I am a 20 year old female attending university within my home town. I honestly feel lost within my own life. I am a waste of space. I do not know how to cook, terrible at cleaning, and struggle to manage a workload in school that others would find easy. I was diagnosed with major depressive disorder and anxiety disorder. I was never social as a child; I can’t go up to someone and start a conversation. I had a happy childhood, up to a point. Our home has come under disrepair within the past decade or so. I love my parents, at least I believe that I do. But have I truly felt that love for them? Expressed it enough? Those are questions that I’ve never been able to find the answers to.
I’ve always done things at my own pace , but I never really reached out. I’ve never really felt motivated to life at least a semblance of my own life. I have interests, but they are very bland and vague. I have friends, but they are acquaintances at best
I’ve attempted suicide in last few years, overdosed on a handful of medications. But the likelihood of myself succeeding is extremely slim, isn’t it?
One may wonder why I have written this post; I am not certain myself. All I know is that I don’t want well-adjusted, hard working taxpayers to finance my mistakes. Might as well let my parents utilize my life insurance policy and get it over with.
1 comment
you are not a waste of space
may be you are different but you can never be a waste of space
i know its hard when you see other people working normally and take things easily but that doesnt mean you are not normal. Try to accept the way you are to become the person you want to be