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Yes, dumbass Americans really really do want war with Iran to bring about Armageddon I order to bring Jesus back.
Another reason why I have zero hope in Americans/humanity.
Another reason I want nothing to do with most Americans.
Another reason why Iâm hopelessly depressed.
When you are surrounded by idiots and jackals, you can do nothing but hide away in a cave.
I feel like I’m a loser at my middle-age now. I’ve basically failed in almost everything. But, people might look at me from the outside, on the surface level, and think that I’m fine/okay. Nobody knows the real truth, or the true reality of my situation. Mostly, I do think it’s all my faults. Especially maybe because I think way too differently from most ‘normal’ people. Honestly, I feel like an alien who just don’t belong in this world. I can’t relate to most people, and even humans at large. I feel so alone in all my ‘weird’ thoughts & feelings. Sadly, at my middle […]
Why are people, and by that I mean Americans specifically, so heartless?
There’s a reason why SO many people wind up as alcoholics, drug addicts, porn stars, strippers, etc. Most of these ppl grew up with no parents or abusive parents, were SAed or raped, or grew up in poverty. Most of these ppl had little to no chance at a normal or fair life. Yet the world CRUCIFIES them.
It’s not like they grew up and become serial killers. But even then, serial killers are made not born (very few are born evil, the vast majority are made evil by […]
Every action is starting to make me sick. I can’t stand anything. I can’t stand walking into that place. I can’t stand sitting there. I can’t stand trying to apply for jobs. I can’t stand thinking about PhD programs. I can’t stand playing magic. I can’t stand any of it. My sleep is restless but I’m acclimating. Through the course of the day I slowly began to calm down. I stopped thinking about it as much. But that lingering hatred was still there. In the back of my mind. Where did this […]
Hey, I haven’t been here in like a while, I keep thinking maybe eventually I will grow and the feeling will go but I have now officially lived 25 years and the feeling remains. It feels hypocritical of me to still be here when I’ve been feeling it for so long.
I was gonna wait a month more (didn’t wanna be the monster who did it so close to their birthday), cleaned up around me, finished some projects at work, chose the notebook and all, many loose ends you know, then now ww3 seems to be right here đ
I’m in the midst of […]
So I just got a notice today that Yahoo Mail is cutting their mailbox storage to 20GB, down from 1TB free. That by itself isn’t the end of the world, and I”m not singularly mad at Yahoo- but it’s a drop in the bucket of things EVERY giant effing company is doing to us. Since COVID, EVERYTHING has been cut, while costs have risen. From groceries to deliveries to dollar stores no longer being a dollar- EVERY GODDAMN THING has skyrocketed in costs and reduced in services or size.
A single big mac is now $7.61 with taxes here. I […]
Has anyone written a will? Whether it’s a formal legal document or just a scrap of paper listing who gets what?
And 2nd question, what if you don’t have anyone to give your stuff to, or more to the point, don’t know anyone who deserves it?
My answer to the 1st question is no, and that’s largely because of question 2, got no one to give it to. So I haven’t bothered.
But at the same time, even though I’m not worth shit alive, I know I’m worth a stack dead. That is, if anyone was smart enough to connect the dots and realize all my holdings and […]
Has Anyone Used Any Depression Apps That Were Helpful?
-Name of app and how did it help?
Or am I to assume that whatever is out there is just as useless as the avg/shitty therapists and psychiatrists?
-ability to read someone and know if theyâre lying, gaslighting or bullshitting you?
-ability to be an amazing singer/dancer/drawer/painter/writer/footballer/fighter/etc?
-ability to be the best liar/bullshitter and get away with it?
-ability to be super charming and charismatic?
-be like Cesar Milan and be a pet whisperer?
-be super attractive/hot ?
-be a super popular YouTuber/social media person?
-CEO of a company?
-Or Insert Other TalentsâŠ
I feel like I’m reaching a breaking point. I don’t know how much longer I can hold on. There is something different about this low. Something very very different. Different than the time I failed my internships. Different than the time I failed my capstone or thesis. Different than failing to get into a PhD program or getting hired. But all of that contributed to this. And I think I figured it out. That was anticipatory dread. This is the follow through. This is the result of all my failings. What I was […]
So glad I spent the last few evenings reviewing solution-based therapists who specialize in my areas of difficulty only to find the copays prevent me from getting help to navigate this journey.
Unbelievable.
What do I do now that I have not tried before? What else is there?
There isnât anything that brings me joy. Life is full of bs and hardships. And the rich and corrupt will never face any consequences. While the poor suffer and suffer.
Just look at fucking Epstein and Ghislaine Maxwell- she hired a body double (the one in jail doesnât even fucking look like her!) and Epstein was never dead. His corpse has testicles which Epstein did not have – he had them removed. Not a SINGLE arrest of any of these Pedo AHs- only âresignationsâ which comes with a golden parachute of pay and benefits. Like WTF.
The only thing that makes feel just a […]
They’re either depressed/abused/SAed/etc OR they’re psychopathic/sociopathic. The ones that are broken seem human- real- and abused. But then there’s the other portion who are more the Erika Kirk types- psychopathic, attention seekers, social climbers. THEY are the ones who are living happy grand lives. While the good ones are broken. Why are the good ones always broken? Always the abused ones?
Another story of a beautiful woman who has been abused/gaslit/depressed/lonely/feel insecure/etc. Even though on the outside, she was so beautiful and successful. One of the biggest stars back in the 90s.
Christina Applegate:
Experiencing doubt and anxiety with a dash of fatalism regarding recent developments.
It is foreseeable to continue through the next few months, but the thyroid script will run out and I will have no option but to take the lower dosage and then yet another stepped down dosage.
One step down in dosage results in a serious depressive state with suicidal ideology. It is impossible for me to conceive that I will be able to survive a second step down dose which is exactly what will happen.
Undoubtedly they will fail to see the redux in Levoxyl as the causative factor and will want to put […]
What is there to live for when life is completely rigged against us?
The rich always get richer, the middle class gets poorer, and the poor stay poor.
Rules, laws, everything- is designed to keep the masses sick, poor and enslaved.
If you are the top 20% of ppl, then you live great or pretty good lives (income >100K).
But for the rest of us- the bottom 80%, and especially the bottom 50% (ie HALF of us)- living paycheck to paycheck or close to (bottom 70%- ie a small disaster can know knock us out)- life is shit.
Just WTF is there to live for […]
Yes, it seems everyone in power is a PEDO.
Yes, it seems everyone in power is EVIL.
Pedos in music industry too, not just in Hollywood. Not just in fashion industry. They’re everywhere where there’s beautiful people. And don’t forget the Catholic Church- the ORIGINAL Pedos. I’m sure all the other religions are the same- the ppl in power are always the most rotten and evil, despite it being all about love and kindness and forgiveness. Hm…makes you wonder WHY they always harp on “forgiveness” eh?…
There’s speculation that they killed Chester Bennington (the lead singer for Linkin Park) bc he […]
The Bible says the second time that God smites the Earth it will be done by fire. So I take that to mean that during WWIII someone nukes Israel and they invoke the Samson option and nuke everyone else. I must say, it WOULD indeed be ideal indeed to regard this prophecy as the ramblings of a madman like our Deist founding fathers did and avert such an outcome. However I must admit I would feel some modicum of relief
Half way there. Keeping track is quickly becoming meaningless. We all know how this ends. Another horrible week. More stupid bullshit I had to deal with at work. More rejections from engineering companies. More restless nights. It’s not going to end any time soon.
Friday was particular miserable. Got a rejection email like I predicted from that AMR company. At least they made their decision fast. Something about seeing the email though really pushed something inside me. Just pure hatred and fury. About everything in this situation. I wanted to crash […]
You have to pick one, that’s kinda the law of life unless you hit the lottery.
I pick alone. Don’t even have to think about it, this is where life has led me whether by choice or unconscious direction. It may not be the best path but it’s what I pick.
Let’s analyze the choices. Alone is, well, alone. Nuff said
Surrounded by people who don’t care is probably what most people experience and choose. Loveless relationships, casual friends who disappear like the weather, jobs with coworkers who don’t care about us any more than we care about them. Cities of anonymous little dots. This, I’d say is […]
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