Family & Friends Effects

Specifically with either ditching those that apparently “hold up” the roof you live under and pretty much losing out on five years due to it in order to get things back together, or sticking under it when their mistreatment of you is a prerequisite for staying there simply so you can do necessary work & finish your degree instead of menial tasks others could quite frankly automate away by this point. This is a continuation of the third to fifth paragraphs of https://suicideproject.org/2024/09/no-guarantees/ alongside the entire post that is https://suicideproject.org/2024/09/im-making-a-mistake-or-am-i-i-dont-know/ in that I am facing the same choice, yet again.

I think it’s a […]

Yeah, specifically when a lot of the people around you are doing the wrong things and all that, those in positions of authority and those apparently older than you, those who have more “know how” or whatever the heck, it just really sucks a bunch of the time to come across such circumstances in which people both don’t know what they are doing and refuse to admit that, kind of leading others astray with them. I really hate it. When things like taking into consideration what you eat alongside exercise aren’t the norm and people don’t necessarily pay too much attention to what they put […]

Does anyone else not necessarily have much concern for things like family, having a family, getting a significant other in whatever sense, and possibly maybe even friends in the traditional way? Not necessarily fervently avoiding them outright (although due to various things I guess you could say I am), and still having interactions with people whenever necessary, convenient or maybe even pleasant (depending on what counts as those things for you all), but really just not seeing the point of bonds that overstay their welcome, or usually turn out to be sour/regrettable, all of that stuff.

Of course, I wouldn’t say that healthy relationships aren’t possible […]

I read EternalDarkness’s recent post and i too hate this piece of shit world. I have recently been working on my traumas. Theres just too much to bear. Before i kinda ruined my life and other people ruined my life. Lets start from the beginning. Did you know the first trauma’s of somebody’s life starts as kid and your needs were neglected. If you know what im saying you know your first experiences. Mine, was my piece of shit mother leaving me in the backseat, forgot about me and looked the car. I was balling out my eyes because how the f**k do you leave […]

I feel selfish because I hate myself so much but I want others to love me but then when they do I feel disappointed or disgusted (or some thing that I can’t discribe) in them because how could they love something that to me is so disgusting, unloveable and cruel. I am rude to the people closest to me even when I try not to be, I know I’m a bad person to them and honestly there isn’t really any good quality’s about me I’m not that smart or interesting I’m not funny or nice or pretty or outgoing. I’m awkward, angry, tired, anxious and […]