Stories of Loss

For those who have passed on.

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I don’t think there is anyone in the world who could really screw up their life like I did.

December 21st, 2014by Paranoid guy

So this is my second post here. Could be my last. My previous post I mentioned how I said something dumb to my friends whilst I was high n drugged. It sounded gay I know they told other people about it. For the last two months this has been affected me. I been ashamed to go to gym, couldn’t function at work. My two friends which I normally hang out with would call me to meet on weekends but I would make excuses until two nights ago. They messaged me saying that they are going out to dance n are going to meet other …

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Been A While

December 17th, 2014by Scarlett Dawn

It has been such a long time since I’ve posted on here. Maybe its because I feel like I have been improving a lot with my ongoing treatement, but lately I feel like I’ve been slipping backwards.

I just became aware of the emotionally abusive relationship I was in with my “best friend” and now, I fear my safety. I have been advised to get an AVO against her, but I don’t want to involve the police.

After my physically abusive ex boyfriend four years ago, I just don’t understand how I didn’t see her for what she really was. Even when I was aware – I …

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Life is not fair / unfair. there is always winners & losers. I’m a loser, so why can’t I / losers just commit suicide?

December 17th, 2014by niki

Life is not fair.
Life is unfair.

there is always winners & losers.
there will always be winner & loser.
so why can’t I / losers just commit suicide?
rather than they keep living chasing & fixing all their way too many losses, which is probably too late anyway too.
and usually losers can’t win / can never win against winners anyway .. even the “start” is already too late!!

This is the harsh truth / fact / reality .

Reality / Real life / Real world is very LIMITING / LIMITED in what we can & can’t do !
We are limited by money (rich and poor), resources, …

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December 14th, 2014by omarazza

im just depressed, depressed all the time, i cant feel happy since like 2 years, i forgot what happiness feels like, all i can feel is pain, all the fucking time, and i hate it, i really do, if i die nobody’s gonna hurt me, so i guess, with the new year ill be dead, i need to die, i have to, i dont wanna feel pain, i hate it, i really do! i dont know how i will suicide, maybe i will jump from the roof, maybe ill take pills (even though i tool pills 2 times trying to suicide but obviously that didn’t …

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It is inevitable.

December 13th, 2014by DancerToADiscordantSystem

I don’t even know anymore.I got completely hammered in hopes of…i don’t know,maybe getting my mind off of things.Not surprisingly,it feels even worse than when i’m sober.All the time it’s the same,just with varying degrees of shittiness. When you’re drunk,suffering and depression feels even more tangible than it’s usual abstract,existential nature.It’s inescapable.Thank you for existing SP.

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A sad story that made it all come back

December 8th, 2014by The Distress

Hi everyone, I used to be a frequently posting member of SP even before the site’s new look and new options with the dash (….which really wasn’t all that long ago guess.) I usually found answers and help here whenever it was sought, but it has been awhile since I have come here to say anything of real pertinence. I am back now because I have a real strong conviction and yearning to commit suicide and stop all of this damaged, irreparable ruinage. I know such things get said over and over on SP’ however it is difficult to go through …

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PLEASE GIVE ME ADVICE!!!

December 5th, 2014by alice123

Can someone please give me some advice!
My boyfriend broke up with me after two years it would have been three on the 18 and it hurts like hell and two days later he got a new girlfriend he wasn’t cheating on me with her he just found some girl that liked him and they got together after he dumped me. The worst part is that i have to see them making out in the hallways and its just been two days after our brake up i still love him and this hurts so much seeing that. I have all my classes with them!! you …

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Situations and Fake Smiles

December 5th, 2014by CursedTouch

I may have screwed up haha.
Some may not be interested in what i am about to write, but to me it is a weight that is so crushing it’s suffocating.

I play this game online and the friends on there are the closest i have, although there is new drama everyday, it makes me happy in the end, and to me that is important. but if there was one person i would never want to betray/lose, it would be my ex although we’re on different sides of the planet the love was real.
Tonight an old friend was also on, the only problem was they had a …

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Read My Novel Please? I Promise You A Cookie.

December 4th, 2014by killswitchon

I hear it knocking at my door. Beckoning me, goading me and luring me into its clutches one hopeless day at a time. I’m tired. So tired. I just came off a 2 week drinking binge where every day I drowned my sorrows and pretended this sad state of affairs isnt my life. Circumstantially many of you would trade with me–it’s more than ideal. I got my own new apartment which is fully financially provided for in every way. My food is pre made and prepped for me most of the time. Physically I’m a pretty good looking guy in my own right and even …

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Of course I’m alright

December 3rd, 2014by impossible_girl

I’m fine, passing acquaintance.
(Can’t you see the bleeding wounds in my soul?)

Of course I’m doing okay, academic counselor.
(How are you missing the screams behind my eyes?)

Great as always, love of my life.
(Save me, save me, SAVE ME.)

Just call me the impossible girl, world.
(Why am I even still alive?)

Of course I’m alright. Why wouldn’t I be?
(I am already dead.)

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Holiday Misery…

December 2nd, 2014by deathisbliss

I avoid my family because they judge me….and because every time I am forced to see them they happily photograph me and post it online.

I wish I could tell them not to photograph me….not to post it….not to make me consider slitting my wrists again…

But they do it anyway….and I have to face the images of the horrid reality that is me…

Yeah I know….I have body dysmorphic disorder….I know it…

But it doesn’t help….it doesn’t change anything…when I see an image of myself I want to shoot myself in the head.

I avoid this….I pretend it does not exist….but every holiday season they try to force me …

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I’m a 32 years old loser and total failure in this so-called “real world.” Is there really no hope for me anymore?

December 2nd, 2014by niki

I’m a 32 years old loser and total failure in this so-called “real world / real life / reality”. Is there really no hope for me anymore?

I’m a 32 years old guy from Indonesia. Graduated about 13 years ago from U.S, and then “back for good” to my home country, supposedly working for a family business.

Many people honestly tell me (or view me) as a very talented, even multi-talented person. But unfortunately/sadly, somehow I just lack several few factors yet they are apparently probably the *MOST IMPORTANT* factors in this so-called “real world / real life / reality” .

It’s my mind / constant thinking & …

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Virtual Reality is an escape from Reality , boring Reality / boring real life / boring real world / boring life !

December 2nd, 2014by niki

Virtual Reality is an escape from Reality ,
Virtual Reality is the escape from Reality ,
this boring Reality (Reality is boring ) !
this boring real life (real life is boring ) !
this boring real world (real world is boring ) !
boring life ( life is boring) !

Seriously, when Reality is boring & mundane (even real Science is boring & mundane too, science fiction (sci-fi) is better than boring science real ! ) , Virtual Reality is the only TRUE / REAL progress for humanity / mankind / our human species !
with Virtual Reality (VR) technology , we can enter into UNLIMITED possibilities, …

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hey everyone,

December 1st, 2014by littlerayofsunshine

happy

Today i am feeling happy and its been hard lately, but i want to share my happiness with all of you because every single person deserves and has the right to be HAPPY! You are strong and you are worth it, keep fighting <3

***Spread the happiness***

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Out on bond….the ones we really love. the woman in our lives

November 30th, 2014by johnwhogivesashit

I’m out on 100,000 dollar bail right now. I’m facing a home invasion charge in Illinois which is a class x felony. The punishment if convicted is a minimum 6 to 30 years in the department of corrections. I am facing a death sentence. These alleged charges are total bullshit but regardless of the outcome I will come out the other side 10,000 dollars in debt from lawyers. I am 22 years old. For all intents and purposes This situation is going to cost me 6-30 years of my life. The courts are a mockery of justice in illinois. they are courts of conviction not …

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science is boring ! science fiction is better than science fact ! sci-fi is better than science fact ! real science is boring !

November 29th, 2014by niki

science is boring !
science fiction is better than science fact !
sci-fi is better than science fact !
real science is boring !

Reality is boring ! Reality sucks !
Real life is boring ! Real life sucks !
Real world is boring ! Real world sucks !

I also hate this life, I hate people / humans (well.. MOST/90% of them), I hate reality, I hate this world.
its very BORING !! and especially nowadays become ONLY very materialistic, money / profits driven only, all about money, money, money, & image, image, image! ; it’s very superficial, shallow, and mundane boring!
I HATE MONEY !! and I HATE …

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There Were Galaxies in Your Eyes

November 29th, 2014by GalaxyEyesXx

Talking about the good moments of my childhood forces me to be both nostalgic and incredibly sad at the same time. I wish things were that simple because even though I didn’t have a particularly easy childhood, a child’s problems are so much less complex. Today I decided to text a friend that I haven’t spoken to in a while. We met through a therapy group and somehow we clicked, even though neither of us are the most vocal of people. But I feel like we understood the pain in each other’s eyes, in a way no one else could. We never told each other …

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Unrequited Love

November 28th, 2014by Pointedancer101

Before him I had never had a relationship. I had never been consensually kissed but I had been sexually harassed twice (not rape, but kissing and hands where I didn’t want them). I met this guy at the beginning of senior year. You may even know him. I liked him right away. Had a crush right away. He had a gf at the time. And it hurt but I kept getting to know him. So time passed. His gf broke up with him. And he was devastated. He literally came to school hungover because he’d go home and drink. It broke my …

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A Dream Deferred

November 26th, 2014by GalaxyEyesXx

My feet are clammy from the marathons I am forced to run in my mind. Was that you that came to me in the hopeless dark of the night? Or are these blessed visions an after image of a cursed mind? My soul is an enigma. It baffles the masses and their fear overruns their ignorance. Alas, even I am perplexed by what I have become. A solitary phantom drifting down a rocky precipice but it cannot reach the dark waters. I wish I could ascend on starry wings though this is just a fantasy, once cherished. So what will be the method of my …

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