much school work and anxiety over it, and that her mom told her to (this is 11th grade, mind you). I was completely fucked to begin with but I was okay. I thought I moved on with my life. Then, out of nowhere, she sends me a picture of her with a guy. The fucking *****. I hadn’t talked to her in a month (pretty much since the break-up). I texted […]

1/30/2016 0 comment

help me die

by mlr18 1/30/2016

written by mlr18

I went into the store tonight and bought some sleeping pills. I’ve done this before. But tonight feels different. I want to do it. But I’m scared. But I don’t want to live anymore. You see, I was raised a Christian. Tonight, my mom found out that I like girls. Well, I’m a girl. I had to tell her due to the fact she found out I skipped work tonight.. So I was already in trouble for that….. She asked me why I skipped and I tried to explain with the usual there was drama at work, but she wouldn’t let that be all. Probably […]

1/30/2016 9 comments

I am feeling “Okay”.

by Still wandering 1/28/2016

written by Still wandering

Past few days were mentally challenging.
But I am feeling okay now.
I am glad, I did nothing stupid.
Thank you guys for your generous support.

Happiness & Peace for all of you guys. 🙂

1/28/2016 5 comments

How is this okay?

by God_Forsaken 1/26/2016

written by God_Forsaken

I broke up with my boyfriend of two years because I have been suffering from depression and suicidal thoughts for quite a few months now; I felt I was dragging him down. He made sure I was serious and agreed to break up (not that we haven’t before – we frequently took breaks, always went back to each other and never to other people). However, this time, I got a text from his best friend saying that he went back ti his ex… that our two year relationship was infatuation -not love. That she’s his true love. They dated for 3 months and then she […]

1/26/2016 4 comments

I fucked up…

by Azure11 1/14/2016

written by Azure11

I in my screwed up emotional state I’m in now sent some texts to my friend and now she is going to know I’m not okay, hopefully she wont care and will believe the lies I’m going to tell her to cover up what I sent her.

1/14/2016 5 comments

If Gary555 was the drummer that want to play

by tiredthoughts 1/9/2016

written by tiredthoughts

In the led zepplin cover band. I hope he is okay too!. I think its so cool to make zepplin music even so just drumming. I hope he’s good. I missed the whole problems thAT arose with the discussion. But i do hope we can work it out. TOGETHER!

1/9/2016 2 comments

if you deserve to die, is it okay to kill yourself?

by blue22 1/7/2016

written by blue22

i’m a sick and fucked up person, i’m the kind of person i hate. i have spent years of my life doing disgusting and creepy things, and it’s messed with my brain. and i have deeply hurt my girlfriend, despite how much i love her.

i have had a lot of suicidal thoughts recently, but this is different. this is logical, not emotional. i have always believed that creeps like me are scum who deserve to die. so why should i let myself live? i am putting everything into changing and becoming a better person, but what if i can’t change? if this sick and disgusting […]

1/7/2016 7 comments

2016…woow

by fakingit 1/4/2016

written by fakingit

Hey guys I haven’t been on here since like 2014 but not really active since 2012
Anyways update
Things are okay
Im 18
I graduate this year
Start college in the fall
My family is okay ish i wish it was better but oh well
Congrats to everyone who’s made it another year
May we still push forward
<3
Anyone need someone feel free to text me
(208)446-2439 I will reply generally quickly

^^texting app not real # to anyone who wants to blast me

1/4/2016 3 comments

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