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Family & Friends Effects

The effects of suicide on family and friends.

Professional help…

by HopeForMorning 4/4/2016

written by HopeForMorning

So after posting something on here the other day, it was pointed out to me that I can’t get out of my depression by myself and the best idea would be to get proffesional help (or a local support group but I found out there aren’t any in my area) and as much as I really want that help, I would have to bring it up to my parents and I have no idea how to… I’ve tried wording it out and writing it down but I really don’t know how to ask them… I can’t really think of another place to ask so it […]

4/4/2016 5 comments

You are Never Alone

by AKB92388 4/4/2016

written by AKB92388

Hi everyone,

I wanted to share my story. My niece Anne took her life on March 30, 2015. She attempted the first time on February 10, 2013. I have no answers and we are at a loss. She left behind 3 beautiful young daughters. They are very strong girls but they miss their mom more than anything. She was the happiest person, but also the saddest. They always want to help others feel like they are loved. They made a suicide awareness video called “you are never alone”. They wanted to let others know you are loved way more than you could ever imagine. If you could, please […]

4/4/2016 6 comments

This is goodbye.

by beaubri 4/3/2016

written by beaubri

What happened to suicide?

What happened to everyone?

It’s like I’m in Jr. High.

Where did the heart go?

Diversity?

This place isn’t home.

My family gone.

I’m tired of watching as everyone focuses on juvenile topics.

When there are people like me, and others that need more attention than others.

Yet everyone doesn’t care.

They say they do.

If they really did, then I don’t see it I haven’t for several weeks.

See, people like me are left in the shadows as everyone parties.

When that one heart felt, blunt comments could save one of us from falling off the edge.

You say you miss someone when they trun up missing, but do you really?

If they come back […]

4/3/2016 21 comments

Nothing to live for..

by GerbzBaby 4/2/2016

written by GerbzBaby

As far as I know I have nothing left. My friends, my family don’t even care for me. Day after day, night after night I just lay in suffer age while my friends beat me down further. The friends whom I’ve considered family have used me until they come across someone to replace me. The ones I trusted now ignoring my cries. I have nothing to live for… I have no one to live for. I can’t feel any emotional love anymore..

4/2/2016 1 comment

How to move on……

by EvilOni22 4/1/2016

written by EvilOni22

The pain is still here. I can drown it out. I can muffle it. But I’m just a shell of a person wandering around. Withdrawn to where it feels more than awkward to be out and around people when it wasn’t so before. Opening back up on command isn’t as easy as shutting down anymore. Desire to end things lingers as well and always has. Thoughts of such are being provoked more often than not now. What do you do when you feel that you have more reason to leave than to stay? Given life more than a chance just existing for the past 2 […]

4/1/2016 3 comments

The snow turned into rain

by Sameoldlangsyne 4/1/2016

written by Sameoldlangsyne

I can’t come up with a reason to go through the struggle again. I haven’t had an intimate relationship in more than 5 years.

I was married for 20 years, but she wanted to start over by herself.

I have a 20 year old daughter who only messages me when I send her money. She doesn’t answer her phone, and doesn’t reply to texts… Unless there was money involved.

I just got laid off from my job. I’m too old to start over. I’ve done it too many times. What for? To see who wins the election? That doesn’t matter… To see the next movie or show? What […]

4/1/2016 0 comment

Thanks…’friends’…

by GerbzBaby 4/1/2016

written by GerbzBaby

I’m on the verge of crying. I feel depressed, I feel lonely and I feel heartbroken. When I really need them they aren’t here for me. The one who’s even been helping me isn’t even messaging me.. It makes me angry, It makes me frustrated to see he has time to communicate with my sisters but not with me. It makes me feel like I’m a total loser. It makes me feel regret for even liking him. He seems more interested in my sisters than he does of me. Seems he’s just keeping me company out of pity. It’s making me feel like killing myself. […]

4/1/2016 1 comment

My love/goodbye letter

by CatchTh3Bus 3/26/2016

written by CatchTh3Bus

Dear Anon( u kno who u are),

I hope you still get a spark in your eye when you think of me. I’ve went through all my journals and there was a lot of things that I wasn’t proud of writing so I ripped out the entries I’d written that were penned in anger and I’m summing up the rest here. The things that still stick in my mind had the longest entries. Like the time we first met and the time we first made love; those two moments bring tears to my eyes and make me forget any bad stuff for awhile. I also have […]

3/26/2016 1 comment

Been Awhile

by YoungGods 3/25/2016

written by YoungGods

I feel kind of embarrassed for coming back here. It’s been at least two or three months since I wrote anything or even read other’s thoughts. I thought I was feeling better and didn’t need to come back here and I was going to delete this account and act as if I never belonged here. I’m glad I didn’t delete it. For the past few months things have been going fine. I finished a few online classes and been more social. Thing is, I still feel lonely. In the beginning of March my grade went on a trip and I bunked with three other friends. […]

3/25/2016 8 comments

A new wrinkle …

by Dawg 3/23/2016

written by Dawg

Many old timers here will be more familiar with the back story of Dawg … newer folks, feel free to peruse my past posts that date back to 2011.

The cliff notes:
I suffer from chronic back pain … make life difficult and saps my strength and will … often to the brink. And in years passed I was faced with homelessness through foreclosure … at which point I was confident I could implement my “Exit Strategy” and wash my hands of the whole mess. During this whole time … about the only reason I did not end my pain and cut short the inevitable march […]

3/23/2016 10 comments

Friends

by lulereign 3/22/2016

written by lulereign

I feel that friendship is more fragile and more important compared to a relationship. I don’t know, but it’s like whenever my friends suddenly act cold, it hurts so fucking bad I just add a few more cuts just to be able to feel. Fucking hell it makes no sense.

Honestly, it really fucking terrifies my how much of a hold this person has over me. All she has to do is say a word, and I think I’ll just fucking crumble. She’s not even the person I’m in a relationship with. But I’d rather lose him than her. It’s really difficult and just tiring to […]

3/22/2016 1 comment

Comatose

by -M- 3/20/2016

written by -M-

You would think it doesn’t hurt anymore. When people come in my life, gain my trust and friendship, then rip away a piece of me as they walk away like I never meant anything to them. But the truth is, it hurts so much more each time it happens. It hurts so bad that I feel numb until another part of me disappears. It hurts so bad because of the feeling that I only ever made friends from pity and I cared about them more than myself. It hurts so bad that it puts me almost to tears, but then a dark part of me […]

3/20/2016 0 comment

I slit my wrist and say goodbye

by peach_owl 3/18/2016

written by peach_owl

Im a new member and I discovered this website a few days back and I was reading through some posts and I was able to relate.

and yes I’m a cutter. the first time I did that was when I was 15 and now I’m 18

I’ve stopped cutting after a year and recently got back into it really badly. I know its not a good thing and I’m aware of it but it’s frustrating when you have no one to actually support you and know how you feel ( I don’t trust school counselors) no one in the family knows I’ve started again (this time I […]

3/18/2016 13 comments

Tearful and confused

by Michael from dunmow 3/18/2016

written by Michael from dunmow

A few weeks back I was arrested for fraud and as I type this letter the Police are investigating me.

My life has collapse – I have lost my marriage, I will lose my house, no job and my dearest two boys particularly my youngest (14) does not want to know me but my oldest is autistic so he cannot comprehend the situation.

Our marriage has always been stressful – looking after our autistic son, my health problems and wife’s depression. Our youngest was always was protected – giving him a carefree life with a great education. With that protection he is now in a Royal Ballet […]

3/18/2016 7 comments

I’m terrified.

by norestfortheweary 3/15/2016

written by norestfortheweary

This is my first post. And I’m terrified. Terrified that I have to resort to something like this. Terrified that I’m finding myself sinking back into a hole I thought I had successfully climbed out of years ago.

I’ve had depression of varying degrees on and off since the age of 11. I remember clearly the burning desire to end my own life at age 12; a struggle that took me years to overcome. Don’t ask me how; I don’t remember. Most of that time period in my life has become hazy.

But now, here I am. 17 years old, a loving boyfriend, a promising future. And […]

3/15/2016 2 comments

I’m done with life

by N0Futur3 3/14/2016

written by N0Futur3

I’ve reached the very end upon which I will endure this existence. Preparations all set…… Going to end it with a drink. I’m done with this shitty world, i’m done dealing with parasitic, materialistic, deceptive people. I’m done dealing with “family” that lies, steals, and treats me like shit. Love does not exist in this ugly, putrid, infected world of racists, murderers, politicians, corruption, prostitutes, and abominations.
I rather be dead then live with the likes of you…. You who see the light in this world are the real freaks, psychopaths, and ones who need help. “chill out, think about the positive” that’s a pitiful […]

3/14/2016 24 comments

I’m ready

by jmc22 3/13/2016

written by jmc22

I was having doubts about this, but now I’m ready. Do you know what finally set me off? My mom. It was a good day, my brother started teaching me how to drive, my dad was just in his room, and my mom was watching tv. And my dad came out to ask about what we should do about our insurance. I don’t know why, but my mom started yelling saying that that should be his responsibility and that other families have everything sorted out. My family isn’t the richest, and whenever my dad does something without my mom’s knowledge she rages and when my […]

3/13/2016 6 comments

What Should I Do?

by GerbzBaby 3/13/2016

written by GerbzBaby

My birthday is coming up, and it’s coming up fast. I’m so scared for it to become another sufferable day for me. Im doing my senior project on that day and let me tell you… It’s hellish days full of utter loneliness. I’m not even exaggerating it. Nobody talks to me, my old friends mooch all over my sister and never intend on talking to me. They will look at me and not even acknowledge my very existence. It rips my heart in two.. I would not go to it.. If my parents weren’t so strict about it.. I got all my hours everything done! […]

3/13/2016 2 comments

Im new

by drowningforever 3/13/2016

written by drowningforever

This last week has been a blur.. I dont know what to think, cant seem to identify how i feel. When i think about leaving i seem to think of my kids less lately. And more about the end of feeling. Telling myself shell find someone to step in and in a few months itll be asif i had never even been here. Mom wont care, shell still be focused on success and work after a few weeks again. Dad wants to kill himself to so whats the difference. Im glad my boys are young they wouldnt remember. But i wonder would i be free? […]

3/13/2016 8 comments

Minority

by kgp23 3/12/2016

written by kgp23

I believe I am apart of a minority of people. I suffer depression and anxiety, but I am far too caring to kill myself. I couldn’t do that to my family. I’ve tried antidepressants, they did nothing. Someone I know from school recently went into a Mental Hospital and I am angry. She is in there because 3 months ago, her friend killed himself. She knows the reason as to why she feels so bad. I have no idea why I feel like this. My life is good, better than many. I am not ungrateful nor am I selfish, but I hate being alive. I […]

3/12/2016 5 comments

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