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To Mrs B.

  September 20th, 2018 by holdingonbyathread

Dear Mrs B,

I know the first time we met was far from easy for either of us. But I hope that somehow you were able to grow through what we went through on that day, as I am trying to do.

I don’t think you realise just how much I looked up to you. Having a masters degree is pretty impressive. You’re a really smart person and an amazing mum to your kids. I couldn’t think of a more caring, kind person who does what you do.

But just hear me out on one thing. Your brain and my brain couldn’t be more different, and we both …

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empty

  September 20th, 2018 by justhope

i’m not happy, i’m not myself. i don’t even know who am i. i don’t feel anything or want anything; anger, sadness, happiness, jealousy… anything. it’s just like i’m empty, and i’ve come to this point that i don’t even care what happens with me. i don’t even long for feelings, i don’t even want to die. i’m literally dead inside. i don’t know what to do… i don’t know how to open up to people cause i don’t want them to worry about me… and i have bad experience with people’s reactions, i mean that they don’t take it seriously (a few of my …

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Fuck Everyone

  September 20th, 2018 by spreject

I’m looking forward to killing myself. I always fucking give my time and attention to others. I never get anything in return. Never. Especially from women. My whole shitty life I have been used by

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True Story

  September 20th, 2018 by hiohneh

I thought things would get better

Things didn’t get better

I’m scared, I’m stuck, I’m lost

I need help but I don’t know who can help me

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  September 20th, 2018 by Robert Hulk

Does every human live in their own world?

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It’s all so f*cking worthless

  September 20th, 2018 by Stable as Uranium

Life is worthless

 

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Out of My Face Boy

  September 20th, 2018 by Itscolourlife

I will never ever try to or fall in love again to anyone
Cause no one will understand the pain I got
Even tho I tell you all about it
You still dont understand
Am I to selfish to you??
Yes I am
Am I too moody?
Yes I am
Im already told you THIS IS ME
Im still under depression and still hating everyone around me
You said I LOVE YOU FOR WHO YOU ARE
But YOU DONT
Look what you have done ?!
You make it worse
Just go away from my life
Im not here to share happiness with you
I cant give happiness to you
Cause I dont have one
Im not like the other
I cant cry even …

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Reason… No Reason…

  September 20th, 2018 by Itscolourlife

Yesterday I find a reason to live
Today I find a reason to die
Tomorrow what is the reason ?

Go back to my old self
Thats what I want
But it wont
Cause its already gone
The reason behind it

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I’m a parasite

  September 20th, 2018 by Lostlullaby

I’m a parasite so I was told as a teenager.

I’m a parasite because I accidentally or intentionally almost died 6 times yet I have no physical sequels.

I’m a parasite because I often OD and yet my body seems to be resistant like a cockroach to a pesticide.

I’m a parasite because I ‘m useless.

I’m a parasite because I need others help to survive and yet I can’t get myself to die.

I’ m a parasite hoping for pest-control, I’m a parasite hoping for cancer because at least I would suffer and die for an “acceptable” reason

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Pro life? Can anyone spot the fallacy?

  September 20th, 2018 by tiredofchronicpain

Today had an argument with a “pro lifer”. I thought you had a “right to life” by default. She mistakenly thought “the right to die” abuses the “right to life” and when I threw the analogy at her of a cancer patient suffering on end to just wait to die with pain, she pointed to the 0.001 correlated samples of cancer patients eventually getting better. I rolled my eyes and told her to study modal logic and walked off. What can we learn from this?

 

I heard about “pro life” activism and immediately laughed. Apparently these “pro life” groups are rising to an anti-thesis to the …

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I wish I was stupid

  September 19th, 2018 by RelicThinker

I don’t believe I’m “good” person, if there’s such thing as being good. I believe I am the furtherest thing from it, despite what others tell me.

I’ve tried to be the “good” person I dreamed of and what people wanted me to be, yet I fall back on my annoying habits. I’m lazy, manipulative, unhealthy, very paniky under stress, and my most disliked, fortgetfull.

Being forgetful has been a blessing and a curse, the blessing is when I have a bad day I can go to sleep and wake up refreshed, forgetting what happened yesterday. The curse is I start to forget the simplest things when …

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Pathetic

  September 19th, 2018 by paranoid.separation

Pathetic paranoia separation anxiety. I know I have nothing to die about except my own mind eating itself. I know I don’t know if I want to die. I know I’m a coward who needs to die. I need to be killed to save everyone else from my complaining. Those who love me most. If being someone who isn’t you isn’t living, then I should die. When can I find peace that lasts a lifetime. When can I be normal. Why can’t I keep a person happy. Why am I like this. How can I be better. Why when I try, it just doesn’t work. …

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I can’t handle being an adult

  September 19th, 2018 by Stable as Uranium

I have absolutely no life skills, no experience with life, no ability to maintain an adult social group, no ability to get a job or work (I’m severely disabled), no education, and now people are having kids and shit at an alarming rate. What the f*ck.

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Sisyphus mith

  September 19th, 2018 by OFFTheShadows

Everyday we roll our lives up and then watch it goes down.

Albert Camus in Sisyphus’ Mith said the joy of life is in the process of rolling the rock.

Really?

So why I’m tired of the process my dear??

So tired suicide seems a better option…now and then.

 

 

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  September 19th, 2018 by OFFTheShadows

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  September 19th, 2018 by OFFTheShadows

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  September 19th, 2018 by DreamCatcher

i know this is what i deserve honestly. i know what i did was a mistake, my biggest regret in life. and now im paying for it.

im getting nervous, feel like throwing up because of the nerves, or i wonder if its because i havent eaten today? seeing how there are 20 people ahead of me in this online suicide prevention hotline, it makes me wonder. does this work? its my first time seeking help. ive never spoken to a professional, never spoken to the suicide hotline, what if they think im stupid? what if im wasting their time with my nonsense? when did i …

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ya can’t say f*ck f*ck f*ckaroo.

  September 19th, 2018 by Stable as Uranium

on this website. that’s why yer comments are getting banned, for anyone who doesn’t know.

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  September 19th, 2018 by noah5678

I’m done trying. To make things better. I hate my life so much words can’t even begin to explain it. Nothing I ever do works. Even if it does, so what; I ALWAYS start feeling like shit again at some point.

no im not really suicidal anymore but I truly believe it would have been better if I was never born at all.

fuck god. He’s nothing but a douchebag with no life who has nothing better to do than fuck the lives of innocent people and fuck then all over.

seriously why should I even try anymore when nothing matters and nothing ever gets better. What’s the …

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Urge to selfharm

  September 19th, 2018 by Beneathetide

I’m having a bit of an episode right now, just really hating myself and wanting to bruise myself. But I can’t because then my husband would see the bruises. I need a distraction, I need to calm down. Normally I’d try running to relax but this time I don’t want to, I just wanna freaking hurt myself so bad. I feel like I deserve it. I want to see myself writhering in pain on the outside like the way my heart feels on the inside right now. I can’t talk to my husband about how I feel because he wouldn’t be able to deal with …

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