so far im my life i have screw things up! relationships friends parents family to them. im just a piece of shit. i have thought about my suicide again. it stopped but has came back in every way to hurt me. i thought suicide was just a phase for me of what i was going […]

Seriously, where are you at? Reply!  Let me know people can actually care about each other unconditionally.

ok i typed a book here a bit ago, but apparently it was in the wrong place.  figures..  ok breifly now then here is my story so yall can tell me i have so much to live for. have never completed any thing.  highschool i got my ged, army i took medical discharge, college went […]

I have no bonds with people. I’ve been abused and alienated. Deep depression, constant  migraines, always tired, can’t concentrate or think straight, memory issues. I’m chronically stressed.  People are just rude and hateful and judgmental and prejudice.  I’m in a town with very little opportunity literally just a dozen different places to work, with no […]

Out of respect, names will be changed for privacy. yesterday was a horrible day. My mother was the first person (who knew Tom well), to discover Tom’s dead body in his hotel room. My mother and Lisa, a friend of moms who barely knew Tom apart from the occasional light teasing they shared back and […]

I don’t know why she won’t let me leave, the schooling that I’ve had hasn’t taught me to write. I will never be able to talk again, either. Sometime ago, right before we moved out to wherever the hell we are, I had managed to escape the place we lived and ran. I never made […]

I may not be suicidal but i do get depressed because of my lack of motivation and my fear of the future and this is what i like to listen to. So i made a playlist with some music that is nice to the ear and yes i know its hip hop but these songs are […]

I’ve been waiting to buy my own bottle to end my life with and im terrified. As though I can’t possibly do it, but im going to make myself. I like life, I cant stand myself and all the things I don’t know.. Im not very excited, just sad. am I crazy to feel I […]

I graduated from college and have a Bachelors of Science. I thought more doors would be opened for me but now ten month since graduation… this does not seem so. I held a position in manufacturing 6 months after graduate just to make some money but did not take long for me to feel dissatisfied, unaccomplished, […]

I’m not sure what I really expect anymore. A couple months back, September to be specific, I found myself in a hole. You know it, the black abyss that you stare at day in and day out. The one that never seems to end. I had been looking into, getting lost in the darkness for […]