Its something I’ve been thinking about for a while, while depression is not a recent phenomenon it is something that has seen a staggering rise in recent years, among all age groups. Perhaps it is a natural product of our evolution. In previous centuries humanity was heavily orientated around physical labor, be it farming, construction or whatever. In those times i believe physical illnesses were higher, naturally i believe the heavy basses of the hole physicality of the time bread those physical issues. I think humanity has reached its point in the evolutionary chain where our physical self has evolved to close to its end […]
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Hello everybody.
In my other posts, I do not think I made myself as clear as I wanted to. To me it’s a miracle I’m still here. Still breathing. Still fighting. A couple of weeks ago, I lost my best friend. She said I was too sad for her well-being. How selfish can one be? How inconsiderate?
I’m not surprised I feel like this. I feel like I’m at the breaking point. I feel hopeless not only about my social life but also because of my skin condition. I haven’t mentioned this in the other posts. I have acne. Acne that I can cover up with makeup, […]
he only time I’m at peace is when I’m sleep. Every day is a struggle just to live now shouldn’t that be simple?? it takes hours to calm my mind down after I’m at the point to where if I cut any deeper ima have to crazy glue it closed to slow down the bleeding..Yea I do that sometimes..It burns like shit but it works. I hate being depressed all the fucking time
I find it kind of funny I find it kind of sad the dreams in which I’m dying are the best ive ever had..
It’s one thing to be alone..but when ur around people who make you FEEL alone..that’s the worst! Sad… we live together but hardly ever speak even when the opportunity is there..we pass ec other without ever even looking up..its to the point where u realize the people ur suppose to know the best are really just strangers…
So me and my momma aren’t talking. Well I’m not talking to her. My depression really affects her the worse. She’s seen me at my worst and in rehab. I’ve fought her. We argue like crazy and I’m not very respectful. I mostly take all my anger out on her because of some childhood shxt that I won’t get into. Point is we aren’t talking because she said I don’t respect her. Which is 100% true.
I’m gonna break this down. Imma horrible fckn person. I cut myself. I’ve tried to kill myself. I don’t bellieve in myself. I don’t love myself. So how […]
I just really hate my life… waking up is the worst, coming to a job where you are always on the outside and useless.
My friend tells me I should be happy I have a job… I can see her point but it’s life I have such hatred against, not a job or finances. It’s waking up, breathing, not existing, being eternally hopeless, eternally saddened by things that make others happy or normal… everything hurts and is negative. There’s no “thing” or “sunny day” to change the bleakness of everything in every waking second.
If I were cut out to be here I’d have figured it out […]
still wake up hopeless and not sure the point anymore to this sick world. im just surviving .my life was shit before but now its major shit since he left me..they all fucking leave me..fuck life. Like im loosing everything. soon my home. bf left me. my father dont give two shits to even call me and see how im doing. nobody understands how hard just everyday life is. im in debt from school which i barely got by from my panic disorder. it was so bad last year I became agoraphobic. i get out more but its pretty pointless because i cant really enjoy […]
The demon in my head just keeps getting louder every day. It’s to the point where everything around me is tuned out and he is all I can hear. I cant silence him. I’m at the point where im ready to listen, I just want peace. Ive chosen antifreeze and gatorade combo. Ive done thorough research and believe this is the best method for me. I only want peace.
I’m just so tired of being lonely, I feel like Im already dead as I don’t exist at all. People only remember me when they need something. They have my number but yet only call and text me when they want something. Everyone ignores me. I can’t take it anymore, I wish I was dead. I’m tired of this cruel and unfair world..My depression is at the point where I can’t take it anymore. There is no meaning of life to me and nobody cares about me, what’s the point. All I can say is that being lonely for several years is painful and suffering, […]
I don’t know if I should be here. I feel as if I’m wasting their time; doctors, support systems, YMCA. I know they all say that it’s the reason they’re there, that you’re not wasting their time. But honestly, I’m just not mean enough to tell them that they are in fact, wasting their time.
It’s not their fault, it’s just the state of mind I have gotten myself into. I guess only I can get myself out of it.
Don’t get me wrong, I do see a point to life. But it contradicts it’s self. I thought the meaning of life was to give it a meaning, but then […]
My best friend sent me a Snapchat saying goodbye. She was holding scissors to her throat. She is the person I trust the most in this world and the only thing that keeps me going. I know she’s alive but not for how long. If she goes I don’t know what I’m going to do. Every day is fucking horrible and its going to be like this forever. Is this what life is supposed to be like? Why the fuck does it even exist. The worst thing is that deep down I know I’m a selfish hypocrite who makes something out of nothing. I don’t […]
I’m part of a ****** chat room called Crisis-Chat, and most if not all of the users from there, are from here. I was one of the few… okay maybe the only one, to have joined SP AFTER I joined ******. Anyway.
Lots of people post here, lots of people threaten suicide. I seem to do it enough that I might as well post it here for attention, right? I don’t even fucking know what I want to do anymore. I’m tired but I’m not. I’m hungry, but when I eat, I feel sick. My head hurts but its magically fine if I go to take […]
Hi, my name is Elli but it’s pronounced Ellie. I’m going through depression and self harm. If you would like details about this, comment what you would like to know. At this point in my life i’m almost numb from pain and I’ve lost many of my friends. A few are there for me but I just feel like they don’t understand me. If anyone else is experiencing the same thing as me or if you just need someone to talk to, please comment. I just got this account and I want to know if there is anyone like me out there. I just feel […]
I have been severely depressed for several years. I began to think I was bi polar because it would be unbearable for a few months then it would be manageable for a few months then unbearable for a few years etc etc. However apparently with bipolar you get to feel maniacally happy for a small period of the time. Lucky bastards. I broke up with the first person I ever truly loved, due to an occurrence of cheating (on his part) which broke me. Up until this point, I had been getting better. Slowly becoming more active and happier. He managed to destroy my entire […]
I hate living here. When my aunt’s family comes over to stay for a few days I swear she becomes so fake. She only talks to me when she wants me to do something or when I say something they stop to listen and then carry on with their conversations like I don’t even exist. I fucking hate that. She is so fucking fake when people come over. I can’t deal. It makes me feel like shit. Well, it’s not like she cares. Either way no one does. What’s the point of giving a crap about people when they don’t give a shit about you. […]
I wonder what my mom would like for mother’s day. Flowers? Perfume? A hug? Maybe from her daughters! That’s right she doesn’t count me as a daughter. She’d probably like it better if she could sign a certificate to disown me. I can sort of give her that.
My mother has two daughters (half siblings who are in their mid-twenties) whom she has always loved and adored. They got anything that they asked for and more. Me? The COMPLETE opposite. I barely got attention infact the only attention I ever got was negative. Neither of my parents have ever told me that they loved me. But […]
I’ve been dealing with depression for most of my life. Add to that a schizoaffective diagnosis and life becomes wonderful. I’m struggling. I’m on the verge of becoming a shut-in because I’m paranoid and feel people are after me. I’m not a bad person but this illness brings out my paranoia and it’s ruling me.
I don’t know how to go on like this. I’m on meds and getting “help” but its not enough. I feel like there’s no point to life & it’s hopeless. Who wants to live like this? Certainly not me. The issue is, some would say its good; too chicken to suicide. […]
2.5 years ago I cheated on my boyfriend of 10 years. He never forgave me. I found out later that he cheated on me for revenge and had cheated on me years ago that I didn’t know. I strived to become better and professionally and physically I am but emotionally I am a wreck. We have been separated but finances force us to live together. I am full of shame for my actions to the point where any time I hear about something bad some on has done I imagine it is me until I feel even more ashamed. Its obsessive and I can’t stop. […]
And that’s being a fucking failure. I failed this semester. Couldn’t graduate. My parents won’t talk to me… even though I left them messages saying I felt awful and suicidal. I don’t have any friends, they’re really all I have. If they don’t give a fuck about me, who do I have? I bought a ton of dope last night, with intention to overdose and die. I was so fucking close. I woke up on my floor all disorientated, my limbs all numb because of the way I was laying on them for so long when I passed out… I FAILED AGAIN!!! I can’t even […]
today has been the longest of days. Yet the day isn’t even over yet. I feel very suicidal and alone. I do not see a point of me being here. I have been trying to do the best I can and no one gives a flying fuck. I am done done done. My suicide date is on Monday. I am going to attempt. Fuck you all for crushing and stomping on my heart when I needed you the most. I am sorry that I can’t be better. whats wrong with me and why can’t I be better! I am giving up on myself and what […]