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No moon

  September 15th, 2018 by NoMoonInMySky

I can’t say anything about myself because of the nature of my job. They don’t allow people to speak up, tell the truth or reach out. It would look bad…

Im giving up. After years of fighting to get the help I need, I give up. They say I’m a piece of shit, they say I don’t work, they say I disappear and just do my own thing. In reality, I’m so scared of them I would never dare take a break. I am a workaholic. It’s a coping mechanism that allows me to fear less. Maybe if I’m freakin perfect, all the time, everyday, maybe …

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empty

  September 15th, 2018 by Stable as Uranium

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Gray man love story

  September 14th, 2018 by Gray man

you see me on the subway but yet you do everything to look away

you see me walking down the street but yet you don’t say hello

you rest you head on my chest and say you love me but then you don’t call

you wonder why i am dark and withdrawn i say it’s because i don’t trust people but the real reason is i know you will never give me the time of day

i put on the brave face and fool you all in thinking that everything is alright but it’s not

i see you with your nice outfits and your expensive drinks and meals

i look in …

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Has anyone became suicidal after the death of someone close to them?

  September 14th, 2018 by astranger

I’ve been suicidal for around two decades now. I have always been social, but was very selective of whom I developed a genuine closeness with. That being said, my boyfriend and I were pretty much inseparable from the day we met. Five years later he died at the age of 35 from a freak accident. It absolutely blew my mind. And since the day he died (going on 3 years now), all I have wanted was for my life to be over as well. Can anyone relate?

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morose motherf*cker missing

  September 14th, 2018 by Stable as Uranium

I usually don’t read shit unless Morris pops up. I’m always a fan of his work. Here’s an ode to Skyrim’s staunch protector.

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tiME fEr sUm iNtElLeCtUaLiSm (this post isnt about pedos and I ain’t one. This is literally all abstract rambling. Sorry.))

  September 14th, 2018 by Stable as Uranium

As much as it probably agonizes people to think so, there is sometimes hardly such a thing as ‘deservedness’. The idea of a young woman feeling relief at the torture and execution of her rapist isn’t all that alien, but the comparative shock of an otherwise ‘good’ person being elated at the death and suffering of another without context eludes to the dissonance with which we subconsciously utilize our fouler instincts like revenge, sadism, and penance. All rooted in an overbearing parental pathology residing in our egos.

The sins of our ancestors are never really washed away completely- in fact they are carried on in our …

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Mental healthcare

  September 14th, 2018 by Hope Dream Love

Can they admit you to mental health care after you attempt suicide or just if they feel you are a harm to yourself and/or others?

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my resolve to take care of myself is low

  September 14th, 2018 by helter_skelter

does that make me a bad person

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Losing Your Reason to Live

  September 14th, 2018 by helter_skelter

I used to draw every day. All day. It made me feel alive. It made me feel like god. I don’t want friends or family close by, because I love drawing so much, its all I want to give my attention to.

I have such severe overuse injuries that my drawing abilities are compromised. I can’t hold a pen or pencil the same. I was revered for my skill. Now I my work looks like that of a bumbling fool’s.

I don’t want to exist without that skill in my life. It doesn’t feel worth it.

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Insecurity

  September 14th, 2018 by Lie

I have this sense of insecurity… I want to be loved…. I don’t want him sharing his love.. i want to be that 1 a.m call that he makes after getting drunk… The one person he wants to call out and searh the meaning of his life…

 

  • Ine busy call and I am like does he actually loves me or its just a plain lie…

 

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Well

  September 14th, 2018 by OFFTheShadows

When you think you’ve reached the botton of the well you go even deeper in your pain, lack of hope, solitude, disgrace, suicidal wish, anguish, depression, abandonment.

Mankind is filthy, or saying better, some people are so filthy that you lose your faith in all mankind.

I’m so so so tired…

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Pity.

  September 14th, 2018 by Yoges

Just beyond the horizon of a broken little grey life, lies a world full of beautiful places and peoples, birds and animals, trees, mountains, valleys, plains, rivers and oceans.

To think all that breathtaking innocence and unabashed friendship of nature is left untouched.

To think so many lives, through the ages and around the world, are left unlived.

Tragic beyond words.

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  September 14th, 2018 by Robert Hulk

I don’t think people really care about other people or animals. What do you think and why?

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Are you ok?????? Pffft

  September 14th, 2018 by tiredofchronicpain

The “R U Ok” movement has every right to be laughed at. In fact, I haven’t laughed this hard since September 2017 last year looking at a similar popup. I thought this was a joke, till I googled it. It is basically a group of individuals querying people to talk about their problems, and I find it even more laughable asking it in hell a.k.a the suicideproject where most of us have REAL problems that can’t be fixed with the traditional CBT approaches. This cult of “Are You Ok” implies that every problem can be fixed by talking about it. It assumes the only reason …

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END IS CLOSE

  September 14th, 2018 by ANONFORWOOD

by close i mean from now to few years,  others is what i care most about and and i wish i don’t. they’ll judge anyway in the end. it is my life i truly want to end it, do not let anyone judge you , it is uniquue you and no one knows you better then yourself, i suffer, sadely you do, what you feel like is right is to do.  i am buzzed because without it’ll feeling worse. no one knows what’s in my head,  my destiny, suicide before natural death. i do not know if i’m depressed, or if i have to be,

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Watched The “s” word today

  September 14th, 2018 by bbpplily

So at my college, they had a showing of the “s” word. I went not because I had to but to challenge myself. I attempted to commit suicide last November. Luckily I wasn’t triggered but it had me thinking about my last attempt ( i have many more but this was the most recent) and how alone I felt. I spent almost a week in the hospital trying to get my sugar levels stable ( I am none diabatic and toke my father’s insulin on top of over 40 pills) nurses tell me repeatedly I should have died and I should never try again etc. …

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Life is boring , Reality is boring , real life is boring , real world is boring

  September 14th, 2018 by niki

Especially when you’ve realized that nothing we do here in reality will ever compare to our imaginations. And no, I’m not talking about petty, shallow, superficial, & stupid imaginations like most people only have with their simple-minded brains. I’m talking about all those best fantasy movies, games, novels, comic books, anime/manga, etc, with all their magic, superpowers, & magical, fantasy, adventurous world/universe with its limitless, unlimited possibilities.

Fuck this reality.
Reality is boring, stupid, & depressing.

reality is boring , life is boring ,
it’s all about money
i hate money
i hate business
i wish i live in the movie game anime manga novel comics books

I hate …

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This thrill inside of Me

  September 13th, 2018 by Yikrens

How to you name the Power in us to make the Final Move, to give into something, to cry and to be forced to seek for food and water? The urge to smoke or to go for drugs.

Such an Movement inside of me is thrilling me to get to my own Rental. Anybody there in the Town is more of an fellow peasant than a friend and those who are a friend to me can’t actual set a rule for itself or have a proper set-up.

I like to be there. I can sleep there at least. I have nothing there yet about connectivity. …

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Jokes

  September 13th, 2018 by Hope Dream Love

Am I the only one that finds that once people know what goes on in your brain that you can’t make jokes anymore? Let’s say there’s something you really like, anyone else would say “they are to die for” but if you say it you’re apologizing until your face turns blue trying to explain that’s not really what you meant but it is. Until you decided it’s best to just not mention it. I can’t count how many times I’ve gotten an ‘are you serious’ look from people. It’s almost like because I’m different I can’t have the same thoughts as every one else. Like …

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It always gets worse

  September 13th, 2018 by noah5678

Haven’t been suicidal in about four months, I’d say. Finally starting to feel suicidal again for the first time in months. Any time i start to feel good, it NEVER lasts for long. I’ve finally realized that feelings like happiness and relief are only temporary, unfortunately, and that feelings of anger, sadness, depression, grief, and anxiety will always be much more prevalent in my life.

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