Coping Skills

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Insomnia is taking over

February 11th, 2017by lilxtina

I have never had insomnia before, this is the first time in my life. It is hell and making my depression even worse.

Does anyone else have it? Or has anyone else had it? How did you deal with it?

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Hi?

February 9th, 2017by _lost._.one_

I feel so alone, as if I am not good enough.

Today I almost suffocated from my own self-hate. Sigh, not literally, metaphorically. There were so many people in the bathroom all of a sudden and I could not cry, I had to hold it in for approximately ten minutes while they fussed over their picture.

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Need to occupy my mind

February 8th, 2017by daljen

Every day I search for something to take my mind off of wanting to die.  It’s been over a year since my first (aborted) attempt.  Since then, I’ve thrown myself into my work and family. But some days it’s difficult, especially those days when my thoughts become consumed by the failures in my life, and being stuck in them. Today was better than others but I don’t know what tomorrow, or the day after tomorrow, will bring.

Weekends are the worst because there’s no work to keep my mind occupied, and Wednesdays mark the point at which they become visible at the bottom of the slide.

So …

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A Greeting, and a Proposal

February 6th, 2017by Forest.of.Lonely.Trees

Hey! I hope everyone’s doing good (as good as it gets here at SP)…

This is my first post but I’ve been lurking for a couple of weeks now, commenting here and there more recently. This site and all of you on it have been a massive help to me recently in many different ways and I wanted to thank you all for that.

I used to spend a lot of time drawing but haven’t been as much lately, this is the last thing I finished and it seemed pretty relevant to SP… (sorry for the poor photo Q)….

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Trust and Pain. Fuck Relationships

February 6th, 2017by Mavourneen

How do you learn to trust again once that trust has been broken?

I don’t know how to deal with this pain and anxiety of not being able to trust

I feel frantic and irrational

 

My boyfriend is talking to his first ever ex, he didn’t tell me until like a week of them talking. From what he’s told me of her she was really manipulative and they ended on bad terms. When they dated she was in a relationship and cheated on her boyfriend with him constantly. It tore him up inside because she said she would leave her boyfriend but kept them both. She’s still with …

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looking for reasons to stay alive.

February 6th, 2017by theyoungone

within the last two months, ive started to feel like i am not myself anymore. i am not doing the things i love because i simply just dont have the time or motivation. ive found myself spending more time living inside my own brain that is telling me constantly to harm myself or end my life in total. i am sad to say that today was a breaking point for me, and i did harm myself after months of being clean. i am absolutely devastated and ashamed in myself, and that isnt helping me with my suicidal thoughts. ive tried coming up with a list …

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Alcohol

February 5th, 2017by Mavourneen

Does drinking make you suicidal? What do you guys think of drinking when youre sad? Does weed work better than alcohol as a coping mechanism?

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know your worthlessness

February 4th, 2017by SomewhereBlue

I am worthless to the world, to the people I loved, to friends and perhaps to family. This is a fact that when I started to realize and accept I felt a sense of freedom. I no longer live to please others, and others are no longer here to please me.

Keep it in your mind: you are worthless. Believe me you’ll feel free once you realize that.

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~Never asked for this~

February 1st, 2017by Xx-lostsoul-Xx

I never wanted any of this to happen but it did.
I never wanted to feel this way but I do.

I’m tired of faking my interests and smiles.

Cutting never helps, it never helped me feel
in control.

But I liked the pain, the feeling like a flicker of fire dragging across your bare skin.

But then it’s gone and I’m left numb… with nothing else but the scattered thoughts that are jumbled in my head.

I may seem crazy and people can have their judgments about me, but I’m just like everyone else yet I just have more problems then they’ll ever have.

But yet again I never asked for any …

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Betrayal

January 31st, 2017by Parzival

Oh jeez where to start. I actually haven’t logged onto this site for at least a year maybe longer? It’s hard to remember. I was doing a whole lot better and things were looking up. I had setbacks, times where I struggled but nothing unbearable. Well recently my best friend of 6 years (by far the longest friendship I have ever had) left me. This is the person I have gone to with everything and who I probably care about most in the world. We have been drifting for apart for about a month because I attempted suicide over a PTSD trigger and she got …

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Hospitalization

January 30th, 2017by Mavourneen

Hello, I’m 18 and I was recently hospitalized at an impatient facility before my 18th birthday for a suicide attempt. The facility I was at was really comfortable and I made great connections there. I kinda rushed out of it because Christmas was in a few days and i felt a lot of  pressure to be home for the holidays (and I was a little homesick). I’m thinking of going back, but now that I’m 18 I would be in the adult ward and I’m afraid of what that’s like. Im in a really dark place right now and I came to this site with …

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Moving forward

January 27th, 2017by lifehappens

The minutes are torturess. It’s as if someone is screaming inside of me. My life has become unbearable.

But suddenly now I’m at peace, with the concept of death. I’ve reached the point where I’m okay with how I feel. I accept it. I accept that my life may end with an impulsive slit to the throat. I accept that I may go on for a lifetime feeling this pain and enternal hurt.

I accept these things, but it doesn’t mean I’m no longer aching inside. Because I am. I still have this dull heavy pain in my chest but I’m no longer fighting it. …

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Do You Really Want to Die or Do You Just Want Your Pain or Your Struggles to End?

There is a difference. And a BIG one. …problem is, how to tell?

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We are not alone

January 24th, 2017by lxmyrick

Hey SP members, I found a song online and I wanted to share it.  This song means something else compared to what most people think, but we can relate to it.  It is about we are are not alone and we have someone to get support, for it can be a friend to any of us for help because we all understand each other and can help each other.  Just remember, when you are in a dark time, there is someone there for you.

 

I am one voice and I am singing

I am one voice and I am singing

I am one voice and I am singing

I …

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Suicide or not?

January 17th, 2017by Randomaccess10

The doctors fucked me up on meds. Forced me to take antidepressants after id already had serotinin syndrome…then i smoked a load with the stress, and had oxygen after to try and fix things…causing more damage, a day in the life of me is like imagine wearing earmuffs, with a car alarm sound 24/7, while your vision is like a home video recording shaking, with the brightness on zero and color turned down, with a bad aerial connection, and you have lead weights strapped to your arms and legs and a jug of water on your head….my little fingers hurt and dont move properly, and …

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Such a Lonely Day… Should be Banned.

“Such a lonely day. And it’s mine.” For crying out loud. Literally. It’s barely past noon and I’m sinking within me again. Hadn’t felt like this in a couple of weeks and here it goes again. It’s come to the point where I guess I must accept the fact that I struggling with depressive episodes… […]

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My Story

January 14th, 2017by 90Grayson

Hello everyone, my name is Daniel, and I think I’m going to commit suicide very shortly, I want to anyways, not sure if I will though, since things in life change so much, but I hope that moment arrives in a week or two. I don’t know where to start, I’m done trying to figure out why I’m like this, why I have suicidal thoughts, why I cut myself, why I feel so much pain all the time. It sucks, it really sucks to be this way, I don’t believe in destiny, but I cannot avoid feeling like I am trapped, and have absolutely no …

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Even if i didnt want to, i stay here, incapable to tell them anything about me. Im sad, im depressed, im suicidal. Speaking of suicide… It is the most beaultiful blessing we have in life, dont you think? If everything turns out impossible, we can be mercifull with ourselves and end it. Imagine the world […]

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How do you guys deal with loneliness?

January 9th, 2017by Black Holez

Just how do you guys deal with loneliness? It’s come to a point in my life where I just sulk around in the house all day and don’t even have the energy to go outside. My life seems to have turned for the worse and I’ve lost everything. I’ve lost my job, my friends and my family thinks I’m a total loser.

I’ve had a troubled childhood where I was bullied but that stopped when I smashed the shit out of them. The turn of events was made worse when I was bullied at work and got ganged up on every day. There isn’t a day …

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Antidepressants?

January 1st, 2017by beautifulsinner

anyone here on antidepressants? anyone here know the numb feeling you get when your on the drug that isnt right for you? im on prozac right now and all i feel is the intense urge to die. i feel incredibly more suicidal on prozac now, more than i ever was before. but for some reason, my doctor doesnt think its the drug. i dont feel like myself though. i feel so out of touch with my feelings and i just feel so numb about everything. theres nothing coming in between myself and my suicidal plans, because i have no feelings. has anyone else felt this …