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HoWell

August 12th, 2017by LittleBead

My arms hurt from dragging the two pieces of luggage, my head hurts from the heat and being awake for such a long time. Now, let’s calculate. 2 hours on the train in Italy (because it was late), then the urban train that took way too long to arrive at the airport station, 30 minutes shall we count for that. Now, 1.5 hour of being sweetly unaware that the plane was going to be late by 5 hours. Add +2 hours for the flight. Mhm, let’s continue… then, at the airport in Poland, approximately 1 hour of waiting for the baggage to arrive… 30 minutes inside …

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Ascend if u may

August 12th, 2017by Progenitor

Every where I go, it is always crawling with those horrible monsters. I absolutely detest those disgusting monsters called human that reside on this planet.

I despise my incompetence. Why am I so incompetent. Why am I like all those failures. No matter how hard I try, there are most things I can never, ever achieve. Oh the misery. So in the end, I too can never ascend above it all. I can never escape my own demise. Oh fie, oh fie.

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Still here….

August 12th, 2017by ladolcemorte

On Wednesday I was in the process of getting everything ready to execute my plan.  I was going to do it…100 percent committed….

Then, my dearest friend (my “second dad”) called, and I answered.  He could hear in my voice that something was off, and he figured it out and asked directly whether I was going to kill myself.  I paused, and he said “you are, aren’t you?”.  Then I had a bit of a breakdown with him over the phone.   He was about to call the police, but ended up calling another friend who took me to the hospital.

Thankfully I was only there two nights.  Somehow …

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PX-Battle-Manual-Bot

August 12th, 2017by Bisban

At this point we’re like, whoa hold-on a second. From all this invigoration transcended. After the last, nullifying magical scheme, which took our grasp for a second or two. Our obscure tank were able to hold against theirs. “Sigilyph, you know what move shall I do next, don’t you.” He said, and I did. Such just was the archetype. I said fine, and voiced back for the retreat. Three and o’. Here, in the Dugtrio’s valley.

Whimsically from the horizon, the Pidgeotto arrived tied with a rope ended loop, right unto for the designated destination. The Muk slimed on, and up it went carried away. The …

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When nothing makes sense…

August 12th, 2017by PrismaticGreyZone

Thoughts become things. (<— LINK)

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August 12th, 2017by Bisban

I suppose what the question may be is … hey, what’s going on? And, how you’re doing. o_0
The next question would be, may we someway evolve.
Could clairvoyance wrap into a hole, clean and classified.
In this living life, clamp I wrote a chronicle
Chronometer, is we the people
Claustrophobia, is a little bit for me
The world may now afford, civil liberty
Is this what the realms been working on so hard for
In this age of complexion
The claw clasping into the clay and cleanly
Cleansing, rectification, pilgrimage.
grasping clandestine

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Saying goodbye after they are gone

August 12th, 2017by heartlessviking

My cat died.

He’d been having seizures for a few months, and apparently he died mid seizure in the night. I cried more than I have in a long time. I tried to be strong, remember how much my cat meant to me. We buried him in my in law’s yard (we can’t do it where I live).

Now there is just a hole that my sweet cat left behind. The other animals don’t understand that I really need them to step up. I don’t want to replace him, I just…. I want him back. He’s not coming back though. I’m sleeping a lot right now, while …

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Cold

August 11th, 2017by Casino96

My parents got into a huge fight, and now what seemed like a marriage repairing itself is a few days from dissolving. I almost relapsed into cutting and don’t know how long I can hold off. I called w friend just to help me keep my mind on something and told him what happened. We talked for an hour or so, and by the time I hung up I was able to go back to bed. Not sleep, but to bed. When talking to my friend I couldn’t help but realize how distant I am from everyone. And how alone I’ve been, and make myself.

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hmmm

August 11th, 2017by spectralgiraffe

My neighbour died a couple of months ago. Kinda jealous. I’m sorry that she died though. I don’t really wanna die either… but she died of old age… So yeah… While her family would be sad and grieving, they wont be living with guilt or blaming each other. I think an accident would be the way to go for me… altho, that would be unlikely. I mean lots of people die in accidents every day, not all of them actually wanted to die, but it happened… Babbling

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NEED SERIOUS HELP

NEED SERIOUS HELP

August 11th, 2017by MissSweetLand

I need someone with to talk about our problems. I’m a chronic Suicidal now. I’m 20 years old and I’m a girl. My first attempt to suicide was when I was 13 years old. I’m on psychiatric treatment since I was 15 years old. I was bullied, raped, humiliated and I didn’t want to live anymore. I’ve been trough hard situations and all I’ve always tried to do is kill myself, but my family know about my problems and someone is always looking at me so I couldn’t do anything else than being in coma for an overdose of pills. Please comment below if you …

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Phœnix

August 11th, 2017by Atintofgreen

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August 11th, 2017by yellow12

I just discovered this site yesterday and this is my first post. I figured it would help me to just write everything down even if nobody sees it because I don’t have anybody that I can talk to.

I am 22 years old and have been suicidal off and on since I was about six years old. Here lately I’ve been going through a very dark stage. For me depression is alot like a pit that you want to crawl into but shouldn’t. Once you crawl in and embrace the depression it’s very difficult to get out. Since I was a kid I’ve been around abuse my mothers second …

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Deceit

August 11th, 2017by Randall

I heard this talk by Jordan Peterson yesterday and it struck a major chord. Got me thinking…ya..I’d sooner deal with cancer and death.

“The people I have seen have been hurt mostly by deceit and that’s worth thinking about. You get walloped by life and there’s no doubt about that. For a long time I thought that maybe people can handle earthquakes, cancer and death, maybe, but they can’t handle betrayal and they can’t handle deception and they can’t handle having the rug pulled out from underneath them by people they love and trust. That just does them in. It makes them ill. It hurt them …

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Origami

August 11th, 2017by muspelhem

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August 11th, 2017by waitingformyalaska

Kat/ Whiskered-fish, can you please talk to me.

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August 11th, 2017by DeathIsInevitable

Have you ever sat back and tried to figure out what started your depression? Like, what made me get to the point that harming myself is my only release ? Maybe it was my dad dying when I was a baby (daddy issues) ? But plenty of others have never known their dad and are perfectly fine….. Maybe it was the boy who took advantage of me in 1st grade & stole my innocence ? This seems like the winner, but I remember being so sad before this even happened…. Maybe it’s the way my mother has treated me ? That has to be it. …

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It’s not that I can’t. I just don’t want to

August 11th, 2017by Kairi Mitzou

It’s 3 in the morning again.. and I’m staring into nothing.. my legs are restless. I slept the night before and most of the day. Now I won’t sleep. My head is buzzing around with terrible thoughts. My chest feels heavy and sick. It aches with pain. Every time I think of something that infuriates me my lower abdomen seems to tingle warmly. I can feel the furrow in my forehead tight. I can’t even cry.

My sister finally moved out this past weekend. My mom’s favorite. There has been no rush moving my things in. I do …

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Dealing with the shadows and disappearing car keys

August 11th, 2017by sadface2744

Today I was ready to have words with everyone I’ve been in an invisible conflict with… people from my past … I’ve always been a conflict avoider… (thus the term invisible conflict). But now I can barely get out of bed most mornings and I’m unproductive …too much going on In my head…conversations I’d wish I’d had the courage to have… or a response to an accusation. Now it’s swirling around in my head …wrecking havoc on my ability to concentrate …causing me to feel hopeless too much of the time.  I was ready to shut down the haters gossips and peddlers and face those …

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2 AM whining

August 11th, 2017by whiskered-fish

I’m still pursuing recovery, but I’ve realized that it’s hard to pursue recovery when you feel like no one loves you. Why bother fixing myself if I’m all alone in this world?

I know, I know. There are definitely people out there who DO love me. I know this logically, I know it with my head, but my heart must not have gotten the memo, because it has no idea. What I know doesn’t line up with what I feel, and I wish I knew how to fix it.

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It doesn’t get better, just different.

August 10th, 2017by Piratemermaid

I could say some bullshit about all the things that caused me to be depressed, but they won’t actually be what caused me to be like this. A lot of people have gone through my situation and been just fine, in fact my situation is probably really easy. I take full responsibility for being the way I am. I’m just not strong enough, not resilient. Maybe too gullible.

My parents divorced when I was five, it would have been worse if they had stayed together. Dad was an alcoholic and Mom was taking care of him more than she needed to be. There was that small …

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