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Family & Friends Effects

The effects of suicide on family and friends.

I’m not the picture perfect survivor

by ariusversea 3/24/2019

written by ariusversea

I guess I’m gonna keep saying it until it feels 100 p. cent real to me.

Last night, my brother molested me.

And why reveal this to some forum you may ask?

Because I’m not allowed to tell anyone else. And I want [need] to tell someone.

My parents are trying to steer me towards forgiveness. I’m not having it. I’m at my mom’s house and I haven’t seen him since the incident. I feel like my body isn’t mine. Like I will forever be marked by those cold hands on my breast.

I’m desperate for human contact just answer this stupid message I feel like I’m […]

3/24/2019 16 comments

a beast has just ripped out my heart

by an_old_child 3/18/2019

written by an_old_child

you can skip the first paragraph

i used to be suicidal some years ago, but i tried really hard and now i’m actually successful. i’m a computer engineering student and my grades are so good that i can go for masters degree without entrance exam. i’m a digital artist too and i’m currently an intern in a game development studio. it’s what i always wanted. although having to study hard and working at the same time is sometimes overwhelming, but it’s good. it makes me feel […]

3/18/2019 1 comment

My last shindig

by mr.biaggi46 3/17/2019

written by mr.biaggi46

Last night i had a party at my house with a few friends. I tried to get all my coworkers and friends there, and luckily for me most of them showed up. I kept bringing it up and reminding people that it’ll be my last outting. The last time I will really be out or see people. What they didn’t know was i was planning to kill myself after they left.

The party was fun. Lots of drinks and lots of laughter, so when everyone left I originally thought i was just over reacting. Until i tried to actually fall asleep. All i kept thinking bout […]

3/17/2019 2 comments

The beginning

by awis 3/17/2019

written by awis

Hello everyone, I’m not a native speaker, so at first I would like to apologise for any mistakes I’ll possibly make in this post.

I don’t plan to leave any suicide notes, because I don’t have anything to say to most of the people and those to whom I do, wouldn’t want to listen. I’m writing this journal, because I don’t want people to freely shape my image after I die. Especially that they only see me as an idiot, or a monster, or a silly fool. Or a failure (that part is true though).

I found this website, while searching for the most suitable metods on […]

3/17/2019 6 comments

Stigma and Ignorance RIP

by SleeplessMind 3/9/2019

written by SleeplessMind

Tuesday morning I received news of my friend/former lover’s suicide.
His family posted a short “R.I.P. ______ , service Sat. At ________. Everyone welcome” via social media.
Nothing further was acknowledged. No written obituary. Just RIP, and done. Ridiculous, in my opinion.
Avoiding the stigma of having mental health problems seems to be a big concern for people around us suffering. Society doest point the finger at the sufferers if the family denies it’s there..

So, today I write a proper obit to a good man:

J*** H.
Though he was often a man of few words, he made the ones he said count.
His laugh […]

3/9/2019 9 comments

Exhausted

by Dreary-elf 2/11/2019

written by Dreary-elf

Today was my birthday…

I honestly wanted to cry the whole time I was with my dad because yet again, he forgot about my birthday.

I do so much for him and I just feel like he doesn’t appreciate the things I do for him… It’s been hard for both of us because we aren’t close as we used to.

I shouldn’t feel down because I had friends and other family members sticking around saying ‘happy birthday’

I’m just glad I made it into another year… I just need to keep pushing myself and not give up like last time

Also, I wanna thank the person I adore…

Thank you for being there and […]

2/11/2019 0 comment

Rejection

by wearehannahbaker 2/2/2019

written by wearehannahbaker

So here I am again. Same old lame things. Depression, anxiety. But this week I’ve had a very special guest in my life: rejection.

It’s not that we hadn’t met before. Oh no, we’ve always been pretty close. But this week we really connected.

Being the weirdo doesn’t really get along with depression and anxiety. Specially when you’re the only girl at work who wasn’t invited to the farewell party. Feeling 15? Well I am 25 and this is still hitting hard.

Friend stood me up and made it pretty clear that she doesn’t really care about me.

Crush has been making my life even more miserable for the […]

2/2/2019 27 comments

What is BAD LUCK

by Itscolourlife 1/26/2019

written by Itscolourlife

I want to drag you in
Deep inside me
Deep inside the blackhole with me
I want you to know my sadness my sorrow my darkness
But in the end I cant tell you

You have problem too
I know mine is so much more
But I cant give you more sadness more sorrow more darkness

When you said you bring bad luck to people around you
How can I say that Im not alright
How can I say that I have depression
When you are just my best friend

When you said about your best friend death
When you said your ex gf have cancer

How can I […]

1/26/2019 0 comment

Long rant,

by c-ta 1/21/2019

written by c-ta

It’s been exactly a year now since I last posted to this website, which is sort of weird. I like the format of it, so I desperately looked for it and finally found it!

For some BG information (if it’s helpful I guess lol ig it helps me!), I’m 16 (17 in April) and FTM but not at all out to most people close to me in my life, especially including close family. I have a history of self-harming since I was about 12 years old, and my parents became aware of it 1-2 years ago. I have stopped as of now but have relapsed a […]

1/21/2019 4 comments

Is there a positive way for me to talk about my issues with my friends?

by namrahellz 1/19/2019

written by namrahellz

This is just something really short since it is a simple question : is there a positive way for me to talk about my issues with my friends? I mean, recently, I feel as though all I ever do is negatively rant, vent, and complain to them. It completely contrasts with the way I represent and deal with my issues. When I become suicidal, or upset even, I don’t want to worry nor bring others into my problems so I show my sadness as happiness. I dance, prance, and sing in a manner that makes them truly believe I have entered my “usual” ‘hyperactive, energetic, […]

1/19/2019 1 comment

Lonely Existance

by GerbzBaby 1/16/2019

written by GerbzBaby

Even at the age of 21 I can’t find people who like me. I’m unlikeable and I guess I need to accept that. I’ve only found one person who understands me, understands my mental issues and I believe he hates me. I feel like I lost him after what I said. I had to tell him the truth so he wouldn’t get the wrong idea. I just ended up hurting him. I feel like I’ll never find someone like that who understands me again. Not even my closest friend does. But I believe he hates me as well. Oh well.. time to walk down the […]

1/16/2019 5 comments

Sharing about your depression

by BrokenHaze- 1/13/2019

written by BrokenHaze-

1/13/2019 8 comments

2019…..here we are

by mo992 1/12/2019

written by mo992

I’ve tried to avoid posting for a while now. I’ve been dealing with quite a lot, mentally and physically. I felt that posting would make me feel even worse and paranoid. But here I am again.

2018 was quite slow. There were good things and a lot of painful experiences but I must admit that I wouldn’t have made it without my friends and community. The support they have given me is immense and I can in no way give back enough love to them. For a while I felt guilty, I still do. This feeling comes from the fact that even with all this love, […]

1/12/2019 1 comment

This is it

by anonymousbuthere 1/3/2019

written by anonymousbuthere

Goodbye, world.

1/3/2019 8 comments

Sorry, Goodbye

by anonymousbuthere 1/3/2019

written by anonymousbuthere

I have a good life. I have parents, siblings, God, friends and love. But… I’m empty. I’m selfish. I try to pretend to be humble, but at the end of the day, I’m just trying to stand out. And I hate it. I’m inflicting pain on those who try to care for me. I give them troubles and tribulations. It’s not fair. I’m sorry; it’s all my fault. But everything will be ok now. Thank you for doing things that I never will deserve. Sorry for being weak, pathetic, anxious, self-absorbed, narcissistic, and pretentious. I love you endlessly. Sorry for being this way.

1/3/2019 0 comment

She…

by strawberrycrown 12/28/2018

written by strawberrycrown

She is supposed to be my cousin – family. She is supposed to be my best friend, my soulmate, the person that makes me smile and the person I can never stay mad at. But I’ve lost her. I would say I lost her yesterday but really I have been slowly losing her for a long time. Every argument starts with me calling her out on something, her getting mad and saying I always cause problems, then I apologise very well, she says it is not enough anymore because it always happens and is always “my fault”. I always am the one t say sorry […]

12/28/2018 5 comments

Failure

by WhatIsBTC 12/17/2018

written by WhatIsBTC

As I have no idea where to start, I will begin this post with whatever come to my mind.

It been 4 years since I have entered uni and it’s currently one of the worst time in my life. I could have chosen a different field, a different school but no, my parent doesnt allow me to do that. Living in an Asian country doesnt give you much choice beside businessman, engineer and doctor. But because engineer and doctor do not make as much money as businessman (according to my father) so I had to attend the business school to have a stable income. After 4 […]

12/17/2018 3 comments

it´s been a while

by plasticflower 12/9/2018

written by plasticflower

i haven´t been here for over a year, and i really need to empty my brain, so here´s a bit of the mess that´s going on in my head

i tried to hide it more, so they wouldn´t notice. I guess I got too good at hiding it because now she thinks i´m doing so much better. And maybe I am, but it doesn´t really feel like it. I feel like soon i´ll break; and I don´t know if I can or want to stop it. Today she said, “I think you´re doing much better now. Do you still think you need to see a therapist?”. […]

12/9/2018 1 comment

Protected: Just Saying Goodbye

by jocelyn._.martinez 12/9/2018

written by jocelyn._.martinez

There is no excerpt because this is a protected post.

12/9/2018 0 comment

End it

by Itscolourlife 12/8/2018

written by Itscolourlife

Im sick and tired
At times like this i miss you
I miss you so much

I collect all the pieces
Trying to make it into a nice picture
But its too sharp
But maybe not
Its just sharp for me

I want to be hurt by myself
I donr want to drag you in it
You have such a bright future
So you dont deserve person like me

I should end it
End it
End it
End it
End it

Its going to be my last time
When i meet you
I want to say
You know actually you are cool
And handsome when you are focused
And […]

12/8/2018 2 comments

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