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Becoming a monk

  January 10th, 2019 by Black Holez

Just went to the monastery today and I already feel refreshed. I have decided to try to become a part of their holy orders after a one month observership. I will observe and participate in the daily activities of the monks while also being observed back if I am suited to their life or not. After the one month period ends, I will then be given time to decide if indeed I will push through becoming a monk or not.

After this dairy stint ends, I will be joining in a heartbeat. I believe this is my way out of my situation. I’m trapped in …

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Question

  January 10th, 2019 by Tellmewhy

If l don’t have money to buy some drinks does that mean that l don’t deserve them?

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Help me

  January 10th, 2019 by Niezzz

I really need to go to that interview :'(

My counsellor said i have anxiety disorder.

What is the purpose of life. If everything was controlled by your fcking parents.

I nver ask to be born and live in this world.

Pls. I cant to stay here anymore. :'(

Should i run from house? :'(

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Happy in an odd way

  January 10th, 2019 by deathisnear

Like most nights, I abruptly woke up a few hours after going to bed and failed to get back to sleep. While tossing and turning in bed, I thought of the perfect suicide method. I don’t want to reveal my idea while I’m alive, but you may read about it in the news or on social media after I have gone through with it. Don’t worry: Nobody will be dying or impacted except for me, but I reckon it would be a newsworthy death.

This method will also be more effective, painless, and unique than my previous method of blasting my head off with a shotgun. …

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Wanting to Vanish

  January 10th, 2019 by alina_01

My family is unhealthy, they have caused each generation to be fucked up. They belittle and break instead of support and nurture. They are toxic, my depression and suicide attempts stem from all the seeds of self loathing they planted and helped grow. I’m older now and I don’t hate myself I may actually love myself so it doesn’t affect me like before. I stay out of obligation? fear of truly being alone? Who knows? I take care of 2 elderly relatives and it wouldn’t sit right with me if I just left them alone. So I stay I plan some stupid future to keep …

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Middle-aged

  January 9th, 2019 by mulgrum

Is anyone interested in a category for us 50+ folk?

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mousy’s s***** plight

  January 9th, 2019 by princessmousy<:3)~

why do I need to tolerate this life anymore? Why won’t it end? why do I keep harping on for years wishing my life just ended. fuck prince charming. He doesn’t exist. And why would any guy respect me anyway? people love rejecting me. most guys just want one thing. and if they don’t just want one thing, then they’ll just waste my time anyway, right? Because I must be so damn bad and I deserve to be rejected because I can’t relate to anyone. if you can’t relate, you just get left behind. And I’m sick of this curse.

also I have to find …

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A Note to Those Struggling

  January 9th, 2019 by violinplayer22

To all those who are struggling, I have been in the same shoes. I live through the pain every day, and I know that it seems like it can never get better. I can tell you about my experience, my attempt at suicide, the multiple suicide notes I have hidden in my room, the times I have come to this website to find solace, but unless you believe in yourself, there’s not much I can do. So you have to remember, that even in your darkest hours, there are people out there who care about you. There is someone who will miss you if you …

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  January 9th, 2019 by 1am

I hate when I feel uncomfortable in my own body, I hate when I’m in a bad mood, everything annoys me and I just feel like sleeping so I will get to “not exist” for a while, it feels like my body is a prison

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  January 9th, 2019 by Mac-10toSchool

Double posting. Sorry.

It’s apparent to me that the way I view the world is drastically different from others, so much so that the way I interact with others hurts them. There’s no malicious intent behind my words, and yet, some say it’s “emotionally manipulative”, or “oversharing”. Something about empathetic pain. These are concepts and words that I cant seem to put any meaning to. I must’ve missed something about social skills somewhere along the line. So many people are upset and put-off by my interactions with them, and I dont at all understand why. Anyway, this hurts because (A) I HATE the idea that I’m …

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Ungrateful Brat

  January 9th, 2019 by nonexistingsoul

So here I am, 3am and still awake. I’m stuck with our group project which is to make an animated commercial. Tomorrow’s the deadline. We would’ve finished this last week if only they followed the deadlines. I always do well on my part since this is the only thing I’m good at. And there’s this ungrateful groupmate I have who complained why I’m giving her work. Oh f*ck her please. I don’t like freeloaders. If she’s on my team, she needs to know her responsibilities. F*cking ***** telling me I’m the one who’s at fault here but I’m fully aware that I didn’t do anything …

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i wanna die

  January 9th, 2019 by NumbExhaustion

I’ve stopped taking my meds in hopes of bringing back all the shittiness and to maybe store meds for if I ever decide to kill myself and I tell myself that it’s better than feeling numb but I honestly just hate myself and I feel so uncomfortable unless my chest is bound and I don’t know why. but I just wanna fucking die. I’m so tired and I hate myself and I can’t find the energy to do anything and I can’t reach out to anyone and my mom won’t stop preaching about god and I’m all alone and fuck. I really just wanna die. …

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Follow our dreams or parents?

  January 9th, 2019 by Niezzz

I’m 16yo. I thought this year might be a better year than before.

But i defntly wrong. How is that possible haha.

I dont think that im muslim anymore. I mean, i didnt feel it. I didnt pray. I swear to god, this is all my dad’s fault. He’s always told me that god is nver exist. But luckyly, in school i do learn to read quran. And pray, even sometimes i avoid. If you want to know abt my story well, do read my past story.

I need an opinion,  im still young. And im study in secondary school. In Malaysia, when you reach at …

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GOD..

  January 9th, 2019 by nobodycares

Do you believe in God? Have you ever think that maybe there is no God? if there is a God then why so many Religions out there?i mean theres only one God right?

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Peaceful exit to a painful existence

  January 9th, 2019 by SuicideMan

Hi all,

 

I’m new here and just wanted to say I’ve always been depressed and suffered way too many setbacks in life. People always advise you to “never give up” but what they don’t realise is that everyone has certain limits before they eventually break down.

 

Anyway I just need the get that out before I take the bottle of ******** (Pentobarbital) this week. I’ve given this decision much thought and decided that it’s best for everyone (myself included) if I ceased to exist. I feel I’m a burden and a waste of resources.

 

All the best to everyone and I hope we all find peace some day.

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  January 9th, 2019 by nobodycares

dear life…f*ck you

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sighhhh

  January 9th, 2019 by princessmousy<:3)~

I want to be dead so badly right now. I really wish that I was. The urges to die come and go these days. It seems they are coming more and more often 🙁 not good when I want to hold on for a few more months!

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School

  January 8th, 2019 by Undesirable

I was given the opportunity to do advanced placement classes next year, I declined the offer though. My depression makes it difficult for me to get things done, and I’ve struggled with this years work enough.

My girlfriend would flip if she found out about this though.

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Well..

  January 8th, 2019 by headupunderdarkcloud

I guess that I can still afford Curry, ok, one more day.

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Selling My Soul To The Devil (Conspiracy Theories)

  January 8th, 2019 by Two-Faced

There is a theory in the christian circles, that the devil will give you whatever you want in exchange for your soul. Money, Women/Men, Fame and Luck, every glory you could imagine. How do you sell your soul? By doing a series of terrible, inhumane, soul-crushing things, until Satan determines when you’ve “proven” yourself. Now here is where the problem comes in, Lucifer is a 6000 year-old trickster and back-stabber, who knows the human mind like the back of his hand. The moment he knows he has you in his fingers; he will do all he can do to kill you. According to christianity, God …

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