If I may have your attention, if you will. Why’s the current suicide rate of the people on this site? Do you have anything on that perhaps in the form of a death to month average. I would really like to figure that out as I can’t think to myself and I’m stuck on that. I make imaginary speeches in a virtual world on OSP. I address the situation that so far we are not represented as the suicidal people of America… No of the world and we are more than a statistic from dying once or twice per month and we must have some […]
I am confused of whether I am depressed or not. Truly confused. Maybe I should attempt the brainwashing that I’m depressed again as to be normal again. What’s a good site to look for suicide methods that’s iPhone compatible so I can copy n paste the words and pictures and whatnot of the methods as I will be offline on weekdays. (Hope I can get high with friends soon). I have depressing quotes and how to make bongs and pipes, how to build a pipe bomb (for defensive and possibly a last resort and explosive suicide.) I am bored of this life. I don’t want […]
I’d like to speak to you!!! Celia is that you whom chose such an amazing name. If so then after our rampage, bEfore I die. Let’s say goodbye with a goodbye hug and goodbye cream soda. If you’re not Celia then hello I love cream soda much more than you OuO
anyways, it was right under my nose that Dr. dolittle was blackqwert as I just found out.
I have been drinking cream soda almost every day, trying to stay sane and happy. (very exhausting) The cream sodas effects on me are wearing down (enjoyment and whatever happens in my brain to elevate my mood).
Well so far, I’ve been failing half my classes. Not doing homework, unable to concentrate. The idea that the end is near makes me feel at ease to be failing. But it still stresses me. I still desire death even though I haven’t done much to desire it. I may have […]
It’s been three days. I have been much happier, new things have happened, but still I like the idea of everything looking gloomy and dead throughout our [The Suicide Project Pessimistic Humans] (if we can call ourselves human). Among us is people with the worst lives, the most fucked up minds (including myself and Rogue). We have many different mental/psychological/social and whatever things that they [family,friends,doctors,anyone] calls disorders. What it really is…. Is us…….
Rogue Shadow is the conscious in my head. The one that shows me the way to the light. He helps me and speaks to me. Though, I don’t hear him anymore. He […]
It’s been three days. I have been much happier, new things have happened, but still I like the idea of everything looking gloomy and dead throughout our [The Suicide Project Pessimistic Humans] (if we can call ourselves human). Among us is people with the worst lives, the most fucked up minds (including myself and Rogue). We have many different mental/psychological/social and whatever things that they [family,friends,doctors,anyone] calls disorders. What it really is…. Is us…….
Rogue Shadow is the conscious in my head. The one that shows me the way to the light. He helps me and speaks to me. Though, I don’t hear him anymore. He […]
Hey peoples of Suicide Project. It’s thursday as I write this. I read many of your posts. Kno1, Biscuit, Life Sucks, and Don’t want this all are going beyond the pale? Wow, life sucks is an amazing person, always helping others and now she’s going to asphyxiate herself with a belt or something. Biscuit, the dude with the awesome name and probably awesome English accent chooses Friday. I wish I could post right now, but no Internet at my dads house. Well, kno1 I don’t remember very well probably because I killed my brain cells for memory by choking myself. Therefore we probably talked before. […]
Began thinking of how much my relationship with my dad changed ever since he started beating me over little things a few months ago. I tried hugging him one morning extending my arms towards him. He got out of the way and walked off. I wanted to hug him goodbye when I left for school. Still teary eyed but not crying yet. Maybe I should try hyperventilating until I have a panic attack. That’s always fun.
Rogue was back one day and went away the next.
I downloaded 10 apps of depression check and 6billionsecrets.com and took the tests and posted crap. Nickname was suicidal16yearold […]
I feel lonely… But I don’t do shit about it. I want to ask Janel out, but it’s really hard to do. Well then. I’m here to hopefully soothe my want to be with a cute girl. What’s up with this urge to be with one. It’s not a sexual desire. I don’t know. I prefer dying than to suffer. Well then I guess teenage drama and I guess nO reason to die over a loveless teen life but that just adds to the weight of shit. I guess I’m just looking for a good reason to keep going. I am the type to ***** […]
A poem to Jasmine. Fuck Nycolle, wait no I still am in love with you… (just let her go Nathan, she wasn’t meant for you…) no she and I must be together forever… T-T (stop, you’re better off without her.
Here I am, inspired to write again after two seconds after the last post I just put up. Here’s an argument? Is suicide really immoral??? is it really that bad to suicide. Is it considered selfish? (Directions to do: Read this paragraph and comment. Then proceed to next part, if you are just browsing and won’t comment then go ahead.)Â
You may feel guilt that it is. You may think others will suffer. They will suffer but is it wrong to do it?
I ain’t a religious person, I am an agnostic atheist, so as a matter of speaking, if God made humans and the devil made […]
So many Op’s from the early days of SP. Then there’s the new OPs that I once read their amazing posts. That was before all the new faces. Now there’s posts that have song lyrics, my last words my last post on facebook (ex. darkblue) I’m still sad that lolfailz agitated the need to take the pills. 5000mg and 2000mg more I remember. He will slit his wrists at the sane time she dies. He says he made a lil kid kill herself (age 13). Well I think rogue is slowly creeping back in my brain. (he is silently whispering to me… Influencing my thoughts). […]
among the many people who joined SP. There was life sucks thin you die (still here and well) blackqwerty (deceased? Was an asshole but had a brain problem) jamiejajamie (whom is well and I text her every day) and about 5 others but there’s always new people now who come say they will die and do it and that’s it… This is for coping with suicide not for last regards. Has anyone read the actual original posters and how they must have been uncomfortable about the deed of typing up a story of suicide?
Nycolle!!! Why don’t you love me back!!! I am madly in […]
3:42 A.M.
Haha it’s really late I always post some time after midnight but before the sun comes up. Maybe Rogue Shadow is still here inside me. That deep, dark side of me where a paper cut is all it takes to see the evilness inside me. It could be that I’m just deprived of sleep, having an intellectual…. Intellectual high point? well anyways, I always wanted a black cloak hoodie thing like the creature from the village, Jedis and siths from star wars, or even from assassins creed (in which I haven’t played but would like to). I want one to conceal my wretched […]
DISCLAIMER: THERE IS TOO MUCH TO READ HERE HAHA, SPENT TWO WEEKS WRITING THIS AND IT HAS MY DEPRESSED STATE OF MIND INSANITY LONELINESS AND EVEN A PANIC ATTACK!!!
So many thoughts…Â
Filling my brain.Â
The dream about my dogs and snapping a dogs neck.Â
The thoughts of the videos I watched.
 The woman dying in the bathtub, drowning while tied up. The video game that may have caused noises in the night, nightmares, paranoia, and other paranormal mishaps. I blame my mother for that nonsense, but whatever.
I read Maximum Ride today, the whole book of Angel which is only 300 pages, about 82 small chapters. I […]
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Hmm… I might get struck with an idea, but I don’t know.
Any newcomers to this site. Maybe from someone telling you about it on a Facebook site, didn’t work? Okay then…
Well, life has been slow. My uncle is going to kick my dads ass for what he did and I feel injustice in that because he’s angry cuz I wouldn’t eat and I fainted.
We need a psychologist on here or something. I don’t know the reason I’m not eating, probably that my stepmom is who I hate and therefore won’t eat thanks to my hatred. It’s not a […]
Did anyone see my post on a page called suicide. Where I wrote to go to suicideproject.com, did any of you choose to go to it, cuz it seems like there’s a couple new faces…
Today, my mom took me to get a haircut. I got out of doing it when I told her the hairstyle I wanted from Heroes, Peter Petrelli. We went to Gamestop and bought 2 games and a mic, went to a secondary store and I bought five tom Clancy books. Played one new game and it sucked, second one was good…. Wait this isnt a fucking journal… Hmm… Wish it was… Still actively suicidal and depressed… Voices echo in my head from encounters today, mostly my mom n uncle screaming at me, uncle flicking my ears, and even my own voicE yelling back. My uncle […]
Been watching the most horrible videos ever recorded including pain Olympics. Why? Because I’m curious and mentally fucked up. I’ve seen a woman drowning while tied up, it happens for 5 suspenseful fucking minutes. Saw shootouts, a cop shit to death by what looks like a M1A1 Carbine, old World War II era weapon. There’s also the suicide of Ricardo Lopez and other shit. SP administrators, in case I have broken any rules of whom I haven’t read, well sorry just showing what a suicide looks like and imagine the look on your families faces when they see an eyeball strewn across the room along […]