Stories of Loss

For those who have passed on.

1

Oh, all hate

August 27th, 2015by flynnrenning

The world is sick.

There’s really nothing more profound to say than that, but I have a story to tell, it may be removed, rejected, have hate thrown at it, whatever, but when I’m going against the forces of the universe that are beyond my direct perception and control, that’s to be expected. I could go into every detail of how I know what I know and how I learned what I learned but no one wants to read about anything important, no, they don’t. So instead, here’s my story, with, an entertaining veil thrown over it to cover up all the “gruesome” details you don’t …

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I’ll be gone within the week

August 27th, 2015by adamarose193

As the title states. Within the week I’ll be dead. I just need to make sure I get last minute things taken care of before I go. I have a few attempts in the past. Wrist cutting never did the trick no matter how deep I went. I’ll hang myself this time. I have the rope already set up at a perfect length for a drop hanging. And I know where I’m going to do it. I have hopes and dreams like most people. I unfortunately will not have them fulfilled. I am ex military, married but separated and had 2 girls with my wife. …

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Butterflybae on Youtube…

August 25th, 2015by ironman22

I thought I would share this with you, the person that gave me the news about Butterfly; sent me this:

 

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Butterflybae is gone

August 24th, 2015by ironman22

I received notice that butterflybae has passed.

May she fly free.

Here is her obit:

http://www.legacy.com/obituaries/sptimes/obituary.aspx?n=evy-raine-noel-martelli&pid=175566151

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Forever alone

August 24th, 2015by Deadinside59

It seems no matter what its always a fling here or a fling there i can never keep it going i either get cheated on or just left like they don’t even dump me that just up and leave which I’m fine with honestly but i want something to fucking last im making a last ditch effort for happiness in winter I’m moving from my home state to a new state new people im hoping I’ll find a woman that wont fucking cheat i want a family at some point in my life but its looking like I’ll just have to get used to being …

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I messed up..

August 23rd, 2015by GerbzBaby

Yesterday wasn’t the best day, and neither was today. I might have lost 3 friends over my mistake that I made.

I was supposed to go to an amusement park with my friend today but I refused to go out of fear. I feared being left out again. She ignored me at dinner last night to talk to my sisters (or at least it felt that way). I just boiled over and got angry, ran upstairs and cried. I didn’t say anything to her when she came up to get me. Just put a smile on my face and continued on.

When today came around I told …

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Lost & Confused.

August 23rd, 2015by jazzyj

For the past four years I’ve struggled with PTSD, Anxiety & Depression, but the thing is I think I had anxiety and depression before I even figured out I had it…5 years ago I was 15,lost and confused.. To start off my first year of highschool was a fail and I pretty much quit the first week, I went to one class everyday for a week because all of it was over too whelming for me and I didn’t understand why I figured you know it’s highschool it’s probably over whelming for everyone, but I knew it was different for me when I started thinking …

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Without You

August 21st, 2015by BluDude976

I can’t do this anymore. There’s no point in living if you don’t feel alive. For as long as I can remember I’ve been fighting depression and struggling with poverty and I just don’t care anymore. I’ve had nothing but horrible, humiliating, miserable life experiences. My biological family is beyond dis functional. I don’t really have friends just acquaintances. The only man I love hates me and wants nothing to do with me. I went to college and still can’t get a decent job. My best friend in college died. I have Major Depression, PTSD, and Agoraphobia. I am physically repulsive and it would take …

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Holidays

August 19th, 2015by Deadinside59

I’m dreading the up coming holidays it’ll be my first Thanksgiving and Christmas without her even though all the lies and the cheating i miss getting away from my family going over to her place and watching movies making our own Christmas dinners i almost felt as if it was love the holidays are bad enough with my family now that she’s gone its just going to be sitting in a dark room with alcohol so what about you guys i wanna know (if you celebrate of course) what’s it like for you guys do you find joy is it pleasant memories or just another …

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My story

August 19th, 2015by Dxe_56

Just spent a bunch of time writing this on mobile and forgot to save it and got an error, yay me.

 

 

Anyway, hi. I’ve been browsing this website on and off for the past year or so and decided to share my story today.

 

 

So I’m currently 18 years old, and I’ve been dealing with depression and suicidal thoughts since about 9 or 10.

I’ve never really met or talked to my real father in any way, he left when I was 3 months old, I come from a relatively poor family

and my father never paid his child support, my mom rarely had a job and would constantly get …

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Someone rip this fucking heart out

August 18th, 2015by Deadinside59

JESUS FUCKING CHRIST GUYS I CAN’T CATCH A FUCKING BREAK WITH THIS SHIT I’ll start from the beginning i have trust issues because I’ve been cheated on by almost every fucking girlfriend I’ve had so i just can’t trust people then after a year of being single and just having a fling here and there i found a girl that i really liked so for about 4 months we did nothing but talk and share stuff and break down the wall i built around myself I FUCKING TRUSTED HER but in the fucking end she just up and left me when i asked her why …

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A painful journey.

August 16th, 2015by BrokenDreams

Hi, I’m a visual novelist… well that what I was aiming to be.

People often tell you: ”With time you will get better.”

Well, I wonder and anyway… I don’t have the luxury to take my time. But before I tell you about my current situation let me give you a slice of my past.

At the age of 15 I moved away from my country and started to travel with my parents in a country where I couldn’t reach my friends.

Internet you say? Well there were 8 to 9hours of time difference between them and me and I didn’t have a computer so I could only go …

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Suffocating

August 15th, 2015by Yours, Forever and Always

I’m suffocating.

I don’t know any other word for it.

I’m slowly suffocating in this life and I’m dying inside.

My mother asked me today, “Would you mind if I smoke?”

She knows that I HATE when she smokes. I’ve tried to help her stop smoking for the past 13 years and it seems like every time I think she;s getting better, she’s just faking it.

She told me she hopes that I can forgive her.

But how can I forgive a hypocrite? When I started smoking, she almost threw me out of the house. When I

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Hate Is Like An Acid

August 14th, 2015by Yours, Forever and Always

I hate our society.

I think I have hated it ever since that first moment that I actually understood it.

I hate how we’re all so god damn attached to cell phones.

I hate how we judge immediately because that’s our instinct.

I hate how I know so many kids with mental problems because our society has shaped them and previous generations to cause it.

I hate how everyone, especially myself, is just so FREAKING SAD ALL THE FREAKING TIME!

I hate how I go to school, I worry about our financial situation more than anyone, I’m

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Why movies are better than reality ? Why movie is better than reality ? Why reality is boring ?

August 14th, 2015by niki

Why movies are better than reality / real life / real world ?
Why movie is better than reality / real life / real world ?
Why reality is boring ?

What puzzles me the most is human’s mind / human’s brains and imagination better than reality ( human’s fantasy is better than reality )

for example:
just look at the movies, novels, comics, games, books, , animations (anime / manga), science fiction (sci-fi), fantasy , like Star Wars, Harry Potter, Lord of the Rings, Narnia, X-Men, Marvels & DC universe / movies , The Avengers , Final Fantasy, Kingdom Hearts, Swords Art Online, Naruto, Bleach, One …

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Im trying

August 14th, 2015by Gone_gone_gone

I am trying so hard, so very hard to hold on. I’m only 16. People say  your almost done hold on….? Almost done what? High school and move on to even more stress and pain. I’m trying so hard but I’m tired so very tired of trying.

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Symptoms…. Of What? Asking for help.

August 12th, 2015by KissOfDeath

So, this is very different than any other of my posts,
but I have been experiencing some “feelings” and I cannot find a name to these symptoms.
I feel like I can communicate with an outer me, such as if I had a twin, it’s very strange, it started with mirrors, and now I feel like I am not alone, although I am sitting in my room alone, such as another person is her. (Another version of myself.)
I have experienced this before, but only when I have been exhausted, and/or when I go from being surrounded by people for a long/short period of time, to be …

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I’m here to express what I feel.

August 11th, 2015by pikwangchu

I still haven’t moved on from that fight between me and a bunch of fake friends.

The pain in my head just makes everything worse.

Half-heartedly, I tried my best to look strong. But to no success.

Under the rain, I would be weeping as I kept thinking about it.

Rather than having a fun young life, I refused to do so. I am always at home.

The atmosphere between me and those backstabbers will be awkward on school days.

Sadly, I can’t avoid it as we are in the same class.

 

Now what do I feel? Put all the initials of every paragraph together.

IT HURTS

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Mysterious Misery

August 11th, 2015by KissOfDeath

It’s mysterious,
the day you change,
suddenly feelings are engulfed by darkness,
and it feels as if you’re carrying a darker shadow than usual.

You wonder if people notice,
but you don’t think they can,
until you get that one person who says “Why are you so different all the time now?”
and you realize that everyone has noticed,
they’ve just been too polite to say anything.

You curse yourself,
but how could this be your fault?
This isn’t something you wanted,
this isn’t something you can change.
You swallow down the pills,
that numb your brain, feelings,
yourself.
To please you parents, your family, your significant other.

You hate this feeling,
but you …

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pain

August 11th, 2015by violet5

I’m gonna level with you, all of you strangers. I don’t know you but, the suicide project is our connecting element.

I want to kill myself, if only I could shut off my brain long enough to do it. I feel most comfortable when seeing my own blood seep out of my skin after cutting, or the pale sting after branding my skin. -not normal, I know- but my dad died about a decade ago and I feel the loss of him most keenly. the marks show me how  long.. maybe in a few shots I’ll forget my pain. the scars from my before mentioned pain …

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