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Useless college rant

  January 15th, 2019 by darkwillow

I start work at 11pm to 7am. Then I go to college from 8am to 1pm. I have to sleep during the day. Lucky for me at least my classes are every other day, so I have time to do homework.

My job is stocking a grocery store. And I’ve only spent one day there but my legs are sore and my hands are cut up and my back hurts. So that should be fun.

I dont completely hate my job. At least not yet. And since it’s mostly solo work I probably won’t hate it.

And I love school.. But I have a private lesson with a …

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vent to me!

  January 15th, 2019 by princessmousy<:3)~

Hey.
If anyone wants to vent to me its pri -nc -essmou<:3)~sy@protonmail.com and theres also kik: azureagatedragon
I have discord as well now: princessmousy#4482
GET RID OF ALL THE WEIRD CHARACTERS AND SPACES IN MY EMAIL BEFORE EMAILING ME, THAT INCLUDES THE DASHES! – and the mouse emoticon <:3)~

I may or may not reply. I probably can't help you. But I'm extremely open and I'm willing to listen. No really, I probably can't help you and I'm not an advice giver and please don't expect me to give advice, if I have any I'm willing to give it if you like. (if you don't want advice and …

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Losing hope…

  January 15th, 2019 by princessmousy<:3)~

All I seem to be able to do is drive people away…
I want to have hope. I want to have alot of it. But I’ve been driving people away for my whole life it seems. I don’t think it’s ever going to change.
People sense that I’m vulnerable and then they judge me, that’s what must happen when I talk to someone. That must mean my confident front is failing.

If I can’t find someone amazing in a few months, I’m done. It already took me years to find my ex, should I spend years again to find a great guy/girl? NO. Can’t be bothered …

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Hibernation

  January 15th, 2019 by Mac-10toSchool

I’ve been sleeping a lot lately. Last night, I accidentally slept through school, as in I missed my alarm completely. I just woke up, and its 5:25pm (17:25). Havent had a lot of motivation lately.

I dont know what I’m trying to Express. Guess I’m just ranting.

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Temporary

  January 15th, 2019 by No_one_care

I knew I was looking for love in all the wrong places and I still did it.Opening my legs just to feel needed and wanted. I don’t understand why it only last for a few seconds though. Finding someone who genuinely loved me and all my flaws..is impossible. I know that People who were supposed to love me regardless of my flaws didn’t. My mom, my dad, family, friends. So what did I expect from people who dont owe me that loyalty. I’ve never been loved. I’ve never been thought about. I opened my heart a million times and its been broken a millon time. …

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Just conversation

  January 15th, 2019 by Hope Dream Love

It interests me where people picked their usernames for here. Some seem to have clear meaning that it reflects their depression. Others random or maybe they have a meaning to you. My name is based off my fiction name Hope. I picked it a few years back when i first moved away from home. I had hoped to be a part time writer and artist although my main dream is to open a bakery. I have so many hopes and dreams that hope just seemed to fit so perfectly. So if i may ask, what meaning does your name have to you?

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Rapid Resolution Therapy (RRT)

  January 15th, 2019 by unknownsoldier

Have any of you heard of this? Or have any experience with it? I have gone to a few sessions of it and it seems to be helping. I just wanted to put it out there because it may help some of you. It’s not your normal therapy where you go and dwell on the past and it makes things worse. I challenge you all to at least look it up and see what it’s all about.

 

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BPD?

  January 15th, 2019 by Lostlullaby

I woke up and cried basically every tear I had just to feel even worse. I m sorry to bother you guys or maybe I’m just saying I m sorry because I need your sympathy to keep whining as if it is my only way to stay alive.  I ve been on SP for a few years now and I know something is wrong with me. I ve read a lot of posts with people having BPD and what they described looked a lot like what I have. Never being enough  always feeling like my friends will end up hating me and leave me, having …

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Not even severly depressed / just a rational decision

  January 15th, 2019 by Gary555

If I had one person who was a support system who would invite me to a different part of the country I might pick up and try and start again but I don’t have that. Even if I won the lottery I don’t know if I’d want to stay. I would probably buy a house on a lake but in time even that would fade. Some lives don’t turn out the way you thought and mine is one of them.

I’ve been doing this for decades. A fairly young good looking guy who has this karmic curse where I can’t find a woman. I don’t want …

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Console

  January 14th, 2019 by princessmousy<:3)~

Bought a console today (used), I wonder why…? I’m barely playing video games at the moment, on my laptop and my phone. Its boring. I’ll see how quickly I’ll get bored of the console. I also have a GBA in terrible condition which I obviously never use.

I don’t even know what the f**k I’m doing anymore. I just want to die, there’s no future for me. Tired of everything as usual.

<:3)~ – hello, I'm a mouse!!!

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“Feminism and male suicide”___Reasoning, Philosophy and Everything between [Entry #2]

  January 14th, 2019 by Two-Faced

Disclaimer: This is not a rant so I am not responsible for whatever rage you will have

This is a touchy subject but one I know needs to be discussed. I think feminism has brought a significant rise is male suicides. So significant infact that married men are blowing their brains out over it. Not to mention the whole gender war that is already confusing the coming generation of boys and girls.

Now here’s the thing, a big mistake we make as males is to think feminism has no reason to exist. IT DOES. I agree in part that women deserve broader opportunities in work and relationships. …

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The Difference between ideation and actual suicidality

  January 14th, 2019 by Mac-10toSchool

I think about suicide a lot. But that isnt the same as being suicidal. We tend to use suicidal thoughts as a qualifier for being suicidal. but that’s not what that is.

I experienced being truly suicidal only once in my life, in 2012. I was 20. It was very quick. I had been severely depressed for months, on drugs, working a job I hated. One day, I walked into the woods, sat under a tree, got high, and I thought, “I’m going to kill myself in 3 days.” 3 days never went by though, because that very same day, I took an entire bottle of …

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Sick.

  January 14th, 2019 by strawberrycrown

I’m sick. What am I sick of? Sick of living a life that brings me very little joy. I honestly don’t know why I put in any effort toward anything anymore because it is useless. I think I need to get it through my thick fucking head that I’m fucking miserable and theres nothing and nobody who can fucking change that. I would say excuse the language but I’m done. I’m sick of all the bullshit I call a “life”.

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Relapse and weird symptoms

  January 14th, 2019 by Lostlullaby

So, last Monday and Tuesday I really wanted to die, not just the profound desire to end it I almost always have but never really put through action, but I was already thinking about all the arrangements and going through my suicide protocol. I didn’t do my thing though, and I seeked the help of my friends. Well, I didn’t, my body did. It made me unable to do anything on my own so I am forced to ask for help. My body reacts  to my suicide wish by depriving me of  some of my basic functions such as walking and speaking. So yeah  I …

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Reasoning, Philosophy and everything inbetween [Entry #1]

  January 13th, 2019 by Two-Faced

I am of the understanding now that:

There never has been a logical reason to commit suicide. But neither has there ever been a logical reason to stay alive that satisfies the ‘system’ at an individual level. Both cases are too irrational and incomprehensible to be polar opposites, because their only dividing factor is that one choice perpetuates the option of life and death (in short, gives a second chance) while the other is a permanent choice.

I think suicide is not contrary to life but an accessory. A fundamental option that must exist to stabilize the system (I don’t mean matrix, that is something else). With …

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Therapy

  January 13th, 2019 by Hope Dream Love

I dont really quite feel like talking to someone in person. And ive debated on the help lines but that just makes me feel like a waste of their time. Ive tried 7cups who swore up and down they were free, yeah for a week. They really should specify TRIAL. Anyway i was hoping maybe someone could point me in the dicrection of preferably an online therapy thing. Everything i seem to find cost money that i dont have or are random volunteer and no offence to them i am greatful they want to help but id like someone will a bit knowledge on all …

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Sharing about your depression

  January 13th, 2019 by BrokenHaze-

why does every people that i’ve been sharing to about my depression keeps telling me that i’m overdramatic?

is that really hard to understand? every people keeps compare about their experience to me.. eventhough my main case is I lose motivation to do anything.

 

when I share to my mom,she broke into tears and said “u don’t ever dare to said that again. do u really hate me(mom) so much that u want to kill urself? am I a failure as a mom? and she even implied if u don’t wanna see me(mom),i’m ok though I will die sooner or later.”

my mom is diagnosed with breast cancer …

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The Fear

  January 13th, 2019 by thehusk

Much of the time, I find myself wondering if I should end it, before things have a chance to get really bad. Because things can get really bad. Burning alive, ending up horribly mutilated. Spending the rest of your life locked up, facing torture & violent assault, or permanent isolation. Disabled and in agony and unable to move. Things can apparently get really fucking bad.

Perhaps I’m just a coward, or I’m hyper-averse to negative experience. Maybe those are both the same thing. But over and again I come across experiences that make me wonder ‘Is continuing to live worth risking this?’ And the fear of …

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An odyssey

  January 13th, 2019 by Once

“Open the pod bay doors Hal.”

“Open the pod bay doors Hal!!”

“I’m sorry Dave, I can’t do that.”

Freakin’ Hal.

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The Hikikomori phenomenon in Japan

  January 13th, 2019 by Taf Taf

 

Hikikomori – Investigations into the Phenomenon of Acute Social Withdrawal in Contemporary Japan

 

The Phenomenon of ”Hikikomori” (Social Withdrawal) and the Socio-cultural Situation in Japan Today

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