I really do NOT want to live to see another year. Praying that I die before 2018. I’m afraid that one day, I will actually have the guts to commit suicide.
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I have to say, I have been able to relate to a lot of the things I have seen in here, but since I have never seen anything exactly like my thoughts, I thought I would write out all my questions I have.
Has anyone else ever been so devastated over wanting to be someone else? Like there is this one person you like SO MUCH and you just want to BE that person SO BADLY because you just like their personality so much?
Does anyone else hate God more than just about anything in the world?
Has anyone else felt like they could have accomplished something great […]
Yeah, I definitely the most weird and unique person on here.
… and I am about to share some of them. These are my thoughts. I have never ONCE seen a post like this that I can say,” oh my god, I can COMPLETELY relate to this person so fucking well! HOLY FUCKING SHIT I CANT BELIEVE THIS!”
I don’t really want to feel miserable, but that’s better than having it change to something that I am COMPLETELY not used to, which is feeling happy. Sometimes I want to feel miserable like I do now, but just not to a point where I feel like I can’t handle it. The fear of change is FAR worse than […]
I hate hate hate hate HATE the person I am. I also wonder if it bothers anyone else how life must be as long as it is
If you said yes, I would really like to know why. because I hate him too.
I can’t deal with all this anymore. Always feeling too hot, all this anxiety, all the painful memories and feelings, my severe lack of motivation everything that bothers me, stuff that is even too hard to understand and explain; I would be dead right now if suicide didn’t hurt while doing it. I feel like everything is just going to continue to get worse, which is why I hope to never wake up again. EVER. I also can’t STAND the person I am.
if you want to know more, I suggest reading some of my other posts.
The thing is is that I have so many problems in my life, but I just don’t know how to express it. I feel like my problems are the most unique on here of anybody and that most people on here are better at describing things than I am. This is just how I feel
I want to kill myself. I am sick of feeling like I can’t relate to 99% of people in the world. Last night I was at a party and the only thing I could think about while I was there is how much cooler everybody else is than me. This does nothing but make me want to die. I just hate myself so much that it’s unreal.
for some reason, basically, every day my body is WAY too overheated. For literally NO REASON at all. Even when it’s cold out. This is a problem I have been dealing with for the last three years and it […]
i really wish there was someone I could talk to about my suicidal feelings without fear of being judged or upsetting them or having them think differently of me. I also want to mention that I have had a plan to end my life before, and if things had gone my way, that I would be dead now. Also, if there was a painless way to commit suicide, then I would have done it a LONG time ago. There is NO WAY I can tell all this to ANYONE
last night, I had a dream where I was dying. I had a dream where I was bleeding out to death, but I didn’t feel any pain at all. Then I woke up and realized it was just a dream. I was PISSED. I really wish this were true.
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I really hope I die before the end of 2017. I just can’t handle the thought of having to live for 60 or more years, and I don’t even want to live another ONE year.
NOBODY should worship/respect god. God is an ASSHOLE. That’s just my opinion. Not just to me, but to many innocent people.
I can’t even IMAGINE how unlikely it is that anybody I know has a suicide plan like I have in the past. What are the chances that people I know actually know about this site, or google things like “ways to die” and stuff like that? Why must it be so hard to find people like me? I’m not saying it’s impossible but I can’t imagine something like this to be true.
what are the chances that I’ll ever meet someone who is similar to the people in this site? I mean, like really REALLY similar? I’m not talking about meeting someone in real life from this site, I just wonder if anyone I know is SIMILAR to the people on this site, not necessarily on this site. For example, I wonder if anyone I know has had a suicide plan like I have in the past, or at times, is OBSESSED with dying like I can be very often times, especially to the point where they have googled things like, how to die painlessly” or things […]
I really wish I knew people in real life who are on this site. It would really help me feel like I can relate to people a lot better. I very seriously DOUBT that anyone I know knows about this site and I also highly doubt anyone else I know has considered suicide like me. Maybe one or two people but that’s about it. Sometimes I really wonder if anyone I know knows about this site and I just don’t know it.
why do I always have to be a minority? Why isn’t most of the world suicidal? Why don’t most people want to die or […]
every year, every month; my life ONLY gets worse. Nothing gets better ever. There is absolutely NOTHING that could make me happy and absolutely NOTHING that could convince me that my life is worth living. I feel like the most fucked up, empty, miserable, depressed person in this whole universe. I keep wanting to kill myself every day, but can’t because I am too afraid of the pain I will feel when I do it. I am absolutely empty, and I just feel so… strange all the time. It’s really hard to explain. I really wish I had the guts to commit suicide. Even if […]
i should have died a long time ago.
IF there was a painless way to kill yourself, I would have already done it. That is the ONLY reason I am still alive. I really shouldn’t be. I constantly think about ending it; even in times when nothing is really wrong. Life is a daily struggle. Every day, I only SURVIVE. I am never living. I constantly pray not to wake up in the morning and every time I do, it pisses me off more and more every time. My life ONLY gets worse every year. I also can’t STAND who I am. I don’t get why […]
i wonder, if I’ll ever meet someone who wants to die as badly as I do, someone who hates themselves as much as I do, someone who googles things like,” I want to die” as much as I do, someone who hates god as much as me, or someone who knows about this site, or someone who has attempted suicide(which I haven’t). Finding any of the above seems almost impossible for me to find. I doubt that ANYONE I know in real life would be able to relate to the things that are posted on this site. And I can. Which makes me feel even […]