So my horoscope tells me that its hard for me to be emotional. Is it really? Well my family tends to think so. In my mind I always feel like committing suicide. At one moment I can feel so HAPPY that my family thinks I’m always the happy child and then at the next I feel so lonely, and secluded, out of place. I never fully understand what triggers my feeling to go up and down. When I was in class 7 I lied to my friends telling them that I’m an expert at self harming but honestly I never even dared to try it. […]
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Self Harming
90% of my thoughts are suicide.
I can never be happy, I’m convinced. I cry literally every day and I’m just really sick of it. I used to be normal, I really did. Then, I started high school.
In the beginning of my freshman year, I made some new friends. About three months into the year, for whatever reason, these “friends” decided that they didn’t like me very much anymore. I was severely bullied by them for the next two years, which caused me to start self-harming.
As soon as this started, I met a boy on the internet. He seemed nice enough, whatever. Over the next three […]
Hey I was wondering if anyone knew how old youvwould have to be in the uk to buy sleeping tablets? I can’t take the dreams anymore, or the lying awake thinking. I just want to sleep! but over past experience of self harming Boone will buy me any or trust me, so I guess I’m on my own.
So yeah any idea?
I used this website for a bit and it helped some to communicate with people who can understand the struggle of depression. i think i managed to be okay for two years.. but i had a downfall and im not really sure what exactly caused it but the point is.. im back and personally it got way worse.. i had mentioned how i had tried taking my life but i dont remember ever doing some of the things i have done in the past months.. almost a year already that i guess “the cycle” came back. ive actually reached out to professionals and i went […]
I know I’m gonna get judged for this,but I’m a drug-addict and have been for 20 odd year. Because i’m a heroin addict its impossible to get help for my depression,which was there before I got into heroin at the age of about 18. I started off with the usual recreational party drugs,but quickly descended into harder drugs and its ruined my whole life..
I am now 36,I was of all drugs for 11months a few years ago but stupidly ended up back on them. I started self-harming when i was 14,went right of the rails etc.
I’ve now got to the point I don’t want to […]
I’m falling apart and I’m so sick of trying, I’m so fucking sick of it, because I’m fighting so hard and I have been for so long but things are only getting worse no matter what I do.
I’m 17 and this shouldn’t be happening. I’ve been clinically depressed for over a year now, been self harming for a while, and have an eating disorder (bulimia). I’ve taken 2 overdoses in the past and have been admitted to hospital for 1 of these. I’ve also been admitted another 2 times for suicidal ideation/self harm. So that’s my story I guess.
My […]
I never understood how people felt better after self harming themselves. I didn’t understand how pain could make one feel better. Even though I’ve been so depressed I always told myself I would never hurt myself.
Lately I’ve felt on edge, and just an hour ago I couldn’t take it. Whenever I feel like I can’t take anymore, I imagine myself running away or scratching/ripping my face off. I will usually end up scratching my face a bit but today I felt like I was going absolutley crazy just keeping all this in and none of it getting better. I started pulling my hair and violently scratching […]
So… My main problem in life isn’t that of feeling left out, not that I don’t fit in although both of those are very much good reasons to be depressed. Anyways, my problem lies in my relationship, not with it but about it. I have kept a sort of diary or blog type thin on my phone over the nearly 3 years and as you read them from start to finish you see it go from sweet and cute to doom and gloom. Now I am a 16 Year Old male and I am extremely unhappy in which I sometimes result into self – harming. […]
Well I’m 14 years old, my name is Elise. If I go from the start it will be the longest story ever so I won’t, but my dad left us for no reason at all about 2 years ago. We dont have any contact with him whatsoever, its been about 9 months now, my mum got sick and was in hospital for 3 months neither dad or his family looked after my sister and I during that time so we stayed with friends which was horrible.
This year I started self harming and am now considering suicide. I planned it and all, I see a counsellor […]
I’ve been clinically depressed since I was 12 years old (I am now 18). For the life of me, I cannot remember a time when I was happy, a time that I was in the slightest bit content with my body. My parents put me into an eating disorder treatment center for about 3 months, and I ended the program thinking that maybe I could finally be okay. Things were…alright for about 2 months until just now. The guy I love came back after 15 months from a rehab center halfway across the country. We have never been in a relationship, but we were best […]
So this will be a long one. I am 20 years old and a trainee hairdresser, I had Meningitis when I was 4, I live with my boyfriend and my housemates in a house share, I have depression and anxiety and I cannot cope with my emotions. I suppose things started to be difficult for me when I was 8 years old, I had a pyscological issue where everytime I got in the car I needed to go to the toilet desperately, this was also at a time when my Dad hit me quite frequently. I saw a therapist about the problem and it was all […]
So basically, right now, I really do not see the point in me living any more, trying any more, even breathing anymore.
It all started to happen, when on day, my so called ‘bestfriend’ (Let’s call her beth) pretty much decided to stop liking me. But, i NEVER did anything to her.  I never bitched about her, never betrayed  her, I was a true best friend. She started telling a few people she don’t like me. Those people are my close friends, so they told me obviously. Now, I don’t have twitter, but she does. My other best friend (let’s call her Amy) does have twitter, […]
I decided I better tell my full story so people inderstand me better:
I started self-harming about two years ago. I had an argument with my best friend and this set it off. It wasn’t a serious row; it was quite a silly one to be honest. However, I think this triggered off a lot of my self-esteem issues. I had a really hard time at school and was bullied a lot and I ended up finding it hard to get close to people. My feelings of self worth vanished again after the argument and in order to combat this I started to cut myself. Not […]
I’m one of those people that like to pay attention to detail, so natrually I found everything wrong about myself. I’d lie awake at night thinking about all the things I might have done wrong that day and saying to myself “God, you’re an idoit” Whenever someone complimented me, I always thought “they’re just saying that to spare my feelings, they don’t really like me” And i’ll admit, I’m pretty fucked up in the head.
Self harming, or cutting. What a concept man, I love it. Nothing feels better then thinking you can just cut away all these imperfections. And thats what I did. And it […]
So guys I know most the stuff posted on this site is depressing but I wanted to tell you about a friend of mine. He shot himself point blank in the forehead. Luckily people found him just a few minutes later and he was still alive. He was rushed to the hospital and put in ICU. Somehow either miraculously or whathaveyou he survived. No, he is not a vegetable either, actually now that inearly 6 months have passed, he is having conversations, standing up, solving difficult puzzles and going through physical and mental therapy. I hope to god […]
the Cutter
It feels a little tender at first, hot as blood rushes to greet the sharp edge of your relief.
You promised yourself you wouldn’t, but the pain is just to much, inside. If only you can find a balance, a balance between the lonely suffering of your internal hell and the sharp, clean, slice of your external shell. Deeper this time then ever before. You must dig deeper to let it out. Your inner hell, red in its anger, hot liquid in its trespass.
The blade slices, a dance of blood lights it’s way, your focus follows it, watching. You feel almost outside o […]
These days you hear about self harmers cutting because they’re depressed or suicidal or get that rush to feel alive, but today, are there self harmers who just do it for the pleasure or like to watch the blood pour out of you?? i self harm because im depressed not because i like to watch the blood or anything. do people do that? just because they like blood or that feeling??
They dont know how badly i want to die. I’m suffocating. Every day is a battle. I think about how easy it is for me to just overdose or cut to deep. dont want to feel pain anymore.I dont want to be stuck here. I can’t do this anymore. I just want someone to notive how much I’m hurting. It hurts so deeply its a struggle to breathe.i cut to take away the pain for awhile. But when it’s this bad i cant do anything. I’m a basket case. I hate it here. I just want to be free of myself. I am […]
No not at the self harming but what happens if i die. I’m always afraid i might regret it after it’s already been done. I’m afraid i’m going to hurt people but then again, i don’t think anyone cares. I try my best to get rid of these horrible thoughts but at the end of the day i always realized it’s going to flood my mind and i’m afraid that one of these days i might actually do it. Sorry if it’s not a story but i just felt the need to get that out.
Well. I’m only fifteen, and already I want my life to end. Ever since I was eight years old, my life has been a mess. My parents divorce was the spark of everything. I’ve been depressed for seven years, but the past two years it’s been hitting me hard. Every night I cry, wanting it to end. I use to pray to God to kill me in my sleep or to let me have at least one good day. I got neither, and gave up my faith. I wake up every morning, wondering why I even bother getting out of bed. I can’t find one […]