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Disappointed

  March 3rd, 2019 by Lostlullaby

I tend to get really closed, really attached really fast. I have this person whom I considered one of my closest friends who is basically making me feel like shit  like I’m an annoying and stupid girl whining about her condition, and like I should just  get over it. Thing is despite recent good news, my depression got worse and worse. Worst part is she never confronts me directly she rather implies it with degrading jokes about me or refusing to answer my questions or greetings so I still don’t know exactly what is wrong. So I feel bad and guilty. I had a crush …

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No energy

  March 2nd, 2019 by Ladybugluvr99

Its just too hard to do  anything,depressing

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So sad yet so releived

  March 2nd, 2019 by Ladybugluvr99

Ive been through through through hell I need prayers I need to be loved

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Stupid Utilities

  March 2nd, 2019 by rivets

Have you ever looked at a glass of water from the tap? I just did. I sincerely regret it. Maybe I’m just OCD, but it looks like a whole heck of a lot of little flecks floating around in there. Like, much more than you’d expect. If I weren’t so dehydrated, I’d go buy some bottled water at the store, but I don’t feel like leaving. Why are people expected to pay for this crap? I heard a guy got fined by the state for refusing to use the public water service. I’d just as soon drill a well in the parking lot and call …

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A sign

  March 2nd, 2019 by Dreary-elf

End it now?…
Or end it later?
Jesus christ…
Just give me a sign

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Crystal glass

  March 2nd, 2019 by Ladybugluvr99

Super depressed because cant be with guy I wanna be with

nothing is ever perfect

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My disability insurance came in

  March 2nd, 2019 by Ladybugluvr99

and im depressed

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Nobody cares

  March 2nd, 2019 by NoSense

  1. I hate this feeling. I want to be relevant somehow. People always come and go. Whenever you become friends with people, they just leave you for good or just ignore you. Fuck everything. I don’t really have a lot of friends and I am very picky when it comes to that. I just hate it when they leave you alone. I feel like an old used toy. I am thinking of self harm just to let them see that I’m not ok. I’m actually putting a lot of subtle clues about this shitty feeling. I want to get into an accident or something so

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I saw it all

  March 2nd, 2019 by rivets

Everything looks so small and trivial from way up high. Have you ever walked through a scrapyard at twilight and looked at all the discarded and forgotten cars collecting dust, smashed up and rusting in heaps? Broken glass and missing headlights, strange oblique lines that seem like they should be straight. You can see the future by looking at what we’ve discarded in the past. Those things could still have a use, but it’s cheaper to toss them in a pile and forget they ever existed. All the old cars still have stories that nobody will ever hear or know, but it’s burned into their …

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there are two posts called “unloveable” already

  March 2nd, 2019 by themessenger

when i went to type the title of this post, the first word that came to mind was “unloveable”. because i’m young and edgy, or maybe because the smiths are playing in the background. who knows.
the generated link told me, that this would be the third post with that name. i guess that shows just how indifferent i am.
the little bit of rationality left in my brain knows that there still are people who care about me, who love me, if i might dare to say that. there’s my family. my best friend. but still, i can’t get rid of the thought that i …

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it was bound to happen eventually….

  March 2nd, 2019 by heartlessviking

I was bound to fail big eventually. I just…. thought I wouldn’t. There was this thought that if I did everything that I was supposed to, somehow that would protect me….. but I’ve been working like crazy for 3-4 weeks. I’m tired, I need rest…. but my failure makes me beat myself up and feel self destructive.

I’m alone. My fiance went to bed, I missed the one hour that I can see her out of the last 24 because I was pushing this stupid deadline, that I couldn’t meet. I’m debating how bad I feel. I know whomever I talk to is going to tell …

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Old Habits..

  March 1st, 2019 by Dreary-elf

Its been 3 years since I last self harmed..
Honestly there’s just so much going through my head and I feel like killing myself is the best option.
I’ve been acting differently and putting a façade and it’s embarssing.
I hate this nasty feeling I have right now.

-signing off-

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This meant something to me

  March 1st, 2019 by heartlessviking

I don’t know that I’ve heard a story like this. People talk about their attempts, but usually it is in the immediate past and they are still wondering if they chose right, if they should still be here. Kind of like me. But here is a guy that I have to respect the bravery of:

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drugs/supplements

  March 1st, 2019 by Hope Dream Love

this may just be me but i have my doubts. wouldn’t it be awesome if they could somehow put all the medication into one. that way you arent looking at your medicine cabinet like “i need this for that and that for this” and as you count how many you need for how many problems you have you wont become depressed realizing just how much is wrong. instead all you have to count is 1. yes there are problems with that like the trail and error of finding what works so of course youd have to go through that before you can have only one …

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One step forward, Two steps back

  March 1st, 2019 by They Call Me Amy

Hi everyone, serious question. Do you guys feel like when you are finally getting back on track, something happens so you go back to the place you started?

This keep happening to me, so I would like to know if you guys go through this and what do you do to keep moving forward, because I am seriously almost giving up

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Can someone help?

  March 1st, 2019 by BabyBlu

Maybe I’m just a petty *****, but I’m starting to run out of things that I truly can’t live out without. Family is something I can do without most days, as it feels like they just press me and nag me to do things that I don’t want to do anymore. Then the guilt of thinking such things presses me even more than they ever could. Friends? Once again, take them or leave them. I yearn for real conversation, but I also can’t do it. I drop hints, then lie about being fine. It’s a mess, but then again I’m here. The only real things …

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Thinking

  February 28th, 2019 by velveteennightingale

How do you know if you’re bisexual?

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Janet

  February 28th, 2019 by Once

My job brings me into close contact with people with various illnesses and physical challenges. It’s interesting for me to interact with people both older and younger than me who are dealing with situations that I cannot imagine dealing with. You can learn a lot about a person’s character when you spend time with someone who is living a life of tremendous difficulty, brought about by physical trauma or disease.

This is not a passing of judgment on Janet. I met her for the first time today and spent about 45 minutes with her. She is missing a …

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no reason for what is too much and what isn’t….

  February 28th, 2019 by heartlessviking

Last night I cried for a long time, over issues within my career, issues in my community. In the light of day today they didn’t seem worth crying over. This last few months have been a bunch of me sitting on the edge of the cliff of falling apart, looking down and wondering if I’m going to fall.

Then today happened. I had some really big personal rough news. News that I didn’t want to hear, and that news came right in the middle of me doing a timed, essential and unavoidable project. I just sailed right through it.

Which is what is so wacky about the …

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Does being depressed about a stalling business count?

  February 28th, 2019 by huhwha

Hi everyone,

 

I don’t know how this question fits because I cannot find anything online that correlates depression with starting a business.

Basically I’m starting up my own business because I’m so tired of taking crap and abuse from employers and co-workers in my life. I’ve done it for too long and am trying to find my own way out. I’d like to think I’m actually providing something of value besides just hating taking orders.

So I guess so far it’s been okay but a very slow start still.

I wont have funds forever and I see myself becoming less and less employable. Time does not really seem to …

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