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Beauty Behind Pain

by AutumnMoe24
written by AutumnMoe24

There is just something about causing pain to oneself that is so beautiful. Cutting has always been my out. But it’s been taken away from me in a difficult way. 

Two years ago my life was changed forever. The person I thought was everything to me tore my heart out and never gave me a reason behind it all.  We had been best friends for 7 years and together for 4 years. We were always together for everything. After he refused to have anything to do with me, I decided to take things into my own hands. I was living on my friends couch because being […]

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fuck you then

by why i dont no
written by why i dont no

arguns is not the focul pnt of this one sorry

i told my mates what was wrong there solushion get drunk im allredey pisst off my head the hilite of the evning them geting a girl to sleep with me it was clere she was uncomfortabull i askt and saspishions were coret thay got her drunk and pestid her tell she gave i told them dan says “ok” terns “will aney one shag my mate hes been rejetid” well thanks dan so yer never trust your mates

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numb

by secretgrrl
written by secretgrrl

i feel numb

all the time

now.

now that i cut

i feel like there’s

an ice-cube on my
mind.

like there’s an ice-

cub covering my
heart.

like i can’t feel any-

thing.

i can think, that’s for

certain.

like i said, this, this
cutting
has saved me from

ruin.

i can think. the cutting has

helped

me pull my life back
together.

mostly it was my school

life

meaning my grades and
whatever
that was falling apart when i

had
nothing to hold onto, nothing to
cling to.

and so now that the cutting has

numbed
my feelings and made it so i can’t

feel

i can concentrate on thinking

bringing

up those grades and being

less
stressed. which is a good thing.

but

it gives me stress, too, like
what
if […]

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What should I do …?

by frozen_outcast
written by frozen_outcast

Hey everyone , you can call me Reem . I’m 16 years old and live in Saudi Arabia .. at the first look at me you’ll see a normal girl who has an amazing life , who doesn’t need anything and has no reason to be sad or deprssed , but that proves you don’t know me ..

I’ve been holding this for a long , long , long time … I forgot even when it all started , but I wanna let it out and share it in order to fully open up for the first time in my life !

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The afterlife

by Fading
written by Fading

“I regard the brain as a computer which will stop working when its components fail. There is no heaven or afterlife for broken down computers; that is a fairy story for people afraid of the dark,” – Stephen Hawking

“I do not fear death. I had been dead for billions and billions of years before I was born, and had not suffered the slightest inconvenience from it.”- Mark Twain
We have no reliable guarantee that the afterlife will be any less exasperating than this one, have we?- Noel Coward

We don’t really understand most of what’s happening in the cosmos. Is there any afterlife? Who knows. […]

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Carry On

by marissa1118
written by marissa1118

You wouldn’t think that the girl that laughs the loudest has the most trouble. She’s secretly so unhappy sometimes. Like a dam breaking emotions would take control of her and make her be unable to break free. This doesn’t happen all the time. She does have some friends that are there for her. Friends that make her laugh and smile, but they don’t know. Nobody knows.

She’s quite pretty actually, a small cute nose, nice lips and big brown eyes. Her body says more, a curvy figure. She would seem perfect to those who just meet her. While she thinks that she is the fattest thing that […]

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To Santa and Little Sisters

by PascelTrees
written by PascelTrees

This poem was written by a fifteen-year-old boy, most likely
in the late 1960’s, two years before he committed suicide.

To Santa Claus and Little Sisters

Once,
On yellow paper, with green lines, he wrote a poem,
And called it “Chops”,
Because that was the name of his dog,
And that’s what it was all about.
And the teacher gave him an “A”
And a gold star,
And his mother hung it on the kitchen door,
And read it to all his aunts.
That was the year his sister was born,
With tiny toenails and no hair,
And Father Tracy took them to the zoo
And let […]

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I can’t do it alone I can’t stay alone

by AnonM
written by AnonM

The clock is ticking and time is running out. I know not for my life, yes I do want something more. I want so many things in life and there are so many things I wanted to do and bring to this world. I want to bring happiness to others, I want to find happiness for myself, I want to be a father, I want to be content.

I want to be happy. I want to smile for something I’ve done not something I’ve seen. I want to laugh because I feel good inside not because it’s the appropriate thing to do. There’s so much good […]

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fownd by mum

by why i dont no
written by why i dont no

under the rode brig

wet hot and shit filld

needels allarownd

bottels of beer

drunk to erly

mum fownd me

in the wreck of my life

run away from mum and him

im a littel dick in his mind

sumer holds no good just shit

frends gon

famaly wish i was dead

and dont blame them

acustic gutar song wighting

leting my pane flow trow me

1 deep breth

2 3 4 go wight  play just get it out

if not the other semfor of life cuting

that dos it

feeling beter allredey

and then talk to my self for the rest of the day

so luckey

to be here

 

 

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alibi

by secretgrrl
written by secretgrrl

got caught.

so scared.
stupid doctors.

i went to one, just a check-up
with my parents
the other day

and when she did that fabric around your arm
that squeezes

well before she did it really

she had to tell me
“roll up your sleeve.”
in my head i was
“goddamngoddamngoddamn”
and trying to find a way out of doing what
she told me to do.
i couldn’t
so i just rolled up my sleeve.
this was not one of the ways
i imagined the finding out.
my mom gasped
as the nurse wrapped the
stupid
scratchy
cold
fabric around my upper arm
and said
“what happened to […]

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I’m going nuts

by owl
written by owl

I would say I had a terrible childhood. But it wouldn’t be true. I wasn’t popular, but never severely bullied either. I was your normal nerd, with good grades (but not too good), few friends and a passion for books. And that’s everything I remember from then.

When I was about 15, I started to understand the world. I felt frustrated by not having answer to some questions, and started looking deeper into myself and into the world. I rationalized everything, and got a working schema of reality. I thought that was all, and was anxious to get that knowledge to the rest of the people. […]

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I give up

by lostandafraid
written by lostandafraid

i feel like i have a shit life even if people say im lucky. i have a dad who now cant even talk to me or even keep his promise. so yes i feel like a peice of shit because the only thing i want know is for him to actually care but i guess it is usless. all i ever do is try and hope. hope things will get better hope that ill have an actual family. but im done trying to hope for things that wont happen i give up.

i wish someone would shot me, cut me so deep and have me somewhere […]

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alcohol

by secretgrrl
written by secretgrrl

no
i don’t drink it
i’m too young to be an alcoholic.
don’t you know that?
it’s just the rubbing kind
that stuff.
i love it.
after i cut
both to continue the pain
and to disinfect
(’cause, yeah, i’m the only cutter in the world who gives a crap about that)
but mostly for the pain
i pour it in the cuts.
i would say it’s like
getting high
but i never have
so i can’t say.
if getting high is anywhere near as amazing as this
i see why people are stupid enough to.
it’s like
fire in my veins
it’s […]

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Borderline (personality),friends, and to much will to end it all…

by agentCooper
written by agentCooper

Thats where im, emotionaly destroyed, tired,depressed, and in the state when i dont care about my horrible english…

My friends DONT know that i had the Borderline behavioral dissorder. (I had few older people who know it but thats different kind of relationship)

And i dont know if I can trust them, or how to tell it to them, or tell them what I feel or whats going on when iam depressed, or sad, or when i had suicidal toughts…and  I feel so lonely with feeling that none understand me…

(I had some self-harm things so im using antidepressants – after one week at center of crisis intervention, I want to […]

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bloody ending

by pain numb
written by pain numb

I think i know how to end it all now..overdosing wont work..cutting wrists wont work..drowning wont work..ive tried them already…but whatif i cut my throat? Will that finally end it? Will it be to messy? Will it hurt?..well a lil lasting pain is better than dealing with this my whole life

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Hanging

by hurt_lioness
written by hurt_lioness

For me it’s my favourite way to die.
I’ve got a rope for a few years. But it’s very short. I know it’s strong enough to hold me. But what kind of rope do I need exactly?
I know how to knot a hangman’s knot.
But how strong the bough needs to be?
Is a chair enough height to get a broken neck?

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Looks like I am hanging around here awhile

by UZI - SUICIDE
written by UZI - SUICIDE

First part is mainly to regulars and administration and such..

My name is Mike.. I am opinionated, loud-mouthed, and I am (in my correct opinion) always right…
I am crude at times, use bad language all the time (much much worse in real life) and speak my mind, stand up for myself, and for what I believe is true, and I will stand up for someone who may not be able to stand up for themselves..  I am funny, I am crazy, I am defiantly somebody ya may hate when I’m around but ya will miss when i am gone..

What I wanna say is, if I […]

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The worst day in a long time..

by solace
written by solace

I haven’t had one of these ‘episodes’ in a while. I woke up crying, and haven’t stopped all day. Now it’s 6PM and I realise I have been crying in bed all day. I haven’t eaten anything.

Why do I have to keep suffering? Why can’t I just be healthy and happy like everyone else. Why do I have to go through this…

I want it to stop, but I don’t even think cutting would make me feel better… I just want to fall asleep and never wake up…

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