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its still judging

  July 14th, 2018 by spectralgiraffe

Yeah everyone judges to some extent, even me…
but if someone deemed ‘attractive’ dies, its the same old… ‘he/she was so beautiful, was so pretty, had (insert ‘attractive’ feature here)’
and the people deemed ‘unattractive’ are swept under the carpet.

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Almost Dead

  July 14th, 2018 by wtfttg

I lost my easy ass government job 9 months ago.  Got arrested for a disorderly conduct so I lost my security clearance.  Had knee surgery 6 months ago, BOTH knees.  The guy maimed me.  I’m unemployed, unemployable, injured, and don’t see any other way out.  pento barbital is how I will do it.  Probably soon.

The depression is brutal.  I drink and sleep and drink and sleep until my body is sick enough I can no longer drink and have to take a couple days off.  My life was ruined because a moronic surgeon didn’t know what he was doing.

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Personas

  July 14th, 2018 by ady

Suicide, a notion taboo in the eyes of society.

An out cast. “One must live” as they all say. “Must live”. As if one is to be blamed for wanting it to all fade away.

why must suicide be looked down upon?

One is outcasted for being depressed.

Shunned for wanting an out.

Darkness must not win they say.

And yet I many dark thoughts.

supressing these things so I fit in.

pushing them away with a fake smile.

Enough

If being who I am is enough to Risk my relationships .

i v had it

I am not happy all the time, I get anxious. So what? You gonna run away because I am not happy …

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Living in the mind

  July 14th, 2018 by V95

I feel death all the time. I hide in my bed the whole time because I’m scared of the outside world. It’s not that it broke me, I think that I did that part myself. I’m too weak to pick up the broken pieces or let them there and move on. I just sit here in the dark with my mind reflecting on what my life could’ve been if I didn’t make those choices. I’ve built a whole world inside my mind. A world were no one can tell me what to do. A world where I am in control, I created a woman in …

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Just how i been feeling for a while

  July 14th, 2018 by Redrum23

Im trying to hold on in hopes that things will get better. I have nobody, im turly alone in this world. Every day i force myslef to go to work at a job i dont like with peole im sure do not like me either. I recently started trying to exercise in my apartment following you tube videos along. Hopefully i can get a gym membership one of these days, i figure with no to call or call me i can try to improve my health. Its all bull sh*t Though , i feel so empty inside no purpose no desire like im just here …

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In Silence

  July 14th, 2018 by nutjobcantlove

How does it feel to be successful? I mean, even the smallest things like having friends around you, being able to remember things, getting even the smallest jobs ‘done’ in your everyday routine, having a social life, passing a day without crying, being able to smile, sleeping in the night wanting to wake up the next morning, having someone that loves you. It must be a great feeling.

I just wish I have any of these. Or just someone, just SOMEONE around me to escape the suicidal thoughts. I have been inside my apartment for the past one week, no human interaction, in absolute silence. No …

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The jam

  July 14th, 2018 by EmptyPluto

The forest made me. The cold night rang and rang. Oh, how delicate. Lost one, will you ever find me? Splattered leaves whisper in their mother tongue. Leaving. Never again, yet here. Stop this. Enough. No, no, no. I wonder. Do I? Stop tricking me. It isn’t fun anymore.

It never makes any sense. Who cares? It doesn’t matter, though. Don’t listen. Eliminate your senses and give them to the trees. They are better used that way. Don’t look. Just don’t look. Gone. Not scared, but it won’t happen.

Across the universe, now. Or in a million decades. The spider sits on the jack of spades. Gazing …

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I’m ready to die

  July 14th, 2018 by EnslavedByShadows

I’m over this… I started cutting again after being clean for almost 3 years… It feels good. Temporarily gets rid of the Void in the middle of my chest.. Fills it up.. I had forgotten the appeal… Before the drugs and sex came into my life, I had the sweet kiss of the razor. Now I’ve been sober and isolated again, I’ve regressed back to the original coping mechanism… My whole left arm is covered to the point I have no more room, and I like the blood running down… I don’t want to move on to my right arm but I can’t wait for …

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  July 14th, 2018 by Octr

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Attempting Now

  July 14th, 2018 by Alive7

I’ve tried before to overdose and cutting myself..I’ve been planning to attempt it again today for about a week. I hope it goes as planned. I feel broken and like I’m drowning in emotional pain. I’m so tired of feeling this way..People have been telling me for years it will change and get better yet its only managed to get worse.

Wish me luck..

-Signing Off

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I want to leave

  July 14th, 2018 by Chum1328

A few weeks ago my girl left me. Almost a 2 year relationship. I truly miss her. She kept me from killing myself and doing anything harm. Not I will I could have never stepped foot in this planet. I sometimes just want to leavr without a trace. Blame her for what she did to me. I gave her everything and all I got in return she gave me nothing. For me, there there was no yesterday, tomorrow is to far. I just want to leave. Im so done with this world. I want to give everything up. I want to scream all this pain. …

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life is a nightmare

  July 14th, 2018 by michaelatky

I’m 30 and just wish I had never been born! People who say oh it gets better are just lying or on some powerful drugs. Most of my problems are self inflicted but some aren’t. I’ve tried sucide 3 times and each one failed I’m definitely going to complete it next time fuck life.   […]

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I like it

  July 14th, 2018 by thewolf56

At the end of the day, I wouldn’t change the way I feel. In a weird way, I enjoy being like this. It drags my life down, it hurts me, and that’s exactly what I love about it. I hate myself and enjoy these bad things. Not sure if others feel the same way.

Y’all keep on keeping’ on

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lame

  July 14th, 2018 by spectralgiraffe

I don’t like associating with people. I can only relate with one person. Why am I here then still… not sure.
I’m a very neutral person, do not like socializing. Tired, very tired.

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Ignore This

  July 13th, 2018 by MoonBlood

I’ve tried. My whole life I have tried my hardest to be the good girl everyone wants me to be. To be happy and to be healthy. Well, I suck at both. God, I’m not even content with being a girl. I have depression and anxiety. I’m self-conscious. I cut myself. I have nerve damage and carpal tunnel in both wrists, I have arthritis in both of my knees, I have Rnolds.

Sigh…

I’m a tornado. I suck people in and spit them out in worse condition than before they entered. I make people want to kill themselves. They’ve said it to my face. It’s all I’ve …

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The past which lurks my every corner

  July 13th, 2018 by Mimo

I’m sorry.

I’m sorry for that when I look forwards theres a mirror infront of me which reflects everything that’s behind me.

I’m sorry that I’m too cowardly to have killed myself, and that the marks in my throat scare You.

I’m sorry that I hurt myself because I believe it’s what I deserve for when I mess up.

But it’s who I am.

Listening to the words of specific songs that I relate so hardly towards; sadness being a constant where I try so hard to be happy yet I always stumble upon that one rock, that one rock who always seems to trip me, and as I look …

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I’m tired of suffering

  July 13th, 2018 by Brokenlostsoul

in a very tough spot right now I feel worthless and ashamed .i am battling some severe paranoia and hearing voices that sound like they are whispering in my ears. I hate my life I have a tough time getting out because of my paranoia I’m scared. I’m at my lowest point  I slit my wrist a few months ago but chickened out after cutting wrist to the bone I called a family member to take me to the hospital where I was for a few weeks. Very scared and anxious about the future every day I battle this mental illness and I

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Adulthood

  July 13th, 2018 by lynndo

Tomorrow, July 14th, marks my 18th birthday.

I don’t know whether to think of it as a fresh start or a milestone, but it must be significant right?

It could be a new beginning. A new beginning to my mental health? A reset to my attempt counter? Perhaps a new beginning to my relationship with myself.

Or a milestone. For awhile I didn’t think I’d make it to graduating high school. But there I was, under that white tent, getting handed my diploma. Then I thought I wouldn’t make it out of adolescence, to my 18th birthday, 1 month later. But here I am, with only 4 hours …

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Guess what! I failed again

  July 13th, 2018 by Danthedead

So last week I made a post here saying that I’d commit suicide, but here I am. I tried to hang myself, but just as I was about to pass out I got up. It looks like I’m far too scared of dying to actually go through with it. I’m going to get a job, move out of my grandmother’s house and drink alcohol ’till I have the courage to finally do it. Sorry for the really long post guys. Also, if you’re suicidal like me you should seek help, I hate seeing people suffer like me, cya.

 

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what is your definition of “rich”?

  July 13th, 2018 by spookichick

if someone gifted you $10,000,000 with no strings attached, what would you do with it?