Wow, life on earth is hellish for so many human beings. I use the word hellish to describe miserable, painful and hopeless. There is no heaven or hell. During my training to become a researcher I spent time in several different galaxies observing life on other planets. Much of it was pretty boring and some of it shocking.
Earth is the only planet I have encountered where the inhabitants feel the need to believe in something that is not there, something that does not exist. Humans have a very strong desire to feel the pain and suffering of not living up to some invisible beingâs […]
I hate it. I fucking hate it how everybody act like everything is just peachy!!! Everything is like fucking nightmare.  They don’t notice it. They don’t notice how I am not eating my food. How I am dying. They don’t notice that the smile that I show is fake. Even my parents don’t notice that I am  just acting like everything is perfect. I mean they are my parents right? They should know when I am lying  they should know when I am putting act.
But they don’t. They don’t notice that I am acting. Â Every night when I go to my bed I don’t sleep. […]
Every time I hear someone has died, or someone has lost someone special to them, not only do I feel sorrow for the person in mourning because they are in unbearable pain, but I feel sorrow because my life should have been taken, not theirs. Why must the “good die young” and if that is true, then is this earth truly hell? What must I do to be called to heaven? Isn’t my pain here enough? Isn’t it a cruel irony that suicide is a selfish act? Wouldn’t it be a mercy? Why must good be taken so early, and why must those who are […]
Hi, this is my first time posting. I am up late at night because I am having trouble sleeping. The night before last I attempted to hang myself but it failed. It was more of a test run then a full blown attempt. Not finding success, in the morning, I bought charcoal and a grill to try that method. I assembled the grill, placed it in my car and that is as far as I got. In the end, I am not ready to kill myself, but all the pain and regrets of my past feel like they are killing me slowly and painfully.
I am […]
I continuously wonder what I did wrong to deserve all of this pain. I’m so sorry for whatever it is, I pray to god (not literally, I’m not religious) that one day I’ll have been through all of the pain I can and will finally be happy, something I’ve never gotten, if this emotional, mental and somewhat physical suffering doesn’t kill me first.
I have experienced abject suffering for the last four years, and I expect to do so for the rest of my life.
I’ve been in severe depression for so long now , that I cannot even remember what I was like before it. The human inside me has just died.I feel like I’m living in an empty shell. I’ve been fighting and fighting the pain. Every day feels like hell. I see a rope , I wanna hang myself , I see a knife , I wanna stab myself , I see a train , I wanna jump.I see a rooftop , I wanna drop down.
I love my parents and I’ve been living for them for the last 3 years . I cry every night , I […]
I believe I am apart of a minority of people. I suffer depression and anxiety, but I am far too caring to kill myself. I couldn’t do that to my family. I’ve tried antidepressants, they did nothing. Someone I know from school recently went into a Mental Hospital and I am angry. She is in there because 3 months ago, her friend killed himself. She knows the reason as to why she feels so bad. I have no idea why I feel like this. My life is good, better than many. I am not ungrateful nor am I selfish, but I hate being alive. I […]
As the title says, first post here. I’ve never really posted on any forums before so this is very new. I’ve wondered about suicide for a while. I’m nineteen, but I’ve had a lot of shit happen. I had no father and an abusive mother who accused me of trying to kill her and of hiding things, she mind fucked me. I started to believe her I think, maybe that’s why I feel so much hate towards myself now. I feel so much anger inside, I wish I could find her and put a gun to her head and blow her goddamn brains out, but […]
đ Life sucks….
My life up to now has been nothing but crap….. Superficial, fake, and just tiring. I’ve grown tired of having to fake how i feel just to cope with family and friends and life in general when inside i feel the opposite of what i’m faking. I was told that if you worked hard you do anything. That nothing was impossible… To only find out that i was being lied to. Everyone else acts like life is great when it really isn’t… They blind themselves from the thought that there really is no point to it. Anyways i was wondering how could i […]
This month, I was a victim of abuse. Twice. No, not “use (something) to bad effect or for a bad purpose; misuse”, it’s “treat with cruelty or violence, especially regularly or repeatedly”. I’ve been abused many times now, but I think this month is the worst.
Abuse story 1:
So, one day I was in class, didn’t finish my work, so I was supposed to stay back for recess, but I didn’t want to. The teacher dragged my collar (I was about 3-5 meters away from the class when this happened) all the way to the classroom door, and threw me. I hit something, so I got […]
I never really had a problem with people abandoning me because of what had happened to me a couple years ago. I was 10 years old when my best friend passed away due to an asthma attack. I was so devastated and I didn’t know what to do. I didn’t know how to go on with my life now that my only friend had gone.
I never wanted to get out of bed and i especially struggled when it came time for me to go to school. I lost so much weight and by the age of 11, i started cutting. I didn’t know how else […]
Were we put on Earth just to fucking suffer endlessly? Fuck it, just fuck it. I resent the fact that I was born, I hate my life, and I definitely fucking hate all the fucking motherfuckers who screwed me over and purposely did horrible shit to me. Every. Last. One. Of. Them.
Yes, I’m angry, and no I won’t hold back on the curse words. And why is cursing bad anyway? I hate how society has deemed cursing as such a terrible thing, how they view people who curse as bad, unintelligent people. Well, fuck you. This is how […]
I’m new here, and I take a lot of courage to open an account and post this… When I was reading some of the stories written here , I no longer felt alone. Now I see I’m not the only one suffering for love, I’m not the only one who feels to die because of someone else…
Sorry if my English is not good, but, it’s not my native language. I hope everyone can understand me…
This is a little bit of my story .
It all started when i was 15, I met a wonderful guy. Maybe he wasn’t the most handsome, but he was the MOST […]
One thing I’ve learned in my life is that nothing can be generalized. Everything has their own unique application to our lives. Hence, I call this post “My” right to die.
My thoughts on death and suicide have been a blend of careful religious historical philosophical (even theoretical physics) study, and my own emotions. I would like to open up the idea of the first ingredient of my blend for our community’s discussion and for the reader’s additional insight.
Suicide as a right can be seen throughout our history. Various ancient cultures have seen suicide as an honorable way to die. The […]
I don’t really want to kill myself, I just want the pain to end. The fact that I haven’t done it already also makes me feel like I’m a weak person. What an oxymoron, how can I be weak when I’ve been strong enough to get though almost 30 years of suffering with depression. Sometimes the sadness and anger feels unbearable. I have no one to talk because no one in my life understands or really wants to. Because of my depression and mental illness, I was not always a good mom. Now that they are grown, they do things to push my buttons and […]
I hate it when people generalize suicidal patients and suicide victims as selfish. I hear my friends, family, and doctor say this about suicidal people all the time. Its even prevalent online. They always say that we are only thinking of ourselves, not those who love us. For me, those who want to keep us alive and call us selfish are in fact the very people that are selfish. They’re the ones who want us to live, to be with them, despite the sufferings and emotional torture we endure. They can’t grasp the possibility of us ending our lives by our own hands and accept us […]
Dear whom,
Why is it so tiring? Why? I am abjectly sick of living in this world.
My head is consumed with suicidal thoughts. It screams into my ears, screaming for me to throw my body over a bridge, stab myself with a knife, or hang myself. These thoughts are like a sound, a piercing sound, a frequency that I can only hear. It won’t stop unless my depression can disappear. It is booming into my ears. It is so intense! I can’t stand it. So very tired…
I experience so much agony from this tiredness that befallen on me. I am exhausted to the bones. Unfortunately, this […]
I briefly saw the post today about wishing you had cancer, and have seen people here before talk about how unfair it is that those who want to die are perfectly healthy while people who have it all do die.
That’s sort of what a friend of mine has been going through for a long time lately. This friend doesn’t want to die and isn’t suicidal. He’s the 13 yr old gay kid I met when I was 18 and took on as my kid brother. Even though I haven’t seen him in about 18 years, he is and always will be my brother, blood or […]
I don’t know how much time i have left…
i’ve been trying for so long, sometimes i find some strength to live another day…
But this wish of dying always come back
I don’t have any hope that i will get better
I am sure that one day i will kill myself
I don’t want to be this way
I don’t have nothing beside my addictions
I think i’m an idiot
I feel like i’m hurting everyone around me
I smoke, i drink and i use drugs
Nothing can take this pain away
I’m so sad… i don’t know if i can fight against this […]