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Family & Friends Effects

The effects of suicide on family and friends.

I want to to tell people my story, hopefully it helps someone find hope

by JamalK02 7/14/2016

written by JamalK02

So, I used to be a lowkey, small time drug dealer in the biggest city on the east coast. I’ve lived in the hood all my life and who I am is simply a product of my environment. One of my first drug deals was to some tall white kid who wanted a dub of weed. I could tell he didn’t do this often, he used as much slang as he could and even tried to sound “black”. The problem was that this kid wanted to meet at a train station and i didn’t have my metrocard. I hopped the turnstile to get to him. […]

7/14/2016 3 comments

Hurts.

by Lonely1457 7/13/2016

written by Lonely1457

I told my friend that I am afraid I might have anxiety or depression and he did what I feared. He mocked me. He made a joke of it and I trusted him. I’ve known him for almost 9 years now. It hurts like hell, he’s one of the three people who I told and he made me lost trust in everyone now.

7/13/2016 5 comments

“You just have to believe in yourself”

by ThisIsNoDemocracy 7/12/2016

written by ThisIsNoDemocracy

I was told this today by a coworker “you just have to believe in yourself and you can do so much. Everyone sees it in you.. Why don’t you?”

Believe in myself? How am I supposed to believe in myself, believe that I can do any good whatsoever when one of my only talents is screwing up.

It’s just so strange that after so many years of being told what I’m doing wrong and how I can’t accomplish anything I suddenly am told that I am special. It’s like they expect me to help them with all their problems and I just don’t know where I can […]

7/12/2016 2 comments

What are friends?

by Lonely1457 7/11/2016

written by Lonely1457

So I have many group of friends. One group planned to get ice cream and hang out but they bailed out on me. I was pretty upset. Then they said stuff and made me feel guilty. Then my other friend (different group) told me to go meet her at the mall and when I got there, she called me that she had an “appointment” somewhere else. So yeah. What are friends? Hurts that my trust is thinning. I couldn’t sleep all night last night until 6am and now I can’t stay awake. So terrible. I’m drained and numb to think of what they did to […]

7/11/2016 8 comments

Relationship with suicidal boyfriend

by FMaggot 7/9/2016

written by FMaggot

It’s my first post there, so hello, I guess?

I need help with my boyfriend. More precisely, breaking up with him.

We’ve been together for almost 3 years if I recall correctly. It’s a long distance relationship.

There are few reasons why I don’t feel like dating him any longer;

We’re completely different. Different things make us laugh, we think differently, we have different problems. He’s a massive pessimist, hates himself and the way he looks (had (has?) bulimia), talks about his problems a lot, is very complicated, hangs out with people, loves cuddling, drinking, smoking and drugs (never did any serious ones, only some meds and pot, I […]

7/9/2016 8 comments

Struggling to live another day

by waywardponders 7/8/2016

written by waywardponders

To start with, it has been a pleasure and joy posting and sharing with everyone on this board. If only I’d found this home years ago I might not be in the predicament I now face.

I had a difficult childhood that sounds all to familiar to so many stories here. I was hyper sensitive, shy, physically and emotionally abused, sevely lacking in self esteem, impulsive, addiction, compulsive, bullied and the list goes on.

When I reached my teenage years I got into drugs because I was in so much pain and was unable to talk to anyone about my problems and feelings. I was fearful of […]

7/8/2016 7 comments

threapy

by born-a-mistake 7/7/2016

written by born-a-mistake

After my incident with shoplifting, i’m even more convince that i should seek a therapist to help me through these dark times in my life. The problem is i don’t know how to approach my parents about this subject. Also before i joined this site i told no one about my problems, except for a few things i tell my friend. Anyway besides the few things i tell her i repress the rest of my problems, i don’t think i can face them, so with therapy, I’m not sure if I’m ready to unleash all of my problems and face them. Lastly, when my friend went to […]

7/7/2016 1 comment

suicide. rejection of being subject to torture.

by hi-death 7/7/2016

written by hi-death

“Pretty much all religions say there will be some form of armageddon, most people believe that this war is the coming of a messiah or something similar. This war here on earth, this end, or this armageddon is a war of men – good and evil. Evil is most definitely winning and the good people have proved themselves to be pretty useless against it. So, all the good people are waiting for someone to come out of the sky and ‘save them’ ?? ”

– splinter

“Which brings me onto something else: suicide is a tremendously brave thing to do. It is NOT an easy way out […]

7/7/2016 5 comments

bed post.

by catsnap24 7/7/2016

written by catsnap24

when i was in the 4th grade my parents decide to get a divorce. everyone who has been through one probably has a similar picture with the same line “we both love you very much”. but after that my dad was gone a lot. so here i am growing up with only my mother who is depressed herself and stressed to take care of 3 kids. we would fight a lot! but one day we got into a huge argument and she locked me in my room. i remember scream crying all day hungry thirsty for water, maybe at one point i got my phone […]

7/7/2016 1 comment

CFP

by CFP 7/6/2016

written by CFP

They control every aspect of my life. One more year. Then I’m gone. I don’t know if I can make it that long.

7/6/2016 2 comments

Failure

by AshCoveredAngel 7/5/2016

written by AshCoveredAngel

Struggling these past few days and it’s hurting those around me.

Especially my child. I made them cry twice today. I’m so messed up right now I told my 2 year old to shut up.

Why? They were hungry while I was trying to angrily call the state about my insurance that’s going to be cancelled next month.

No insurance when I’m 8 months pregnant. Awesome. Worse case scenario I’ll stop all prenatal and deliver at home completely unassisted medically. I can’t afford the bill. It’s whatever. I’m not even worried about birth.

The thing I should be worried about is postpartum depression. I’m […]

7/5/2016 2 comments

New here

by lostintranslation18 7/1/2016

written by lostintranslation18

I feel like dying today. My world has been falling apart lately, my boyfriend has been my only support and I would always go on because of him. Until now, I made a mistake and he is ignoring me. I feel so fragile, lost, empty. We’ve been talking about it and trying to solve things but from one day to the other he decided to ignore me, I feel heartbroken. I want to jump from the top of a building but I’m waiting. Maybe he’ll talk to me. If not, I’m not sure how I’m going to get through the weekend.

7/1/2016 3 comments

Quite Upset Once In A While

by haileewantstobehappy 7/1/2016

written by haileewantstobehappy

I’m quite upset currently. For many reasons, it’s like I’m carrying an extreme weight all the time but it only bears down on me sometimes. Sometimes I can forget about it for a little bit but it is always there and it is always prominent, in the back of my mind or right infant of me. And right now it’s infant of me, and it’s staring at me like one of the demons from Supernatural. And i wield my invisable sword, and take a swing. Obviously nothing happens, because it’s fucking invisible, but i hold to the idea that I’m trying and perhaps getting somewhere, […]

7/1/2016 5 comments

I Feel Depression Coming Back

by GerbzBaby 7/1/2016

written by GerbzBaby

( Inspired by the beautiful animated films by Miyazaki. I present a drawing of Totoro and Catbus! Enjoy<3)

I’ve been happy or.. At least carefree for a while even though I barely had any communication with anyone for the past months.. I started to feel strong, like I could do anything and honestly not give a sh*t about what people think.. But all of a sudden i feel my depression creeping back up on me. I’m scared. I don’t want to feel depressed anymore. I WANT […]

7/1/2016 4 comments

Four years ago today !!!!!

by noneedforaname 6/29/2016

written by noneedforaname

Hello to old friends and new. As you can see im not dead or in prison which i guess is a good thing. ( depending who you ask ) i haven’t been on in awhile, trying to be strong for eveybody else lmao. Anyways i do pop in to read post now and then but had to post today. Like many people, this is my vent. I get a lot of good advice, kind words, and a whole lotta ” shit ” off my chest. Its been 4 years today that GOD took my oldest son. He was 21 […]

6/29/2016 5 comments

Life summed

by Kjay 6/26/2016

written by Kjay

My life in a nutshell currently. I live with my partners family they are muslim I converted to islam to stay here because I had a baby his family had more room at their house and support as his mum stays home so it seemed like the ideal place to be right. The thing that gets me in the dumps is that I have caused more trouble here then I expected ever since day 1 his family had expectations of me and had their mond set that i was like every other white girl, they are very judgemental towards white people. They always made home […]

6/26/2016 16 comments

Horrible Thought

by AshCoveredAngel 6/24/2016

written by AshCoveredAngel

I doubt anyone follows what I post on here, I’m new-ish and I don’t interact much.

Anyways I’ve mentioned before I’m pregnant.

Which means according to my own rules suicide it off limits. I have a rule “do no physical harm to another” I’m totally pro-choice and viability is a thing but I still have respect for *potential* life.

That doesn’t stop me from desiring to commit suicide or frequently thinking of death. It’s highly likely that I will not chose to make it through postpartum depression again. I’ve fought enough in this life to only face more misery. We’ll see I guess

I’d be […]

6/24/2016 1 comment

Lingering Hoplessness

by ColorlessBlur 6/24/2016

written by ColorlessBlur

I’m a 15 year old kid, and for the past 4 years or so I’ve noticed the deterioration of my happiness and overall satisfaction in life. I’ve also seen a new depression seep it’s way into my life. It’s always there, sometimes stronger than others, but it’s never really gone. The only way I’ve managed to ignore it is through my hobbies, video games, anime, and listening to music. Although these things have also been one of the main causes for me having to face my depression, because while I can ignore it for a time, when it comes back it hits hard. All these […]

6/24/2016 4 comments

Hope. Loss. Exhaustion.

by 121115 6/18/2016

written by 121115

Hope is one of the cruelest feelings on earth. It tricks you into thinking that everything will get better, that the present isn’t as bad as it seems, and that those who made you feel like garbage have some redemption.

I really, really hate hope.

I thought my parents were beginning to understand me. I was more wrong about that than I have been about anything in my entire life.

My father wants the addresses of every single friend that I go see. He checks the mileage on my car to see how much I’ve been traveling and if it matches up with what I tell him. He […]

6/18/2016 2 comments

Its really happening

by kupo95 6/17/2016

written by kupo95

So tomorrow I will get my jewelry back and the past five years of my life will be a waste .

I just don’t understand my ex could really do this to me like he has no feeling for me at all which I know is a lie because he did/dose ..but he just keeps listing to his evil mother .

Now I’m sitting looking like an ungrateful piece of shit who just wants to be up my mother and fathers ass when all I wanted was to be married and left alone . to wake up in PJ’s and drink coffee to live a normal life […]

6/17/2016 3 comments

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