Ok well I told my family how I felt and how I want to end my probelms. They under stood and did not get angry they just didn’t understand how I could be sad with everything that I have. I told them about how my past constantly follows me and eats at me. My father suggested a therapist and I agreed only to see how it goes. We also decided as a family to wait until October and look for one. I’m not sure how long I can wait but I will try for my family. I didn’t tell them however that I cut and they know I did in the past they don’t know now though. My father also discovered that I use this web site as a outlet for my emotions. He didn’t say anything only looked disappointed. Well to be honest I don’t feel any better. I am just tired of being tired. I wish I could sleep. Any suggestions to help me sleep???
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warm milk?
anyway, disappointment only stems from expectations..
so in reality, no one should be disappointed with you..
and as for the ‘having everything’, when you’re depressed you see nothing..
so having everything is the same as having nothing..
if you really want to sleep, exercise really hard.. you’ll sleep like the dead.. 😉
(but you won’t feel so great from sore muscles, so be careful the next days)
I think I am going to start running or some other excise to run my body down. I am to the point were I will do any thing for sleep. And the thing about having everything I see it as just material not something that should really bring me joy.
well done for telling your parents and not chickening out. That must have taken a lot of guts. Try reading before you go to sleep or do something that takes a lot of energy to do. 🙂
Thank you and it did. It took me so much to tell them. And I am going to find something for sleep.
As an insomniac I find that the best way to sleep is when you body is so physically exhausted that you sleep. Normally that might take days, weeks, ect. If you really keep busy all day and exhaust yourself. You should be able to sleep more at night…that sorta works for me :c
Don’t worry about your parents not understanding why you feel this way. My mother was and is the same when me and the school counselor had a meeting with her and told her everything. To this day she doesnt get why I’d rather be dead.
When you look for a psychologist, take your time. If you don’t like one after the first or second meetings, switch. You don’t have to stay with one if you don’t like them, or can’t feel comfortable enough to talk to him or her. Good luck
I am going to run my body down. And my father said he understand some of it but not all of my depression. I am ready to start looking now but as a family we think its best to give me time to think about it.
The trick is to don’t sleep until you get to sleep. Well, I did it after only sleeping for 1 or two hours. And your family would never understand ya. Keep away from them.
As backwards as this may sound…
Have you tried a hot cup of coffee with a little milk in it?
I have trouble with getting to the point where i feel ready to sleep, but once i’m ready, it’s easy.
Sometimes, i think “oh, morning, might as well coffee…”
And the next thing i know, i’m ready to pass out. Totally not tired or sleepy, then i begin to drink coffee and feel like sleeping. lol.
I am going to try that when I get ready to go to sleep. It may help me. Ive never tried anything like that but it sounds like it may help me. I hope it does. Thank you for the idea.
It shows that you have courage. This is good because now you know that you do have courage in you. If you want to talk to someone, about cutting yourself, I will be always be ready to listen.
Thank you. That made me smile:) and I have been clean for a mounth. Its very tempting though I want to do it so bad but I hid my knives and told myself not again. I want to be clean for school and prove to myself I can do something to better myself.