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Family & Friends Effects

The effects of suicide on family and friends.

My way of goodbyes

by slowly-leaving 7/18/2019

written by slowly-leaving

I wrote a letter yesterday to my grandma telling her to not blame herself for my decision. No one was to blame for what I have done. I lost my papa in 2017 and I have not coped well since then. I died with him and I have finally understood what that meant. My boyfriend has tried to help me but I don’t share my feelings. So my decision comes from only me. I am alone and have always been alone. No matter how many people I surround myself with, I have always felt alone.

It makes things like this easier because I don’t have anyone […]

7/18/2019 1 comment

I fancy you

by Itscolourlife 7/16/2019

written by Itscolourlife

What is this feeling?
Maybe I fancy you

When you try to search me when im disappear
When you insist to call me when i jail myself
When you try to make me laugh
When you wonder what happen
When you ask if i cry
When you tell your story
When you always hear my story
When you always there

If i keep this as a secret
Until that time come
Will you still be there for me
Will you still fancy me

What should i do
I started to like your voice
Again

It doesnt matter who like who first
Right?

7/16/2019 0 comment

all cliches false bullshit

by tiredunluckyasf 7/15/2019

written by tiredunluckyasf

i went through lots of shit. im the unluckiest person alive. i lost my parents. i lost my best friend. im always being bullied, and was borned with an ugly face and being autist and bipolar doesnt help. and when i always searching in the net, they just saying it gets better, just hard work(yes and i didnt mentioned business fails, its pathetic) and other stuff. they act they know the other person. and what if im cant be happy? what? i know i should be dead. and i will do it, but i just needed it, for last time.

7/15/2019 1 comment

I’m afraid I lost myself

by justsad21 7/12/2019

written by justsad21

I fell i took too many wrong turns in my life, somewhere I lost myself and I was so coward to go back and just keep going, just following the current.

Now i have a nice job and can support myself and live well. But I just fell so lonely and miserable, I have losed all my friends and separated from my family, not because I wanted but because I’m incapable to connect with people. I don’t know why, it makes me furious!!! It is like I’m destined to rot alone. I’m so sad.

I wish I could go back to those sunny days with my friends […]

7/12/2019 2 comments

again

by li 7/10/2019

written by li

here i go again
trying to say things
to make it all easier
to help hurt less when the day comes
being an asshole

another bottle
another sleepless night
the words of hers stuck in my head
ringing
i was just trying to do you right
but i can’t
learn from your mistake they said
i’m trying

i’m like a bomb but i’m constantly exploding
i was just trying to get you out of the blast zone

but i can’t
i need you here to hold down the switch to stop me from exploding
one last time

not enough tears can say i’m sorry

all of this just tells me

7/10/2019 0 comment

My story, or Rina’s

by sergei2566 7/9/2019

written by sergei2566

Hello. My name is Sergei Cherbanyatsev, and this is the “short” version of my story. If you want to know more about me on here, from my old (female) account, search the name “Mikhail Belakov” on here, click on the author’s username, “fallensovietgirl”, to see all of my posts circa 2014. Now, where were we? Ah, yes, my totally f**ked up life. So at the time of those posts, again found on fallensovietgirl, I was what Canadians and Americans would call a highschool freshman/sophomore. Anyways, I’m from Russia, and identify as a transgender male. Bozhe moi, Misha (Mikhail) would have been proud when I came […]

7/9/2019 1 comment

When will it stop hurting?

by strawberrycrown 7/6/2019

written by strawberrycrown

A year ago today was the last time I saw _____. It STILL hurts. Surely it can’t hurt that much for so long? I just want to know when will it stop hurting that ____ isn’t part of my life anymore. I think it hurts so much because ____ was my best friend and literally part of my family for her whole life and most of mine. A year ago _____ broke me. When I said goodbye to her it was really the last time. I tried for about 9 months to fix things to bring us together again but she didn’t care. Maybe our […]

7/6/2019 6 comments

hard to be a *****

by evianwatre 7/4/2019

written by evianwatre

theres nothing i can do about this shit. it seems like everything i did was a mistake, i open my mouth and there goes another, i say whats on my mind and they go “you shouldn’t think that way”. how the fuck am i suppose to make others comfortable when i- i dont even know what i want to say.
people compare pain, it’s really fucking annoying. sorry that we’re not experiencing the death of a family or living in a war zone right now, we don’t deserve to be sad knowing how much we have? fuck, it’s true, as if i want to feel […]

7/4/2019 3 comments

Help : Should I runaway from home for days?

by Itscolourlife 7/2/2019

written by Itscolourlife

Im so depressed right now
And no one care about me
No one appreciate my existence
Should I just runaway from home for a few days?
So I can think whay i really want to do in my life
And my parents can think what they need to think about
Im stuck and I realy dont have a will to live anymore
Help me guys..
What should i do??
I will just runaway for some days and going back home again
I think with this plan all of us can think properly and not stuck here forever
I need a place to be alone and […]

7/2/2019 3 comments

my father yawning makes me wanna die

by an_old_child 6/29/2019

written by an_old_child

i can’t take it anymore. i hate it when he yawns, when he makes a disgusting sound when he drinks tee, when he chews food with open mouth, when he licks his fingers when he eats (I MEAN WHO ON EARTH DOES THAT!) when he makes some disgusting sound i don’t know if there’s a word for it… when he’s not doing anything with his fucking mouth but still there is a disgusting sound. OH and when he kisses my niece and nephew (his grand children) he makes this hateful disgusting sound with his wet lips UGHHH…

i mean like i’m in my room doing my […]

6/29/2019 5 comments

Resentment

by Melancolia 6/25/2019

written by Melancolia

I resent my parents so much, my dad is a bad person, hateful, judgemental, ignorant, arrogant, racist, narcissistic, a piece of work. I can’t wait for him to be dead. When that time comes I will feel like a huge burden have been lifted. I will no longer will have to pretend to care or listen to his idiocracies. One less person I have to pretend to care about. There are just not enough people in my family that I care for, and that is sad. I honestly dislike most of them, they were extremely mean to me and my sibling growing up, they were […]

6/25/2019 1 comment

what’s there

by li 6/21/2019

written by li

don’t go if you are not sure she said

but i’m never sure

i’m never sure of what is there tomorrow
if there is any tomorrow

i am replaceable
“no you are not”

maybe the memory are not
but the feeling is
the feeling you have on me
you can have on someone else

so i am replaceable
i dont belong here
someone else will take my place
someone better

i mean nothing to me

i’ve got to leave soon

so don’t make it more difficult

ive loved you kissed you, hated you
still im here

but i wish im not

i wanted to stay for you
i still do

but its too much

love.li

6/21/2019 0 comment

New Beginnings

by lonewolf23 6/19/2019

written by lonewolf23

I’m done. I’ve had enough of Arizona. This place is literally my own personal version of hell on earth. I was born in AZ but it doesn’t mean I have to love it. My skin hates it so much. Triple digit temperatures all week are no fun when you gotta walk 15miles just to get to work. The careless peeps who run my side of town won’t build or expand public transportation in many neglected areas out here. I have a car now but I remember when I didn’t have one and arriving to work smelling like shit from sweating on my way there. Besides […]

6/19/2019 3 comments

My depression is getting worse and no one cares

by chhynes 6/14/2019

written by chhynes

Alright. Time to get this off my chest. Since I’ve been a kid, my parents haven’t been the nicest. They both struggled with alcohol before they had me and many would say my dad acts like a dry drunk. He has anger issues, and its scary sometimes. I’m 16 now, and I’m still scared of my dad. Just today he punched my brother in the face because my brother had a smart alec tone. All I can do is just let it happen. I don’t see my dad often because he works in New Jersey and I live in Georgia, so I guess that’s a […]

6/14/2019 1 comment

Underweight and Underappreciated

by luna is sad 6/7/2019

written by luna is sad

When I was born, I had less weight on me then I was supposed to, and don’t get me wrong I understand other people went through this too. I also understand that people go through being teased and being taunted about their weight throughout their lives. But I want to help you understand what it’s like to be black and underweight. I am currently 13 years old, and I weigh 73 pounds. The average for a thirteen year old (f) is 82-137 pounds. Now I feel like you can believe what you want to believe when it comes to normalcy to 13 teen year old […]

6/7/2019 2 comments

Seasonal Items

by LiquidHuman 6/2/2019

written by LiquidHuman

I’ve recently noticed an increase of people attempting to talk to me and get to know me. Sometimes it’s a stranger walking my way while I’m headed to class. Sometimes it’s a person only known through my parents who suddenly gets the desire to talk to me. And even more jarring, I’ve recently made two friends in a short span of time, after not having anyone show interest in me several years prior. The whole thing became extremely jarring to me, and on more than one occasion I began to assume where their intentions lied. I hate to say it, but while I should feel […]

6/2/2019 3 comments

I’m not okay.

by _lifesucks 6/1/2019

written by _lifesucks

I’m 12 a year old girl. Four years ago my parents split and a year later, my mom died. I was left with my father, who’s addicted to smoking and drinking and has a girlfriend who’s half his age. I get migraines and mental breakdowns a lot, and everyone thinks I’m fine at school because I get good grades and I’m pretty nice and funny. I will not tell anybody about this without being anonymous, especially a therapist, because when my parents were divorcing, the court ordered that I had to go to therapy or something. I’d been through 4 therapists before my dad decided […]

6/1/2019 4 comments

Thoughts begin filling my head again…

by KeiraSmith1111 6/1/2019

written by KeiraSmith1111

So, if you didn’t already know, you are now the third person that knows about this, I don’t like to tell people unless they are really close or I end up upsetting them therefore id tell them. Well last summer in 2018 I had the worst months of my life, there were 2 weeks where I decided not to eat at all and got taken to the hospital. I was in a state of mind where dying was the most important accomplishment for me. I’d lost the one person who made me stronger and who made me, me. I spent months on end crying and […]

6/1/2019 2 comments

gloomy

by lostcase 5/30/2019

written by lostcase

i wish i can just die. like just die and go off. everything is too much to handle not because things are that hard it’s because i’m a coward. i’m just lazy. i eat, i panic then i eat. i want to fucking starve to fucking death but no i’m too lazy for that. i want to cut but i’m too lazy to clean after so i just end up sleeping. just sleeping and sleeping until my life goes away and my parents scream at me for not doing anything useful or helpful. i’m even lazy that i don’t finish my purge. how dumb is […]

5/30/2019 4 comments

my dad is killing me and so is my mom

by applepie2929 5/28/2019

written by applepie2929

I have two brothers who despise my father as well. He had always demeaned us since we were children(the oldest[aka kuya] is at least 37 and my other brother who lives with us is 24, I am 17 turning 18 in august). This is my last year of highschool and my father continued to tell me I would never graduate and amount to anything(to this day). He left beginning of Sophomore year and left my mom with no money when we were getting kicked out. I had talks with my mother while we were adjusting to our new life, and she admits that shes okay […]

5/28/2019 2 comments

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