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I hate how most adults think they know so much more than teenagers. To most of them, teenagers are just immature children who need to grow up. I’m sick of that. It’s such a stupid idea. I’m not saying every adult is like that, because I’ve met some pretty awesome adults. but I know a lot who are “know-it-alls”. Even my older cousins are like that, and they’re barely in their 20’s. They think they’re geniuses or something. That always confused me as a young child. Why everyone older than me thought they were so much better and everything. Now as a teen, I understand. […]

Well where do i start why can fk all go right no matter how much i try it always feels like some one is pulling me bk down. i no what suicide is i have had to cope with knowing my dad did it since i was only 3 years old when he had me what sort of coward would do that but now i understand im sick of people telling me it will get fucking better bollocks when you been saying that for years. they say everything happens for a reason bollocks whats that reson then cause i dont understand it. i really used […]

I am not really sure what to say, but I guess i am here to tell my story.
Obviously i was born in the wrong time and on the wrong place.
I wouldn t be here if i was happy.
Actually I had an amazing life, and i wasn t bothered so much with the fact that i live in a small town and in a small country.
It s so incredible how in one moment u can have everything and in the other u can have nothing. I lost a lot of things in these past months.
I would really like to put all […]

Nature’s first green is gold,
Her hardest hue to hold.
Her early leaf’s a flower;
But only so an hour.
Then leaf subsides to leaf.
So Eden sank to grief,
So dawn goes down to day.
Nothing gold can stay.

Yesterday we went to the beach. I wish I could have drowned myself. I should have. One more chance, gone. When I was walking along the beach I thought my scars were pretty much healed, but when I looked over on them, they were just sitting there glittering in the sunlight. all those marks, letters, long nights of crying and cutting finally paid off. I don’t think my scars are going to completely go away anymore. These scars are a part of me. They are a part of my soul. each one reminds me of all the times I cried, all the times I failed […]

Let me tell you about my life. I have bi-polar, for one, and that just seems to make everything more difficult. I live in a family who mentally abuse me, they don’t want me, and they let me know every day. I do everything for them, everything for everybody else, I very rarely do anything for me. They call me selfish and they tell me how I don’t appreciate them, they do everything for my little brothers, absolutely nothing for me, they won’t even give me much freedom, the only freedom i get is when i walk out and say ‘screw you’. When i was […]

At first i was supposed to make this post about gay suicides, but then again i kind of changed my mind.

It apears there is extreme anxiety on this site relating to suicide, wich i really cant relate to.

Why are you people being so judgmental of other peoples choices? You obviously do not know the reasons behind there actions. Why all the judgment? The Bibble for example doesent condemn suicide.

Some Near Death experiences do, but it is not automatic. There are differenting accounts

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=F0g0FefaQZY

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=3IqEMIunsZ0

The point is;we are not judged based on the way we died, but the way we lived!

And NO! Suiciders do not automaticly go to […]

To start, I want to tell you a bit about myself. I live in Canada, and I like models, music, and my favorite insect is the moth. I am going to turn 19 in exactly 10 days.

When I was 14 I tried to kill myself. My father was a war veteran, and I took an entire bottle of narcotic sedatives he uses for pain. When I took the pills, I felt horrible.. It wasn’t about dying anymore, I just felt like I let everyone down. I apologized as I laid on the couch waiting to die. I […]

I’m a mess ,

due to my alcohol use 25years worth ,my wife and two kids have leafed me 12 months now.

23y of marriage2 wonderful Kidd’s now don’t even want to see me.

its been 12 months i have had a drink .AA helped me and the thoughts of reuniting as a family aegean keep ed me from the drink.

As i confess that I’m a alcoholic. and all that comes with alcoholism. even now I’min sobriety, thay wont have me back.

the house will be sold soon all that i put in to it sweat, blood,and tears gone, me to be tossed out of the house i once had a family […]

I swear that you don’t have to go
I thought we could wait for the fireworks
I thought we could wait for the snow
To wash over Georgia and kill the hurt
I thought I could live in your arms
And spend every moment I had with you
Stay up all night with the stars
Confess all the faith that I had in you (I had in you)

Too late, I’m sure and lonely
Another night, another dream wasted on you
Just be here now against me
You know the words, so sing along for me, baby

For heaven’s sake I know you’re sorry
But you won’t […]

I’ve written countless suicide letters. The last time I tried to commit I just wound up half dead in the er and then shipped to a mental hospital. Honestly I’m sick of people sayin how selfish I am when I cut or burn myself or try to take my life. It’s me, my body I can do whatever the hell I want. I hate MY life yea it sounds selfish but if you lived it you’d know why. All the scars I cause myself just give me another reason to end it. I’m done with the scars I’m done with the lies I’m done with […]

well it’s time 30 – 40 minutes, time to signoff with you all. It’s been entertaining my last few months on the site. Good fortune with your lives.

Guys, this will be my last time visiting this site. I committed suicide yesterday, overdosing of paracetamol and naphthalene balls do worked, I felt very weak yesterday and fainted, at that point of time I am so scared, feeling so hopeless, I realised that I don’t wanna to die anymore, I missed my family so I called the ambulance. The after period was a toture, I am feeling so weak, I am conscious yet I can’t feel any energy. My tears kept on dropping as I saw my family’s hurtful faces. Regretted, I really do. I promised them and myself to carry on with my […]

Today I had to go to the store with my stepmom I felt like everyone was staring and my eyes weighed 500 lbs. It’s been so long since I’ve been outside it’s weird awkward I think this has been my most depressed week ever I feel kinda of bad because there’s blind crippled people in the world who would love to have sight or walk but I’m taking it all way I’m kind of happy that the date is almost close except I heard of this circles of hell thing but it’s a myth so I shouldnt be worried

well finally I get to lay to rest in a few hours THANK GOD (lol whats so funny I just recently started saying thank god the past couple days knowing I will be dead and at peace).

Just printed my last few letters for mailing and can now relax my last few hours. Just have my hand written suicide note to be left behind, which will be short n sweet.

So I’ll have a few drinks, suck down some premo 420 and eat a home made 420 brownies I made a few days ago around 7PM EST

What i think about myself. I am a complete screw up. I screw everything up. I am pathetic who has no right to live at all. I dont want people in mine lives. They will end up leaving.I can’t accept it anymore. I don’t want anymore friends. I don’t even want to meet new people either. I sick of your sympathy. You just don’t understand. Why do i even bother trying anymore. Nothing will change. I will always be the same fat pig who doesnt want to be bother with sympathy or friends no longer. I’m planning on drowning, Hyperothermia, or overdoesing. Just as long […]

Well this fucking blows. I come up with the perfect plan to kill myself… Hanging at my parents businesss, which was supposed to be empty all day today. Then last night we find out a pipe burst and the whole place was flooded…. Inches of water everywhere. So my dad has been there all day, cleaning and getting things moved out so the restoration crew can come in tomorrow. Wonderful…. My private date with a rope and my suicide playlist cancelled. And please don’t say this is a sign I shouldn’t do it… I don’t believe in that.