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Terminally ill and suicidal

June 24th, 2017by BeatenToDeath

My father beat me ever since I was a newborn baby. I was in a coma for weeks as an infant. I suffered severe brain damage many many times growing up. I can’t function like a normal person. I’m dying because of my injuries, and I’m developing dementia now at age 25. I don’t have insurance and hospitals turn me away. Day to day life is a nightmare. My organs are shutting down. I have severe amnesia to the point where I don’t know how to dress at times, or read, or talk, or walk, anything. I’m homeless. I have no friends or family. I’m …

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June 24th, 2017by Robstein

We all fall down like toy soldiers

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a kick ass suicide song

June 24th, 2017by John Doe

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Anyone else feel this way?

June 24th, 2017by noah5678

i think I hate God more than anything in the universe. I’m not going to get into details about it, but does anyone else ever feel this way?

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Something I COMPLETELY don’t get

June 24th, 2017by noah5678

Why is the number of people who commit suicide so low? LESS THAN 1 PERCENT.

if I didn’t know, I would think it would be much MUCH higher.

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None

June 24th, 2017by notwhitenorblack

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Pamphlet in the glass jar

June 24th, 2017by bluerosewhy

Often feel like crying when trying to eat…
Don’t exactly know why.
I’m alone since forever and going crazy in my head and I’m so sick if it.

Suicidal thoughts feel at home in my mind.

I need to shout but no one will hear me.

I’m in the glass jar, Sylvia Plath, Esther Greenwood, nothingness, existentialist nihilism, my therapist would like this and would not give a shit in the same time. “It’s your responsibility,” his motionless facial muscles would have this written all over them. Thanks, you’re right, I would say clearly, voicelessly, in my head, where all my life has been happening recently. With my head shoved …

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I failed

June 24th, 2017by ??????????

Another one of my friends is dead, overdose on opiates. Life is cheap.

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My fate is to commit suicide.

June 24th, 2017by Okami

A fate that can not be avoided. A fate that I do not wish to fight against. A fate that I look forward to on a daily basis.

Not a single day goes by where I don’t think about just ending it all, and the more I think about it, the more rational to me it becomes.

I’ve fantasized about the moment vividly. Fighting against my survival instinct, finally succeeding with my desired method, and just waiting for the inevitable end. I’ve even gone so far as to imagine people’s reactions, as well as an afterlife that may or may not exist.

To me, everything is pointless. There is no …

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June 24th, 2017by Icarus

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my second chance..

June 24th, 2017by V_014020

I have been trying to stay strong for 3 years. I didn’t believe in God. But after getting into a really bad wreck a week ago with my two friends, I found him. I should be dead. All three of us. The accident was bad, we rolled 6 times. Me and another were thrown from the car after 3 rolls and one stayed in all 6 times. Thank goodness we are okay ish. ig I can say. Point being, I didn’t die. We didn’t die. But I’m saying this about me here. I don’t understand why I made it. I mean I did go away …

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June 24th, 2017by Icarus

I just found out I have around 80% of the symptoms of childhood sexual abuse. I can’t remember anything from before a few months before I turned 7.

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1 Week Left (it’s really almost here)

June 23rd, 2017by ShiSui

Holy shit. Wow. 33 days or so ago I made this vow to end it on my birthday and now comes the time to follow through with…..everything….it’s for the best…..for everyone. I’ve been in positions where there was no turning back like my boxing matches where once you enter that ring that’s it you’re in it, but, this type of “no turning back” is heavier in the sense that well obviously once I make that jump it’s over but I really can’t turn back because no one will ever trust me ever again, I’ll be on an …

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What Next?

June 23rd, 2017by Lutefisk

I just don’t know what to do with myself now. I’ve pretty much completed the biggest part of my bucket list (somewhere I traveled) and now I can’t seem to motivate myself at all. I know what I would want to do in the future, but now it feels like whether I make it to that point or not doesn’t matter at all. I have a wonderful life filled with supportive and kind people who tell me daily how much potential I have, but I have nothing to show for it. Guilt and a vague but almost desperate feeling of “there’s surely something left for you …

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now.

June 23rd, 2017by kid.in.the.dark

ive been on this website for far too long. this much is clear, however, it’s great to be able to say whatever you feel or think or do online without anyone knowing it’s you. on the other hand, that’s how some people hide behind a screen while they tear others down.

to be perfectly honest, i have no clue what i’m doing with my life right now. i’m in highschool and this year i will be switching schools. it’s not that im scared of anything, i’ve always been accepted, i just don’t know what i’m going to do with my life.

the people at school used to …

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Question and observation

June 23rd, 2017by quaero

I was in the meditative state today and I just wondered why I have to go back. Why I can’t stay in this state. I had no answer to this. This state is everything I can ever hope for. Calm, peaceful, satisfactory. Then why I go back? Why I must go back? It’s probably my being human. I am a human being, that’s why I have to go back. Is it the lust? It’s like itching, keeping in background, calling me to scratch it and get lost in pleasure. The juice, the bittersweetness. Human world is a mess. Who would willingly want to go in …

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Just a thought

June 23rd, 2017by Clebbus

After all that’s been done to help us. The way the world pretends to care, with things like a barely budgeted suicide hotline. I still think the suicide pill is the best they’ve done so far.

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I will…

June 23rd, 2017by Fractured Mind

I will never understand why we make suicide illegal.

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June 23rd, 2017by Robstein

The rise and fall.

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It’s not easy…

June 23rd, 2017by hope1996

Well, here I am in Tennessee. Take it for granted I live in North Carolina! I’m here wit my boyfriend of over a year. And I can’t keep doing life. It’s hard bills over bills. I pay all of our bills and he makes more than me! He is verbally abusive. He tries to take my dog away! I paid for her. It’s just gotten to the Point of I can’t do it anymore!

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