Stories of Loss

For those who have passed on.

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Injudicious

May 25th, 2015by saishoku kenbi

Akin to a banshee’s ominous wail, the disembodied screams of a necro-girl tearfully pleading why are bottled up in abysmal vials labeled: “Fill thee”. She is one of the silent lambs, misplaced among the damned. Her scars are braille suicide notes, myriad and unread — a hidden stigmata like the indelible fingerprints that were burnt on her skin; “Wish I could bludgeon him with a sledgehammer and smash open his bald cranium. Wish I could plunge a blade hilt-deep into his grotesque layer of adipose tissue and eviscerate that corpulent swine. If only I could; I would avenge childhood’s ruination”.

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It’s been a while.

May 20th, 2015by lostsoulblanklife

Hello everybody.

In my other posts, I do not think I made myself as clear as I wanted to. To me it’s a miracle I’m still here. Still breathing. Still fighting. A couple of weeks ago, I lost my best friend. She said I was too sad for her well-being. How selfish can one be? How inconsiderate?

I’m not surprised I feel like this. I feel like I’m at the breaking point. I feel hopeless not only about my social life but also because of my skin condition. I haven’t mentioned this in the other posts. I have acne. Acne that I can cover up with makeup, …

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Suicide of friends/family

May 20th, 2015by RadiantLight

A friend of mine just committed suicide 4 days ago and everyone in my community is totally shocked.

I was wondering what experiences you may have had with a suicide of a friend or family – whomever – and how you dealt with it.

He was a very smart student was best in his school year and an extremely intelligent and good person. He left a note that said noone should feel guilty with all his bank accounts and formal stuff. Then he left and jumped from a 10 story building. Before he has been fighting depression for one year and had medication ( I’m not sure …

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May 19th, 2015by breezywillow

When i was six i was molested by my cousin went i was seven all my cousins and brothers where involved then i was raped at 15 on my birthday while growing up with an abusive family i met a boy i fell for him was faithful while he wasnt and he turned to beating me. I have no family no friends and am about to loose my home because some jerk photo shopped a picture a nudy one and posted it all over fb… i no longer want to try fight or anything… i just wanna die im alone and i was always told …

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4 poem

May 18th, 2015by alonelybird

On that day
I felt okay
The best in a while
I could even smile
But then you left
And I was bereft
I watched you go
You didn’t even slow
No explanation
Just pure damnation
All your hatred justified
All my pain and then I cried

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I’m not human

May 15th, 2015by disgusting

I’m not a human being to anyone. All my friends are fake and liars, full of shit, false hopes and false promises.

The guy I had fallen for bitches endlessly about how alone he is, how bad he wants someone, and how he needs to be loved bit ignores me like I don’t exist. No response means that I don’t matter and I don’t count for shit. As I never have in life.

Even people here are wrong and full of it. My only replies are on what women want and how to get a woman when I have said I am not interested in women! I …

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My birthday is in two weeks. I would like to kill myself then.

May 15th, 2015by MySelfIsAfterMe

I’m already dead inside.

I screwed my life beyond repair, and all of it for no valid reasons. All because of anxiety that got me and the depression that came after. I gave up my life and I cannot take it back. I cannot live in the “what’s left of my life” while facing everyday the “how bright my life would have been if I didn’t screwed it all up”. It’s just too painful and it drains my motivation away. I don’t like myself anymore and I think it doesn’t worth to live like this.

I didn’t commit suicide yet because I am afraid of the consequences …

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May 15th, 2015by wolflit

OK, so I really need to just talk. This isn’t a suicide note or me asking for help to die, it’s just that my emotions are overwhelming and I need to get them out. Lately I’ve been terrified and scared and anxious. This post is going to get a little out there, but…..I am a survivor of every type of abuse with the exclusion of incest. I recently started having massive trouble with PTSD. I’ve also recently been diagnosed with bipolar depression. I am massively into BDSM. So much so that I have a Master and I am a slave. My Master doesn’t know I’m …

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I’m can’t anymore

May 11th, 2015by BeautifulCalamity

I’m sorry I just can’t do this anymore. I’m done with hope. I’m done with everything. I’ve lost everything and there is nothing left for me. I don’t want to live anymore. And there is no use for me anyway. Nobody will change my mind. I’ve already chosen what to do. I can’t even cry anymore. I’m not scared to die anymore. I am 100% sure of what I should do. And nobody will ever change my mind. This life is hell. And I don’t want to deal with it anymore. I will be free and so happy. And so will everybody else.

This is not …

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Mother’s day

May 10th, 2015by justanothergirl09

Mother’s day. I don’t know……

I just gotta say you shouldn’t just appreciate your mom on mother’s day, you should appreciate her every single day. One day when she’s long gone you won’t be able to to tell her how much she means to you or how much you love her. One day she will be gone and you won’t get another.

I gotta admit, I wasn’t the best daughter. I always had some type of anger problems with her. Like sometimes, I have to say, and it hurts to say it, I would hit her. I would get mad and I would be rude. I wouldn’t …

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I want my past to not be my burden but my strength

May 9th, 2015by VioletRabbit911

I don’t know if I can handle this anymore… I’m tired of the way I’m living right now;  I have so much on my chest right now, I want to let it all out.

when I was 5, I went to a Christmas Eve party at my cousins house. I was very bored so my mother told me to go find my brother that was with my cousin  in his room. so I went over there and they were playing video games. I felt sleepy so I decided to go on the bed to rest. As I was laying down, I didn’t realized what my cousin would try …

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Im not sure

May 9th, 2015by geempepege

Im not sure why Im here..I have no guts to commit suicide..but lately I ve been thinking that i want to free my soul from sadness and heart pain. I pray and ask to aamy Creator everyday ..if I can get my ticket for going home soonest. I cant take any longer..and Im really affraid to face the reality of my life tomorrow.

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My first time here

May 8th, 2015by jayX6

Hi to anyone who reads this, and thank you if you do.

I wont go into too much detail in this post as there is a lot to say. But basically today I lost everything. Now to some this may just seem like some silly way to explain a break up, it is much more than that. Today i lost my soulmate, for some people a tub of icecream and a comedy is enough to take their mind off it, however its made a huge impact on my life. A year ago now my mother gave up on me and abandoned me, i’ve had a rough …

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Once upon a time…

May 7th, 2015by justanothergirl09

Well, I guess it’s time for my story. I have made some posts but I guess it’s time to say the real deal.

Ever since I was a kid my mom would spend most of the time at a hospital. I usually stayed with her best friend or someone that took care of me since I was a baby. Such a nice old lady. She was like the grandma I never had. So yeah, I went to a private Christian school and had a few close friends. Well there were times when the security guard would go looking for me telling me my mom was outside …

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Self-Esteem Issues With the Unlikeliest of People

I remember when I used to have self-esteem. I loved myself. I loved everyone around me. You’d think that since I’m 19, I would get out of ‘that phase’ and be fine… but no. That’s not how it works. I have been diagnosed with bipolar depression.. I thought for years that maybe if I ignored […]

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Dear Dad…

May 5th, 2015by justcallmewhit

Today makes 11 years since i last saw you. 11 whole years since i walked out of your apartment and got into mom’s car. 11 years since you followed me out to tell me you loved me. 11 years since i last looked at you standing in front of me, 11 years since you loaded a gun and ended our lives. i swear i went with you when you died. who i was back then, that girl that loved life and people. that girl that wasnt full of sadness so deep that it literally radiates out into physical pain. i wonder what i would be …

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Hello everyone! <3

May 2nd, 2015by kalmahavak

Hi everybody! You may have seen me posting comments giving you my email and KIK name. (My email is andrewholstein1@gmail.com and my KIK is Kalmahavak if you want to talk to me and be friends :)) I’m a senior in high school that is absolutely TERRIFIED of the future. I have been for years not understanding what my purpose in life is, and just worried about the future. That is, until recently. Anyways, here’s my story.

I think it all started after 6th grade when my parents first put me into public school after homeschooling me all my life. I was bullied a lot for no …

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The story of my daughter’s tragically short life.

May 2nd, 2015by annamarshall

This happened about a year ago and writing this is part of my therapy. This is the story of my 14 year old daughter’s 2 years before her passing. You should know that Mia did not share anything with me, and the reason I know so much is from reading through her extensive journals, which i did not know about until i found them shortly after her passing. This is Mia’s story;

My daughter’s story starts in seventh grade…. She moved to the state’s most expensive private girls school from a private girls primary school. She was very happy all the way through my primary years …

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Maybe I just don’t know anymore.

April 29th, 2015by justanothergirl09

I don’t know anymore. I’m not the person I used to be. I’m someone completely different. Now I just wanna be alone. I get panic attacks. I have really bad social anxiety. It is true what they say, you don’t know what you have until its gone. When I was 9 my mom died and everything just changed. I didn’t even go to her funeral. Slowly this emptiness started growing inside of me. I became kinda lonely and just really sad. There are times when I can’t handle it anymore and just get so sad that I just start thinking about suicide. Honestly, I believe …