Chronic Pain

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Dipping Sauce Optional

June 18th, 2017by Cordless

Recipe for Steamed Cordless:

Take one chronically depressed citizen with disability/mobility issues. Ensure subject is single and lives alone.

Add one week of humid temperatures in the high 80″s and mid 90″s.

Coat with sweat and despair. Mix well.

  • Add garlic breadsticks.

Serve with antidepressants and mood-altering beverage of your choice.

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Another Useless Post: I am not quaified for any relationship.

June 17th, 2017by BlueDiamond

I need a short break from this site. I’m starting to get so OCD or too obsessed about it that it’s making me rip my hair out. Yes, this web-site relaxes me, so the break won’t be long like two days max. XD I got contracted myself. Plus, the internet is getting slow, so I need to fix it.

Topic: If you have requirements to attract a certain person, you need to look in the mirror, if you want to know why if aren’t attracting them. BTW, dating preferences do not make you a bigot. I’m not desperate for anyone, and do feel like I’m throwing …

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whispers

June 17th, 2017by vee

today i, once again, was welcomed by a quiet house; except it wasn’t. they’re avoiding me. as soon as i opened the door, i heard whispers. a lot of them. now they’ve stopped, maybe they think i can’t hear them. although i quite like arriving and having time for myself, i don’t particularly like the fact that, even though they’re still awake, they’re pretending they’re not. it hurts a lot, but whatever; i can’t blame them. i’d pretend to be asleep all the time if i lived with another me, so i can’t really blame them.

the whispers have started again.

although i’m not 100% this time …

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12:51am

June 16th, 2017by vee

it’s hard to tell what i feel when my brain doesn’t want to work. i’m starting to get tired of people thinking i just choose to not sleep. it doesn’t matter that i’m extremely tired from working, i still can’t sleep; yes, even if i just lay in bed with my eyes closed. family doesn’t seem to understand that, but whatever; i think they just don’t care that much, and who could blame them.

tomorrow hopefully will be better; as i say to myself every day. still waiting for the day it’ll come true.

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How do you people go through with this?

June 16th, 2017by Black Holez

I’ve come to the realization that everything that has transpired in my life for the last 4 years has led me to being down, depressed and unable to socialize and do ordinary day-to-day tasks. I just sulk around the house unable to do anything, thinking about things like how worthless I am, how abandoned and rejected I truly feel. If I do go out and try something new, I’m unable to function and do ordinary tasks, making people view me as some kind of failure or a retard because I make a mistake. It doesn’t help that they view me as some kind of mentally …

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Used to be empathetic…

June 15th, 2017by Cause of Death: Suicide

“Oh I would never kill myself in the tub or in my room because someone would find me body and see it! And it would be a big buzz in my two horse town in bumfuck nowhere.”

 

Now I don’t give a fuck

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not again

June 14th, 2017by alexusdemi

I don’t want to be that post that you’re probably sick of reading, about falling into depression and healing from it. Three years. Three years of constant debating on weather i can stand myself or not. Starting to slowly fall back into a constant mind of self loath is so difficult. I’ve put my body and mind through to much shit to start being like this again. Scary thing is i don’t think im going to fight as hard as i did the first time.

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Have you ever…

June 14th, 2017by BlueDiamond

want to go outside during a thunderstorm in the pouring rain with your arms to the sky and scream, “Oh, smite me God!” “I dare you, pour your wrath on me!” “Come on, do it!”

Just a thought, it poured where was I at. I was the store, when it happened. Guess if I did, people would think I was crazy. Listening to the song, “Suicide” by Get Set Go. Song makes me feel good.

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Legalities

June 14th, 2017by nokshus

As if it wasn’t already a ***** enough. Fuck sakes you deal with the trivialities daily. The unending grind and minutiae. The milieu of reckless absolvency. Fuck, you go from the boredom to the banality. It’s all stupid shit.

Introduce the legal system or any of the bullshit bureaucracy into the fuckshow that is life and it becomes a whole new ball game. Fuck the legalities and hoops it makes you jump through. For real. Fuck incarceration.

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10:33 pm

June 14th, 2017by vee

about ten minutes ago i was going to try to go to bed early for once, but i just got a headache. a pretty awful one at that; oh joy. why do i keep getting random headaches??? i don’t get it, and they’re pretty annoying. anyways, today i worked. very uneventful day honestly, but tomorrow i finally won’t have to wake up to get ready as i won’t work. at least.

suicidal ideations are still present but also still passive, so i guess that’s fine for now.

updates are hard to do when nothing ever happens.

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everyday q

June 13th, 2017by vee

nothing particularly bad happened today, so why am i feeling this way?

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Writing to Sandman’s Youtube Channel

June 13th, 2017by BlueDiamond

I doubt I sent the letter to him correctly, or that he will respond. Here’s my personal letter, hope it doesn’t bite me in the ass:

Dear Sandman,
As a female, I enjoy your videos. They really get my juices flowing when comes to understanding human nature. By human nature, I mean that your videos helps me to see both sides of the opposite sex. My only and biggest criticism, however is that sometimes when you explain a behavior you make it sound like only women do it. For example in your youtube video “Dating Fat Girls”, you and the writer stated that once women find someone …

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Black-Lung

June 12th, 2017by Wednesday

Stomach’s been fuckin with me a lot here lately.
So I guess I’ll share a song off my first record.

*produced, arranged, composed and performed by Little Girl Lol

www.soundcloud.com/lola-co

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12:25am

June 11th, 2017by vee

these past few days have been weird, and i don’t know how to explain it.

i’ve been forgetting to eat, and sleep doesn’t come very easily; when it does come, it brings nightmares and i just keep waking up constantly. really aggressive headaches come and go without explanation. it feels weird.

for about 10 years i’ve had passive suicidal ideations, and active ones as well, but that’s not the point. anyways, they’ve been here for a while. basically, i won’t act up on anything, but i wouldn’t mind if something happened. even though i can’t even remember days where i didn’t feel like this, it seem like …

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Benzo withdrawal-my time is up.

June 11th, 2017by FFS80

I cannot tell the majority of my story here because if I did, I am sure the people I want to protect the most, will work out who posted this should they find it. I’ve even changed my writing style and the lot to post this, that’s how important it is that these people do not find out what I am intending to do. I DO NOT want ‘saving’ and I DO NOT want ‘help’ because there isn’t any.

A very long story cut short, I am an ‘addict’ who abused research chemical Benzodiazepines for a long period, and I stopped them last year after a …

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a day

June 9th, 2017by vee

today is one of those days where breathing takes too much effort

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I’m a loser

June 8th, 2017by gioia

I study a subject in the medical field. It’s a very tough university program in which one relies a lot on the professors and whether they like you or not.

You have to be there all the time. And I just can’t. I am scared of failing. But I am failing because I am scared. There are days I just can’t get out of the bed, even though I know the consequences.

So now I’m about to fail a very important course the second time. It started out great in the beginning, I worked faster and was motivated and tried to always smile and be extremely polite. It was utterly exhausting …

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I did it and I hate myself

June 7th, 2017by My life is over

I tried to kill myself last night and failed I tried to slit my wrist and did not cut deep enough and I was sent to the hospital for critical care. My family knows I’m alive. To those who think life can end with one shot, or twenty pills, it can’t God has a plan for all of us and that plan heaven or hell will come true with gods WILL. So don’t do it I was one of the lucky ones who lived and feels terrible for what I did. The hospital let me put this up with pain. They wounds where not deep …

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To the ones who know loremaster

June 7th, 2017by My life is over

He is in the CCU and he tried to slit his wrist open and failed. He almost died he is in the hospital. Sorry for the death the hospital just called and said he is in critical condition.

 

loremaster82@gmail.com if any questions

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Goodbye

June 6th, 2017by My life is over

I’m gonna do it from me to humanity hold on and don’t give up stay strong.

 

 

It will be rope this time

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