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DMT/Psychedelics

by TheHandle 4/9/2016

written by TheHandle

Anyone ever tried DMT? I’ve heard many people have had success in treating their depression or PTSD with DMT and other psychedelics. I tried DMT for the first time last night and OMG I’ve never experienced ANYTHING like that before in my life! The experience was so intense and real I came out of it in shock and my body was shaking. You truly cannot explain the experience to somebody, any description does it no justice.

I’ve been seriously depressed and having suicidal thoughts on a daily basis and today was the first day in a long time I didn’t wake up feeling severely depressed. Don’t […]

4/9/2016 8 comments

Protected: Seething.

by whiskered-fish 4/8/2016

written by whiskered-fish

There is no excerpt because this is a protected post.

4/8/2016 82 comments

Feeling Weird

by JiminyCrispies 4/8/2016

written by JiminyCrispies

My morning was reasonably okay-ish, until I found out my stepdad had been our drinking since 12. He came home around 4 and he and my mum had an argument, so he left to go drinking again. He came back around 10:30 and was completely drunk to the point where he could barely stand up.

Since the argument I’ve been feeling weird. It’s like how I felt last year before I went ‘crazy’ – for lack of a better word – for a week or so. My mind is racing, and my energy is building up. I feel like cleaning the house, but going for a […]

4/8/2016 1 comment

Hi I’m dyinginny and I’m an alcoholic

by dyinginny 4/1/2016

written by dyinginny

When I got laid off in January I quit all my psych meds except for occasional Xanax for job interviews. I thought I was finally helping myself after years of being a zombie. I was proud of myself and thought the hardest part was over. Wrong. I saw my shrink yesterday and told her I still suffer from extreme nausea and only Xanax and getting drunk makes it go away. She pointed out that my hands were also shaking. She then pointed out the obvious that I have been in denial of. I’m an alcoholic and when my body isn’t drunk or medicated I now […]

4/1/2016 10 comments

Update

by Alexther 2/12/2016

written by Alexther

Got back home. I didn’t want to cause my family stress/fear… Got semi-forced to continue attending my studies…

No escape… No fuckin’ escape…

Slowly losing the remaining bit of my sanity…

My head hurts…

Almost OD’ed three days ago… It was an accident, me and a couple of friends were celebrating my birthday and we had some chemical fun. I spent about 3 hours shaking and struggling to stay conscious… But I ended up going home safe and downing a couple more beers, finally going to sleep after that.

The way I feel right now is somewhere between really hot and really cold, temperature-speaking… My head feels as if I’m […]

2/12/2016 2 comments

Anxiety Attack

by InhalingAnxiety 1/12/2016

written by InhalingAnxiety

So.. My body has been building up an anxiety attack for about 20 minutes now. I can’t breathe. It doesn’t even feel like my heart is beating, but obviously it is because I’m alive I think. I feel light-headed. I want to vomit. I’m shaking. All the heat has left my body. I can barely move my muscles. And this is only a build-up..

1/12/2016 7 comments

WHAT A DAY

by Ylem 1/7/2016

written by Ylem

Yes. Today will go down as one of the shittiest days I’ve ever had to go through. Never has my depression been so crippling. I feel physically ill. Like I want to throw up. I have one hell of a headache. I can barely get out of bed. My muscles are weak. I am shaking.

Maybe it’s partly because I haven’t been sleeping lately. But, I’m terrified of sleeping. I’m tired of the nightmares.

I am so passively suicidal today, it’s a good thing I have no strength to do anything… But type, I guess. Letting it out this way helps.

I just cut. After a month or […]

1/7/2016 3 comments

by cathy arsis 10/11/2015

written by cathy arsis

insomnia has 4 syllables, 4 vowels, 4 consonants…it’s 4 in the morning. I take enough sleeping pills to down a bus full of toddlers, I’ve taken 37 tonight….this is beginning to be an average number…not in a desparate attempt to die, but to sleeeeeeppppppp sleep sleep sleep sleeeeep…I cannot sleep. for 3 hours I tried…tv off lights off dark. silence. eyes closed, as if I laid completely still for long enough I could trick myself to sleep…..insomnia is crazy. there have been nights that I’ve just fuckin broke and wept, wept for sleep…a few days in and i’m thinking maybe I am actually asleep but […]

10/11/2015 0 comment

Start of my GAD

by RT :) 10/1/2015

written by RT :)

You know, i have history of anxiety and depression. The first attack of depression came when i was in my under grad school. It was all boys. Some of the boys were kind to me but majority of them were bullies. I had a huge body structure so not much people tried to pick fight with me but some of them did and when they found out that instead of fighting them back, I instead tried to run away; they found a sport in bullying me.

One day, i was going back home on foot, i saw a tree which was naturally cut towards inside from […]

10/1/2015 4 comments

In the hospital

by BluDude976 9/23/2015

written by BluDude976

Even though my relatives have known for years that I have Major Depression they still behave in abusive ways. Yesterday I was stressed and feeling extreme anxiety. My mother came home yesterday from work screaming and throwing a tantrum. I have to live with her for now because I have a heart condition. I was so upset I was shaking. Later I felt really sick and couldn’t breathe. I thought I might be having a heart attack. She just stood there in the kitchen staring at me like she was waiting for me to die. I had to call 911 myself. It turns out I […]

9/23/2015 2 comments

I’m horrified this happened

by BluDude976 9/22/2015

written by BluDude976

I tried to use the Reddit app for the first time last night. I posted some very personal stuff in the Depression and in the LGBT section to see what people would say. The responses were extraordinarily abusive. People blaming me for something someone else did that was out of my control. People telling me to fuck off and get a therapist. I’m actually shaking it was so upsetting. This is why I don’t try to make friends, whenever I reveal anything about my depression to punish me for it. When I deleted my account there was a question of why I was doing this […]

9/22/2015 9 comments

I should be dead

by secretz180 9/15/2015

written by secretz180

On Friday night I overdosed on burpion, this time I didn’t even mean to. I thought I ran out of my 350mg so I took 4 150mg to equal it to 450mg. Instead I took 4 350mg. As soon as I found out I did that I was having a panic attack. I didn’t want to tell anyone, I didn’t want to bother anyone and I felt like I would get yelled at. So I just went into my living room and watched some YouTube videos. After 2 hours of waiting I finally felt the side effects. I felt like I could not breathe, my […]

9/15/2015 1 comment

So, two months later…

by HeyPresto 7/12/2015

written by HeyPresto

Sorry if the title sounds hopeful. It isn’t.

About two months ago, I made a minor attempt on my life (not particularly committed, more of a shake-up than anything) but, after a slow upwards curve after that point, my mind has returned to the well trodden trail it knows so well. I’m just miserable. It’s been something I’ve been ignoring, repressing, letting build up inside. I feel like a skimming stone, leaping in ever-descending arcs until I come to a halt (dumb metaphors, we got ’em). Every fall is harder, shaking my confidence more and more over time. Nothing works.

What am I but a leech, an […]

7/12/2015 1 comment

Weary

by Barytron 7/7/2015

written by Barytron

Were that I could curl against
that tipping point
an’ place my breast
my sternum rent against its edge
press down where guilty muscle’s spent
and worn from fighting blackened webs
That wrap around, the charred scent sweet,
my heartbeat wearing, growing […]

7/7/2015 0 comment

Lost

by Lota 6/26/2015

written by Lota

I’ve pushed away everyone who I used to care about. Each morning before school I sit in the library reading a book in a pathetic attempt to escape reality. The bell goes and I’m scared to go to class, then I become aware that I’ve forgotten my timetable. I get this sinking feeling and the anxiety starts to kick in. I’m shaking and I can barely breath when I realise that I’ve now got to speak to someone and ask where to go. Walking to class I’m pushed, laughed at and of course I end up running into one of my old friends, the one […]

6/26/2015 1 comment

I got bored, so tried to use catch phrases from users on a Salt post, feel free to ignore.

by Procel 5/29/2015

written by Procel

F uck you I’m not breaking,
I t doesn’t matter how much I’m aching,
G ritting my teeth to stop them shaking,
H elping hands always there remaking,
T he smiles and the laughing creating,

T he Fuck you I’m not breaking,
H ead to toe I may be quaking,
E ven then I won’t brake.

D epression will keep you awake,
A sking yourself “whatsa matter, is that all you can take?”
R ight so you shout “let’s see how far it can go” despite what’s at stake,
K nocked down, you whisper to yourself “get up, just get up” praying to the trinity,
N owhere […]

5/29/2015 15 comments

The Crazy Got a Hold of Me

by dazed_and_confused 5/22/2015

written by dazed_and_confused

Not sure how it started, but I lost control last night. I’ve been battling with depression for a long time, only attempted suicide once before. I guess after a lifetime of never feeling good enough, I had a moment of weakness and fell off the wagon. I drank over half a bottle of 100-proof vodka and then downed about 600mg ambien and 20 hydrocodone/acetomenophin (5/325mg) pills. On top of my normal dose of anti-depressants. I have to admit I felt pretty good for a while there, and then passed out somewhere along the way.

I woke up a few hours ago and have been puking almost […]

5/22/2015 15 comments

Anxiety & Panic Attacks

by Astley 5/6/2015

written by Astley

So this morning I woke up, shaking and I couldn’t breathe. In my head I was telling myself “Your okay, your okay, why are you being so dramatic?!” and I couldn’t stop shaking. Breathing became extremely hard. I couldn’t move. I felt trapped and honestly, every time I have a panic attack I feel like i’m in hell or being buried alive. It feels like I’m dying, it feels like I’m being attacked. It feels like I am going to die. It’s terrifying, and I can’t do anything about it.

5/6/2015 3 comments

This is a note to my counselor (seeing tomorrow)

by Astley 5/5/2015

written by Astley

I’m sorry if this is weird, but I was thinking and I’m not sure how much I’ll really want to say when I see you tomorrow, but right now I feel like talking so I think I’m going to try and tell you some things now so you basically know whats happening.
So I started taking my anxiety medication and I don’t think it’s working at all. In fact I think I’ve been getting a lot worse. I keep shaking like whenever I get anxious or nervous I can’t breathe, I can barely talk and my jaw starts shaking and it looks like I’m shivering. […]

5/5/2015 4 comments

The Face I’ve Grown to Hate

by Sammi6xoxo 3/30/2015

written by Sammi6xoxo

The mirrors scream at me
The walls abuse me
The doors restrain me
The darkness defines me

The mirrors show a face so tired
Filled with dreams that have been lost
The heart and soul they once admired
Is what my nightmares have come to cost
My hands are shaking as I stare
My legs are weak and there’s no air
Don’t you show me; don’t you dare
Don’t prove to me there’s nothing there

The walls close in and call my name
As vanity subsides to […]

3/30/2015 7 comments

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