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I couldn’t stay away long. Haha!

It’s Friday night at 9:30, just sitting here wondering how much longer I can hang in there.
Between zoning out, reoccuring massive headaches, shoulder pain from a sledding accident… my shoulder, my right one, now clicks when I move it, bone on bone? no cartilidge?… dead end job, depression and failed educational plans don’t know how much more I can take. Earlier my head hurt so bad I was considering taking a “few” Unisom… not enough to do me in but enough to knock me out for a day or two. Unfortunately that would also land me in lock up […]

Ok reading the comments on my last post…THAT SCARED THE SHIT OUT OF ME!!!Im seriously reconcidering …..But that still does not mean im not gonna end it…sooner or later…I guess you guys really saved me…………………………

Life seems so complicated. Why should it be so difficult to live? I have a kid and yet I feel like a bad mom. I have a boyfriend and yet I feel like he deserves so much more. I have a job and yet I fear I will be fired any day.

Every single day I think about killing myself. I envy my brother because he had the courage to do it. My dad says some people have that thing in their brain that allows them to not hesitate. My brother had it unfortunately I do not. If I did, I would have died a […]

Hi. My names Jemma. I am a total pushover. Currently I am seeking help from someone across the world & currently, I am in tears. I never wanted my life to turn out like this, no body plans there life at all. My life was pretty great a week ago, everything was becoming normal again (yes i had suicidal thoughts before that, and other problems..bigger problems) I can’t handle my stress anymore. At the moment i’ve fallen out with my bestfriend danielle, lost my crush & my mum. Nothing major happened between all three people, but it’s come to the point were i just want to die! […]

Every day, I want to kill myself,

yet I can still talk to people and talk them out of their misery.

It’s like I want to help them live? But at the same time I want to die.

No?

Hi, I just want someone non-judgemental who doesn’t care whether I live or die to talk to.

I’m on skype, but don’t want video calls, just text chat.

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I like to smile. I don’t know why, but it’s easier that way. I smile when she hits me. I smile when they mock me. I wipe my eyes and I smile. I smile when they scream and rant that I am not good enough. I should be perfect. So I smile. They want to believe it, so I let them.

Damn those voices. They like to mess with my mind. They enjoy my abuse. I can only smile. ******. ******. *****. I’m Aimee’s *****. ****** ***** ******. Dyke. They scream it at me. They know what I am. And so does she.

I hate […]

One person stopped emailing me after what I’m guessing was an attack of depression and no doubt suicide soon after. Now no one will tell me what the hell happened to my other friend who has tried committing suicide more than once. Why the hell!? Fuck you all. What the hell is the point of a friend if they deny you your friendship, they act friendly, piss you off, and then DIE!? What. The. Hell. Why the hell do I never make friends? THIS is why!

I hide behind a smile quite often. I really do think I might have bipolar disorder or borderline personality disorder. I’m very impulsive and I get seriously angry to the point where i start crying angrily and kicking things because of stupid little things like I don’t have control over the radio..I over think things just like i act on impulse. I feel like I have no friends but I do. I’m ugly fat and there is no reason to go on. I play a sport that I’m really good at but sometimes I just want to be with God and go to sleep forever. […]

So today my best friend said she doesn’t give a shit about me whatsoever and the girl I love isn’t going to end up being my girlfriend anytime soon. All my other friends are crap and I’ve reached the end of the line, there’s nothing left to look forward to or to believe in anymore. I might end it tonight, I don’t fucking know. Usually I just sleep it off because i’m a fucking dumbass failure at everything. Nothing I find in life makes me happy or content at all anymore except love and that’s driven me to the point of insanity, so I leave […]

I recently got charged with a misdemeanor and now I cannot find a job. All of this because I was drinking; I have stopped that but the consequences of my actions keep following me. I am broke. I have a Masters degree and am now unemployable in my field, or any field it seems. I just don’t know what to do. I am afraid of pain. I am a wreck. I don’t know what to do. I am thirty nine and my life seems over. I have blown everything due to my drinking in the past. It has been almost ninety days now since my […]

I need these questions answered before i kill myself.Can a 13 year old girl die if she jumped of a six floor building?What can happen if i live through the jump?Can you die from taking 10 500mg. pain killers?What can happen if i live through that?And if  anybody knows how it feels to overdose on pills that would be very helpful?Can i live if i jump in front of a train?Well that’s about it.Im planning on ending it on monday or something so yea.This probably the last chance for some of you guys to tell me your stories or get advice cuz you know i […]

I have been researching suicide obsessively. I ended a relationship about a year ago and have since come to realize it was the biggest mistake that I have ever made. I knew when it was ending that I was entering the abyss and I still did it. Now I am unable to function and all I can think about is what I would have said or done. It seems like alot of the people here have been screwed over by situations that are out of their control whereas I am the cause of mine. I cannot forgive myself. I am waiting a little bit longer […]

I feel forever alone. I have family, friends, a husband, a beautiful baby girl, a job, everything I guess. But I feel that no one on this earth can ever understand me, our can stand me. What I feel and what I think are simply too complicated and perhaps annoying to the “normal” people. Whoever they are, I envy them. I wish I didn’t have to feel lonely. I wish I didn’t have to think about hanging myself just to feel better; like I have control over my life. Which is ironic. But everytime I am in […]