Stories of Loss

For those who have passed on.

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Partly My Fault

May 3rd, 2016by Cordless

triggers

Possible problem.

Last night I logged off and went to bed hours earlier than usual. I laid there and cried for what was probably an hour before falling asleep.

When I woke up today, I found that a friend had emailed me 20 minutes after I’d logged off. The email was brief and very desperate sounding, begging me to be there and answer. This friend has been in a suicidal mindset for quite a few months now; possibly even longer. Lately they’ve gotten more and more serious about it.

I feel awful that I didn’t catch their email last night; …

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Is it my fate?

May 3rd, 2016by Gypsyguy93

Hello, this is my first time writing on here, I became aware of this site last year when I had a severe depression and anxiety relapse and after I had tried to end my life more than once, had I not been discovered when I had been I would not be here right now. Just knowing that there are people out there who aren’t judgemental, oblivious or unable to understand has just such a great comfort to me since then.

I can remember a life without anxiety or depression, Before 2012.

In 2012 my ex fiancée ( I am a gay male) ended his life after we broke …

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Friends.. What Are They Good For?

May 1st, 2016by GerbzBaby

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I literally did nothing over this weekend, no one contacted me asking how I was or nothin.. I hang out with the same person all the time and in all honesty I get sick of it. All we do is nothing when we hang out.. I need to find a new crowd to be in..

Even though I didn’t do anything here is a birb (hawk)  I drew for my U.S History class. Enjoy.

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Losing to Oregon

May 1st, 2016by HERE4UOK

Losing yet another good acquaintance…

Let’s call him Roger. I just got an email from him saying goodbye. He’s moving to Seaside, OR

I didn’t know. WE didn’t know (one of the groups I volunteer at) he’d been planning ‘his trip’ since last year.

Roger is a two-time cancer survivor.

Always the fighter, he went to own the business he started working at years ago.

His youngest ‘child’ will be heading for college this summer.

Roger’s wife’s already waiting for him having passed a few years ago after a tragic accident.

Roger has a thriving business, family and has his entire affairs in order.

He also has ALS. An aggressive case of it.

It’s …

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I miss you, part 2

April 30th, 2016by CaptainMarvelous

She loved me. She loved that I was a doctor. She loved that I helped people. When she talked to her best friend about me, she gushed about how I was a kind, generous, caring person that l loved kids.

I loved her. I loved how full of life she was. I loved that she was always trying to better herself. When I told my friends about her, I told them she was perfect. Warm, sunny, gentle. The perfect girl for me.

We named our future kids. Picked out our future house. Chose our future dog. She wanted it all. I wanted it all. We both did, …

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Retirement

April 30th, 2016by mranony

Today, I heard the news that one of my favorite teachers died. I could have accepted it better if it was a natural death but I heard it was not.

He was robbed and killed. Shot. In. The. Mouth.

He was an old man. Excited for his long awaited retirement. He wanted to go to places. And now he can’t.

He was strict but fun. He made us recite this poem he made everyday. But it’s not the boring kind of recitation. He likes to twist it around. He was a jolly old man.

He believed in our potential. He taught us a lot of words. And it was …

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I miss you

April 28th, 2016by CaptainMarvelous

It was almost magical, the way we met. We had talked online occasionally for a few months before, on and off. The day before she went back to school from spring break, she told me where her home was. Only a 30 minute drive from where I lived. We immediately decided to meet. When we met we exchanged stuffed animals. She thought I was going to take her to Taco Bell. I ended up sharing a plate of pasta with her in a restaurant, then brought her home where we watched a movie. Her head was in my lap, and looking deep in each others’ …

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Now what?

April 25th, 2016by bloodstainedlips

What do you do when suddenly the person who meant the world to you, is gone. When you’ve shared everything with that person, built up trust in them, grew with them, gave them all of you.. shared all your “firsts” with them because you knew they would be there forever and you knew them so well – or you thought you did. You “knew” they would never betray you or lie to you because they loved you and you had so much confidence in it that there was absolutely no questioning it. You do everything for that person, for years they are your best friend …

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Drained…all ways…emotinally…mentally..!

April 24th, 2016by Giaahhh

Poor l’le grl…..she was juz done with it…. Tired of everything…. She was stuck…..she was craving to find few traces of life in her…..a reason to live….sadly…. Cudn’t…

She felt…. She was a mere disappointment…. She feared things…. And this time she ws giving up….coz…no ray of hope made a way to her room….

Lost soul….. Juz a reflection of a human….!

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Don’t Hurt Me

April 24th, 2016by GerbzBaby

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A vent drawing inspired by the man that hurt me! Thank you for doing that to me boy! :/

Not finished with it yet, still working out details. Might post the finished product later.

(It’s a tiger and a red panda if it’s to hard to tell, tiger obviously represents the one I once loved and the red panda at the bottom represents me.)

 

 

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“Lovely Death” and I think my love might have fallen victem to suicide

April 21st, 2016by bodies.in.blood

In the beginning
They were just two kids
One lived with depression
The other lived in bliss
They found a new feeling
On June 26
Their world changed forever
After the first kiss

Months passed
At times life felt jaded
But they knew
They couldn’t be separated
Throughout their time
Love never faded
Storms came
But always dissipated

Colors vanished
On this one day
He could see red blood
But the sky turned grey
His angel had left
He started to decay
Sweet lovely death
She flew away

The still young child
Wept through the dreamland
He was walking alone
Though he could barely stand
He felt something warm
Grab his cold hand
He fell to the ground crying
He knew it was his woman

-bodies.in.blood

 

I found my true love long ago… she was just -god she …

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I lost my Soulmate.

April 21st, 2016by kirru63301

I lost my soulmate.

I loved her with all of my heart. We’ve known each other for five and a half years and we were best friends. It was an online relationship and we were young so we weren’t serious about it. But a few years ago we realized we could really make this work and so we tried. We stood by each other through thick and thin, through the stress of me having a job and graduating high school and everything. I felt like I had the perfect future because we promised each other we would go to the same college and work in the …

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The Encounter.

April 19th, 2016by GerbzBaby

(If you want to get an idea of what’s been going on, look at my previous post.)

I unexpectedly ran into him today while working on a project at the computer lab. The first thing that came to mind as I walked in and saw him  was “leave” but honestly, I couldn’t. I had to get this project done or else my future would be at the mercy of my schools hands. It’s not like my school takes kindly to failures, but, anywho.. I walked in and sat down at the desk the teacher directed me to. It was right next to the printer. I knew …

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3

In memoriam

April 17th, 2016by Kenny McCormick

no need to read –>(I was magic gold dust like a minute ago, but now I’m Kenny McCormick. I decided pussyslayer69 was too much, magic gold dust wasn’t enough and Kenny feels just right because of the pure irony. I’m anemic so I need a lot of iron-y. Ha, get it (pls don’t hit me)! If somebody doesn’t know about Kenny, he wants to live, but he always manages to get killed (he has endless lives, poor soul). He goes back and forth to heaven and hell, but always finds himself stuck in the middle. Actually, he did kill himself at least one time… Anyway,

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Change..

April 15th, 2016by nonexistingsoul

It’s been a long time since I posted something here again. So here I am, still alive. Remember my post entitled “April 2”? that should be my date of death. I should’ve been dead by now. But still, I’m alive. But now I wish I wasn’t. I regret choosing to live again. I thought everything might turn out good this time. I tried changing. But every time I’m trying, something bad always happens and it drags me down deep. And when I thought I was getting better, it turned out worse. As usual, I still do self harm scars. I still think about suiciding. And …

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“Numbing the pain for a while will make it worse when you finally feel it.”

April 14th, 2016by HakunaMatata

Throughout life there will be ups and downs, joys and tears. Normally, I try to ignore negativity coming from my neighbours and refrain myself from using foul language but words can’t express how I stronfly feel about these emotional and financial leeches. My neighbour are the type of people who are like this quote “counts other people sins/mistakes” to try to make themselves look like “saints”.

In my opinion, they are truly despicable and are like peeping Tom’s who have a problem minding their own business. I made nicknames for them as flies, paparazzi, or anti-fan. I made it clear to them that I would appreciate …

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Said Fairwell To My Best Friend.. And Lover

April 9th, 2016by GerbzBaby

No, before you jump to conclusions I’m not harming myself in any way. This is about someone who I loved but unexpectedly found out he had cheated on me. Though we never made us dating official we where intamit (kissing, cuddling, making out, I would never go as far as that). He was my best friend, my lover and someone who made me in all honesty happy, something most people can’t do. He was kind in helping me.. But in the end I was wrong about him. He has fallen in love with another girl and still had feeling for my sister, lied and told …

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AN OPEN LETTER FOR EVERYONE

April 8th, 2016by missanonymous

I know some of you might be into deep holes right now and some were at the point of their life when all they want to do is to break down and cry, or even die. Yes, I do understand because even I myself can’t do this anymore.. but I’m still trying as long as I can. That’s why I am here not to tell you that ‘everything is gonna be fine’,’get up and it will get better soon’ or ‘put yourself together don’t be weak’ because even I can’t believe that it’s all gonna be alright. I’m not going to tell you the words …

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Wolf In Sheep’s Clothing

April 7th, 2016by HakunaMatata

 

I’ve suffer from anxiety and depression for months after my relative just keep telling me “not to worry and let karma do the rest” about my neighbour from hell next door. Things didn’t get better but escalate for the worst. He never listened to me to be about being careful about those people trying to harm us/seek revenge and it is always better to stay safe than to be sorry. I tried very hard to stay positive and always strive to protect my home from these sort of jerks that try to provoke us with their words, kids playing on our driveway, and petty revenge

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