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What a sickening feeling it is

June 20th, 2017by nozmoking

– to be trapped not having the strength or the courage to end your own pain. If only the absence of will could be fatal…

but that would be far too merciful for one god to be

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10:29 pm

June 20th, 2017by vee

got home to no one, once again. it’s okay though, tonight i want to write, so i prefer being alone. work was busy, i finally have the day off tomorrow, so that’s nice.

i’ve also realised i’m awful with  titles, so i’ll just put the time i guess

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June 20th, 2017by Robstein

Feeling powerless, unable to change some things

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Cursed

June 20th, 2017by eternaldarkness

Do you feel cursed? Like a giant dark cloud is following you no matter where you go or what you do or what choices you make?

Like the universe / the cosmos / God / or whatever you call it – is against you and wants you to suffer?

That no matter how hard you try, somehow something always happens, the world knocks you down, or people deliberately knock you down, or things just happen that you cannot control nor forsee, yet it keeps happening, again and again and again; where your life is like an episode of the Twilight Zone, inescapable.

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I just want to give a billion hugs to whoever is reading this right now…

June 20th, 2017by duringmydarkestdays

YES, YOU, HAVE ALL THE HUGS. YOU DESERVE THOSE BILLION HUGS. YOU CAN EVEN HAVE A BILLION MORE HUGS AFTER THAT. NO, WAIT, ACTUALLY… HAVE AN INFINITE AMOUNT OF HUGS FOR ALL I CARE. FOR ALL OF ETERNITY. EVEN IN THE AFTERLIFE, MAY YOU STILL BE RECEIVING THOSE HUGS. THOSE HUGS ARE YOURS. CHERISH THEM. THEY ARE YOURS. SHARE THEM WITH OTHERS IF YOU’D LIKE. LET THEM EXPERIENCE THE POWER A BILLION HUGS CAN GIVE YOU. HUGS. HUGS ARE GOOD. EVEN IF EVERYTHING IN YOUR WORLD IS BAD. ACCEPT THESE HUGS. TAKE THEM. NURTURE THEM. HUG THEM. YES, HUG YOUR HUGS. AND THEN YOUR HUG’S HUGS

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The poision of betrayal runs deep

June 20th, 2017by Fractured Mind

Ive said it before and I will say it again… You cant cross my path the way you did and expect to get off scott free.

In the end, you will get what you deserve just like I will.

Next time maybe you will think before you destroy another person so completely.  Just for the fun of it.

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I can’t cope anymore

June 20th, 2017by labtech93

After everything I’ve been through, people say I’m strong, or that I should be able to handle anything. Truth is, I just wanna catch a break, even if it’s for just a day. I wish I could make people understand how much it hurts. I’m always in constant emotional pain. I have nightmares, I get flashbacks. Anything that triggers my PTSD is a living nightmare. Everyday I wake up I don’t count my blessings instead, I’m more depressed knowing that now I have to go to work, or actually deal with the day. It isn’t like I haven’t thought about telling my therapist about all …

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Photoptarmosis

June 20th, 2017by Atintofgreen

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10 Days Left

June 20th, 2017by ShiSui

And I am pretty scared lol I mean it’s natural right? Like what if this and what if that. I have OCD too so that doesn’t help with the doubt I feel about it all creating scenarios in my head of the day over and over just obsessing over the uncertainty. Fuck….it’s really going down…literally and figuratively. I still need to buy the Jameson (liquid courage) put in a Gatorade water bottle so incognito while I have it on the bridge looking like a jogger. Besides that it’s just get in the car and go. The car …

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Labeled “toxic” and “negative”

June 20th, 2017by brokenandbent30

Someone just made a post about how we’re labeled as “toxic” and how friends were distancing themselves. Maybe they deleted it because they were afraid it came off as arrogant, but no, this is something I’ve been thinking about a lot. So thanks for bringing it up. This was my comment:

This has honestly been on my mind a lot. Glad you brought it up. It is not fair that we are labeled “toxic” and “negative”, well excuse me for having an illness! Social media is another reminder because there are memes like “Distance yourself from negativity.” “Don’t embrace toxicity.” Some shit like that and even …

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June 20th, 2017by Robstein

Have you ever thought about killing someone?

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I am Considered a Loser, Yet I am Privileged

June 20th, 2017by BlueDiamond

(Yay, I fixed the internet on my computer. It seems to be connecting well, and is moving faster. I did everything I could such as restoring it to its default, restarting the computer, and even got my dad to check it out. He wasn’t able to fix it. All I had to do was update the security, clear all browsing history, and most of all disable the proxy server. Now, I don’t have wait for long periods for a page to show up, or have to keep reloading the page because it didn’t show up. Hope it stays this way.)

By society’s standards, I am a …

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I hate making mistakes

June 20th, 2017by ClairDeLune

Why can’t trying to do what’s right suffice?

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Choose Life

June 20th, 2017by midian monster

I watched Trainspotting 2 recently and thought it was as good as the 1st one.
This monologue perfectly sums up my (and probably many peoples) thoughts on society nowadays.

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Pity party, nobody is invited

June 20th, 2017by CARLOSPEJUAN

 

 

 

Made an event nobody showed and few people had the decency to say, no. Thus I can’t get to know people. I was weird the whole time because I was worried about SOME those who didn’t sHOW. n Not sure what I did for them to h8 me. But I’m gonna stop associating with anyone except for the 4 people that showed and one of them sucks. This is why it takes me so long to call anyone my friend. And people think I’m stupid for that. If people think that, then why the fuck so they constantly prove that mutherfuckers, who you know for …

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Dear Drop

June 20th, 2017by CARLOSPEJUAN

I’m so tired. I miss talking to you. A lot has changed. I have never spoken to you again. I miss you. I never got to meet, videochat, phone call, or at least prove you were a cat fish. I still think you did OD on heroin like you said you would, and told your friend to check on me so I would miss you too much. I met a guy with your real name. It’s funny, he’s now essentially my only friend here. Everyone I meet sucks lately. I don’t know why I’m cursed with this. I don’t know how or what you change. …

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Giving up

June 20th, 2017by MorbidBehavior

I have noticed I and beginning to rely on little things to keep me going. I’ve taken notice of everyone’s happiness but my own. I think I’m slowly giving up on myself. This doesn’t seem good. 

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Kill the Beast 

June 19th, 2017by azuzu

It’s inside of me destroying anything I could ever be. It’s taken everything from me. I remember when it first took me over. I remember when and where. I was but 7 and my screams awoke my parents but It was already too late. The beast was already inside. I must find a way to kill it. I know that I will go with it but I don’t fucking care anymore. 

It has won. 

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microchipping

June 19th, 2017by spectralgiraffe

So yeah, already 100s of people in Australia (as far as I know) have voluntarily chosen to be microchipped, so they can easily enter their house without keys and unlock their computer, for example… My memory isn’t being great as usual.

There was also an article about some workplace over in Europe somewhere microchipping their workers, so they can use their microchip to access (get into) their workplace…

Sure, all seems convenient. Well, I’m hoping they wont make it mandatory to be microchipped. Maybe you are wondering why I am making a fuss out of this? Less keys, less cards, less things to remember… That has …

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roller coaster

June 19th, 2017by Velveteen Human

My life has been such an emotional roller coaster the last couple of years. It’s exhausting. And now it seems like it has become a cycle I have no control over. I can pretend to be fine for a week – even tricking myself – but then I crash against the brick wall of reality.

I know this “relationship” I seem to have found myself in isn’t real, won’t last. He’s infatuated like an adolescent, but once the novelty wears off, he will get tired of me or sick of me or both, and I’ll be alone again. I dread that day, but at the same …

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