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whispers

by plasticflower 6/17/2017

written by plasticflower

today i, once again, was welcomed by a quiet house; except it wasn’t. they’re avoiding me. as soon as i opened the door, i heard whispers. a lot of them. now they’ve stopped, maybe they think i can’t hear them. although i quite like arriving and having time for myself, i don’t particularly like the fact that, even though they’re still awake, they’re pretending they’re not. it hurts a lot, but whatever; i can’t blame them. i’d pretend to be asleep all the time if i lived with another me, so i can’t really blame them.

the whispers have started again.

although i’m not 100% this time […]

6/17/2017 1 comment

12:25am

by plasticflower 6/11/2017

written by plasticflower

these past few days have been weird, and i don’t know how to explain it.

i’ve been forgetting to eat, and sleep doesn’t come very easily; when it does come, it brings nightmares and i just keep waking up constantly. really aggressive headaches come and go without explanation. it feels weird.

for about 10 years i’ve had passive suicidal ideations, and active ones as well, but that’s not the point. anyways, they’ve been here for a while. basically, i won’t act up on anything, but i wouldn’t mind if something happened. even though i can’t even remember days where i didn’t feel like this, it seem like […]

6/11/2017 2 comments

quiet house

by plasticflower 6/6/2017

written by plasticflower

tonight when i arrived from work, i was welcomed by silence and lights out, which meant everyone was asleep. i was not surprised, considering i just got here and it’s 11:10 pm. even though i understand why they’re asleep, considering it’s a Tuesday night, i still know that deep down i wish they were waiting for me. but they don’t care that much, and i understand that. i’ve felt very anxious all day, and i don’t know why, considering last night i tried to get more sleep than usual. it’s weird. speaking of weird; today is the birthday of an old friend of mine. she […]

6/6/2017 3 comments

sleep

by plasticflower 6/5/2017

written by plasticflower

i don’t know why, but i’ve been having a lot of trouble sleeping. on sunday i went to bed at 4 and woke up at 8. last night i didn’t sleep at all, but i took a nap at 10 because i had to work tonight. and today, here i am. it’s 2:45 and i’m about to go try and sleep. it’s really hard though. most people tell me to just go to bed earlier, but the thing is i just can’t seem to stay asleep for long. i constantly wake up, which makes me more tired. i even noticed how i feel more awake […]

6/5/2017 1 comment

Sleeping Pills

by xxcora 6/5/2017

written by xxcora

Does anyone know anything that will send me into a deep sleep? Not those pills that “relax you to ease you into sleep” I want a heavy sedative.

Thanks

-xxcora

6/5/2017 5 comments

1:41am

by plasticflower 6/3/2017

written by plasticflower

you know those days where you wake up and decide you will definitely enjoy that day? you decide you’re going to do anything you can to feel happy and do everything you always put off. you feel determined and excited. today was supposed to be one of those days. since yesterday wasn’t the day off i would’ve liked it to be, i decided to try my best and have an acceptable day today. it didn’t particularly work, and i’m not surprised.
numbness is a very strange feeling. at first, you don’t understand it; but after a while, you forget how you felt before. what it […]

6/3/2017 3 comments

eh

by plasticflower 6/2/2017

written by plasticflower

even though i had a day off, i wasn’t able to actually rest. i fell asleep at around 5am, and woke up at 9am.

i’ve been getting random headaches constantly for years now, i’m not sure why; but i’ve had one since around 4pm and it’s currently 1:19am.

even though it wasn’t a good day, i went to the movies so that was nice.

6/2/2017 2 comments

free tomorrow, finally

by plasticflower 6/1/2017

written by plasticflower

today was a busy day. very tiring. though i have two days off now, so that’s good. it rarely feels like i’m actually living though, i’m just going through motions. it’s weird.
still can’t sleep, but oh well.
11:40pm

6/1/2017 3 comments

at night 2.0

by plasticflower 5/31/2017

written by plasticflower

night shift again. it’s currently 1:30am and, to no one’s surprise, i can’t sleep. also my finger hurts quite a lot.
today i finally had some alone time before work though, which i highly appreciate. i’m rarely by myself these days. maybe that’s why i like the night time; because everyone but me sleeps.
life has been very weird recently, but i don’t know why. probably because i’m trying to be a responsible adult who always makes good choices and doesn’t do stupid stuff, as if that wasn’t my life 7 months ago. the issue being just /trying/ to grow up. i think that’s something […]

5/31/2017 0 comment

a summary of today

by plasticflower 5/30/2017

written by plasticflower

today i was expecting to get home and find everyone asleep again, but it wasn’t the case. for a second, i thought they were waiting for me, but as it turns out, they just lost track of time and were planning on going to bed at about 9pm. not surprising.
today my fingers hurt a lot, and me having to constantly wash dishes and such at work doesn’t help. I’ve always been clumsy and i use band aids very often, but I’ve never had 4 at the same time on my hands; it looks kinda funny, actually. i can’t type very well though, but meh.

5/30/2017 3 comments

brain junk

by plasticflower 5/22/2017

written by plasticflower

words won’t come out.
talking and expressing anything seems like too much work, or like something too complicated that i can’t figure out.
and when i do try to reach out and open up to others, it always goes wrong. i try telling someone about the panic attack i had, and they assume i’m lying and then proceed to tell me i’m not trying hard enough, and that only makes everything harder for everyone. they tell me to try harder.
i thought i was trying my best. and i was. but it seems like, once again, my best wasn’t enough.
i tried to open up, […]

5/22/2017 2 comments

I woke up choking, what does it mean?

by lilxtina 2/9/2017

written by lilxtina

My partner and the love of my life passed away last week and I am in constant despair and disbelief.

Since his passing I’ve tried to kill myself by overdose on ibuprofen and even put a knife to my chest on 2 occasions (survival instincts kicked in). I was found by my sister and mum when I overdosed and so I am still here, to wallow in my pain and misery. If you want to know more you can read my other post.

Anyway, last night I was asleep and in the dream world (its the only way I can escape from the pain), and something strange […]

2/9/2017 3 comments

Human’s Imagination / Humans’ Imagination / Humans Imagination is better than Reality

by niki 2/2/2017

written by niki

Human’s Imagination / Humans’ Imagination / Humans Imagination is better than Reality

Movie / movies is better than reality / real life / real world
Video game / games is better than reality / real world / real life
Novel /novels is better than reality / real-life / real-world /
Sci-fi / Science-fiction is better than reality / reallife / realworld
Fantasy is better than reality / real world / real life
Anime / manga is better than reality / realworld / reallife
Dream / dreams is better than reality / real-world / real-life

I hate reality !!!!
Reality it’s all about MONEY !!!!!!
Reality is BORING […]

2/2/2017 3 comments

i wish harry potter was real , i wish fantastic beasts were real , i wish magic was real , i wish magic really exist , i wish wizards were real really exist

by niki 11/23/2016

written by niki

i wish harry potter was real really exist , i wish fantastic beasts were real really exist , i wish magic was real really exist , i wish magic really exist , i wish wizards were real really exist

because reality is boring , mundane , and limiting limited
because real world is boring , mundane , and limited limiting
because real life is boring , mundane , & limited limiting !

reality is all about MONEY !
real-life is all about Money !
real-world is all about Money !

Life is boring , mundane ,
movies is better than reality real life real world !
novels is […]

11/23/2016 6 comments

When you’re in bed, you’re dead

by Redandpurple 11/12/2016

written by Redandpurple

And this is me. A person trapped inside her brain her own ethnicity and for the most of the day her bed.

For what did she live? Why did she come to this university? Is this the end afterall?

You know, I never imagined I would live to be even 18. 18 was such a grown up number, and growing up I was told I was “immature,” “didn’t understand how the world worked.”

How can I survive in a world that, I was told, wants to rape women like me? That I didn’t understand? That was totally unfair, which I should get used to? WHY DO I EVEN […]

11/12/2016 0 comment

I’m weak, and I’m finally admitting it

by orange-juice 11/3/2016

written by orange-juice

I’m 17. I can hear too many things going on in my head but at the same time I feel blank. I love life but I hate life. Everything is so confusing and I feel a lump in my throat when I try to explain what I really want, so I thought I’d type it.

I don’t want the life that everyone is told to follow. Working behind a desk, getting large sums of money for rotting away in a grey, dull workplace and consistently working for a force that marginalises freedom. I want freedom. I just wish I could run through endless green fields that […]

11/3/2016 2 comments

I hate reality ! reality is boring ! Doctor Strange , Marvel MCU , Avengers , Sword Art Online , Virtual Reality , games , movies , novels , anime manga , comics is better than reality !

by niki 10/29/2016

written by niki

I hate reality ! reality is boring !

Doctor Strange is better than reality !
Marvel MCU (Marvel Cinematic Universe) is better than reality !
Avengers is better than real world !
Sword Art Online is better than real life !
Virtual Reality is better than boring reality !
video games is better than reality real life real world !
movies is better than real-world real-life reality !
novels is better than real-life real-world reality !
anime manga is better than boring real life real world reality !
comics is better than boring real world real life reality !

Why Human’s Imagination is much better than […]

10/29/2016 4 comments

I don’t know……

by lonelygirl645 10/22/2016

written by lonelygirl645

I feel done. It’s this feeling of emptiness and loneliness. I don’t have any motivation to do anything. I’m so much more tired to do things. I just want to sleep all day. I don’t know why I feel this way. I just do. I can’t talk to anyone about it because my friends won’t understand and my parents will just say that I’m being dramatic.

10/22/2016 4 comments

Like it or not

by JusTired 10/14/2016

written by JusTired

Every one around me seems to be dancing and having a good time and I’m here fumbling to the beat like a love struck zombie. I don’t know when this started becoming normal to me. When did I begin feeling so rejected? Was it when I was a teen and my mother just some how knew I’d be a loser? At least she gave me options to how low I could possibly go on that scale and I’m… proud… to say that I am NOT a heroin addict. IN YOUR FACE MOTHER!

Every time I’m outside, I look around and feel this overwhelming feeling that nothing […]

10/14/2016 1 comment

Sleep? Nah I Don’t Need It

by brxken._.lxcks 9/14/2016

written by brxken._.lxcks

I did not get to sleep last night, I had to write something for school and I’m pretty sure I didn’t get a good grade because I didn’t get to finish. A night of sleep wasted!

Well not entirely wasted it was so quiet and peaceful. I don’t think I’m going to be sleeping often. Maybe I’ll stay up all weekend with no sleep. It’s just so… UGH! I don’t even know how to explain it but I love it!

9/14/2016 2 comments

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