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worse

by AKidWithAName 6/25/2015

written by AKidWithAName

Well, if anyone cares, here it is:

When I was in 5th grade (age 10), my father was deployed to Afghanistan for 6 months. During these 6 months, my mother drank every night. Because she didn’t take care of me or my siblings, I attempted to take care of them to the best of my ability. Needless to say, I failed miserably. We also didn’t go to church at all during these 6 months, because our mother didn’t take us. When my dad got back, I got in trouble for not raising my siblings correctly and not taking them to church […]

6/25/2015 6 comments

I want it to end

by 2sick2care 6/25/2015

written by 2sick2care

I’m tired I’ve been tired, I’m a walking fuckin skeleton with nothing left to give you can look at me and see I’m no longer here anymore. 24 years old or 4 this is all I’ve known, a never ending black hole I’ve gotten fuckin stupider and have ultimately fucked myself up even more. I’m sicker than sick, I’m fuckin sick and feel like nothing in this world can “fix” me. I honestly believe this is it no heaven or hell we had a choice to make this world our heaven or hell, the more I look around and the longer I choose to stay […]

6/25/2015 3 comments

I shouldn’t have done it.

by lulereign 6/24/2015

written by lulereign

I regret it completely.

I tried talking to my school counsellor, and another lecturer whom I hoped could trust with this problem. I just felt so hopeless that I thought that perhaps telling someone would lessen it (I don’t know, it was a moment of weakness).

Not only did that lecturer betray confidentiality – she told the counsellor that I wanted to commit suicide (which it do not) – and according to protocol she may have to report me. I couldn’t believe it. You can’t trust anyone, no matter what they swear or promise.

It was awful. The counsellor indirectly blamed me for her not being able to […]

6/24/2015 5 comments

Can’t Do this..

by stacey.payne 6/23/2015

written by stacey.payne

I hate myself and I hate my life.

Yes, I know my life could be worse and I have so much to be thankful for. I just wish someone understood how I feel. I just wish I had someone to talk to that didn’t look at me as a whiny ungrateful young woman.

While I have a long list of unfortunate events in my life, the most bothersome is “The Other Woman.” Her name is Natalie, she was a friend of mine who was in my life for a short amount of time that has branded and mutilated my mind forever. This woman is an awful person. I […]

6/23/2015 3 comments

The bully in my heart

by Lilguy123h 6/22/2015

written by Lilguy123h

All my life ive been bully by one being well if u can call him that and the worse is it was my brother he teased me antagonized me bully me and call me names its gotten so bad I uncontrollably beat him with objets its hurts me but saves me ive tried g o kill myself many times but then I think what about my loved ones

6/22/2015 1 comment

ripped apart brain guy

by rippy 6/20/2015

written by rippy

new to site I thought I’d tell my story. I first took psch meds at age 16 after becoming depressed for no reason. within an hour of being put on one med I felt something tear in my head. for the next 30 years I dealt with these sensations progressively getting worse but I tried to have a life anyway and used alcohol to numb the sensations and cope with the anxiety it caused. basically I became a highly functional alcoholic and had a good career, a wife and kids. four years ago the brain tearing apart sensations got much worse and I have pretty […]

6/20/2015 3 comments

suicide

by MaylinMaylin 6/18/2015

written by MaylinMaylin

I just want this pain and loneliness to go away. I feel trapped. My depression is getting worse. I want to be gone already but im afraid to kill myself. Everytime I try to attempt suicide I fail. I dont know what to do for all this pain to go away. I hate myself and everything in this world. Why isnt god helping me? I ask for help but my life is actually getting worse.

6/18/2015 0 comment

by godbless 6/17/2015

written by godbless

I don’t think things could be much worse,
My “life” is a curse.
I wear these cross earrings and necklace to feel closer to God,
But I don’t deserve to–I’m such a fraud.
I’ll try my best,
To not make too much of a mess. Father’s day is coming soon, I don’t want to make it to then, I want to be with the moon.

God blessed me with life, And I’ve wasted all 16 years, I‘ll soon face my final […]

6/17/2015 2 comments

Today was going so well.

by - Connor 6/17/2015

written by - Connor

Fuck sake. First this is my fault. Do you remember P.Y from most my other posts. She was my girlfriend. The last thing keeping me a part of this world and i fucked her up with being suicidal. Now we broke up and she has a new boyfriend but has still been having sex with me. I know i fucked up there to but it gets worse. I told a few people trying to figure out what to do and im sure one of them will tell her that i told them. She would never even want to see me again if that happend. Its […]

6/17/2015 1 comment

I don’t know..

by tteia 6/16/2015

written by tteia

So this is probably the only time I’m gonna use this, account. I just needed it to get out. To vent. Anyways.. here it is.

I think I’m starting to accept the fact that there’s something wrong with me, and that I’m a terrible person. I feel “empty,” don’t know exactly what that means except, you feel I dunno dead inside? None of my emotions feel real. I’m beginning to think I’m not normal, crazy even. One of these days, not today, nor tommorow I will end it. I just don’t belong here, I shouldn’t be here, I don’t know what’s wrong with me, my mind […]

6/16/2015 4 comments

Everyday It gets worse

by Lota 6/16/2015

written by Lota

Until the day you break. I can’t even smile anymore, let alone think straight. I don’t know what happening in my head right now, it feels like I’m drunk, nothing’s registering. I’m a disgrace to my family, it would be better for them if I just left. It’s stupid too cause they’re the only reason I’m still here. Life’s fucked I guess.

Does anyone know a forum or website where people can talk strategies and things like that?

6/16/2015 3 comments

I wish i was dead.

by WhereIsTheSilverLining 6/11/2015

written by WhereIsTheSilverLining

Things are just getting worse and worse, never better.

I’m sick of it and i am done.

So fucking done.

6/11/2015 2 comments

Cancer

by 3rdxcancergirl 6/8/2015

written by 3rdxcancergirl

Hi,
This year I was diagnosed with Renal cancer for the 3rd time.In 2005 I lost my left kidney to it.2nd time it showed up in my right kidney and got a botched surgery to remove the tumor. Only thing is this time (the 3rd) it’s spread throughout my body. I will not die of it. I am a nurse and have watched too many people die of this horrid disease and I refuse to let it take me.I do not want my families last memory of me to be that of me lying in a hospital bed,wracked with pain,on so much Morphine I don’t […]

6/8/2015 8 comments

please give me hope

by lexbarani 6/7/2015

written by lexbarani

For months, I have been questioning the point of life. I have had anxiety for four years now. Acute anxiety that affects my every day life. Recently, I became extremely depressed to the point where never cleaned my room (was absolutely disgusting and unlivable) cried before going to class, had to leave multiple times because of breaking down in class. I hated walking anywhere, I hated taking care of myself, I stopped talking to friends. I started abusing drugs and alcohol. I chain smoked for months. I was so sad for no reason, and felt so worthless. Now, I have moved back home with my […]

6/7/2015 2 comments

by MoonShine 6/5/2015

written by MoonShine

I feel so sad , worthless and they look so happy. My worse days has been started from today.What I was fearing has been happened and I am feeling depressed, crying like and hopeless.I needs to die. I am thinking to jump in front of the train and hopes that I will die.

6/5/2015 4 comments

Black Holes That I Call Home

by Aurelia Morgenstern 6/3/2015

written by Aurelia Morgenstern

I don’t want to do this anymore. Feeling like this is worse than feeling nothing. I want out so badly, but I can’t because I don’t want other people to feel upset. But I still want to die. Does that make me selfish? I don’t know. I don’t really know anything anymore. In class, we played Jeopardy, but the questions were about fellow classmates. Y’know, end-of-year bullshit to waste what’s left of our time. I remember seeing the answer to the question about me; the board said, “Who is Aurelia?” That’s a great question, and if it’s ever on one of my finals I won’t […]

6/3/2015 0 comment

Tuesday

by alonelybird 6/2/2015

written by alonelybird

I’ve had an okay life, better than some worse than others I guess. Thirteen years of confusion, pain, anxiety, love, depression, loneliness, among many other emotions. Even from the start though I never saw the point in living, my first thought of suicide at the age of four; they weren’t too serious though, I was just wondering I guess. After that I didn’t really think much about suicide for a few years (I’m pretty sure), the next time was probably just occasionally during grades 4, 5 and 6 when I was getting bullied by people at school and persistently beaten up by my brother when […]

6/2/2015 3 comments

All I want is peace

by cantstoptheshame 6/1/2015

written by cantstoptheshame

This is the crap in my head. It will probably never go out to anyone but maybe if I post it here it will help me.

I cheated on my boyfriend with my supervisor. After being with him for 10 years and begging him for marriage and kids, after he broke up with me twice I cheated on him. Through the years everytime I felt neglected or ignored i’d get depressed and flirt with guys around me. I never actually liked, was attracted to or gave a shit about these people but the attention was like a drug a quick hit to make me feel better. […]

6/1/2015 1 comment

Falling Back Down Again

by backtostart 5/31/2015

written by backtostart

I’ve suffered from depression since I was a little girl. My real father molested me, abused me physically and emotionally, practically leaving me scarred for life. I’m now 15 years old and about to finish my freshmen year of high school.

Now here’s that twist that brought me here:

I started cutting when I was 10. It was a complete accident, I was working with my step dad and cut my hand. We bandaged it up, but that feeling of something like relief stayed with me. Suddenly, I’d purposely find ways to get myself injured. I’d bump into tables, fall off my skateboard, jump from a tree; […]

5/31/2015 3 comments

luv 2 hate this site

by jizmhead 5/31/2015

written by jizmhead

I myself love to be hated! 37, have TBI from a motorcycle accident at 33. Hate coming here but I do daily to see how others are worse off than I. I thrive on booze, weed and some occasional blow. Oh and tattoos when I can afford them (disability pays shit) whatever, I do not expect anyone to give a fuck about my whoes however I sleep next to a loaded gun every night, don’t have the balls to turn it on myself but hope for a confrontation with whomever (cops preferably) for murder/suicide. Don’t expect anyone to give a shit, haven’t seen ***** […]

5/31/2015 0 comment

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