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Trying

  July 9th, 2018 by egp

I have a great life with family and friends I couldn’t ask for more. I just don’t feel happy with myself, I feel a hole in my chest has been made in these couple of years. I want to be happy I want to be care free like I used to be. I want to be able to see my life and be confident and say that it’s going to be great. I feel that I have good and bad days, I live with mood swings and deep depression sometimes and then I feel inlove happy and confident other days. I don’t know what cause …

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He is gone…But was never really mine…

  July 9th, 2018 by FallingSlow

He is gone now,
No longer will I see his smile,
He was here for just a moment,
Silence fills his place,
He is taken by another woman,
She is beautiful and wise,
I was a fleeting moment,
Now, not even a thought in his mind…

He was just like every other man in my life. Beautiful yet toxic… Why did I love him in only the short time I knew him? Why couldn’t I just walk away. I screw up everything… Now I have lost 2 friends I hoped would be around for life.
I lost their child, a beautiful angel I won’t ever see again… She was not mine but the joy …

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13 – hey, so urm

  July 9th, 2018 by soapandwasser

I deleted some of my posts and I’m here hoping i dont have to post on here anymore.

maybe i won’t anymore.

lol as if im really gonna go off myself right?? haha.

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Discard

  July 9th, 2018 by SAaf6

I’m in my 30s, and need to coordinate the strength to end it there. I grew up abused, multiple ways, attempted my end through pills as a teen but failed. Married an abusive man young too, have had children who I love dearly. Fell for a man who promised to rescue me, help save my kids and I, and when I left with him, he ended up abusing me as well, I still love him, sad though it is. I had to return to my husband and have no way out, and am unable to work. I love them dearly but cannot take this neverending …

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The littlest things

  July 9th, 2018 by seemokay

It was Never You & it will never be you

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Pondering…

  July 8th, 2018 by spectralgiraffe

I want to meet my ldr boyfriend again, and then ideally I should die. Not that I ever would unless I got some disease or from old age. I’m 25 so yeah I won’t be dying of old age anytime soon.

I think on our second meeting which will happen in the future, I would’ve lived. Like, enjoyed life. Just like the first time. There really isn’t anything else for me. I work from home making hardly anything. I don’t like people and don’t like dealing with them. So a job isn’t for me. Nor is society of course…

Its probably illogical that I have someone on …

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Everyone’s too busy writting

  July 8th, 2018 by FiendInside

Is the true way to heal to write, or to read.

Do you heal by sharing your trauma, or by listening to someone  else’s.

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What’s the Point

  July 8th, 2018 by careforme

what the hell is the point anymore everyone hates me I hate me to I get jealous of course my boyfriend hangs with his ex cuz they are good friends and yet it makes me the bad fucken person for getting mad jealous about it well im sorry I have trust issues I’ve been in 18 relationships total since I was 12 no I aint no slut like you all think my life sucked back then and still does ever since 3 months old I’ve been in foster homes with strangers who I don’t even know the I was placed at 2 than 5 then …

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leaving early

  July 8th, 2018 by thecheese

I stayed only to give her the best life possible but now she is leaving ….. its sooner that I thought? I am relieved and ready to go as well…..

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  July 8th, 2018 by freeroma

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Alone again

  July 8th, 2018 by ClairDeLune

I’ve been using this app for the past year or so that lets you communicate anonymously with people in your city (mostly other students around my age), and I was on it almost every single night for at least an hour, because I could talk about things, good and bad, and people would listen that basically lived just around the corner. It made me feel less alone, even though it technically didn’t really change anything. It has become routine for me to chat on there at night before going to bed, ever since my breakup, because at night I tend to feel the most alone.

Today …

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Reaching out.

  July 8th, 2018 by Piratemermaid

Everyone says reach out for help when you feel suicidal. A couple celebrities die and suddenly everyone cares so so much. What happens if you reach out and nothing happens? I’ve reached out. At 16 I told my doctor. “Hey, I don’t feel so great. My head feels heavy and I’m scared of everything and I thought it was just a phase, but I’ve felt sick for a long time now and I’m starting to feel like it’s not just my age anymore.” She told me I’d probably feel a lot better if I lost weight. If I attend her expensive nutrition classes and exercise …

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Protected: The guys name who was with us when we met.

  July 8th, 2018 by darkwillow

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Something a bit more instant

  July 8th, 2018 by Goose

Does this place have a chat anymore? There used to be a ****** group years ago, which had some problems with trolls. A kik group also started but also broke down after some time. Is there anything like that atm? I feel it would help some of you who struggle to have quick interaction with like minded people or just general talk with people. Its good for you!

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my life is shit

  July 8th, 2018 by ijustwanttodie123

wow…..

about a month ago my dad got married, and we moved to a new city. And what really sucks is that I am not allowed to talk to my mom at all. I have no friends. I am homeschooled, I never get to go outside unless it’s Saturday. My dad mentally abuses me, and tell’s me he is ashamed of me and not proud of me. And how he wants to send me away. About 4 months ago I became seriously depressed. I’ve been having suicidal thoughts. I also started to self-harm. I have becoming addicted to painkillers. And sometimes I just sit there and …

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Goodbye

  July 8th, 2018 by LostOlHope

I think I’ve finally figured it out. I live on the 15th floor of a NYC apartment. I think it’s fate. All I need to do is go out the window. I think they knew I’d end up here and that’s why I got this apartment. I’m done. I’m on my way out. Thanks for everything suicide project. It’s been real.

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I love my son but can’t fight anymore

  July 8th, 2018 by Singlemom

I’ve been keeping myself alive for so long. Failed suicide attempts in the past but none since the birth of my son, who is 6 years old. I love him. Oh how I love him. But I can’t fight anymore.

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  July 8th, 2018 by darkwillow

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Normal

  July 8th, 2018 by Gary

What is normal? Am I normal? No one can answer that for me. Am I ok? No. Do I have a normal life like everyone else? No.
Am I happy? No.

Someone out there tell me what normal is……

Why do I hate myself so much?

Normal – unkown and only someones else’s opinion….

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If one gains a degree of peace he doesn’t remember his past hells

  July 8th, 2018 by hope432

I have not visited the website in the last 6-7 months while my life got better and better despite having so many difficulties.  I joined this website in september 2015. I have not contemplated suicide in the last 2 years.

I just wanted to tell you how I feel in the hope that it will uplift you at least a little bit.

I remember things from childhood where everything was more pure and there was more energy in my life.

That happened a long time ago but memories still come to the surface. I think I had a peaceful childhood, not very happy but I had a nice …

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