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Chronic Pain

In Tears Out of Nowhere

by SumTimesIWonder 12/9/2016

written by SumTimesIWonder

I’m a grown man. I have a wife and children in their mid and late teens. I have a career
and I like what I do. I won’t become a millionaire but quite frankly not looking to either.
Without unmanageable debt, in good health, not religious but spiritually at peace with
my own convictions and family values. In general terms, I’m okay.

But I’m not.

I don’t know why. It just happens and it’s been like this for me for a few
years now. I’ll be driving and suddenly a knot clogs my throat and I can’t help bursting
out crying uncontrollably for about a minute or […]

12/9/2016 4 comments

Angel of death

by gemini 12/5/2016

written by gemini

I wish the angel of death like the one off the American Horror Story tv series existed, just one kiss and your free.

I am so desperate to go now, I can’t fight myself anymore, I can feel the desperation constantly rising in me with the more and more I think about being free. Free from the pain and suffering of my health problems and the feelings of guilt and burden that I am becoming to my family.

I did have a plan in place on how to free myself but money has now become an issue and I’m going to have to make a new […]

12/5/2016 1 comment

Final Step

by Bunniekiss 12/1/2016

written by Bunniekiss

I know I’m young
Only 16
But there is so much pain
Can I handle one more day of this?
I’m all alone in this.
One more day of…
Abuse
Depression
Anxiety
Never being able to be heard
Its like I’m in the ocean…
Only an inch beneath the surface
Fighting for a breathe
Only to be pushed down further and further…
By the waves of eternal rest…
Take me into your gentle caress
This is the final step.

12/1/2016 3 comments

Last Hope Vanished – I was Born, Shaped, and MOLDED by the DARK!!!

by silverComplex 12/1/2016

written by silverComplex

I was doing Carbon Monoxide in a sealed tent underground… I was just passing out and I crawled out and realized looking at the sunset… I want to live as much as I want to die… In other words, when life gets fucking hard I want to die as much I want to fucking live!! I fucking screamed and broke down. Every muscle in me was aching was saying what’s the point? Every muscle in my fucking body was telling me to stop. Every in me was telling me to stop and give up. And I said I can fucking do it… I know there is […]

12/1/2016 5 comments

So alone

by NoMoreHopeLeft 12/1/2016

written by NoMoreHopeLeft

Why do I need to disappoint every single person close to me?
My boyfriend broke up, and I still don’t really know why
My friend is totally angry with me again
I’m not able to comfort the friend most dear to me but instead he’s got trouble with his parents because of whom? Yeah well, of course it’s been me… Just as always I did my move of destruction.
I fuck up in school
I’m extraordinary unfair and mean to my parents who actually probably just want the best for me but are just putting way to much pressure on me and want me to […]

12/1/2016 3 comments

For those that need someone to talk to….

by HDs 12/1/2016

written by HDs

Hello to all,

I don’t pretend to know anyone’s situation or desire to end their life. What I do know is that I have lost many close friends to suicide and that during several low points in my life I have tried to kill myself at least a half a dozen times. These were not cries for help on my end, and I totally went for it with the most purpose driven determination possible. One such attempt put me in a coma for several weeks.

So I can definitely offer advice, empathy, and even sympathy to anyone who may need someone to talk to. I don’t and […]

12/1/2016 3 comments

Only those who understand will undetstand

by AmItheonly1 11/29/2016

written by AmItheonly1

I have had a yr thus far and fear the future. To start i have been struggling with depression since i was ten with the death of my father. It has been a process to cope this many years. Now more than ever i feel closer to death. Just two months ago i was involved in a near fatal.accident with family members. We all survived but i feel as if apart of me died that day. The worse part was my grandmother died earlier that day and we actually were leaving her house just minutes before crashing. I have been set back not only finically […]

11/29/2016 0 comment

I’m an idiot…

by disgusting 11/28/2016

written by disgusting

I’ve been pretty close to killing myself more than a few times lately. I set a hard date of Nov 1st, but what usually happens is I get too emotionally and physically exhausted to carry anything out. (I have fibromyalgia, am always in pain, and with the misery I can feel emotionally, really am not able to do shit.) Then when the super moon happened, I felt energized by it and wanted to die under the intense energy of the powerful moon and for real could not find a rope rated strong enough to hold my fat ass to hang myself.

I have everything in the […]

11/28/2016 2 comments

“You look happy, you can’t be dead inside.”

by Atrium 11/25/2016

written by Atrium

“There’s no way you are depressed, you look so active and talkative.”
“You’ve got a whole life ahead, you have a good life so I can’t find a reason why would you be in so much pain.”

These are the words that have been told by my parents for countless times.

I’m 22 years old girl in the eastern region who’s studying in the medical field. On the outside, I used to be a happy-go-lucky, active and energetic person, but deeply I knew that I worry a lot and have a turbulent mind. I always get easily surprised and overwhelmed and my heart […]

11/25/2016 2 comments

I want to end it

by TimTheTank 11/25/2016

written by TimTheTank

11/25/2016 7 comments

Happy Thanksgiving, Mother Fuckers

by AKidWithAName 11/24/2016

written by AKidWithAName

I am coughing up blood. I don’t know why or how, seeing as I haven’t even really attempted suicide in awhile, but here I am coughing and vomiting blood. It’s not that I ate too much; I hardly ate anything. Maybe my body is finally ready to die. I didn’t even have to do anything. If I had known that just giving my body time to really fuck itself over would fuck me up this bad, I would’ve stopped attempting suicide years ago. Hell, maybe there is a God. Well, as much as I’d love to tell my parents that I’m really fucked right now, […]

11/24/2016 1 comment

When?

by ErasedEon 11/24/2016

written by ErasedEon

Slowly but surely… I’m crumbling. Piece by piece, I’m being destroyed. Sometimes I think about the past and it makes me wish I stayed in that place. Now I’m back in my own Hell. One of these days I will have enough. I wonder when that will be?

I’m sorry… I’m not your hero anymore.

11/24/2016 3 comments

i wish harry potter was real , i wish fantastic beasts were real , i wish magic was real , i wish magic really exist , i wish wizards were real really exist

by niki 11/23/2016

written by niki

i wish harry potter was real really exist , i wish fantastic beasts were real really exist , i wish magic was real really exist , i wish magic really exist , i wish wizards were real really exist

because reality is boring , mundane , and limiting limited
because real world is boring , mundane , and limited limiting
because real life is boring , mundane , & limited limiting !

reality is all about MONEY !
real-life is all about Money !
real-world is all about Money !

Life is boring , mundane ,
movies is better than reality real life real world !
novels is […]

11/23/2016 6 comments

What Kind of Title Will Accurately Describe This Feeling I Have in the Pit of My Stomach?

by LostandLonelySoul 11/22/2016

written by LostandLonelySoul

There are literally no words to describe this god awful feeling I have in the pit of my stomach right now. It’s the kind of feeling that you don’t really know how to describe. Do I want to punch somebody in the face? Do I want to punch myself in the face? Do I want to cry? Do I want to go out on an “angry run”? Do I honestly just want to sit here for hours and stare at the wall and do nothing? Do I want to do anything productive? Who the hell knows. All I know is, I hate feeling like this.

I […]

11/22/2016 2 comments

Love hurts so much

by kamidaka 11/21/2016

written by kamidaka

I have two people in my life that I love with all my heart. One as a friend and one as a romantic interest.

I cannot put in words how strong my love for them is.

But they barely notice me. I don’t think they even remember my name. Yes, I’m really insignificant in their lives.

But whenever I see my romantic interest with someone that can make them happy in that sense…

I feel happy for them, but it hurts so much.

So much.

I love you both so much, why can’t I tell you? Oh yes, I’m scared you will stop talking to me. Even if we barely talk.

It hurts […]

11/21/2016 0 comment

I’m sorry.

by Gekonexx 11/21/2016

written by Gekonexx

My story is quite long, posting for the first time here, but been here for some time.

Hi. I am 19 y/o boy, straight, white, from a good house. Everyone in my family have good scientific degrees, my aunt is a scientist, my father is an engineer and mother is very important persona in cultural areas of my city’s culture. Why am I writing this? My whole life is a constant pressure from my parents and family, all of them had or have successful life, all of them completed good schools and have very respected work positions (lawyer, scientist, engineer etc.). My family was constantly repeating […]

11/21/2016 8 comments

A Dream Come True

by ErasedEon 11/17/2016

written by ErasedEon

I was hoping things would change…

I still can’t believe it happened. My dream came true. I have been wanting to do this for a long time and it finally happened a few days ago. For an entire 7 days I felt normal again. For once in my life, I didn’t feel sad anymore. I didn’t feel worthless or guilty or empty. For once in my life, I felt happiness. I could feel amazement, awe, curiosity, excitedness, and joy. I don’t remember when was the last time I felt that way… But then I came to realize something. This was only temporary, and soon enough, I’m […]

11/17/2016 0 comment

The Funniest Joke Haha

by AKidWithAName 11/16/2016

written by AKidWithAName

I am worthless. No, I am beneath worthless. I am less than useless; I cause more pain and suffering to every human being I know. I am the epitome of selfishness and greed. I am no more than the rotting flesh on my body. Not only am I a disgrace and utter disappointment; I am worse than that.

I have turned people against one another. I lied. I vowed to make peace, but instead, hypocrisy and cowardice tightened their grip around my throat. If only they would grip it tight enough to strangle me. Instead, I am living in this constantly shrinking reality.

I keep seeing […]

11/16/2016 4 comments

One Year Passed

by away 11/13/2016

written by away

Nothing has changed. I’m still in so, so much pain.

I made some adjustments to my external circumstances, but internally, I remain the same.

Hopefully, that will end tonight.

11/13/2016 6 comments

She remains lost in time

by FadingFlame 11/13/2016

written by FadingFlame

I’m sorry for losing who I was and killing the girl you loved…and I’m sorry that you miss her..she is gone and left all the broken parts of herself with me…I pick up the pieces one by one hoping I can put her back together…but just when I think I might have this puzzle of pieces worked out I look down to see more pieces than there were before…and realize that all my effort, sweat, and tears were for nothing but this hollow person I’ve become..alone and misunderstood…always wanting a man that loves a girl that I no longer know how to be. I will […]

11/13/2016 1 comment

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