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Pain

  July 10th, 2018 by LFC1995

The other day, I hit myself in the head so hard everything was white and silent for a fleeting moment. The physical pain is more bearable than the emotional one. I’ve had a headache and felt sick since then. Oops.

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I’m not strong enough

  July 10th, 2018 by abede21

He is the only one who can give me the strength to lift me out of this rut… I’m trying my best to make him understand how dire this is. It can only be him. My friends, family, they won’t be able to pull me out. I need him here with me. He doesn’t understand. I’m willing to risk everything to have him with me again, because he’s been the shining light in my life that has kept me going. I’m so exhausted, so beat up. I don’t have the energy to fight anymore. The only reason why I haven’t given up yet is because …

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Life makes no sense

  July 10th, 2018 by rivets

Well, I got my job back. Yay for that. This way, I start off with a clean slate – I can call off as much as I want, really, if I feel so inclined, and I’ll have another week of vacation time right off the bat. However, since it’s so far into the month already, I’ll probably be really short on rent for next month. Boo. Boo, landlord, boo.

 

I bet if I ask really nice, my manager will let me sleep in the break room rent-free. Maybe I can bring the cats along and they can be company mascots or something. It’s perfect! And I …

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  July 10th, 2018 by spookichick

i  am supposed  to live for my son, and my mom. i am doing just that. my skin has diabetic sores that are popping up all over my body, and i can’t keep up with them. my liver is cirrhotic, the nerves in both my legs and feet are shot so i now need a cane to walk, and that will be changed to a waker next week. i have to take my blood sugar 5 times a day, and have to take insulin every day.i can’t even begin to talk about my depression and anxiety…it’s unstable. i rarely go out. i wonder how my …

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Failed, again.

  July 10th, 2018 by morado123

Having lived in this stressful environment for some time, one would guess that I would become immune to pressure. Yet, today I see that I have not even a single thing I succeeded in doing. My girlfriend, well, I broke up with her, and I don’t even have a single friend that I really feel comfortable with. My whole relationship with everyone is really ruined. Also, school and work were never a thing for me. I tried extra hard for this last project, which miserably failed. Despite my best efforts, nothing, NOTHING, ever went well.

It’s rather stupid to think about suicide when the stress I …

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Grief feels like your heart is viced within an owl’s talon’s…

  July 10th, 2018 by imsosorry2468

My dog, Roxy, passed away this morning.

Animals, to me, have always connected to my soul on a much deeper level than most people have… I think I am still in shock, the grief comes in waves and when it rushes over me I feel so despondent in that moment. I never want to experience this kind of pain again. I work very closely with a lot of animals as part of my profession and thinking of the potential good-bye’s that await are indelibly haunting.

It makes me want to die before I have to say goodbye ever again but it gives me a taste …

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Still nothing to live for ..

  July 9th, 2018 by Cause of Death: Suicide

Still living a terrible worthless life.. Nothing will ever be ok.. I will probably overdose soon.. I have a fatal dose so I’ve never been more happy for anything in my life.. I don’t know how to go about it..Should I put in my notice? Should I just go do it without quitting? When I’m dead it will not matter and that is the only thing I’ve been working towards for the last decade (my suicide)… I wonder who and why they had to make my last year alive complete sh*t….. maybe it was happenchance, maybe it was coincidence..

I feel it was

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Goodbye (Perhaps)

  July 9th, 2018 by Failure143

Today, I’ve lost it. I’ve lost my will to live, to search for happiness, to be successful. I’ve lost it all. In fact, as I type this, I’m filling up my journal as my suicide note. I just can’t see the reasons I tried to be happy, or search for love or anything. I’ve just been empty, not empty due to how little I eat, or empty of emotions, but empty of will. So, this is most likely my final post, and all those that tried to help on here, I’m sorry for wasting your time.

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Signed, Mommy

  July 9th, 2018 by IvoryNoise

My marriage is in shambles and for the past several months I have thought about committing suicide. I have never felt more worthless, unloved and unwanted, rejected, alone, empty nor filled with such despair. The idea of not being able to witness my two year old son live a long and prosperous life has been the only thing keeping me anchored to this world.

This past weekend though, I realized that both he and my wife are thriving without me there and I truly believe that they will be better off if I were gone. So, I spent that entire day drafting a suicide note for …

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Past

  July 9th, 2018 by spectralgiraffe

In 2009 I saw something about suicide. I thought oh I didn’t know people wanted to die… but it will never happen to me.

Only 2 years later, that was the first time I had mentioned wanting to die. And many times since. On the whole I am unsure but I know that I am tired.

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Yeah…

  July 9th, 2018 by eternaldarkness

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It just keeps getting worse

  July 9th, 2018 by OldCow

Today is my birthday and I get to celebrate by finding a new job.  My boss decided to eliminate my position this morning for no particularly good reason.  How nice of them to do this on my birthday.  I am 58 years old as of today and no one is going to hire an old fat ugly cow like me.  Life just keeps on sucking.  I am old and tired and now I get to start all over at the bottom again, making minimum wage, working horrible hours with no benefits most likely.  great.    Why can’t I just die and get it over with …

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everyone is abandoning me

  July 9th, 2018 by rania

my mother is becoming more and more abusive. my father doesn’t care about me. my brothers hate me. my boyfriend is getting more and more fed up with me. i don’t have anyone anymore.

i should be happy about it. soon, no one will care if i die, and i will be able to do it without feeling guilty. but it still hurts so much

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Tell me a story..

  July 9th, 2018 by darkwillow

About someone you know or used to know, that really stood out to you somehow. In a bad way or a good way. Someone who even now, makes you think of them.

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– – –

  July 9th, 2018 by whiskered-fish

I’m starting to realize that I can’t trust anyone around me. No one is safe. Everyone in my life is here to torture me, whether they’re aware of it or not.

I’m stewing in confusion, terror, hate. I’ve been having unshakable, violent urges for weeks. I just want everyone who’s hurting me to disappear.

Today the urges are stronger than they’ve ever been. I feel like a time bomb. But unlike last year, there’s nothing I can do about it. I don’t have health insurance anymore. I’m in school now, and wouldn’t be able to come back if I left. I can’t go to the hospital again, …

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All Alone

  July 9th, 2018 by kcliftonjones

I am a 34yo failure at life.  My family all lives back east and I live out in California so I have no family around.  I can go over 10 days without anyone even attempting to contact me, I have gone longer at times as well.  I was just moved from my job that I have had for the past 3 years to a new position that after I have been at for about a month I tried to speak with my boss about returning to my old position and he said no.  Now I am stuck in a shitty job, that I absolutely hate …

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Im just not meant to live this world

  July 9th, 2018 by born.loser

Well I just got fired again from another job. I guess I just not meant to survive in this world.

I am a true born loser 🙂

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  July 9th, 2018 by ida.daniel

I’ll simply do whatever I want until I get bored, then kill myself.

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Byron’s poetry

  July 9th, 2018 by Taf Taf

So We’ll Go No More A-Roving

So we’ll go no more a-roving
So late into the night,
Though the heart be still as loving,
 And the moon be still as bright.

For the sword outwears its sheath,
And the soul outwears the breast,
And the heart must pause to breathe,
And love itself have rest.

Though the night was made for loving,
And the day returns too soon,
Yet we’ll

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Just who I am

  July 9th, 2018 by MajorScrewUp

i can’t do anything right. I make so many dumb mistakes. I’m I’m stupid and ugly and gross and I can’t do anything right. No matter how many changes I make I’m just a loser

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